Chapter Four- First Dates and Last Words
Thanks to obessedwithstabler, belladonna1361, onetreefan, and mstang.gurl for making me feel loved!
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Elliot walked to his car and slammed the door angrily. Why the hell did I do that? He asked himself. No doubt Olivia would be upset now. He knew he had made a mistake but his pride kept him from running back to the filing room and pouring out all his thoughts and feelings to her. He hit the wheel…hard, but it didn't ease his anger at himself or the ache in his heart. He put his face in his hands and tried to calm down. No help. He started the engine and slammed his foot on the pedal, pushing the speed limit and running a few red lights here and there.
Olivia pulled her coat tighter around her as she walked home. She usually hitched a ride with Elliot but she didn't want to after his last outburst. She trudged slowly and felt her heart sink lower with every step. The sight of families and couples walking past her was enough to break her heart. She envisioned herself and Elliot in their place, but felt the thought too tempting to bear. She pushed it from her mind and walked faster.
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Friday Night
Alex paced her office and running her fingers through her blonde hair. She had changed into a black cocktail dress and put on simple earrings. She checked her appearance in the reflection from the glass in the window. She liked the way she looked. Simple yet elegant. She rubbed her palms together. She couldn't explain why she felt so nervous. I don't date. She thought to herself. I haven't been out with a guy in years…why should I even be doing this? Alex walked another circle. "Okay Alex this is not a date. Chill." She said outloud, but quickly replied herself. "Then why did you dress up?" She groaned and rubbed her temples. Great Cabot, talking to yourself is a great start for the evening.
Then there was a soft knock on her door, causing Alex to jump. She took another deep breath and slowly opened it. Jackson was standing on the other side with flowers in one hand. He was nervous too. "Hey." He said, trying his best to sound composed and calm. "Uh these are for you." He handed the flowers to her hoping that she would like them and not have an allergic reaction to pollen or anything. Alex found herself smiling. "Thanks Jackson…they're beautiful." She scanned the room looking for some kind of vase to put them in. She bit her lip when she realized there was none. Jackson was watching her intently and almost smacked himself in the head when he realized what she was looking for. Idiot, it should have crossed your mind that she doesn't have a vase.
Alex spotted her fishbowl. It was the best choice. She placed the roses within the bowl. "There." She said smiling. Jackson laughed. "I'm sure the fish will love it." Alex nodded. "I think he does." She said placing her hand on his arm on impulse. Jackson felt a shiver go up his spine at her touch. "Shall we?" he asked with a mock English accent. Alex laughed, glad that he had lightened the mood. "We shall." She replied and felt her heart ripple when he picked up her coat and wrapped it around her. They headed to his car and pulled out of the parking lot.
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It had been days since the fight and things weren't getting better. Olivia sat at her desk, doing everything but paperwork. Elliot wasn't fairing much better. He and Munch were playing paper football. Fin was asleep at his desk and Casey was out again. Olivia gazed at Elliot with pain and desire. She loved him. She would give anything for him, but she couldn't bring herself to tell him.
Elliot flung a paper ball at the wastebasket and grinned when he got it in. Munch handed him a dollar. This was how he got rich. His mind was not on the game but at the woman sitting across from him. Olivia. He had lost it at her again. He didn't even understand why she continued to take his crap. All he knew was that he was grateful. Things had been uncomfortable between them for the past two days. Car rides had passed in silence, cases were read and solved without idle conversation, and she would leave and walk home before he even got his car. It was killing him. He glanced in her direction. He loved her. Why couldn't he tell her?
Munch watched this exchange between them. He gave Fin a hard poke in the back of the head. "Wakey wakey sleeping beauty. The kids need to talk." He said in his usual tone. Fin swatted at his direction. "And I need my beauty sleep" But he pulled himself to his feet. "We're getting coffee." He said. He and Munch quickly left before they found themselves in the middle of an argument. Elliot didn't say a word. "Liv we need to talk." He said nervously. Olivia looked up. "I agree." She said softly, meeting his eyes with her own. "Use my office." Cragen's voice said from behind them. Both got up and nodded a quick thanks to Cragen and shut the door behind them and closed the blinds.
Inside his office, the two stared at each other on and off., each lowering their eyes when the other lifted theirs. Elliot opened his mouth to try and express the torrent of emotion that was running through him. "Liv…"
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Sorry about the cliffhanger right there? Is he going to stutter and then stop trying to talk or is he going to confess everything? How does Alex's date turn out to be like? lol Now I'm egging you on but I hope you enjoyed it and I will try to update soon.