Chapter 4

Ryan's p.o.v

I throw the phone at the wall and fall back on my bed. I let out an aggravated breath. Is Troy avoiding me? No, he's just, in the bathroom or taking a shower. Sure, that's it. Wait, stop! God Ryan, you're his boyfriend not his wife. Look at you, sitting here waiting for a boy to pick up the phone. Sharpay and Kelsi's voice rings through my head. I get up and go to my closet, find something and go somewhere. I pick out my "you know you want me outfit" and make my way to the shower. You're home now Ryan, you have no excuse to spend all your time worrying about Troy. Get out, the summer's not over yet.

By the time I make it to my car, it's already dark. I hop in and let the roof down. The night's air is the best motivator for me. I back out of the drive way and make my way downtown. I'll just party a little, not too much. The lights of downtown are crazy tonight. I'm about to pick my place when I realize that I have one big problem…Sharpay is not here and she has me fake i.d.

"Damn" I say to myself, another night wasted.

I pull into the nearest parking lot, to turn around when I see Kelsi coming out of a restaurant with none other than Jason. She stops when she sees me and walks over to my car, smiling. I turn of the engine and step out.

"Hey!" she says

"Hey" I respond

She looks at me and then the car and then me again.

"You have something planned?" she ask

"Not really, actually things kinda feel through" I admit

She stares at me for awhile and walks back to Jason. She says a few things to him that aren't audible and kisses him on the check. A sweet kiss. Jason turns and goes to his car as Kelsi comes back to me.

"Let's go!" she exclaims as she makes her way to my passenger side

I whip around and get in the car. At any other time I would convince her to go with Jason and I would tell her that I don't wanna ruin her night. But tonight, I don't wanna risk her actually leaving. I need someone right now, but I can't let her know that. God, when did I get so needy?

"Where are we going?" Kelsi asked

"I don't know" I say

She closes her eyes and licks her lips. She then shoots her eyes open.

"There's a party down the street from my house" Kelsi says

"Oh, whose is it?" I ask

She shrugs her shoulders. It amazes me how she can just go to a random party and fit in. a big part of me doesn't wanna do this, but a bigger part of me is already driving the direction of the party. Suddenly my phone rings, it's Troy. I huff and sit the phone down between me and Kelsi. Kelsi picks it up, I try to grab it but it's too late. She presses talk and puts it on speaker

"Hello?" she ask

"Ryan?" Troy ask

"Nope" Kelsi simply answers "wait, is this Troy?"

"Kelsi!" Troy asks "um, why do have Ryan's phone?"

"Well, nice to hear from you too, I haven't seen you since the last day of school"

"Oh, yeah" Troy says "how are you?"

"You don't really care do you?" She ask

"No not really, where's Ryan?" he ask

"I'm right here" I say, keeping my eyes on the road "what's up?"

"Um, Ry, can you take me off speaker?" Troy ask

I reach to pick up the phone, but Kelsi grabs my hand and shakes her head. I take a deep breath.

"Alright, you're off" I lie

"Listen babe" he says "I really need to see you right now"

Kelsi's mouth is wide open and she's staring at me. I avoid her stare. She picks up the phone and hands it to me.

"Thank you" I whisper to her

I take troy off of speaker.

"Well, I tired to find you, but you wouldn't pick up" I say, remembering why I'm driving through the crowded streets instead of in his strong arms

"I um, well I had to talk to Gabbi" he says

"Oh" I say

"It's not like that!" he says quickly "I just had to talk to her"

"I understand, Troy" I lie

I don't understand.

"Great, so I'm on my way" he says

"Um" I start "I'm kinda out"

Kelsi hits my arm. I look at her, she shakes her head.

"Oh" Troy says with disappointment

"Out of popcorn!" I say covering my tracks "so when you come over, bring some"

"Oh great!" He says, filling with excitement. "I really want you, tonight"

"Tonight?" I question

"Every night!" he corrects himself

"Alright, I'll see you soon" I say, hanging up.

