Chapter # 16: Hurt
Ryuichi was instantly confused.
"Why is Shu-chan so mad at Toh-chan all of a sudden? Did Toh-chan do something bad? Does he need to be put in a corner? What's going on na no da?"
"It's nothing Ryu-chan," I lie as I start walking away. I head towards the staircase. Tohma stands and comes after me, he grabs ahold of me.
"I'm sorry, Shu-chan."
My fists tighten up and my teeth clench.
"Sorry? Sorry! You've told me you were sorry before, you promised to try giving up! You're hardly trying!" I could feel tears rolling down and along my cheeks. I smacked his hand off of me.
"Don't touch me! I want nothing to do with someone like you!"
His eyes grow for a moment, before he sets them downcast. He puts his hands together in front of him and fidgets. He clears his throat quietly, while obviously trying to come up with something to say to me as a response. I can tell he has a lump in his throat when he finally speaks.
"Well…If you're so certain about that…Then…" He cleared his throat again, obviously trying his hardest not to cry.
"…I'll just…Go home…" He headed past me and towards the door.
Within that swift movement I could feel all of his suffering, his pain, his heart breaking, his tears falling. I could taste the saltiness of his tears and the sweetness of his kiss and yet. He was leaving me behind.