Title: Silent Screams
Author: NT aka Aku-chan
Pairings: Rei/Kai or Tala/Kai, Tyson/Max, Kenny/ Yasashiku(OC)
Disclaimer: Okay... I have done this 15 times already... how many more times do ya need?!?! *quits*
Max: Right on!
Aku: x.x Refer back to other chapters for Disclaimer... if you actually do... I'm frightened. No more disclaimer writing, he quit and all my cash is to feed Tyson.
Shiku: Polls are...
Tyson: Evil.
Aku: -.-;;;; It'll be over soon, no worries.
ReixKai – 127 votes
TalaxKai – 110 votes
ReixKaixTala – 51 votes (wonder why that is still here... ^^;;;)
Aku: Holy... o.o
Rei: WOOOOOO!!! ^^V
Aku: x.x
Tala: *sulks in a corner*
Aku: I have a feeling either I messed up or someone is cheating or it could be actually that ^^;;; Oh, and if I catch anyone cheating (the likeliness is slim though) then the pairing will automatically lose.
Tala: *still sulking*
Aku: Eep! No sulky! Just to make everyone happy, the next two fics I write will be solely on the two least voted pairing, or I could write a sequel to this one...
Kai: *glares*
Aku: Sorry for making everyone turn on Kai! Actually, technically it wasn't everyone... think of Tala's and Rei's reactions, as a haven't-gotten-to-the- aftershock-not-thinking-in-a-haze-of-jealousy-and-confusion reaction. I mean... it would be normal if you heard something like that and suddenly turn on the person without meaning to.
Kai: *reading the reviews*
Aku: Aw coool! I got a flame! Haven't got one of those in a while. Hehe, I don't know if that makes sense. I love it though because apparently, I have such an influence on people, I can make them jump of cliffs! That's soooo cool! I feel so evil... hehe And because they have said 'May every thing (written as two words) in your
Kenny: Stttooooorrrrryyyyyyy!
Aku: Thanks for all the reviews!!! *goes to write*
~
Chapter Fourteen: Regretting
He smiled, finding his purpose lost now, as he too stepped to walk away, only to be stopped by a soft familiar whisper of his name. "Yasashiku?"
The blonde turned around, facing the one person he didn't want to be met with and hoped to all deities that his mask hadn't fallen, leaving the truth laid out on the table. "K-Kenny..." He cursed himself for stuttering, trying to sound composed and as if nothing was out of the ordinary.
"Why...?" The smaller boy asked his voice breaking, as his eyes began to sting with oncoming tears he tried his best to stop coming. He didn't want any of this. He couldn't stand his team falling apart and the one person he found comfort in was just another lie among the faces who smiled at him, making him feel... special.
"Kenny, I..." What could he say? Lie and say Kai wanted to tell them, so he 'helped'? Or tell the truth about the built up hatred towards the phoenix for so many years that he finally got the perfect chance for revenge? That would go well.
"Who the hell are you, Shiku?!" The small brunette yelled, his voice shattering the other two out of their trances.
"Kenny-" He didn't want to lose him. Then again, who would believe him after everything that happened?
"No! I don't want to hear it! You've done enough..." The smaller boy whispered, his voice filling anyone's heart with guilt no matter who they were. "And you..." His eyes darkened at the two who went on defense. "How could you do that to him?!" Kenny yelled, his patience lost and hopes diminished. The team was already broken, so he had nothing else to lose.
"What do you-" Before the neko-jin could finish, the once reserved boy lashed out again, his fists clenched at his sides.
"How could you turn your backs on Kai like that?! You should know him better than that! And everyone has a goddamn secret about their past! But it's just that! The past!!" His cheeks flushed from anger, a few tears slipping from his eyes. "But you do nothing, but hate him for what he's done... You're idiots."
Slowly, it sunk into their heads, regret slowly forming a heavy dark cloud over them, the worry building for their lost friend. "God, how... how could we...?" Rei fell to his knees, his raven hair limp on the ground, and the brilliance of his golden eyes gone.
