Chapter 8

"If somebody says, "I love you," to me, I feel as though I had a pistol pointed at my head. What can anybody reply under such conditions but that which the pistol-holder requires? "I love you, too." Kurt Vonnegut, Jr.

Gar looked out the window as he saw the giant T growing ever closer. "you live here." muttered Gar as the building grew closer. "yeah kind of like a fringe benefit of saving the city." said cyborg as he drove trough a underground tunnel to the innards to the tower. "whoa this place is huge." said Gar as he looked at a truck "who's truck is this?" asked Gar who was wanting a truck like this sense he could remember. "it's Beast Boy's" said Cyborg who was trying to play along with the delusion that was flowing through his 'younger brother's' mind. "oh," said Gar as he made his way to the elevator as his own curiosity nipped at him.

"wow, this place is huge," said Gar looking out the window at the city, Gar then noticed the Television "why would anyone want to have something that unnecessary?" "look some of us enjoy Television," said Matt looking at his cousin "besides what do you do for fun?" Gar looked at him "i read," said Gar bluntly "i was actually in the middle of a biography, about some guy named Dayton." the titans stood there as Gar as each word was proving them that they had the wrong guy, "oh, tell me how it ends, then." said Cy sighing as he turned on the Television hoping that would get him thinking about something else."

the next morning Gar woke up looking slightly scared as the thoughts of the last night reassured his mind that he wasn't in Smallville any more, he stepped into the hallway when he accidentally bumped into Starfire. "um, who are you?" he asked Star who looked at him, soon he would regret it as he was about to become a victim of a Tamerainien mood swing, "you blorkbag vinsglut," said Star punching him hard "how dare you, come back here without an apology for Raven," Gar lay there dazed as she made her way to the main room.

"Morning."said Star as she gave Robin a light kiss on the cheek. "morning," said Robin "guess what, we found Gar in Smallville, but he doesn't remember a thing." Star looked shocked, "he doesn't," said Star worried, causing Robin to sigh, "what happened." asked Robin "why does everything that happens here you have to know about," snapped Star as tears filled her eyes, Robin looked shocked, "um i don't know,"said Robin dumbfound "did something happen in the hallway?" "no," said Star who started to cry as she buried her head into his shoulder "do you think i am pretty." "of course Star," said Robin holding her as she cried,

Raven was walking to the main room when he found Gar laying in the hall "Gar," asked Raven are you alright," "oh my stomach, that orange skin girl can hit hard."said Gar as he slowly stood up "i am sorry if i did something wrong," Raven looked at him "you didn't do anything wrong at all."said Raven helping him up Gar sighed in relief. "that's good cause i kind of don't want anyone else mad at me," "no one is mad at you" said Raven "in fact i love you," as the words she subconsciously thought flew out of her mouth a look of worry and shock was seen on the Green teens eyes "i have to go," said Gar quickly leaving clutching his gut.

Cyborg had spent the day working on his car when someone came by to visit him, "hey you have a nice shop here." said Gar as he knocked on the door, "yeah i keep on upgrading it whenever i get the chance." said Cy "what brings you down?" "oh I'm kind of wondering about things around here, like that Raven person," said Gar looking around "did she really love Beast Boy?" Cy kind of thought about it for a bit "of course man but why are you talking to me about it?" Gar kind of sat there "i don't know, i just kind of thought you would listen to me," said Gar "it's sort of like were the same in a way. You know what i mean,"

Cy thought a bit "yeah, i kind of do," said Cy smiling, "can i ask you something?" "sure," said Gar with a smile "why don't you eat meat, i know that beast boy had a reason because he was the animals but what is your reason." said Cyborg as a look smiled a bit and said "i kind of don't know why but the religious reason seem to be enough for me right now and i find it morally and ethically wrong to eat any animals, fair enough reason," said Gar as and alarm went off causing Gar to go into a frantic search, "where are they?" "what are you looking for?" said Cy "maybe i can help you find them," "i am looking for my medication," said Gar, "my father told me i need them every so ofter or bad things will happen," Gar then found the bottle of unmarked pills and shakingly emptied two in to his hand unaware that one of them fell on the ground. A few minutes later Gar stood up and acted normal under his circumstances. "thanks for the talk man." said Gar nonchalantly as he left the garage. "no problem man," said Cy in above a whisper as he picked up the pill to analyze later.

