Please Don't Tell Her

Summary: What if, instead of Lorelai seeking comfort from Chris, Luke is the one who goes to find comfort, and then tries to make it right.

Disclaimer: I own nothing, except my pretty new computer, and that isn't fully paid for yet, so in fact I own nothing.

Rating: Teen.

Luke watched the women be pushed down the corridor and he didn't know if he wanted it to be Anna. That would be too convenient. Too soap opera for him. Lorelai sensed his discomfort and walked up silently behind the women on the gurney and there was Anna.

She looked sick and pale and her eyes were closed. 'Anna?' Lorelei whispered and there was no response. 'Luke!' Lorelai yelled and Luke was there in an instant. There she was. The woman, who had caused so much turmoil in his life as of late, was suddenly there. Just like when she had appeared with his child!

The nurse who was checking her vitals looked up to see two very interested people in her patient. A patient with no name or family. 'The doctor just wants more x rays.' She explained kindly and Luke looked down at Anna once more. 'She is the mother of my daughter, do you think you could tell me when the doctor is around.'

Luke and Lorelai sat down quietly and just stared out, with two different strains of thought. Lorelai was now convinced that he didn't need her anymore, and that once Anna woke up, it would be about them. She questioned whether Luke even wanted to be with her anymore. While Luke worried if Anna had actually hurt their daughter.

It was a very long ten hours until they found out what was wrong with Anna. She had substantial cranial damage the doctor said. They didn't know if she was going to wake up, and if she did, they couldn't guarantee that she wouldn't suffer from residual damage from her injuries. Luke had begun to wonder what would happen to April.

Lorelai had sat alone in the waiting room, a place she had become very familiar with in the last week. She knew each knick in the wall, what each chair felt like after hours of just sitting, and what each tile in the room felt underneath her feet. She was tired and exhausted and numb. She had been there with Luke ever since April woke up and hadn't slept in awhile. In fact she didn't even know what day it was, and she decided that since he knew where Anna was, and April was awake, she didn't need to be here again.

So she went to Luke who was staring out of the window that looked out on the courtyard of the hospital. 'Luke?' Lorelai whispered and it brought Luke out of his daydreams. He smiled at her and took her hand and it caused a flip of her stomach. 'I think I am going to go.' She said and he nodded.

'Thanks for everything, you.. You are the best kind..' Luke stumbled and she tried to smile. 'Tell April I said Goodbye.' She said wobbly and he nodded. And then it hit him. It felt like Lorelai was saying goodbye. 'I will see you soon right?' he asked and she shrugged.

'I was thinking about going somewhere with Rory. She wants to go visit Logan in London, maybe I will go and sightsee for awhile, maybe see the queen.' She said and shrugged and Luke suddenly grabbed her arm. Not in a violent gesture but he pulled her to him and he hugged her. 'Don't go.' He whispered in her hair and she almost didn't.

'You have Anna and April, and you don't need me to be anymore. I think we need to stop fooling ourselves.' She said and he nodded. 'I love you.' He said and she shook her head. 'Why does that feel like a weapon?' Lorelai whispered and she glared at Luke.

'I haven't forgotten what you did Luke. You asked me to be here and I was and now I need to go away. To figure out if I can look at you and not feel some semblance of pain. You should give me that.' She said and she separated herself. She didn't listen to his yells for them to talk things through; she didn't wait while he kept calling her name.

She sat in her car with the key in the ignition and she willed her body to start the car. She wanted to be away from the hospital, and the pain and the uncertainly that seemed to wrap itself around the hospital. But she thought of April, and she just couldn't abandon the kid.

She was so deep in thought that she didn't hear someone tap her window. She looked up and there was Jess Mariano. Writer extraodnaire, and the current wooer of her daughter.

Jess had been pretty much there for most of the time Luke was there. He sat with April, and read to her when she was unconscious and made her laugh when she was awake. He had changed beyond recognition, and Lorelai suddenly wished that he was dating her daughter.

'You heading out?' Jess asked after she had unzipped her window. 'Just trying to figure out what to do.' She said honestly and he chuckled. 'I do that every time I reach Stars hallows welcome sign.' He quirked a grin, which made her smile a little. 'I can't just act like it didn't happen.' Lorelai told him and not caring whether he had a clue on what she was referring to.

