Chapter Five
"Becca? Where have you been?" Justin queried, in a pseudo calm voice, his insides burning and his heart racing.
"I'm sorry Justin. I needed time, time to think about us and what is happening here" Becca replied, slowly turning towards Justin.
"It's over Justin. I came back to explain. It's just not going to work, you and me. You're just a boy, a boy with his whole future ahead of him" Becca continued, her voice calm and emotionless.
"I thought you loved me. You said you wanted us to be together. What's changed?"
"What's changed is that I have realised that we are not meant to be together. I don't love you" Becca was crying now, her whole body shaking.
Her words cut through him like a sharp life, pain he had never thought it would be possible to feel. She couldn't mean it, could she? They had been here so many times before. Him saying he loved her, her saying it could never work before giving in and kissing him. What was different this time?
"So you're going to go running back to Jake then and play the good wife again? Live the life you never wanted in the first place" Justin shouting, the tears rolling down his face again.
"No, I'm not. I'm going to my Mum's. Now I've got to go now. Don't try and contact me. Just get on with your own life. Goodbye Justin"
And with those final words, Becca turned and headed for the door without looking back.
The cool breeze hit her as soon as she reached the outside. The noise of the traffic was deafening and her head felt heavy and tired. Collecting her thoughts, she started to walk slowly down the road, almost as if she was on autopilot. Turning the corner, the emotion and pain of what just happened hit her like a gale force wind as the tears began to roll down her cheeks, her heart aching and in pain. Reaching into her pocket for a tissue, her fingers rested on a folded up piece of paper. Pulling it out of her pocket, she read it through her tears.
Justin, I'm sorry but I'm leaving. I love you and I always will but I have to go. I've ruined my own life without ruining yours too. I'm pregnant Justin, I can't let you give up your life for me and a baby that might not even be yours.
Becca xx