Raven sighed as she stood looking out the window when Matt walked in, "hey Rachael what's wrong," asked Matt as he looked at her with concerned, "nothing," muttered Raven Matt shook his head "don't give me that tone or i declawed you." said Matt getting a shocked looked from Matt "sorry, it usually works with Beast Boy," Raven then started to cry, "what if he doesn't get his memory back," said Raven "he will eventually," said Matt "his mind might be a mess right now but his heart is still the same it beat for you and will die for you." "wow i never heard that before," said Raven "where is it from?" Matt laughed "his wedding vows, he wanted to express the way he felt i i kind of help him out with it," said Matt smiling "i am kind of a poet in ways."

Raven sighed looking at him, "what was he like as a kid?" Matt sighed and said "bleak, but he hid it well." said Matt "his jokes and pranks were basically acting out, then something happened causing him to run away." Raven then asked "what happened." causing Matt to sigh, "i don't know really i wasn't there, but according to my dad Gar bit him," said Matt "what i think was a lie." "why would your father try to get rid of him," said Raven "first he wasn't my father, my father died when i was three," said Matt as he looked out the window, "the police called it a suicide, but i don't think it was," said Matt "look i don't want to talk about this any more and i can't think of a good excuse so i am going into town." Matt then left leaving Raven alone.

Gar Sat alone on the rocky shoreline as a wave crashed along the beach as Gar sat there in looking at the water, Gar noticed it was starting to rain a bit but didn't mind, "hey," said Raven, walking behind him causing him to jump a bit, "hey, "muttered Gar looking at the bay, "it's peaceful here," "this is just one of the good day in this town, " said Raven sitting next to him "it seldom happens but when it does it great." "yeah i guess so," said Gar "um, Raven do i really look like Beast Boy?" "no,' said Raven sighing unknown to her the next few words would change the field once again "you look like the man i love, and no matter what shape or form i will love you."

Gar blushed a bit, "my mind is so confused right now, and i don't want to stand between you and Beast Boy," said Gar as Raven grabbed him, "but you're not, inside i know you love me still" said Raven. Gar looked at her as he started to get scared and nervous, "let go of me, " snapped Gar making Raven let go of him, Gar then looked shocked a bit "i am sorry for snapping but i can't love you, you love someone else, and it would be wrong of me to get in the way." Gar then starred at Raven seeing the hurt look on her face "i understand." muttered Raven causing Gar to hold her hand "i don't think you do honestly, when Bart brought you to Smallville, i felt that are meeting was sort of kismet in a way," said Gar "but then i hear from my friends about your wedding and how he left you, i just wonder if you and i met before you and him got together would you and i would be man and wife." Raven sighed, "i honestly believe that you will realize the truth, you realize who you really are." Gar smiled "really," said Gar as he watched the sunset over the sea "i think i might not know everything at the moment but i am sure that you are a good person." Gar then watched as the sky was getting darker and the rain started to get heavier, none of them didn't care,"

meanwhile in a cafe in Steel city,

"you bastard," yelled Terra looking at Bart as she started to get up and leave "Terra, you don't understand, my sister need a surgery and he promised that he would pay for it, all he wanted was Gar," said Bart on the verge of tears "and if i could go back in time i would find another way but i don't want you to leave my side." Terra looked at him "because of you i had to move here, meet new friends that new nothing about my past." said Terra "i had a new life once and lost a crush and gain a love, a love i wouldn't give up for the world." Terra the lightly kissed Bart.

The two made they way back to titan's east tower the fight had not ended, but at lease they seen eye to eye on the issue, "you know you are going tell Raven, and the others." said Terra looking at Bart as he gulped, "i can't she will kill me and revive me and kill me again." said Bart holding her hand "and that will because i lied to her, i don't want to know what she will do, and that's for starters on what the others will do," Terra smiled "don't worry i will stand by your side." said Terra holing his hand as she felt eyes watching her, causing her to turn around, "well look at the happy couple," said a voice "did you miss me sister," then the figure as he attacked them obeying his orders and leaving family loyalties behind