Chapter # 13: Lies
I lie in bed all alone, thinking of him. I loved him. I loved him so much, why couldn't he see it? A fresh layer of silent tears trailed along and down my cheeks, staining my skin with their sorrow and pain. All I could think about was him. He never left my mind. Not even for a moment. I heard a light knock on the door.
"Go back to bed Maiko," I hissed quietly.
"I'm not Maiko."
"T-Tohma?"
"Hai?"
"What do you want?" I wasn't exactly in my best of moods with him right now. You couldn't possibly blame me for being upset about all this.
"I wanted to apologize to you Shu-chan…I'm sorry…Being a cutter isn't easy to give up you know…Suguru didn't have an easy time giving it up either…"
"But he managed!" I shot at him.
He was quiet, then he sighed lightly.
"I'm sorry Shu-chan…I really am…But it's up to you about whether, or not you want to forgive me."
I walked over to the door and un-locked it, opening it slightly to peer out at him.
"If I forgive you…You have to give it up…"
He sighed lightly,
"It won't be easy…But for you Shu-chan…I'll try alright?"
"Alright."
I moved aside and allowed him into my room, I let him lie on my bed. Then I re-locked my bedroom door and lied down beside him. I snuggled into him,
"Tohma?"
"Hai?"
"I'm glad."
"Glad?"
"That you're going to try to quit."
"Oh…"
I snuggled into him a little more.
(Switching to Tohma's POV)
'Shu-chan…If only you knew…How much I've been deceiving you this whole time…If you knew…I don't think you'd ever forgive me again. I want to end it…but once you've started…It's nearly impossible to end…'