Timeline: 2 weeks after Ashley's departure.
Chapter 11: In Space
Andros sat up in the observatory for the third night in a row. He looked out at the stars and marveled at how vast the universe was. He had never thought about it before since he had been too preoccupied with fighting evil, but now with Ashley on the other side of the universe he thought about it everyday.
He had never once considered quitting being a ranger until now, until Ashley. He had never believed he would ever fall in love, and now that he had it had changed him. Andros could not go back to the person that he had been, he now recognized how empty and meaningless life was without friends, without love. He was thankful that they had not given up on him.
Andros remembered meeting the then turbo rangers for the first time. Cassie had introduced herself first then Ashley. He was surprised to find himself looking into her eyes, and he remembered thinking how beautiful they were. He stopped himself from continuing the inventory, because he knew he would be in trouble if he did. He couldn't risk losing concentration because of her, and continued to push her away as a result. When she didn't back down however, he found himself enjoying her company more and more.
And now the last two weeks have been one endless blur of moments, he couldn't remember any specific details of what had happened, only that Ashley wasn't there with him. Nothing seemed important any more. What was the point of life if you weren't living it? He was like an empty shell of a man lately, his reason for being gone. She had enchanted him with her love for life, her spontaneity, her smile and her laughter. And now she was gone. Well not gone exactly, just far away. But did it have to be that way? Andros sighed as his mind struggled to decide what his heart had already chosen. He just couldn't accept it yet.
Desperate to think of happier times and not of an impeding decision he put on a cd Ashley had left behind. He settled into the large chair letting the soothing words relax him.
Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry?
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking?
Looking down the road you should be taking?
I should know, 'cos I loved and lost the day I let you go
Deca's alarm interrupted his pity party as he raced out of his quarters and up to the bridge. At that moment a teleportation beam appeared and a girl with red hair and stunning green eyes emerged.
"Deca!" Andros yelped. "Why didn't you tell me she was coming?" he demanded of the computer as the girl stepped onto the bridge.
She looked around trying to get familiar with her new surroundings. Everything was so different. Jamie couldn't believe she was here, that she was actually going to be a power ranger. Her first year of college had just ended when Zhane had approached her. She agreed, and told her parents that she was going to Europe for the summer. And now she was here. Well, wherever here was. Wherever she was it was definitely highly technological, she thought amazed as she glanced around.
Andros mistook her awe for something else. "If you're thinking this is going to make you famous, you might as well leave now." He commented harshly. The others looked at him in shock, Zhane shooting him a glare that could cut through stone. IT wasn't as impressive as the infamous Andros stare but it still conveyed the message that the silver ranger was displeased.
Nonplussed the red ranger stalked off the bridge and sought solitude, leaving the others behind in stunned silence. He had planned on going to the observatory but at the first vacant spot he found, Andros felt the tears falling. That girl on the bridge, she was here to replace Ashley. His heart couldn't take it the reality that was setting in.
It was all his fault that they even had to replace Ashley in the first place. Why couldn't he have handled it all better? Why did this have to happen? Why am I still here anyway? All of his so-called obligations to being a ranger had vanished the moment Ashley had left him and the mega ship behind. His heart ached for the yellow ranger. Former yellow ranger, he thought bitterly.
"It's never wrong to love." Advice from his mother caused him to start as he remembered what she had told him shortly after his father's death. It had been just the two of them, with Karone having been kidnapped years earlier. It was that event that had pushed the red ranger away from relationships, away from caring about anyone. Not even Zhane could understand what he was going through, and the two had been inseparable since birth. When the opportunity arrived to become a power ranger, Andros jumped at the chance to do something that would occupy much of his time. After he had become a ranger, he had two missions. One, to see if he could find his sister and rescue her, and second to be alone. He couldn't bear one more rejection or heartache. He hoped being in space would finally banish some of his demons.
But Zhane refused to watch his best friend just waste away to an empty shell of a human being. Try as Zhane did, it wasn't until Ashley and the others had arrived that Andros realized that no matter how much he tried to deny it, there was still a part of him that could care for other people. However, Zhane hadn't been around to see it. His apparent death drove Andros into a deeper depression.
But it didn't take Ashley long to break down his walls. He didn't even know how it happened but he knew he was gone the first time she was driven to the ground by one of the quantrons. His heart had stopped and refused to restart until he saw her get back to her feet. He found himself close to her side from then on in every battle they faced. Until now. The mega ship seemed so empty and much quieter without her contagious laughter and upbeat voice echoing through the halls. And life only got better with her to support him as Zhane awoke from his two-year coma, and his long lost sister returned to him and the cause of good.
