Notions

II. Notions on Heartless Emotions

Zexion paced back and forth in his small room with various thoughts filling the space. What he had heard earlier had him in a sticky predicament, and he couldn't stop thinking. A sitar is an instrument, and that technically means 'a tool'. So, still speaking technically, it should not have emotions of it's own, like Demyx so foolishly implied. That could not be true, even for a 'musical' instrument of the sort. Even with all his pondering, Zexion was still in the dark.

Did that mean that if the instrument did not hold emotions, then did that imply that somehow, Demyx did? No – that was almost as silly as the notion on his sitar having feelings. There was no possible way that someone without a heart – like Demyx – could have emotions or feelings. Is there such a thing as heartless emotions? No, Zexion was sure there was not, could not, would not, SHOULD not, be such a thing.

Since they had come there, to The Castle That Never Was, Xemnas had told them all the same thing. Even when it was just the six of them, he lead them – but he was always blunt in telling them that they had no hearts or emotions. Xemnas made sure that they did not forget. After all these years of repetition, Zexion should know these things did not exist. And yet – there was a doubt in his mind that had never been there before.

Vexen always told him that experimentation was the key to discovering answers. And he always told him that data was the only true proof. To hold proof in your hand will destroy the words of even the greatest men, he says. So could it be, with these thoughts, this – proof, he could prove Xemnas wrong? Could it be that there were emotions inside of them, even though it was obvious to the touch that they did not have living, beating hearts?

"Experimentation..." Zexion said it aloud, to test the word on his tongue. There was emotion in that song he heard earlier. And Vexen always told him about this law – he vaguely remembered it from his days in the lab – it says that nothing comes from nothing, and therefore, something originates from somewhere. So where did the emotion from Demyx's song come from? It was his greatest wish to take this on – and find out for himself the answers.

This could change everything he had ever known... every notion he ever had in his head... should he search further, he may find answers he never dreamed of before in his life... good... or bad... but he couldn't stop his mind from desiring the true knowledge... but who could help him in his studies? Vexen was too serious, and most of the others avoided him because of his rank or his attitude... all except for one... Demyx... perhaps he could get him to cooperate...

Actually, it was really hard to write that. Zexion's mind is a difficult thing to try and delve in to. I'm quite happy with it though, now, so... please review and tell me what you think!

Christine Lennoire