His heart clenched in his chest, his breathing harder, as he let him go. He let the phoenix slip from his grasp only to be left alone out there. "Dammit!" Tala's hand made contact with the wall, drops of scarlet falling from his fist.
The blonde looked away, wondering if he made the right choice. Kai's team did have a right to know about that, didn't they? And the phoenix deserved it after everything that happened. Didn't he?
"I'm... sorry." He whispered, knowing it wouldn't be enough for the small brunette. "I'll... just leave..." And the door opened, as he closed it from the outside. Kenny sank to his knees, having heard the door shut, and cried. His glasses fell off his face, revealing two ocean emerald eyes that glistened in pain and sorrow.
The raven-haired boy wrapped his arms around the brunette, trying to comfort the one who would always help them improve their skills. Yet again, he's improved him, telling him those words. And he could only wonder why he had instantly turned his back on Kai.
***
The wolf had left, knowing he was better off not in the remaining Bladebreakers presence, as he scanned through the files once more, his crystal eyes not missing a single word.
[Hiwatari Kai was found near the murder sight of Wong Seiichi, 18-year-old Chinese musician. Wong was killed by a gunshot to the chest, and died from a loss of blood. Hiwatari was found beside the body of Seiichi.]
Tala could almost see it play out in his mind, but he could never see Kai as emotionless. He remembered his past in the Abbey with the phoenix, and he felt like crying. And he hated himself for thinking Kai would do that just for the hell of it.
'Kai, you never wanted to hurt anyone.' Tala could remember the phoenix when he was younger, always crying whenever he saw anything that was hurt, whether it be a bird, a butterfly, or maybe a stray cat. Everything would affect him and hurt him.
'And I'm just the same.'
[Sent to court, Hiwatari was found not guilty of being responsible for Wong's death due to a lack of evidence. Wong was buried in a small town in Japan where he lived most of his childhood.]
Opening another folder, Tala read the words that he had before, already knowing what to expect.
[Wong's lawyer claims it was proven that Hiwatari's fingerprints were on the gun that shot Seiichi, yet the paperwork seemed to have gone missing.]
'Of course they were missing. They were fighting a losing battle when against the owner of Biovolt's grandson. Voltaire got his filthy hands on them.'
Finally, he opened the last folder of Kai's trial of Seiichi's murder. It was an email that was sent from Voltaire to Boris.
[Boris. Kai is to be brought to my mansion by next Friday after the testing of Black Dranzar. During the days to come, you are to train him to never mess up another mission. Voltaire.]
'How did I not see it? Kai always came back with more bruises and cuts then usual and he would always be limping.'
"Don't worry 'bout me. I'm fine." The wolf could remember Kai always saying that to him when he would see the phoenix, which then became more rare each day. Until Thursday when Kai was caught with Black Dranzar and sent off.
And a bitter smile formed on his lips. 'I thought he was dead. That I'd never see him again. And I cried for so long that I remember being punished for my emotions. But... then I saw you, Kai, before the Worlds. And you were at the Abbey, trying to remember a past that you regret having. Yet...'
*Flashback*
"Kai, do you regret ever going to the Abbey?" The wolf asked curiously, breaking the peaceful silence.
"Hm?"
"When you came back before the Worlds." Tala didn't want to bring up bad memories, but he wanted to know.
"Of course I regret it." He didn't know why, but it hurt. "Why do you ask?"
"No reason. Just... curious."
And then they sunk into another silence, only to be broken by the phoenix this time. "I ran through those halls searching." Kai began, as crystal blue eyes laid over him, waiting patiently for him to continue.
"I was searching for a past. It wasn't until then that I realized I truly didn't know what happened when I was younger. I could barely recall any childhood, if you can even call it that."
The wind blew gently over them, the two unconsciously moving closer, seeking warmth. Comfortable once again, they continued to lie on the grass, scarlet eyes staring into the blue moon, while crystal ones watched over the phoenix.