"Is he always this friendly?" Jamie asked sarcastically to Zhane as he gave her the grand tour of the mega-ship. She was referring to the red ranger's rude behavior when she had first arrived a few minutes ago.
"Oh that?" Zhane said as he tried to cover up his best friend's behavior with an excuse. Sighing he knew he could not. Besides she deserved the truth, she'd find out sooner or later why there was a need for a new yellow ranger. And she deserved a warning about Andros.
"Listen Jamie. There are some things you should know. It might make it easier to understand Andros." The silver ranger began to explain as he ushered her into the recreation room.
Her green eyes watched him as he uneasily tried to explain. "The reason you're here Jamie is because the former yellow ranger is pregnant and had to resign." Understanding flashed in her emerald eyes and she followed his statement with one of her own. "And let me guess-she's his girlfriend." She concluded finally. Zhane nodded.
"I hope he plans on apologizing." TJ exclaimed in frustration as soon as Zhane joined the others for a short conference. "We're never going to be a team if he has such animosity towards Jamie." The blue ranger announced as he paced around the room.
"God, Teej. Ashley's only been gone two weeks." Cassie said accusingly, her dark eyes flashing at him. TJ softened at her expression and came to stand next to her. "Cass, it's not that I don't miss Ash already, but we have to keep on." He said as he placed a hand on her shoulder, only to be brushed off by Cassie.
"Yeah Cass. Even Ash would want us to move on. We have to. It's our job." Carlos added, trying to convince the sad pink ranger as she turned her back on the group.
"What are we going to do about Andros?" Cassie asked quietly, without turning around. The others stopped their pacing and discussing to think about their most pressing problem at the moment. Their leader.
"Andros was never as close with his old team as he is with you guys. I don't know what he'd do if he lost any of you. And he never was in a relationship before; I know he's worried sick about Ashley. His whole life has been wrapped up in being a ranger, its what he does, and it's who he is. And now he's realizing that's no way to live." Zhane said, trying to encourage them to be patient with him right now.
"Do you think he'll leave too?" Karone wondered a bit anxiously. She didn't feel close to anyone quite yet, and didn't know what she would do if he did leave.
"I don't know Karone." Zhane admitted slowly, wishing he could give them all more answers. He rubbed his hands over his face, exhausted both physically and emotionally.
"I guess we'll just take it one day at a time." TJ supposed thoughtfully. The room was silent as life after Ashley continued on the mega ship.
"Has anyone told Jamie?" Carlos asked, causing everyone to look at him. The thought hadn't occurred to them. Well most of them.
"I did." Zhane admitted, not afraid to look Carlos in the eye. But Carlos wasn't upset, it was something that had to be done and he was glad that he didn't have to do it. But his respect for the silver ranger grew as he was seeing first hand Zhane taking over some of the leadership role from Andros. Anything to help his best friend.
Cassie wondered if Ashley had the same luxury back home. She had been a ranger for almost a year and a half, long leaving her "normal" life in Angel Grove behind. She knew from experience that her friends had changed and moved on with their lives, and expected that Ashley's had done the same. Though they hadn't traveled in the same social groups, and Cassie tended to be more of a loner, she knew that Ashley had sacrificed a lot, like her cheerleading team, and dance classes to become a ranger and protect the planet. And now it seemed like she gave it all up for nothing, and Cassie wondered bitterly if there was a purpose for any of them being rangers. Did they give up everything only to be forgotten? Would they ever be able to have a normal life after being a ranger? She left suddenly, needing to be alone with her thoughts, and wanting to get her emotions under control before meeting Jamie.
Carlos and TJ were the only rangers there in the holding bay when Zhane arrived with Jamie, finally finishing the tour they had started before. He explained to her how the synthetron worked and helped her figure out what to eat for her first meal.
Cassie joined them a few minutes later, having returned to her usual energetic and cheerful self and introduced herself to Jamie. "Hi, I'm glad you're here." The pink ranger said sincerely. Jamie felt most of her fear melt away as she eased into conversation with the four rangers.
Karone managed to cajole Andros into leaving his spot of solitude, appealing to his sense of duty and team to get him to meet the new yellow ranger. "I probably won't like her." He protested, knowing his argument was weak, but feeling like he needed to say it in defense of Ashley. Karone just nodded and dragged him away to where the others were finishing their dinner.
