Chapter # 9: The Reason
I hadn't thought of asking him about it until just now. I looked at him,
"Tohma?"
"Hai?"
"Why…Did you start…Cutting yourself…?"
"Remember what I said to your mother before she cleaned my wound?"
Flashback
"I…I can handle it…I'm used to pain…"
End Flashback
"Yeah…I do…"
"I'm used to pain…Because I inflict it upon myself…And the reason I ever even started it was because of my father leaving me like that…And my mother abusing and blaming me for it him leaving…"
I took his hand,
"Tohma…"
He pulled it away,
"I was to blame and because of me, my mother commited suicide later on in her life…When I was fourteen…Ten years worth of beating me and blaming me and she decides to kill herself…All those years…" He couldn't hold it in and fell to his knees in tears.
"I tried to be perfect, for her sake and I just ended up screwing it up in the end…"
"Tohma!" I announced sinking down in front of him and cradling him in my arms, which was hard considering he was taller then me. I managed though.
"Tohma…It wasn't your fault…Everything happens for a reason…"
"Then what possible reason could my mother have had for beating and blaming my father's leaving on me!"
I tried to come up with a good answer, but nothing came to mind.
He stood up and started walking away,
"Exzactly."