'I would imagine, he thinks it's working.' Jess said and Lorelai opened the door. 'I can't leave without saying something to April.' Lorelai said and Jess nodded. 'I'll walk you.' He said and she smiled at him. He led her the entire way, and she had to smile. She would definitely have to tell Rory about how much he had changed.

No one was in the hallway and she was grateful that she wouldn't be forced to see Luke so soon after her walking away from him. April was awake and reading a science magazine Jess had bought her earlier.

'Hey Kiddo.' Lorelei said, trying to be as cheery as she could. April looked still too small to be in that big hospital bed. April smiled at her and put down the magazine. 'Did you hear that they found my mom?' April asked innocently. April had no idea just how much Anna's reappearance had hurt Lorelei. Even if it wasn't intentional.

'I know kid, I tell ya, hospitals'. She said and April smiled. She saw Lorelai's coat. 'Your not going are you?' April asked and it broke Lorelai's heart. 'Yeah, you have your mom back and I need to go away for a little while.' She tried to explain.

April just looked at the Lorelei and couldn't understand why she was suddenly going somewhere. Lorelai had been there for her since she woke up, and she was the one who listened to her and told her jokes and made her feel better. Lorelai was perfect for her father; to finally make the slightly sad man, smile.

'Why?' April asked simply and it made Lorelai pause. What do you tell a 13 yr old? That her father and her mother slept together, and by doing that obliterated Lorelai' entire life? Or did she say that she just needed time, or some previous engagement.

'I think your dad and your mom and you all need time together, and I have to go help my daughter out.' Lorelai said instead. April nodded but the room was really quiet. Jess was somewhere distracting Luke, and she wished he would come back and ruin this moment.

'Right, your daughter.' April said and suddenly Lorelai wished even for the slightest moment, that April were hers. By looks it wouldn't be so preposterous. April had the wild black/brown hair that both parents seemed to have, and just by chance Lorelai had. The blue eyes were there too, and the quick wit that seemed to be a god given Gilmore trait.

But it didn't matter how much April looked like her, or even began to act like her. She wasn't her daughter, and with Luke's action, she would never ever get to have any claim on her whatsoever.

'April, you need time to heal and it's a great way to bond with your dad. Don't forget to scare him a little, talk about Freddie. Get well Kid.' Lorelai said and she caressed April's cheek. April suddenly had a quick frown on her forehead.

Lorelai was almost out of the door when April spoke next. 'Lorelai, why would my mom want to hurt me?' She asked and that made Lorelei pause. 'I think she hurt me.' April said that made Lorelai forget about her mission to leave before Luke found her.

'What?' Lorelai said and she was instantly by the bed again. 'I remember my mom yelling, and then she was leaving. She was acting crazy and she was dragging me behind. And then I pulled away I think, and I was behind the car and then I don't remember anything else. But I think she, she did this to me.' April's blue eyes began to water, and at that moment, Lorelai realized that April had her father's eyes. Those damn deep blue eyes that called out to her.

'Are you sure?' Lorelai asked, and April was silent for a few minutes, but she nodded. 'Why would she do that?' she asked, and Lorelai gently held the sobbing girl. 'I don't know kid, I have no idea.'

Luke knew the minute Lorelai was back in the hospital. Some men had a sixth sense for danger, Lorelai's was for snow, and for Luke Danes it was for Lorelai. He just knew that she was there, and he had to find him. When Jess was there, he knew that something was fishy.

'Hey Uncle Luke.' Jess had said and he knew that something is going on. Jess just gives Luke a look. 'She is in the hospital somewhere isn't she?' Luke asked and Jess just looked at him. Luke moved to go look for her, Jess put up his hand. 'I promised her that I would let her say goodbye to April without you there.'

Luke is silent. ' Please I just need to say one more thing to her.' He says and he can't believe he had to plead with his nephew to see his fiancée.

Jess moves aside and Luke is off like a shot, and heads directly to his daughter's hospital room. He overheard April's confession and saw Lorelai comfort his daughter, and in that moment, he swore he would fix what he broke. Even if he had to beg, he would have his family back.

TBC

Ok it's short, but I am supposed to be 'awake.' In exactly 9 minutes, and we are leaving oxford and glorious wifi. So i thought hey at least I updated. Do you still like this story? It's JJ insured I swear. Hehe

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