Chapter 16

So I decided to mail the sex scene because it's really graphic and I've been advised to email it instead of post it. So if you want it then just tell me so, either in a review or a PM. Alright? Well then, let's get started.

Ryan's p.o.v

I sit in my bed, under my cover with my back against the head board. Troy's sleeping, quite loudly, next to me. The room is full of the heat that we created. I don't move a lot, because I'm kinda sore. Sure it wasn't my first time, but Troy feels bigger then he looks. The TV's on, but I focus on what Troy said while we were having sex. "I'd die without you, Ryan". The sentence repeats it's self over and over again in my head. Did he really mean that or was he just caught up in the moment? Troy shifts slightly in his sleep and his arm tightens across my waist. We both need showers, but neither one of us have the energy to move. Does Troy really think he'd die without me? Should I feel the same way? I mean sure if he died I'd be completely upset and would probably end up hurting myself until I felt better, but die…..I don't think I would. That's horrible isn't it? I don't know what's wrong with me. My house phone rings and I reach across Troy to the nightstand and pick up the cordless.

"Hello?" I ask

"Ryan?" it's Taylor

"Hey, Ty, what's up?" I ask, wondering why she isn't still at school waiting for Chad to leave basketball practice.

"Um…Kelsi said…..I don't believe her, but…..please tell me you and Jason haven't been doing anything" she finally says

It takes me awhile to realize where she got that idea from.

"Ty, now you know I would NEVER cheat on Troy, I'm not the cheating type" I say

"Well yeah that's what I thought….but then I realized, you're cheating on Daniel with Troy." She says

Damn, she's right.

"Well, yeah okay, but I…um…it's not really…"

"Ry, you don't have to explain, I get it. But, Jason! I mean come on, tell me it's not true." She says

"It's not true!" I snap

"Alright, alright, god! I was just making sure. You know Kelsi called me, she said she tired to call you, but your phone was off, she thinks it's because you're guilty" she informs me

Yeah right, like I would spend more than a few seconds thinking about Kelsi when Troy was on top of me giving me the world.

"My phone was off because I was…busy" I say, not really lying

Taylor giggles.

"I know, anyone who cared enough to stop on the sidewalk and glance at your window would know."

I quickly turn to the window and my jaw drops. My white drapes are pulled up, clearly allowing anyone to easily look into my window. Thank god for the storm or the street would be littered with little groups of pre teens "hanging out" with there little friends. And all it would take is one quick glance at my window, for a year of ridicule.

"Don't worry, I shut my blinds, but you two are so cute together!" she squeals

"Taylor!" I say

"Sorry, sorry. But on a more serious note, you need to talk to Kelsi" she says

I can hear a knock on her door, from over the phone

"I gotta go, I'll call you later tonight, if your not….busy" she giggles

"GOOD BYE" I laugh

I put down the phone. It only takes three seconds for it to ring again. I let out a frustrated sigh and pick the phone back up.

"Hello?" I ask

"Ryan?" A deep voice ask

"Yeah" I say questionably

"It's Jason" he says

"What do you want?" I snap

"I can't stop thinking about you" he says

"WHAT!" I ask

He can't stop thinking about me? He's straight! He has sex with girls! We aren't even that close! He goes out with Kelsi! This just doesn't add up! JASON IS NOT GAY!

"Ever since our thing in class today" he says "I just can't stop thinking about you"

"What thing! There was no 'thing'!" I say

"I just, I don't know" he says "I'm confused"

Okay calm down Ryan. If he is gay the last thing you wanna do is make him even more afraid to come out.

"Jason, are you gay?" I ask

"NO!" he almost yells "I just, I can't explain it. I just wanna touch you and be around you."

Why, God? Why have you cursed me with this bad luck?

"Listen Jason, you don't wanna touch me, you just have bad luck with girls and you feel like maybe you should try guys" I lie.

He has great luck with girls. He lets out a breath.

"You don't understand! I just…just let me in." he says

Huh?

"Where are you?" I ask

The door bell rings and I quickly jump out of the bed, waking Troy, who happens to be a light sleeper. I grab Troy's shirt from the floor and throw it on. I unlock my door and run into the hall way. Sharpay is already at the door.

"DON'T OPEN THE DOOR!" I yell at Sharpay.

She whirls around. She looks surprised to see me.

"Why?" she ask, her hand still on the doorknob.

The doorbell rings again. Sharpay moves away from the door.

"It's Jason. He wants to see me, but …it's a long story, just don't open the door." I say

"Okay" she says.

She walks to the end of the stairs.

"Who's at the door?" Zeke ask from behind me

The feeling of his warm breath on the back of my neck makes me jump. I whirl around.