Conversation stopped as brother and sister entered the room. The awkwardness did not go unnoticed by Andros. 'This is all my fault too.' He thought miserably. Forcing himself to go up to her, he was relieved to note that she bore no resemblance to his girlfriend. "I want to apologize for my behavior earlier." Jamie tried to shake him off, but he continued unrelentless. "It was uncalled for, and on behalf of the entire Astro ranger team we are glad you here with us."
Carlos wasn't the only one impressed with Andros's apology. Jamie accepted it without a second thought, imaging how hard it was for him to do so. TJ believed with Cassie helping Jamie ease into the routine, he knew it wouldn't be long until there was a sense of normalcy on the ship. Or at least he thought. He didn't know the undercurrent of thought that was racing through their leader's mind at that very moment.
Andros didn't feel like eating. There was too much on his mind to be bothered with food. Excusing himself, he finally made his way up to the observatory. Carlos left not too long after, as he had his chores to catch up on.
TJ noticed when Zhane offered to show Jamie the simudeck, and she accepted with no hesitation. Karone looked torn between wanting to go with them, and minding her own business. Cassie noticed too and managed to divert the Kerovian with a trip to the Surf Spot. He decided to go back to his room and study, knowing he had a lot of work to do if he intended to graduate high school.
"So what do you guys do all day?" Jamie asked the silver ranger curiously. Zhane laughed. "Well most of the team goes to school, unless there's an attack." He informed her.
"So high school students by day and power rangers by night." Jamie quipped and Zhane burst out in laughter.
"Something like that." Was all that he managed to get out when Cassie and Karone returned. They were surprised to find Zhane and Jamie laughing in the holding bay. Karone was even more surprised at the feeling of jealousy that swelled within her at the sight of Zhane teasing their new teammate.
"Are you still in school?" Cassie asked as the two girls entered the room. Jamie shook her head no. "No, I finished my final exams two days ago." She explained to them.
"That must be nice." Cassie said enviously. "You don't have to hide from everyone, and explain away all your disappearances." She explained to the new girl.
"So people don't know who you are?" She asked curiously, wondering if she would ever understand exactly what she got herself into.
"The less they know, the better off they are." Zhane finally added in.
"Rangers, it is getting late. You should be off to bed so you'll be ready for a full day of training tomorrow." Deca advised the quartet. Reluctantly the girls left the silver ranger behind as he watched them leave.
Zhane was slightly surprised when Karone didn't linger behind to say goodnight. He didn't ponder on it long as his own exhaustion quickly fell over him and he headed to his quarters, not even bothering to check to see if Andros was in his room. If Zhane had checked he would have seen that his best friend's room was empty.
Andros didn't know how long he had been sitting in the observatory, nor did he care. Deca didn't even bother him as debated back and forth over a decision he knew he had to make. And he was determined to make it. He couldn't go through one more day of indecision.
He had to admit that Zhane was right. He knew why Ashley had left. And it wasn't because she wanted to. His heart broke at how hard it must have been for her, to go back to a place without her friends or the one she loved. He thought his decision was hard. Sounds of music disturbed his quiet environment and he looked up at Deca questioningly. He paused to listen and let the words answer the questions he had in his heart.
It's not that I can't live without you
It's just that I don't even want to try
Every night I dream about you
Ever since the day we said goodbye
If I wasn't such a fool
Right now I'd be holding you
There's nothin' that I wouldn't do
'Why can't I just do what my heart is telling me?' he groaned. 'It doesn't have to be this way. I could be holding you right now, should be holding you right now. What's keeping me here?' he questioned as he thought about his teammates and the mega ship.
Baby if I only knew
The words to say
The road to take
To find a way back to your heart
What can I do
To get to you
And find a way back to your heart
"Love is a choice, Andros. Think of it this way; are you willing to live without them for the rest of your life? Because that's what you're risking if you let them go." His mother's words shocked him as he continued to dwell on the words of the song playing in the background.
I don't know how it got so crazy
But I'll do anything to set things right
Cuz your love is so amazing
Baby you're the best thing in my life
It hit him at that moment. He could live without being a ranger, but he absolutely couldn't live without Ashley. How did he think he could? A sense of peace came over him and he knew the debate was over. He realized what time it was and decided to wait until the morning to inform the others of his decision. And for once he didn't give a damn about the consequences. As he pulled the covers up, sleep came at once, and his dreams were filled with Ashley.
