Please Don't Tell Her

Summary: What if, instead of Lorelai seeking comfort from Chris, Luke is the one who goes to find comfort, and then tries to make it right.

Disclaimer: I own nothing, except my pretty new computer, and that isn't fully paid for yet, so in fact I own nothing.

Rating: Teen.

Authors Note: Well it's so far from late that it's not even funny. But this chapter went a long better than the last. Thanks Chuzzle for that. Hope you guys like it. Next part is probably the end, but we shall see how my muse is behaving, or into the dungeon she goes.

Life seemed to move on, just like it always does, and soon the pain of what happened seemed to fade just like the hours in a day. April had come to live with Luke, and he had been looking for a house or something.

Lorelai hadn't forgiven Luke, but she had to make a decision on whether she wanted to live her life without him. She was prepared to make him realize how much pain she was in and that it just didn't go away because of Anna's accident, but she couldn't imagine her life without him.

She really tried, but all she saw was endless darkness. It sounds melodramatic but it was the truth. She didn't remember her life without him. Or if she did, that was when everything was laughable.

Luke had managed to wiggle his way in her life so much that she didn't know where he stopped and she began. And so it was time. She was tired of avoiding things, and waiting for him to make a move. He let eight years slip by before he said anything to her about his feelings.

Jess and Rory all the while made an effort to be the most functioning of who was involved. Jess spent most of his time traveling between Philadelphia and New Haven. Rory had no idea how she got to the point where the most reliable person in her life at the moment was Jess. He had been there instantly after getting the call about the accident, and he had been the one that had been there for everybody, and of course he was there for Rory.

Everyone knew their tragedies and their greatest moments. Most of the town had been around them, while they happened. Nothing was a secret in Stars Hallow, and nothing pleased most of the townspeople to see such a troubled man become happy and fulfilled, and help the town princess along the way.

Rory spent most of her free time with Jess and they happened to spend most of their time with Lorelai. Now with the drama had ended and things were supposed to go back to normal, but how could they? Jess sat with his girlfriend and her mother and they all acted normal. Even Paul Anka was in the game.

'See Jess there is something better than Willy Wonka. It's Seven Brides for Seven Brothers!' Lorelai chirped at him and he rolled his eyes. Rory had come up with the idea to distract Lorelai with a stupid movie fest. A full interactive classic musicals.

'I will give you a check for one hundred dollars, if you don't make me watch another movie.' Jess whined and both mother and daughter smiled. 'Nope.' They both exclaimed and continued to eat their tater tot entrée.

Jess continued to sit there by protest but had to smile within himself at the sight of his girlfriend with her mother. Sure they were weird, and quirky, but when they were like that, everything seemed to be ok.

Jess was surprised at how well either Lorelai was acting or feeling. He knew most of the details by now, and if the situation was reversed and it was him, in Lorelai's place, Jess didn't think he could do it. Look at the person in the eye and not do something drastic.

Instead Jess chose to forget about the Days of their weird lives and focus on something that seemed a little more less dramatic. Rory and Jess seemed to get through most of their issues effortlessly, and now it was just fun to be around each other.

They had done the real first date that he had been to stupid to iniate. They had talked about what had happened between them to death, and now there were no regrets to rehash once again.

When Lorelai had gone to bed and Rory had led Jess to bed he had to smile at her. 'We are never going to turn out like them?' Rory had asked him in bed. With her arms tight around him, almost anchoring him to the bed. 'God I hope not.'

They were both silent for a while. 'If you have any chance of a kid popping up, tell me as soon as you can?' Rory asked and Jess chuckled. 'Trust me on this Rory, there is no Aprils out there for me.' Rory shrugged. 'I want an April with you.' She whispered.

Jess smiled in the darkened room and thought on how lucky he was. 'You know sometime we should try to make plans for the future.' Jess said, and when he got no response he almost got worried, but then he heard a small very soft snore coming from his girlfriend and he gave up and closed his eyes.

Upstairs, Lorelai lay on her side staring at the wall, trying not to cry. It wasn't fair that she hadn't been the one to cheat, to betray and yet here she was being punished. She knew that in a perfect world she would hate Luke, burn everything he ever touched and walked away like Angela Bassett in Waiting to Exhale.

Instead she was an emotional mess with a problem. She now had to live a life full of loneliness and Luke free. Something she just couldn't do anymore. From the time she had come back after giving up on him, when Anna was still alive, and April was still healing in the hospital, she knew that something in her just couldn't let go. Rory and Jess alike had told her that she had to decide to be angry and there would be no Luke, or try to forgive and have Luke in her life, and frankly the latter sounded so much better to her than anything else.

