Disclaimer: Does not own Fruits Basket.

A/n: This is my first Fruits Basket! So, please be nice.

Black and White

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Rin's Pov:

"Haru..." I whispered into the night. Of course, he won't come because I'm the one who pushed him away. But it's better if he doesn't come near me. All I do is cause him pain. He thinks I hate him, but the truth is, I love him. But we can't be together ever again. He desveres better than me, someone who won't cause him pain. That's why... I have to find a way to break this damn curse, so he can be happy. Happy...

Tears formed in my eyes. Why am I this god damn pathetic? Why am I here, crying and soaking wet...? Because...

"I am pathetic" I say it out loud. I finally have the guts to admit it. Just like Akito, and Mama and Papa said. Why do I wanna run and cry to that Tohru-girl? What is so special about her? She shouldn't even know about the curse! But all I wanna do is go and cry in her lap, and tell her what's wrong.. like she wouldn't judge me.. she comfort me... tell me it would be okay. I feel onto my knees as more tears streamed down my face. I... don't care about anything anymore. Why should I care about anything? Nobody cares about me! Not mama. Not papa. Not Haru.

But he does. He's told me, he loves me. Why don't I just be with him? Is it because, I fear pain? I've caused him so much pain, why would he even want me back?

He wouldn't! He doesn't love me anymore! But, I know... it's not the truth. He loves me, I love him. Why don't I just go back to him? Why? Because, I am pathetic. I'm not worthy of his love anymore. I never was. I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate ths stupid family. I hate Akito. Leaves crunched behind me.

"Rin? Is that you?" Someone asked from behind me. Could it be...? Haru? I turned around. He stood there, looking down at me with concern.

"Haru.." I sobbed. He kneeled down in front of me. He wrapped his arms around me. I froze in his touch.

"It's okay" I pushed away from him and stood up.

"NOTHING IS OKAY! EVERYTHING IS FUCKED UP! CAN'T YOU SEE THAT! I'M FUCKED UP! I COULDN'T EVEN PROTECT YOU FROM AKITO! I'M PATHETIC! I'M USELESS! I'M NOTHING! ALL I DO IS CAUSE EVERYONE PAIN. I CAN'T LOVE ANYONE, CAUSE ALL I'LL DO IS CAUSE PAIN. YOU CAN'T LOVE ME HARU! I'M NOT WORTHY OF YOUR LOVE. NOT NOW, NOT EVER!" I shouted, my voice horse. I hung my head in shame. He didn't say anything. He doesn't love me...

'Your pathetic!' Akito said, standing in front of me, looking down.

'Your useless!" Gure-Nii said, standing next to Akito.

'Your a waste of space' Mama said.

'Your ugly' said Kagura.

'Your nothing' said Tohru. The other members, stood next to them, around me in a circle. I swayed on the spot. Darkness crawled into my eye site. Haru!... Please save me!

'Your not worthy of my love' he said coldy, pushing me out of that window.

"NO! HARU! PLEASE, NO! COME BACK TO ME! DON'T LEAVE ME! DON'T HATE ME! I...love you.." I screamed. Haru pulled me into him. I sobbed into his chest.

"Rin, your not 'nothing' or 'useless'. I don't hate you, I can never hate you. I love you, and nothing can change that. Not even Akito." He pulled my hair out of me face, and wiping away my tears.

"None can hurt us Rin."

"What about Akito?"

"I don't care about him. Rin, I care about you." I looked into his eyes.

"I love you"

"I love you too"

A/n: End. Hope you like! review!