Chapter # 20: Is It Over?
I stood there and listened to him crying on the other side of the door. I wanted to hold him, comfort him, tell him it would all be ok now that she was gone. That she would never be seen by his eyes again.
"She hates me, and she doesn't even know me…What did I do wrong?"
"Nothing Shu-chan…My mom's just a homophobic…"
(Switching to Shuichi's POV)
I pounded my fist off the floor.
"Where did I go wrong!" I pound my fist off the floor again.
"Why does everyone hate me just because of how I am! Why! It's not fair! It doesn't make any sense! Why does everyone treat me differently just because I'm…"
"I surely don't know Shu-chan! But please! Please, don't beat yourself up about it, please…"
"Why not! Isn't that what you always did! Is that why you're a cutter Tohma!"
When he didn't answer, I pounded my fist off the floor harder,
"Damnit! Answer me! Are you ashamed to be like me! Are you!"
Again he didn't answer me.
I shook my head, squeezing my eyes shut tightly,
"WHY! WHY!"
"I'm sorry…Shu-chan…"
"SHUT-UP! YOU THINK I'M GOING TO BELIEVE THAT LIE!"
"Shu-chan…"
"YOU ALWAYS SAY YOU'RE SORRY, BUT YOU DON'T MEAN IT!"
I paused a moment, slipping down from my knees and lying on the floor, on my stomach, head in my arms,
"…You don't mean it…"