sorry for the hiatus – weekend and all and I wanted to get some ideas together.
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Once back at the house, Anya went to have a shower. She was confused; she didn't know what to make of Dean's new promise, and why he would have done so.
She stood in front of the mirror and stared at herself while she waited for the hot water to run. Dean had gone on to tell Sam about it all but she wasn't sure if he was going to tell his brother about his new promise.
Dean was a pretty complex guy, even though he said he was simple.
She sighed and got into the shower and washed her hair. She needed to think.
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"You what?" Sam asked amazed. Dean ran a hand through his hair and winced.
"See that's why I never tell you anything, your such a girl sometimes" dean replied. Sam walked around the room.
"why would you make a new promise to her when – hell Dean, you don't feel that way about her – that's what you've said or is that different now?" Sam asked with his arms crossed. Dean gave his brother the look.
"I don't know man, it's like, I like her but when I really think about it – I really like her, she grounds me"
"Grounds you, like your high all the time Dean, tell me your not doing this for pity, because that will kill her"
"I don't do things for pity" he broke off as Anya walked into the room, one look at them and she knew what they were talking about.
Her.
"I'm absolving you from your promise Dean" she said.
"What?" Dean asked.
"You made promise out of pity or whatever you want to call it, I don't or didn't expect you to uphold it, and forgive me if I go on a poor me trip here, you didn't notice me back then, so why would you now? – because of this?" she held up the magazine and let it drop onto the table. "No thanks, I'm no one's prize" she walked out grabbing her keys on the way.
Neither of them said anything, as they heard her drive away.
"Man you have issues" Sam said sitting down.
"I have issues? You're the one who has a so called girlfriend in another town and you never call her" dean replied walking out to the porch. Sam sighed.
He had a point. He followed Dean out onto the porch.
"Dean man, sorry, I'm just trying to figure that out, Anya is very sensitive and not to mention – "
"that she's been in love with me since like what forever, it messes with my head man, i've never had anyone give me anything and all of a sudden I've got all this, Michael's will, Anya's – " dean cut off and looked at him. "You're the romantic one, the one that knows what to do all the time"
"I just go by what I feel Dean, what my heart says, that's why its hard for me to move on from Jessica, but I know I have to but its hard" Sam leant on the balcony. "Dean if she means anything to you in the kind of ever after bit….. and you feel like you can be loyal and faithful to her, then I'd say go after her, but if that's not it then leave her be, she's already lost you once I'm sure she's better at it by now"
"if I can be loyal, to the right woman I can be – I cant believe we're having this conversation, yeah man she means a lot to me, I didn't think she would but – "
"So go after her and tell her, and if anything happens – don't be so vocal" Sam moved out of the way fast enough for dean's hit not to get him.
"You're a bitch sometimes"
"Not as much as you're a jerk, so your going after her?"
"well I would except I don't know where she went now do i?" dean asked looking at him. "not unless you can use your psychic neurons to tell me that?"
"no"
"didn't think so, worth asking though, guess I'll have to wait till she gets back"
"or you can call her?" sam hinted.
"I could, but she might hang up" dean pulled out his phone.
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Anya sat on the hood of her car. The headlights were still on and they illuminated the lake a bit, she could see the water rippling.
Her mobile beeped, sighing she pulled it out and looked at the caller ID. Dean.
She really didn't feel like talking to him but she knew she had to. Her heart demanded it.
"Winchester" she answered.
"Anya, look I just wanted to make sure your ok, and that your safe"
"I'm fine, I'm in a great spot enjoying the view, and thinking"
"Great, cause I wanted to talk to you"
"About? Dean honestly the whole promise thing – "
"its for real Anya" she didn't say anything straight away.
"why?" she asked unsure of what she was going to hear.
"can we talk when I see you, I'm going to assume your not going to tell me where you are"
"I need time out dean, not from you, I haven't had a chance to breath on my own since Michael – died, I'll be home later" she hung up.
Tears clouded her vision as she put her phone away.
She drove home 2 hours later. She had to talk to Dean, she owed him that and an apology.
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Dean sat in the lounge with his eyes closed. It was 10pm and he had spoken to her 2 hours ago. Sam had long given up waiting with him and went to sleep a bit earlier then usual. For two reasons.
One – because he was genuinely tired.
Two – he wanted to give them some space. Dean could be stubborn and so could Anya.
What a pair.
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More to come………………… thanks for any reviews or feedback…
Hope I added some much needed Sam/Dean humor.