Songs: Back to your heart-Backstreet Boys
Have you ever? - Sclub
Chapter 11: In Space
Andros sat up in the observatory for the third night in a row. He looked out at the stars and marveled at how vast the universe was. He had never thought about it before since he had been too preoccupied with fighting evil, but now with Ashley on the other side of the universe he thought about it everyday.
He had never once considered quitting being a ranger until now, until Ashley. He had never believed he would ever fall in love, and now that he had it had changed him. Andros could not go back to the person that he had been, he now recognized how empty and meaningless life was without friends, without love. He was thankful that they had not given up on him.
Andros remembered meeting the then turbo rangers for the first time. Cassie had introduced herself first then Ashley. He was surprised to find himself looking into her eyes, and he remembered thinking how beautiful they were. He stopped himself from continuing the inventory, because he knew he would be in trouble if he did. He couldn't risk losing concentration because of her, and continued to push her away as a result. When she didn't back down however, he found himself enjoying her company more and more.
And now the last two weeks have been one endless blur of moments, he couldn't remember any specific details of what had happened, only that Ashley wasn't there with him. Nothing seemed important any more. What was the point of life if you weren't living it? He was like an empty shell of a man lately, his reason for being gone. She had enchanted him with her love for life, her spontaneity, her smile and her laughter. And now she was gone. Well not gone exactly, just far away. But did it have to be that way? Andros sighed as his mind struggled to decide what his heart had already chosen. He just couldn't accept it yet.
Desperate to think of happier times and not of an impeding decision he put on a cd Ashley had left behind. He settled into the large chair letting the soothing words relax him.
Have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry?
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking?
Looking down the road you should be taking?
I should know, 'cos I loved and lost the day I let you go
Deca's alarm interrupted his pity party as he raced out of his quarters and up to the bridge. At that moment a teleportation beam appeared and a girl with red hair and stunning green eyes emerged.
"Deca!" Andros yelped. "Why didn't you tell me she was coming?" he demanded of the computer as the girl stepped onto the bridge.
She looked around trying to get familiar with her new surroundings. Everything was so different. Jamie couldn't believe she was here, that she was actually going to be a power ranger. Her first year of college had just ended when Zhane had approached her. She agreed, and told her parents that she was going to Europe for the summer. And now she was here. Well, wherever here was. Wherever she was it was definitely highly technological, she thought amazed as she glanced around.
Andros mistook her awe for something else. "If you're thinking this is going to make you famous, you might as well leave now." He commented harshly. The others looked at him in shock, Zhane shooting him a glare that could cut through stone. IT wasn't as impressive as the infamous Andros stare but it still conveyed the message that the silver ranger was displeased.
Nonplussed the red ranger stalked off the bridge and sought solitude, leaving the others behind in stunned silence. He had planned on going to the observatory but at the first vacant spot he found, Andros felt the tears falling. That girl on the bridge, she was here to replace Ashley. His heart couldn't take it the reality that was setting in.
It was all his fault that they even had to replace Ashley in the first place. Why couldn't he have handled it all better? Why did this have to happen? Why am I still here anyway? All of his so-called obligations to being a ranger had vanished the moment Ashley had left him and the mega ship behind. His heart ached for the yellow ranger. Former yellow ranger, he thought bitterly.
"It's never wrong to love." Advice from his mother caused him to start as he remembered what she had told him shortly after his father's death. It had been just the two of them, with Karone having been kidnapped years earlier. It was that event that had pushed the red ranger away from relationships, away from caring about anyone. Not even Zhane could understand what he was going through, and the two had been inseparable since birth. When the opportunity arrived to become a power ranger, Andros jumped at the chance to do something that would occupy much of his time. After he had become a ranger, he had two missions. One, to see if he could find his sister and rescue her, and second to be alone. He couldn't bear one more rejection or heartache. He hoped being in space would finally banish some of his demons.
But Zhane refused to watch his best friend just waste away to an empty shell of a human being. Try as Zhane did, it wasn't until Ashley and the others had arrived that Andros realized that no matter how much he tried to deny it, there was still a part of him that could care for other people. However, Zhane hadn't been around to see it. His apparent death drove Andros into a deeper depression.
But it didn't take Ashley long to break down his walls. He didn't even know how it happened but he knew he was gone the first time she was driven to the ground by one of the quantrons. His heart had stopped and refused to restart until he saw her get back to her feet. He found himself close to her side from then on in every battle they faced. Until now. The mega ship seemed so empty and much quieter without her contagious laughter and upbeat voice echoing through the halls. And life only got better with her to support him as Zhane awoke from his two-year coma, and his long lost sister returned to him and the cause of good.