"Zeke, you scared the shit out of me" I say "it's Jason and, it's a long story" I repeat

His shirt is off, revealing his toned chest. Sharpay's got great taste. STOP! Don't focus on him. My door swings open and Troy steps out in my underwear. I smile at how small they are on him. He looks like an overgrown child. His hair is messy and his eyes are squinty.

"What's going on?" he ask in a raspy voice, while running his hand through his hair.

The door bell rings again. That's when I realize, I still have the phone. I lift it to my ear.

"Hello?" I ask

"Please let me in" he begs

"Please leave and we'll talk later!" I say

I wait for a response. The phone hangs up and I hear his car door shut and his tires burn down the street. I hang up the phone. And smile. Good, got myself outta that. That's when I notice everyone's staring at me. Troy in my under wear, clearly revealing a perfect out line of his lower half, Zeke in his basket ball shorts, with his huge arms folded across his bare chest, and me in nothing but a tee shirt.

"Well, this is awkward" Sharpay says as she gets to the hallway and stands next to Zeke.

"So you tell me why Jason was at our front door?" Troy ask

"Our" front door? God, he's only back one day and he's already claiming what he doesn't own.

"It's a long story" Zeke and Sharpay say in unison

They look at each other and laugh.

Troy walks over to me and kisses me. He pulls my close to him. He pulls away and looks in my eyes. He's still sleepy.

"Come back to bed" he says

Before I can respond he pulls me back close to him and rams his mouth to mine. His tongue is familiar with mine, and they greet each other with ease. He grabs my arm and pulls me back into my bed room.

"Um, okay, we'll talk later" Sharpay calls from the hallway "let's play follow the leader again" she giggles as she drags Zeke into her bedroom.

Our family needs serious counseling. Troy locks the door and turns back to me. He quickly pushes me onto the bed and crawls back on top of me. He leans in close. His eyes are still reddish from being woken up, there only half open. He needs to go back to sleep, yet he still wants me.

"I want to do it again" he commands, placing his lips hard against mine for a second

"You can have whatever you want" I say.

And with those words he gets up and pulls down my underwear, with great struggle. I sit up and quickly pull off my shirt. He comes back to me and waits. I spread my legs and he comes on the bed. He pulls my legs upward and I let them rest on his shoulders, the way he likes it. He looks down and focuses on entering me.

"I love you" he says, still not looking at me

"I love you too" I say

Troy's p.o.v

Jason has been acting weird around me and Kelsi refuses to talk to me, while all Taylor does is giggle at me. I am so lost. But I don't have time to worry about that. I finish up the last chapter and close my History book. Chad taps my shoulder from behind me and hands me a note. I unfold it.

What happened with you last night? You never showed up.

Oh yeah, I almost forgot. I didn't see Chad earlier because he had morning practice.

Um I stayed at Ryan's, sorry I didn't tell you. But I'm gonna be moving back in with him

I pass the note back. He reads it awhile and then passes it back.

Oh. Why did you spend the night? Wait…I don't wanna know. You coming to

the game tonight?

Oh, I almost forgot.

Yeah, we'll be there. So how does it feel to be the new captain?

I pass the note back. He reads it and sighs, he passes it back

Like shit. Your dad's been too tough ever since your mom finally moved out and

He realized that he let go of the best player on the team, just because you're

…you know, gay.

Wow, I had no idea Dad even cared that I was off the team. Well, if ever wants me back all he has to do is ask. But what will I say? If I say yes, I'll be approving of the way he treats gays and the unfair standards that he sets for me. And if I say no then I'll be turning down any chance of me getting into college and leaving Albuquerque. God, I'm fucked.

Well, maybe you should quit.

I pass the note back to him. He reads it and quickly passes it back to me

Yeah, and I'll get to college on my grades.

I laugh out loud at this. He punches me in the back.

"Sorry" I whisper

The bell rings. Everyone rushes out of the class. Chad rushes past me.

"I gotta get to class, I'll see you later. I'll be over Taylor's tonight." He says as he rushes out of the door.

I get up and grab my bag. I walk to the door and Ryan's there waiting for me. He lights up my entire day, with his warm smile. I rush over to him. He's smiling. We walk towards his locker. Once we make it up stairs I realize how much I love the boy standing next to me. I wanna reach down and grab his hand, but I don't. It took FOREVER for everyone to believe that the pictures were fake and I don't wanna repeat the last couple of months. The way Ryan's hand constantly fidgets; I can tell he wants to grab my hand too. But we both know are love is meant to be kept a secret until the time is right. So we walk beside each other, not touching, but mentally embracing each other. It feels so weird to be apart of Ryan, even when were not touching. No matter what happens, we will always be connected. Thank god for last night, and thank god, we can go home and do it again.

So what did you think? Remember to tell me if you want the sex scene. I only have one request so far. It's gonna be from Ryan and Troy's p.o.v. tell me what you think.

Luv ya