:) You're mad jealous.

I'm sorry about the last chapter, and how short it was, but if I had added that part to a chapter, then the chapter would have been almost ten pages long before I could find a good place to stop it. Sorry…

It also made me feel powerful.

So yeah, here's another chapter. Not too long, not too short. The next chapter is gonna be realllllly long, cause otherwise I'd be like, cutting it off in the middle of a sentence.

I might be barred from the Regents (a NY state test) because I beat the shit out of some girl who was annoying me.

I didn't even do it on school property!

Tell me how that's right. It's not. So you know what NY? You can suck my big fat nonexistent dick ASSHOLES.

My teacher is mad chill though so she's arguing for me to be able to take it. It was the one test I actually studied for too. So yeah….

That's my life.

Me: Was that a flame or not? And I update when I do. Get over it, and don't curse at me.

There's Beauty in the Breakdown

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The second time that Akito woke he was more aware. It came to him in a rush that it was not normal to be hugging a thing. He opened his eyes and blinked them a few times to clear his vision. He looked at the thing, and then blinked. He looked again. It was the girl, lying on him and cuddling up to his chest. They were lying on his bedspread on the floor in the middle of his room. He looked up at the sound of his door opening, and watched Hatori's face go from vacant to almost horrified. Hatori strode over to them quickly.

"Akito-sama…?" he half whispered.

Akito looked at him blankly "I…don't know."

Hatori bent down and put one arm around Mahiru's shoulders, and the other under her knees, and began lifting her off the God.

"Leave her." Akito hissed at the doctor. Hatori's eyes widened, but he complied, and he set Mahiru down again, and back into Akito's arms. The God turned his head away from the doctor "Get me something to drink."

"Y…yes Akito-sama."

As soon as Hatori was out of sight, Akito began to play with Mahiru's hair, running it through his fingers. He brought it up to his nose and breathed in deeply. It smelled good. The girl twitched in her sleep, rolling over slightly so that she was facing him, her cheek on his chest. She moved the rest of her body with her, going up onto her side so that his arms were draped around her waist. She made a small sound, and then relaxed onto him. Akito almost smiled.

Hatori returned with two glasses of orange juice, and tried not to be visually shocked again as he entered the room. Mahiru had shifted positions slightly, so that she was facing Akito on her side, and he was stroking her hair, which was spread out along his chest and shoulders. He carefully walked over to them and set the juice on the floor. "Is there anything else I can do?"

Akito silently shook his head, engrossed in the girl's hair. Hatori took that as his dismissal and left.

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Mahiru yawned slightly. She was trying to hold on to the last shreds of sleep, and so far, she was failing. She snuggled closer to her pillow, nuzzling it. It smelled weird, like perspiration and rubbing alcohol…

She ignored it.

Then, she noticed that her pillow was moving up and down. She tried to time her breathing with it, but it wasn't coming regularly, instead it was in jerking up and down jaggedly.

Then she heard a cough.

Mahiru forced her eyes open to Akito coughing into his hand, the other hand clenching into a fist in her hair, tugging on it.

"Ow…" she whined. He turned to her, his eyes going wide that she was awake before he shuddered, coughing again, and squeezing his eyes shut. Mahiru pried his hand out of her hair and sat up. 'Omigosh… I was sleeping on his chest!' She scooted farther away from him. He finished coughing and gazed levelly at her.

"Do you want to explain last night?"

Mahiru almost blushed, but took a few deep breaths and kept the color from rising to her face. "Well, you had a very high fever, and the nurses were… not cooperating… so I volunteered to take care of you, because you were so sick," she added the last part hastily "but your bed was soaking cause you were sweating, so I made this, and helped you get over here, and you fell asleep, but I was really tired, and didn't want to leave you here by yourself, because you were so sick," she added again, the blush fighting its way up "and…I guess I fell asleep. I'm really sorry!"

Akito's gaze faltered a bit. She had stayed with him simply because of his illness. Anger slowly began building up, but the tides broke as the full disappointment of her statement made its way through to him; 'because you were so sick.' "What gave you the right!" he hissed at himself. He then jerked, realizing he had said it aloud.

"I…I sincerely apologize. I didn't mean to." Mahiru hung her head. 'Stupid, stupid! What was I expecting? A vow of everlasting love and gratitude because I stayed with him when he was sick? Why did I even say that! I didn't just stay with him because he was sick… but I can't tell him that. Stupid!'

'She thinks I was talking to her' Akito realized. He could use that… "What gave you the right!" he repeated "I am GOD! You worship me… obey me…" he couldn't bring himself to say 'love me'. "You do not TOUCH ME…"

Mahiru couldn't help it. She started to cry, slowly at first, but then the tears leaked out of her eyes in huge rivers, splashing onto her knees and the bedclothes, her hands fisting on her knees.

Akito watched her cry, knowing he should feel triumphant and accomplished at her tears, as he always did, but he didn't… instead he felt an emotion he couldn't put a name to. One he only felt when his mother came to 'visit' him when he was sick. A sort of tightening in his stomach, and lightheadedness…

He had heard the Jyunnishi talk about this feeling. Shame.

"Get out." Akito dropped his head so that he didn't have to look at her. The girl jumped up and ran, knocking over the juice. Akito sighed and rolled over. The bed spread smelled like her. He slowly stood and went outside. He sat against the wall and looked out over his garden. The sun was shining, casting a golden glow over the plants, spring finally thawing everything.

Well, not everything.

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Mm… peanut butter.

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She really pisses me off.

Why am I telling you this? You don't care. Or know her.

Oh well.