"Is he always this friendly?" Jamie asked sarcastically to Zhane as he gave her the grand tour of the mega-ship. She was referring to the red ranger's rude behavior when she had first arrived a few minutes ago.
"Oh that?" Zhane said as he tried to cover up his best friend's behavior with an excuse. Sighing he knew he could not. Besides she deserved the truth, she'd find out sooner or later why there was a need for a new yellow ranger. And she deserved a warning about Andros.
"Listen Jamie. There are some things you should know. It might make it easier to understand Andros." The silver ranger began to explain as he ushered her into the recreation room.
Her green eyes watched him as he uneasily tried to explain. "The reason you're here Jamie is because the former yellow ranger is pregnant and had to resign." Understanding flashed in her emerald eyes and she followed his statement with one of her own. "And let me guess-she's his girlfriend." She concluded finally. Zhane nodded.
"I hope he plans on apologizing." TJ exclaimed in frustration as soon as Zhane joined the others for a short conference. "We're never going to be a team if he has such animosity towards Jamie." The blue ranger announced as he paced around the room.
"God, Teej. Ashley's only been gone two weeks." Cassie said accusingly, her dark eyes flashing at him. TJ softened at her expression and came to stand next to her. "Cass, it's not that I don't miss Ash already, but we have to keep on." He said as he placed a hand on her shoulder, only to be brushed off by Cassie.
"Yeah Cass. Even Ash would want us to move on. We have to. It's our job." Carlos added, trying to convince the sad pink ranger as she turned her back on the group.
"What are we going to do about Andros?" Cassie asked quietly, without turning around. The others stopped their pacing and discussing to think about their most pressing problem at the moment. Their leader.
"Andros was never as close with his old team as he is with you guys. I don't know what he'd do if he lost any of you. And he never was in a relationship before; I know he's worried sick about Ashley. His whole life has been wrapped up in being a ranger, its what he does, and it's who he is. And now he's realizing that's no way to live." Zhane said, trying to encourage them to be patient with him right now.
"Do you think he'll leave too?" Karone wondered a bit anxiously. She didn't feel close to anyone quite yet, and didn't know what she would do if he did leave.
"I don't know Karone." Zhane admitted slowly, wishing he could give them all more answers. He rubbed his hands over his face, exhausted both physically and emotionally.
"I guess we'll just take it one day at a time." TJ supposed thoughtfully. The room was silent as life after Ashley continued on the mega ship.
"Has anyone told Jamie?" Carlos asked, causing everyone to look at him. The thought hadn't occurred to them. Well most of them.
"I did." Zhane admitted, not afraid to look Carlos in the eye. But Carlos wasn't upset, it was something that had to be done and he was glad that he didn't have to do it. But his respect for the silver ranger grew as he was seeing first hand Zhane taking over some of the leadership role from Andros. Anything to help his best friend.
Cassie wondered if Ashley had the same luxury back home. She had been a ranger for almost a year and a half, long leaving her "normal" life in Angel Grove behind. She knew from experience that her friends had changed and moved on with their lives, and expected that Ashley's had done the same. Though they hadn't traveled in the same social groups, and Cassie tended to be more of a loner, she knew that Ashley had sacrificed a lot, like her cheerleading team, and dance classes to become a ranger and protect the planet. And now it seemed like she gave it all up for nothing, and Cassie wondered bitterly if there was a purpose for any of them being rangers. Did they give up everything only to be forgotten? Would they ever be able to have a normal life after being a ranger? She left suddenly, needing to be alone with her thoughts, and wanting to get her emotions under control before meeting Jamie.
Carlos and TJ were the only rangers there in the holding bay when Zhane arrived with Jamie, finally finishing the tour they had started before. He explained to her how the synthetron worked and helped her figure out what to eat for her first meal.
Cassie joined them a few minutes later, having returned to her usual energetic and cheerful self and introduced herself to Jamie. "Hi, I'm glad you're here." The pink ranger said sincerely. Jamie felt most of her fear melt away as she eased into conversation with the four rangers.
Karone managed to cajole Andros into leaving his spot of solitude, appealing to his sense of duty and team to get him to meet the new yellow ranger. "I probably won't like her." He protested, knowing his argument was weak, but feeling like he needed to say it in defense of Ashley. Karone just nodded and dragged him away to where the others were finishing their dinner.
