Chapter 13

Troy's p.o.v

I look down at Ryan, panting under me. My hand quickly moving up and down on his length, his hand's digging into my back. His eyelashes flutter as my hair lies gently above his eye brows. His mouth hangs open begging for my tongue. I lean in and press my open mouth to his. His face is warm, but mine is on fire. He lets me control the kiss. My tongue moves smoothly in his wet mouth. He moans into my mouth. I pump my hand faster and pull away. His face is flushed and he's biting his bottom lip. I feel him swell up. He opens his mouth but nothing comes out. I pump a few more times and my name slips out of his mouth. In a faint whisper. I use his discarded shirt to clean him up and collapse next to him. He looks over at me and smiles. I wrap my hand around his waist. He leans in close and lays his head on my bare chest. I run my hand over his soft stomach.

"So how was school?" I ask

I feel his body tense up, oh shit.

"Nothing" he says

"Ry, don't lie. You're not good at it" I laugh

He doesn't laugh back. Okay, Troy, prepare yourself.

"What happened?" I repeat

He lets out a slow breath.

"Well, Gabbi retaliated" he says

I slowly sit up, causing him to lift away from my chest.

"How bad was it?" I ask once my back is against the headboard.

He gets up and walks to the furthest corner of the room as if he's afraid that I'll explode and hurt him. I could never hurt him, not again. He looks down.

"Well she had pictures" he starts

I feel my self getting off the bed.

"Of what" I ask

"Of us" he says

"Of us doing what!" I plead

He looks back up at me. I lean against his desk barley able to contain my anxiety.

"Please sit back down, Troy" he asks

"Ryan!" I say, hurrying him to tell me what happened.

I mean, how bad could it be?

"She had pictures of kissing" he says

"What? How?" I ask

"I don't know" he says

Oh well, it's not that bad.

"What does she want for them?" I ask

He looks away from me. His fingers fidget with each other

"It's not like that" he says "she …she posted them around school and everyone saw them"

My knees give out and I fall to the ground. Ryan rushes to me.

"Troy!" he says

My stomach does flips and I feel sick. Ryan sits down next to me; he puts his hand on my back to try to soothe me. I move away.

"Please don't" I say, my voice is caught in my throat.

I can't let him touch me. I can't know that this is real. This is not how I wanted to come out, if I decided to come out at all. How could I be so stupid? How long did I think I could hide him? Hide us. Our relationship is poison. Everything we come in contact with dies. First our love got us kicked out of camp and now it's gonna make school absolute hell. Maybe we should end it. I mean at camp, I didn't have a reputation and I was never gonna see those people again. But here, I am known. I'm known as the golden basketball boy. This is gonna kill me. I can't have this. I need to end it. All this crap is a sign. Me and Ryan just weren't meant to be. We can't avoid fate. I slowly lift myself up. Ryan stares at me, waiting for a reaction. I walk over to the closet and begin taking my clothes out.

"Troy? What are you doing?" Ryan ask

Just ignore it. Because if I turn around and explain myself, I would break down. I grab all of my clothes and throw them on the bed. I get on my knees and pull my bag from under his bed. This is the second time I'm leaving a place I still love. Ryan gets what I'm doing. Once I get up he runs over to me.

"Troy? What are doing?" he asks, his voice breaking

I don't say anything; instead I throw my clothes in the bag and zip it up. Just leave, forget your tooth brush and everything else, just go. I go to the door and I hear Ryan's bed move as he falls down. I stop.

"So that's it?" he ask

I turn to see him sitting on the bed; he's looking at me in confusion, helplessness. Tears slowly run down his face, but he's not sobbing.

"Your just gonna…leave. Leave me here with this problem, while you can just deny me? I thought you said you loved me, that means forever, right?" he ask

I open my mouth to talk but nothing comes out.

"Your just gonna run away? Again? How can leave me now?" he pleads

I slowly walk over to him and sit down next to him. Tears are making there way down my face.

"Ry, I ... I don't know" I manage to say

I wanna kiss his tears away, but I don't. He's sobbing now and so am I.

"So this is the end?" he ask

"No, yes… I don't know" I say

I move my hand under his, but he pulls away. He turns and looks at me, the tears are still flowing, but his face is no longer sad, but angry. He clenches his jaw shut.

"Then leave" he says as clear as day

"But…" I say

"But what?" he ask

I don't know, I can't say anything to make this better. I have to go.

"Get out" he says

I get up and grab my bag. I open the door and see Sharpay looking back at me; she must've been coming up the stairs. She has a smile on her face, but it quickly fades once she sees her brother crying on the bed. She looks back at me and sees my tears. Her face drops.

"Please don't" she says

"I'm sorry" I say, my voice full of tears.

I push my way past Sharpay and run down the stairs. It's raining outside again and the sky is a blank gray. I get in my car and throw the bag in the back. I start the car up. I give one more quick glance at Ryan's window, to see if he might be looking down at me, wanting me back. He's not. He really wants me gone. My Ryan hates me now. I pull out of the drive way and begin down the street. I get to a stop sign and I can't take it anymore. I let out the loudest scream I've ever screamed and lean against the steering wheel. I let out all my cries. I gasp for breath, but only cry more. Why? Why did I just do that? God, I'm such an idiot. I scream again, this time from anger at myself and at the fact that instead of losing a problem, I just created another one. And now I have no one to hold and cry to. I press the gas and drive down the road, not knowing where to go. That's when my cell phone rings. I let out a breath and clear my throat. I pick up.

"Hello?" I ask my voice about to let out cries at any minute.

"Troy, you okay?" it's Chad

I can't hold it back anymore; I let out all my tears and pain. It's not the first time I've cried to Chad.