I put the phone in my pocket.

"So…" Kelsi says

"Look I was gonna tell you, I swear" I say

"Ryan, I can't believe this! I can't believe you!" Kelsi says

"I know!" I say "are you mad?"

"YES!" she laughs "I can not believe you! Oh my god this is so crazy"

"I would have told you earlier" I say

"Oh I know, relationships are death" she says, calming down

"Exactly!" I say

Kelsi reaches and grabs my hand

"Does he make you happy?" she ask

"So much" I say

"I'm so happy for you, Ry" she says

"Thanks, thanks a lot" I say

"Well drop me off at the party" she says

"No way, you're not going alone!" I say

"Well, you could drop me off at Jason's?" she teases

"Or you could call Jason and come to my house with me and Troy" I say

"Okay!" she says

I know, I know, I should have asked troy first, but he sounded like he really wanted to see me, so we probably would be in my room most of the night. I hope he doesn't get mad.

Troy's p.o.v

I pull into Ryan's drive way and hop out the car. That's when I notice the truck on the curb. Is that Jason's truck? I don't knock on the door; I just swing it open and go in.

"Ryan?" I call

"We're in here" we call from the living room.

We? So Jason is here. I go into the living room and see not only Jason, but Kelsi as well, all three of them on the couch watching TV. Okay, so much for a romantic night. Ryan gets up and walks over to me.

"Hey" he smiles

That smile makes me forget that anyone else is there. I grab him in my arms and kiss his soft lips. I can't do what I came here to do. I can't break up with Ryan. My cell phone rings, I'm not pulling away from Ryan. The phone keeps ringing. Ryan reaches in my pocket and pulls out my phone. He pulls away, but I lean back in and kiss him more. The phone stops ringing. Ryan pulls away and hands me the phone. One new message, from Chad. SHIT! Why did I not pick up? Whatever. Jason gets up and walks over to me.

"Hey" he says, eyes wide open.

"Hi" I say, nervously.

"So um, I guess Gabriella's over with huh?" he laughs

Ryan slowly looks at me. He tilts his head.

"Uh, yeah" I say wrapping my arm around Ryan

"Really?" Ryan ask "I know that must have been hard for you"

Great! I thought this would be easy. I thought Ryan would be mean about the whole thing and I could tell him that it was hard for me and storm out. But he had to act so…Ryan. So nice and caring. I can't lie to him. I should leave. Ryan grabs my hand and pulls me towards the stairs, and the last thing I think about is leaving.

"So, we're just gonna stay down here?" Jason asks as we leave him. "What am I supposed to do?"

"Hello?" Kelsi says from the couch

"Oh" he says turning around.

Ryan pulls me up the stairs and into his room. Before I can open my mouth he rips off his shirt and stares at me. His mouth open.

"I'm ready" he says

I grab his waist and pull him to me. He runs his fingers through my hair as I rub his bare back. Wait, stop. STOP! I pull away. I can't do this to him. I can't lie to him and have my way with him. I love him and the last thing I wanna do is hurt him. And the longer this goes on the more it's gonna hurt him in the end. I need to choose, and until I do, I can't have either. This is probably the most mature choice I've ever made. Ryan looks confused.

"I can't" I manage to say

"Why?" he ask "is it me?"

"NO!" I say "it will never be you!" I say

"Then what?" he ask

"It's me" I say

Ryan walks to the bed and sits down.

"Look, I know you didn't really break up with Gabbi" he says

"You did?" I ask "then why did you"

"Pretend to believe you?" he ask "well I didn't wanna embarrass you"

That's it. I run to Ryan and lay myself on top of him.

"Are you sure?" He ask me

"Hell yes!" I say, rolling him on top of me.

I've never been surer of anything. So I live in the moment, with out the thought of how Gabbi will fell. Because right now I want my Ryan. That's when there's a knock on the door. Ryan gets off of me and walks to the door.

"Who is it?" he ask

"Ry, um someone's at the door" Kelsi says "its Taylor and Gabriella"

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