Dear Diary...
by Mortheza
Chapter Two: A day in my life
I can't believe I'm writing here again... Maybe this is just a phase that'll go away when time passes or something..? I really hope so, because if someone finds this, I'm gonna be screwed.
Anyways, I talked with my sister today on the phone... and she promised that she would talk with Tohma about me meeting Sakuma-sama, privately! Finally my whining paid off! I had to beg, whine and everything for almost two hours, and it frikkin' paid off! Now I'm just hoping that Tohma won't say no.
Sometimes I'm wondering what does he have against me... I'm not that bad, am I? It's not like I'm going to rape Sakuma-sama or anything, no, I'm gonna seduce him first and then... Oh well, I'll let ya know if it ever happens.
Shit, I gotta do something, I'll be back soon!
Back. Don't ask, just... don't ask, okay? Good. I've really been thinking about the fact of me becoming a monk. I know for sure it's clearly what I don't want. I really have no clue what I wanna do for living when I finally move out.
Modeling sounds good, lots of people have told me that I've got the looks and everything it takes to become a model, but then again I'm not so sure...
Anything else, but not a monk.
Well, singer sounds nice, but with my voice, no. I sound like an old crow with a sore throat, so definitely no.
Few years ago, (I can't believe I still remember something like this) I was just sitting on my bed, listening to the second album of Nittle Grasper and I was singing along. Then, just then my sister decided to walk into my room.
"With that voice you're going to shatter eardrums instead of hearts."
I was completely embarrassed when Mika said that. Since then I haven't sung one word (well, except during the times I'm drunk...).
She probably told Eiri about it, because when I saw him, he gave me this weird look I can't describe.
A singer? Never. Thanks, but no thanks.
Oh yeah, I almost forgot! I fell asleep during my English lesson and I got detention. Not fair. C'mon, you guys would be tired too if you had to wake up at five in the morning like I had today. The old man decided I could use some more time to praying.
Oh fuck, it's already 10:00 pm! I should be sleeping by now, too bad I don't feel tired at all. If I write a bit more, then go to bed... That sounds good. I hope I see those sweet dreams of me and Sakuma-sama again...
Maybe I should write small parts of them down, just in case I forget any of them (though I seriously doubt it).
Well, I saw one back at school (when I fell asleep during the English lesson)... That was truly a hot one! Imagine this:
We met at this small bar-like place, we were both a bit tipsy, but like that matters... Anyways, one thing lead to another and somehow we ended up at his apartment about half an hour later.
Kami-sama it was soooo perfect! His body was just like I had predicted, small, (except for that one special place, but we'll get to that later) a bit tanned, kami he was perfect, in every way (well duh! No shit Sherlock!)! I can't find any other words to describe him. Perfect, just... perfect.
It all began with shy kissing, which after a while turned passionate. He tasted so sweet, like a mix of chocolate and mint, and the way he kissed me back... I was really about to faint, he was so talented.
He then pushed me onto his bed and began unbuttoning my shirt. At the same time he was whispering things like:
"I've never met anyone else as perfect as you."
"I can't wait till I get inside you."
"I wanna see how you moan, sweat and writhe as I fuck you slowly."
Too bad that's when my teacher decided to wake me up. I'm just hoping I wasn't sleep talking or anything during the dream. I mean that yeah, everyone at my school knows that I'm a dedicated fan of Sakuma Ryuichi and everything, but hey, some things are better if I'm the only one who knows about them. Let's say that some of my fantasies can't be rated.
Okay, enough of my fantasies, if someone ever finds this notebook, for example my dad, hell, do I have lots of explaining to do then!
Hmm, I'm wondering would aniki let me stay at his place for few days..? I feel like going to Tokyo to stalk Sakuma-sama at the NG building... I've tried that couple of times, and every time Seguchi called the security to drag me out. He's pure evil, he must be a spawn of Satan or something like that, at least.
I mean every time he comes to see my aniki, I'm not gonna kick him out or anything! I think that the only reason why he married Mika, was to get closer to my aniki. Pathetic, ne?
Whoa, I don't wanna think about the consequences if Tohma finds this... Eiri told me that he pushed Aizawa-san in front of a moving car "for laying his hands on Eiri". And here I am, writing not-so-nice things about him, owww...
I better hide this damn thing well. Okay, I'm off to bed now, otherwise I'll never wake up tomorrow, old man's gonna wake me up at some ungodly hour anyways. Ja ne!
I'm sorry it took me so long to update! Anyways, thank you to all of you who sent me reviews, I really loved reading them! I hope you guys keep on reading this fic in future, I love you! Ja ne!
Mortheza