Conversation stopped as brother and sister entered the room. The awkwardness did not go unnoticed by Andros. 'This is all my fault too.' He thought miserably. Forcing himself to go up to her, he was relieved to note that she bore no resemblance to his girlfriend. "I want to apologize for my behavior earlier." Jamie tried to shake him off, but he continued unrelentless. "It was uncalled for, and on behalf of the entire Astro ranger team we are glad you here with us."
Carlos wasn't the only one impressed with Andros's apology. Jamie accepted it without a second thought, imaging how hard it was for him to do so. TJ believed with Cassie helping Jamie ease into the routine, he knew it wouldn't be long until there was a sense of normalcy on the ship. Or at least he thought. He didn't know the undercurrent of thought that was racing through their leader's mind at that very moment.
Andros didn't feel like eating. There was too much on his mind to be bothered with food. Excusing himself, he finally made his way up to the observatory. Carlos left not too long after, as he had his chores to catch up on.
TJ noticed when Zhane offered to show Jamie the simudeck, and she accepted with no hesitation. Karone looked torn between wanting to go with them, and minding her own business. Cassie noticed too and managed to divert the Kerovian with a trip to the Surf Spot. He decided to go back to his room and study, knowing he had a lot of work to do if he intended to graduate high school.
"So what do you guys do all day?" Jamie asked the silver ranger curiously. Zhane laughed. "Well most of the team goes to school, unless there's an attack." He informed her.
"So high school students by day and power rangers by night." Jamie quipped and Zhane burst out in laughter.
"Something like that." Was all that he managed to get out when Cassie and Karone returned. They were surprised to find Zhane and Jamie laughing in the holding bay. Karone was even more surprised at the feeling of jealousy that swelled within her at the sight of Zhane teasing their new teammate.
"Are you still in school?" Cassie asked as the two girls entered the room. Jamie shook her head no. "No, I finished my final exams two days ago." She explained to them.
"That must be nice." Cassie said enviously. "You don't have to hide from everyone, and explain away all your disappearances." She explained to the new girl.
"So people don't know who you are?" She asked curiously, wondering if she would ever understand exactly what she got herself into.
"The less they know, the better off they are." Zhane finally added in.
"Rangers, it is getting late. You should be off to bed so you'll be ready for a full day of training tomorrow." Deca advised the quartet. Reluctantly the girls left the silver ranger behind as he watched them leave.
Zhane was slightly surprised when Karone didn't linger behind to say goodnight. He didn't ponder on it long as his own exhaustion quickly fell over him and he headed to his quarters, not even bothering to check to see if Andros was in his room. If Zhane had checked he would have seen that his best friend's room was empty.
Andros didn't know how long he had been sitting in the observatory, nor did he care. Deca didn't even bother him as debated back and forth over a decision he knew he had to make. And he was determined to make it. He couldn't go through one more day of indecision.
He had to admit that Zhane was right. He knew why Ashley had left. And it wasn't because she wanted to. His heart broke at how hard it must have been for her, to go back to a place without her friends or the one she loved. He thought his decision was hard. Sounds of music disturbed his quiet environment and he looked up at Deca questioningly. He paused to listen and let the words answer the questions he had in his heart.
It's not that I can't live without you
It's just that I don't even want to try
Every night I dream about you
Ever since the day we said goodbye
If I wasn't such a fool
Right now I'd be holding you
There's nothin' that I wouldn't do
'Why can't I just do what my heart is telling me?' he groaned. 'It doesn't have to be this way. I could be holding you right now, should be holding you right now. What's keeping me here?' he questioned as he thought about his teammates and the mega ship.
Baby if I only knew
The words to say
The road to take
To find a way back to your heart
What can I do
To get to you
And find a way back to your heart
"Love is a choice, Andros. Think of it this way; are you willing to live without them for the rest of your life? Because that's what you're risking if you let them go." His mother's words shocked him as he continued to dwell on the words of the song playing in the background.
I don't know how it got so crazy
But I'll do anything to set things right
Cuz your love is so amazing
Baby you're the best thing in my life
It hit him at that moment. He could live without being a ranger, but he absolutely couldn't live without Ashley. How did he think he could? A sense of peace came over him and he knew the debate was over. He realized what time it was and decided to wait until the morning to inform the others of his decision. And for once he didn't give a damn about the consequences. As he pulled the covers up, sleep came at once, and his dreams were filled with Ashley.
Songs: Back to your heart-Backstreet Boys
Have you ever? - Sclub