oh wow, i… never believed anyone would want to read this… i was so thrilled to be getting comments! thanks so much everyone! i won't hold you up much longer, but comments mean so much to me. i can't even describe what it feels like. please, please, please comment!
lol... i just found this song and liked the words though i've never heard it. it's called Feel the Silence by the goo goo dolls (again). figured i might as well stick with them, 'least for a little while.

chapter title:
midnight conversations with blue eyes that never cry
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Logan sighed. That hadn't gone exactly as he'd planned. He watched her walk away. He was consumed with love for her, but it was plain that following her right now wouldn't do any good. He tried to shrug it off, telling himself that she'd just had a bad day or somethin'.

He picked up his bag and lugged it up to what had been his room. He paused briefly before opening the door. He was fairly sure they hadn't touched it; Charles always saw that it was left alone. Hm, Charles… might have to pay him a visit.

He opened the door and tossed his bag inside. Then he headed down the hall to see Charles.Sure, it was a little late, but he's a telepath, right? He probably already knows I'm here!

He reached up to knock on the door, but as usual, didn't have to. A few minutes later they'd gone through their usual rituals (Xavier offering him a seat, him declining…)

"Logan, you haven't been gone long this time. Is everything alright?"

"Mm…" he mumbled. "Yeah. Everything's fine. Guess I just… missed having cold bear in the fridge."

He smiled. "We left you room alone, but as for the beer, we're slightly lacking in that area at the moment."

"I'll fix that soon enough…" he started for the door.

"It's good to have you back."
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Logan headed for his room. He was surprised to find that it smelled different. It still had all the same smells… there were just different amounts of them. There was sure a lot more Marie smell than he remembered. And less of him… that's what happens when you go away, he supposed. But the Marie smell confused him, and stirred up so many feelings…

You lie awake at night
With blue eyes that never cry
All you remember now
Is what you feel

Gosh he'd missed her. He'd missed her so much. He loved how simple it was with her. He was himself, and she was herself, no questions asked. They didn't have to talk, but if they wanted to, it was easy, so easy…

Memories flooded back to him, conversations they'd had, that smuglook on her face, the way he could make her so angry...
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The truth remains
In midnight conversations
I asked for this moment
But you turned away

By the time Rogue reached her room, she was sobbing again. She'd spent hours dreaming about his return, but they had never gone like that. She'd thought he loved her, thought he was coming back for her. She'd thought about him so much… dreamed so many dreams.

Before she might have felt silly and young, but not now. She'd grow up and was a lot stronger than before. Now she was angry, because she had really loved him, and she knew her love was not childish.
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Sad like a lonely child
Broken the day you're born
I held the light to you
But I was so vain

He couldn't take it any longer. He had heard all the younger partiers returning, and after another hour or 2 of tossing and turning, he'd figured out exactly how useless it was to try to sleep. His mind was weary, but he had to talk to her, had to make her understand. He'd run away before, very scared of his feelings for her, but it hadn't taken long for him to "grow up".

He was standing at her door trying to figure out what to say. Maybe this wasn't a very logical thing to do, but he loved her and he'd made up his mind.
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And you remain
A promise unfulfilled
I ask you for more
But you push me away
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He opened the door and walked in. She wasn't asleep.

And if we feel the silence
Holding this all inside
Everything means more now than
Words could explain

"Marie…" He whispered.

And if we feel the silence
Holding this all inside us
Looking for something more to say
I don't know where I'm going
Only know where I been
But you move through my soul like a hurricane wind

She looked as if she would cry again. Her eyes showed so much sadness and pain.

We've been so lost for so long
I don't know how to get back again
And we're drowning in the water
That flows under this bridge
When you're fighting the current
You forget how to live
And I wanted to reach you but I don't know where to begin
And you remain
A promise unfulfilled until today

He wanted to run to her, take her in his arms, kiss her, make her feel his love, but he didn't.

And if we feel the silence
Holding this all inside
Everything means more now than
Words could explain
And if we feel the silence
Leaving this all behind us
When it's gone what will you say

She looked tired and weary, and then she rolled over so that he could not see the tears that started down her face.

How do we hold on?
How do we hold on?
You lie awake at night
With blue eyes that never cry
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there will be more as soon as inspiration strikes... :D butwho knows when that will happen! thanks to everyone who is reading! i honestly didn't mean to leave it at a cliff-hanger... it just happend that way! please forgive me! lots of love!