Summary: God says He'll always be there, so why does it seem we're the ones bearing the pain? Do we dare dream of a happy ending? Better than the summary.
Disclaimer: Do you really think I could wrest the Bible from God's perfect never-ending hands? Me, a powerless human with a broken heart and soul? That He made, by the way, and knows every flaw? I didn't think so.
This is a kind of a songfic, but whatever. You can read it as a songfic or a poemfic, or whateverfic you want to read it as. Also, with whatever song in your head if you read it as a songfic. If you can't tell, I'm kind of depressed. So please…if you've taken precious time to read this…pray for me…
A/N: If you're confused about
Why
I
Have
Words
Spaced
Like
This
I did that because I leave it to you to imagine every time you read a word like that, it's a beat. Of your heart. Hence the title.
Ahhh, I'm sorry I'm so blah and snappy. Forgive me and please read and review.
Pleasure no longer satisfies
The luster of life has gone from my eyes
All that remains is tears of pain
That I have inflicted on myself
I can't seem to find the one thing
That I know that I'm missing
The only thing that
I physically
Have proof of
You keeping me going
Is the one thing
I need most.
The beat of my heart….
The beat of my heart
Is
The
Only
Thing
Keeping
Me
Going
The beat of my heart
Is
The
Only
Thing
Keeping
Me
Listening
The beat of my heart
Is
The
Only
Thing
Keeping
Me
Going
The beat of my heart
Is
The
Only
Thing
Keeping
Me
Looking
For You.
I don't know why it's there
I thought I'd cried it out long ago
Now there are no more tears left
Just pain that throbs and won't go away
I have just realized that
It has been here all along
It never really went away
Because I didn't
Give it up
To You.
The only thing I have
Is the thing that hurts the most.
The beat of my heart….
The beat of my heart
Is
The
Only
Thing
Keeping
Me
Praying
The beat of my heart
Is
The
Only
Thing
Keeping
Me
Hoping
The beat of my heart
Is
The
Only
Thing
Keeping
Me
Praying
The beat of my heart
Is
The
Only
Thing
Keeping
Me
Needing
For You.
I think this conversation is long overdue
We need to have a very long talk
You need to hear more from me
And I need to hear more from You
Everything else has let me down
And nothing can bring me any lower
I need Your love to reside in me
Forever more and beyond all
It hurts too much to go on
Without You I would rather cease
More than ever
I need You to be
The beat of my heart…
The beat of my heart
Is
The
Only
Thing
Keeping
Me
Believing
The beat of my heart
Is
The
Only
Thing
Keeping
Me
Smiling
The beat of my heart
Is
The
Only
Thing
Keeping
Me
Believing
The beat of my heart
Is
The
Only
Thing
Keeping
Me
Living
For You.
I've found a joy I never knew
Was possible to exist
The way You made me new
Makes me insane for You
I can't believe how dead I was
compared to this new life
It just makes me want to dance
Who cares if someone's going to watch?
I only want to please You
Because Your Love is now in me
This I just can not describe
You've got to feel it for yourself
And though I know there'll still be strife
I know that You are by my side.
My life's not perfect but it's now complete
And it's all because
You are the beat of my heart…
The beat of my heart…
The beat of my heart.
I feel a lot better now. I feel…restored, almost. But like I said, that's not something I can just do by myself. Now I need to go and see God with my problems…
Please read and review! is feeling better
If you have any questions about my work or salvation don't be afraid to ask! I'll listen. But, really, you should go to God with them. He knows all.
If you have any flames you better leave them at home because I don't want to have to be mean to you. If you are now upset by this I'll pray for you.
God bless!
Rhana the Frog