Not Quite Right

Chapter 5: Denial is the first step to acceptance

Kouga had fallen asleep earlier then usual that night. There for, it was only natural that he got up earlier then usual the next. Kouga was lounging up on a tree branch of a large tree in the Inu-yasha forest.

You probably couldn't tell by looking at him, but he was deep in thought. Tomorrow, his one true love was coming back. Kagome was going to come back and he was going to confess his love for her over and over again. Just like usual.

I guess you couldn't say usual. Sango would be there. Perfect Sango, perfect perfect Sango… Kouga thought to himself, a smile on his face. Then the smile disappeared, his face being filled with shock. No no no no! Kagome, perfect Kagome. Perfect not good for anything Kagome…

Kouga tried to shake the bad things out of his head. Just because she couldn't fight, he couldn't smell her, and because she was in love with someone else, didn't mean she would make a bad mate.

Sango on the other hand could fight, and wasn't in love with someone else. In a matter of fact, she was a very strong fighter, almost a million times better then Kagome and she was prettier…

NO NO NO NO NO! Kouga thought to himself, trying to wipe away the image of Sango's smiling face. I'm in love with Kagome, not Sango… Kagome Kagome Kagome San—KAGOME! Kouga jumped up and grabbed his head with both hands, "No, No, No…" he groaned.

What are you a two timer or something?

Kouga jumped as he heard that. Opening his eyes and looking around, Kouga couldn't find the source of that voice. Nothing was near him… other then trees, and Kouga wasn't crazy, so he knew trees couldn't talk.

"Who the hell was that?" Kouga yelled looking around.

Who am I? Who am I? I am the great and magnificent King of York!

Kouga looked around for this 'King of York'. "I've never heard of a king of York before!"

For a good reason! I just made that name up on the spot! But really my name is Brain Cell combination 283 1/2.

Kouga stopped looking around and began muttering, "I am dreaming…" over and over to himself.

You can't be dreaming! That's Brain Cell combination 276. But seriously, I am you subconscious mind, here to tell you that your in denial. Let's see… you can call me… Apple!

"So all I have to do is think and you can hear my thoughts?" Kouga asked aloud.

Yeppers!

Okay then so… why am I calling you Apple?

Cause Apples are red!

Okay… then Apple… what are you talking about I'm not in Denial!

Umm… yes you are, Mr. I love Sango but am too afraid to admit it! What do you think Inu-yasha would think about that?

I don't care what he thinks about anything!

Did you know Denial is the first step to Acceptance?

No… what are the other steps?

Well there's Denial, then there's the pity, then anger, and last but not least Acceptance!

You know what, I don't believe you! You're just a voice in the back of my head!

So your just hearing voices?

Yes!

Doesn't that mean your crazy?

No! Well I mean yes, but I'm not hearing voices?

So your in denial about this too?

No.

HA! So you are in denial!

NO I'M NOT!

Yes you are! Get over it and move on to the next step already!

No!

So you're saying you don't wanna move to the next step because you want to stay in Denial?

Yes!

You just said you were in denial… again…

No I didn't.

Did

Didn't

Did

Did

Didn't and that's final

Okay, fine with me.

What? Wait a minute! Redo! Redo! You cheated!

All's fare in love and war!

That's it! I give up on you! It's too bad really… I liked Sango. She has nice long legs, and long pretty hair, her eyes are so pretty too… and her skin, I wonder how soft her skin was and ---

SHUT UP!

Are you still in Denial?

No…

Yipee!

What do you mean Yipee? I'm in the stage of 'pity' remember?

Of course I do, but your that much closer to Acceptance!

What kind of Pity is it? Who do I start to pity?

Oh! Did I forget to say SELF pity? Well I gotta go before you get all 'I'm not good enough' etc. etc. etc.

Wait a minute! You good for nothing idiot!

At that last thought Kouga jumped as he woke up. Thank God… it was all a dream… and I'm not crazy after all!

Mwhahaha! You thought that was just a dream? Face it! You're crazy!

Kouga groaned as he heard the voice of 'Apple' ringing through his head. Looking around he noticed it was almost dark. Kagome would be back, and they'd be leaving tomorrow…

Kouga got up and stood on the branch, and then he jumped down. Landing with a small thud, he heard footsteps coming closer to him. He took a deep breathe, it smelled human. In a matter of fact it smelled of Cedar. How he loved the scent of Cedar…

"Kouga? Are you over here?" A familiar voice called out to him.

Sango walked toward him wearing her Kimono. She smiled at him, and he smiled back. Then a sharp pain hit his stomach. It felt like his insides were being turned inside and out.

"Kouga, Kagome came back with Inu-yasha, I think we're going to leave pretty early tomorrow so you should try and get some sleep. Are you sleeping out here or in the village?" Sango asked him with a smile.

For the first time since getting rid of denial Kouga really truly saw her. She was beautiful. She had warm brown eyes, pale skin, and beautiful long hair. No wonder the monk liked her as much as he does.

"I'll go to the village." Kouga was barely able to say.

The self pity was quickly coming into effect. Stupid Apple for being right… He groaned as he followed Sango back to the village.

Pity wasn't going to be any fun at all, especially since it was self pity. The worse thing of that could happen, happened. Not the fact he was in love with Sango, but the fact that he found out right before they were about to leave.

You may be thinking why? That's okay… but no, that wasn't okay at all. Well other then the fact he would see her every day, and be stuck fighting evil demons that had jewel shards, with his mind as distracted as could be.

Not to mention they'd be traveling with Kagome. The girl that he felt he betrayed, by giving his love to another.

I shouldn't be allowed to travel with them… It's not like Sango even likes me… Why would she…? I'm just a dumb old wolf… Kouga thought to himself.

And the Self Pity began kicking in…

End of Chapter 5

Preview for Chapter 6: Poor Kouga, always beating himself up, telling himself he won't ever catch Sango's eye. He won't even fight with Inu-yasha any more! What's wrong with the world? A lot considering their in for one of Naraku's wonderful attacks…

Hey everybody! I'm so happy! I finally I got this out to you all! I had all but the last few paragraphs written for like 3 days… but no one would let me on the computer to type!

I think I'm still with in my time limit though! I'm so excited for the next chapter! It sounds like a lot of fun! I've never been good at fight scenes but I'm going to try my very best! I think most of the chapter will be in Kouga's POV. I hope that sounds okay to all of you!

I hope you liked Apple. I usually add a conscious at one point in my stories… as weird as that may sound… did you like it? I thought Apple sounded a little… insane may be the word I'm looking for… Well tell me if you liked it!

Well here are my Thank you's!

MystiKoorime: hehehe… now it's pity, probably not as funny… but still.

Brookie: Thank you so much! That means the world to me.

SnowFox13: To tell you the truth… I really don't know yet…

Cookiiex: Consider it up-dated!

Satsu Death's Messanger: Hmm… I'm not sure if I can consider you review good or bad. I can respect your dislike of Kikyo, but I like her. She didn't ask to be brought back as mud, she probably doesn't think that she could trust anyone again after she died thinking Inu-yasha betrayed her, and I'm one of those who believe Inu-yasha would have chosen to gone with her in the end, unconscious or not. In reality Kagome sits Inu-yasha for control. Most of the time I believe he doesn't deserve it. I mean if she really truest/loved him then she would have freed him from that collar a long time ago.

See ya all in 5-6 days, or maybe sooner if I can manage!

Reioko