She knew they had their problems, and of course the obvious being he cheated. He stepped out on her, he stained what they had into some ugly brown colour and they would never get that original colour back. It was futile and impossible, and frankly she didn't want to even try. She had seen too many breaks ups around her to know that.

In a perfect world, she wished she could just wish away everything that had happened. Wished her impatience away and his stupid obvious mistake away. Or she could just wish away everything that had happened. That Luke never bought that damn self-help book. She would be ignorant at least of his feelings, but deep in her heart she knew that it wouldn't take her hurt away.

She never wanted to be the weak women. She wanted to set a good example for her daughter but all she wanted, her body, heart, soul, mind, everything, wanted to be with Luke again.

But a simple song by the Stones gave her the answer. You can't always get what you want.

Instead she finally fell asleep and rather than let her rest for even a second, her mind and subconscious decided to torture her. She saw scenes of the future she would never have, and the past that caused the foundation of her heartache.

'Lorelai wake up.' A voice called to her and when she opened up one eye she saw Luke smiling down at her. 'He needs you.' Luke says and Lorelai simply smiles. 'No, Ben needs his daddy, while his mommy sleeps.' She closes her eyes and she feels Luke put their squirming son next to her. 'Your evil.' She yells and looks to see her son gurgling happily at her and she smiles and bends down to pick him up. 'Your lucky you have your dad's looks, or you and me kid, would have problems.' As she says this she smiles at her beautiful son and kisses his cheek.

Lorelei gasps and wakes up and sees that she is cradling a pillow where her son used to be. It was so real, and she flips on her stomach and squeezes her eyes shut from how hollow she felt. It was just a stupid dream she told herself.

Feeling like she was restless in her own skin, she put on shoes and rushed out of the door, still clad in her sponge bob pajamas. She walked around the block until her heart stopped beating madly. That took about two hours. She then decided to walk until she stopped seeing the dream, and that took another two hours and where she ended up,

She looked up at the building that held her touchstone for years, and now it looked different. Smaller, or perhaps it had changed without her knowing it.

She doesn't know how long she stares at the building and focusing on Luke. He was inside probably asleep with his daughter. A little family that Lorelai wished she was apart of. The sky was beginning to pink-en and she should really try to fall asleep again. Her dream was almost gone and she was bone tired.

She walked home and she slipped unnoticed into the house and shuffled upstairs and eased herself on the mattress. She closed her eyes and soon she was asleep again.

Lorelai looked around and she had to smile. Luke had shut the diner early that night, and they were going to have a romantic night. It was their fourth anniversary, and usually they didn't really celebrate anniversaries but Luke had decided that this one was important. There were candles, and no mention of code violations or hazards, and Luke was dressed in a suit. One of the suits, that Lorelai had gotten him years before. 'Can I have this dance?' Luke had asked and she smiled up at him and accepted. Her white silk dress was swirling around her legs, and Luke spun her.

Things started to darken, and she could hardly see Luke anymore, and that's when she heard her daughter's voice. 'Mom it's time. Don't you think it's time?'

Rory stood over her mother looking worried as usual, and saw her mother looking even more exhausted than yesterday. The adrenaline that had been pumping in all of their bodies for the last few weeks was totally gone, and it had left some casualties.

Rory was too busy being concerned about her mom, that she didn't notice the look on her mother's face. Lorelai had been visited by her own special spirits just like Ebenezer. Lorelai jumped up and shoved her feet in her slippers that resembled gorilla feet and she ran out of the door, leaving a confused Rory and a bemused Jess.

She concentrated on getting to Luke. She had made her decision. Sometime in the night, she had made the ultimate decision. To forgive or to be tortured by it forever.

She walked right up to Luke who was pouring coffee for Tom, and she pulled him behind the curtain. 'Lorelai.' Luke started but she pulled him upstairs. April was reading a book when her father and Lorelai came crashing into the small room but she smiled and jumped out of the way and scurried as fast as her healing body could scurry.

'I love you.' Lorelai started and Luke looked dumfounded. 'I love you too.' He said after trying to grasp what the hell was going on. 'I can't do it anymore Luke. I'm miserable, your miserable, and April is definitely miserable, can we have our middle again?' She asked him hopefully and he just smiled and kissed her.

Before he could she moved out of the way. 'This doesn't mean your forgiven Luke. I am still hurt and mad at you, we need to talk to a professional or something, but for now I want you in my life.' Luke just nodded dumbly.

'Deal or no deal Luke?' Lorelai said in her best Howie Mandel voice. Even in the most serious of situations, Lorelai was pretty quick with a pop culture reference.

'Alright, whatever you want.' Luke said and he kissed her and the force of it brought them down on the couch. She missed him so much that she didn't care if Taylor sold tickets to their reunion.

She was happy. Finally.

TBC