"Troy? What happened?" he asks, worried "look, just come over, okay?"

"Alright" I sob

"Hurry up man" he says and hangs up

I hang up the phone and continue driving. Maybe Chad can help me. Maybe

Much later

Ryan's p.o.v

It's been about four months since I last talked to Troy Bolton. The days are slow at school. Without him the pain never ends. I tell everyone I'm fine, but they no I'm not. Our break up has put a damper on everything. We have to schedule when we're gonna go out to make sure me and Troy both aren't there. Sharpay is back to smothering me and Taylor is back to taking care of me. I'm back to been poor little Ryan. In classes me and Troy avoid each other and in the hall ways we act as though we don't know each other. Lunch is hard. Troy sits with Chad. And because Troy is Zeke's friend, he has to be there for him, and since Sharpay is my sister, she has to be there for me. Meaning, they almost never get to see each other. Me and Troy breaking up is leading to Sharpay and Zeke breaking up. The school has settled down about the pictures and Gabbi, seeing that she won, is back to herself. Troy came out to Chad, and it took Chad about a week to accept Troy. But they are best friends, so he really didn't have a choice. Everyone pressured Troy to reclaim his title, so he now has a girlfriend. Some girl named Amber, she's a cheerleader. They hug and laugh together, but never kiss or touch. I moved on to, I go out with Daniel. He's new here and is on the soccer team. He says he loves me, but he doesn't. He doesn't know what love is, but neither does Troy. We hug and kiss, but I could never take it farther then that. I can't explain it. He has the class with me and Troy, so AP English is officially the most awkward class.

I feel Daniel's rough hands playing with my back as we sit in class. We're getting paired up for a studies essay and I pray that Daniel is my partner. He tickles my sides and I let out a laugh. Everyone turns to look at me and Daniel quickly pulls away his hands.

"Sorry" I say to everyone looking at the back of the room, where we're sitting.

Everyone turns back around, but Troy. He stares at me from the side as Daniel puts his hand back under my shirt. Troy sees him; he quickly makes eye contact with me for the first time in months. It's only for a second. I quickly look away.

"Okay, Ryan and Christy" Mr. Gray calls out

"Aw man" Daniel whispers

"And Daniel and Troy. Alright pair up and let's get to work"

My heart drops. No, please say that did not just happen. The sound of scuffling feet fills the room as everyone goes to find their partner. Daniel gets up, but Troy is already here. He looks down at me. Daniel sits back down. Troy opens his mouth but I quickly get up.

"You can have my seat" I mumble as I walk up the aisle of desk and over to Christy, whose running a brush through her orange hair. I take a seat and we begin talking. We spend the entire class talking about clothes. The bell rings and every one rushes out the door. Daniel walks over to me. We make our way out of the class. Once in the hallway we split up with a quick good bye. I push through the traffic in the halls until I get to my locker. And leaning against it is Troy. He spots me and rushes my way. I meet him half way. This is a bad idea, I know it. I should have just walked away.

"What do you want?" I ask

"Are you happy with that idiot?" he ask

No beating around the bush.

"Yes" I lie

He shakes his head

"No your not, he's not your type" he says

I push past him and go to my locker, he follows me.

"And what exactly is my type Troy Bolton?" I ask as I twist my combination into my lock.

"I don't know. Just not him" he says

I swing my locker open, but Troy quickly slams it shut. I whip my head to him.

"Ry, I'm your type… and I still love you" he says

No.

"I'm not going through this again. Daniel is out and is okay with who he is, he's not ashamed of us" I say

Troy stares at me for awhile.

"I was never ashamed of us" he says

The bell rings and the hall slowly clears out.

"Thanks Troy, now I'm late" I say, trying to sound angry

"Ryan, I'm sorry" he says "and I still love you, but if your happy with this jerk, then, who am I to stop you?" he ask

He turns to leave.

"Wait" I say

He turns back around.

"I'm not happy. I still love you" I say

He smiles and rushes over to me. He slams me against the locker and kisses me hard. He pulls back and he looks as through he's about to cry.

"I love you, I'm so sorry" he says

I pull him back to me. The kiss has no passion; it's not the kind of kiss that leads to a make out session. It's just a kiss connecting us, binding us together, if only for a moment. Suddenly I hear a clap in the back ground. We both stop and look around. Behind us, coming out of the bathroom is Kelsi. She's beaming. She runs over to us and jumps on my back.

"Does this mean Troy and Ryan are back together?" she ask

Troy nods and kisses me again. Kelsi jumps off my back and begins jumping up and down.

"This is so perfect!" she squeals

Troy laughs.

"Yeah it is" he says

And I know now that he still loves me. Together we will have struggles and problems, but I know that we will make it through. That's when it hits me.

"Do you know what this means?" I ask

"What?" Kelsi responds

"Gabbi is gonna try to ruin us" I say

"Well, we'll just have to deal with that won't we? But right now, I just wanna be with you" Troy says

Kelsi looks at her watch.

"Oh well look at the time…I should be in Calculus. I'll see you guys later" she says as she turns and walks down the hall.

I wave her goodbye.

"Does Sharpay still hate me?" Troy ask

"No, she never hated you" I say

"Did you?" he ask

I think awhile

"No" I say

"Great" he says, he leans in and kisses my forehead.

Yeah Great.

So no that's not the end, not even close. Did you think they were really over? I hope not. Well I know they didn't talk for awhile, but I had to get things moving along and yes, Evil Gabbi will return, with a little help. But yeah, um Chad isn't homophobic, but he's not crazy about gays either, he's still adjusting. But that'll be in the next chappie. Oh and Nicole's revenge is coming up.

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