"So I kept running for what I was searching for. And... when I ran into Boris, it seemed like I never truly forgot it. And I wanted so badly at that point to forget it. Makes me wonder when I was a child, if I had the same thoughts."
"I know what you mean." Tala said, feeling strange to not have spoken, yet guilty for intervening in Kai's thoughts. He sighed happily when the other continued to speak.
"So I joined them because I had forgotten all the pain and suffering. I only remembered Black Dranzar. And then I saw you."
Unconsciously, the wolf held his breath, fearing what Kai would say, yet he was relaxed knowing that it was different now.
"And I could remember every detail. Every scream, every tear, every drop of blood. But still, I stayed. Because... I wanted it to be like old times, no matter how twisted that sounds. Because I remembered you... and I remember being with you."
Tala smiled sadly, knowing Kai didn't mean 'being with you' in the way he wanted, but he felt blissful fooling himself into hearing the second meaning.
"And I wondered if I was really running to find a past, or maybe I was... looking for you."
The redhead felt like crying, but not in sadness and all he wanted to do was hold the one beside him.
"I do regret going to the Abbey again. But I don't regret meeting you and remembering you."
"Thank you, Kai."
And the silence blanketed over the two, comfort in both minds.
*Flashback End*
'I don't regret knowing you at all. I don't regret finding out about Seiichi. Just please... come back...'
***
The small brunette had cried himself to sleep, as he was brought to his room and tucked under the covers. He closed the door gently, his eyes tired and glazed with stress and pain and sorrow and so many things that he wanted to just forget everything. Yet he knew he could never.
And he walked down the hall, finding a door opened and sobs resounding through it. He opened the door slowly, flicking on the light switch, the sight tearing at him. Tyson was on his knees, his head in his arms as he cried out, whispering mumbled words. Coming closer, golden eyes widened as the words were clear.
"I love you Max... I'm sorry... I'm sorry... Please... don't leave me... I love you... Max..." And the tears didn't seem to want to end, as the heartbroken voice continued to drone on, as if the blonde would appear out of nowhere and everything would be okay.
"Tyson?" Rei whispered, not wanting to shock the dragon, but the other didn't move at his voice. Everything just stopped. The crying, Tyson's voice. Just their breathing.
"Max... he's gone..." Tyson said emotionlessly, but his eyes betrayed him, as they were sore with redness, the tears creating stains onto his cheeks, as everything about him became dull and broken.
"So is Kai..." Rei looked down, shame filling his eyes, as he wanted to cry. But that wouldn't help.
"What's... What's happening, Rei?" Tyson asked, a few tears slipping from his eyes.
"I... don't know." And for once since he had become a Bladebreaker, he felt alone.
~
To Be Continued...
~
Aku: I actually had this done before, but my internet was being evil, so yeah.
Kenny: TOO MUCH ANGST!!!
Aku: ^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
Max: Where am I?
Kai: And where am I too?
Aku: You'll find out next chapppppie!!
Shiku: Please Review!!!!
Tyson and Rei: *crying*
Aku: WAHH! Sorrrrrry!! I'll try to make the next chappie more happy!!
Kai: Yeah right.
Tala: Never gonna happen.
Kenny: No such luck.
Aku: Thank you -.-
Author: NT aka Aku-chan
Pairings: Rei/Kai or Tala/Kai, Tyson/Max, Kenny/ Yasashiku(OC)
Disclaimer: Okay... I have done this 15 times already... how many more times do ya need?!?! *quits*
Max: Right on!
Aku: x.x Refer back to other chapters for Disclaimer... if you actually do... I'm frightened. No more disclaimer writing, he quit and all my cash is to feed Tyson.
Shiku: Polls are...
Tyson: Evil.
Aku: -.-;;;; It'll be over soon, no worries.
ReixKai – 127 votes
TalaxKai – 110 votes
ReixKaixTala – 51 votes (wonder why that is still here... ^^;;;)
Aku: Holy... o.o
Rei: WOOOOOO!!! ^^V
Aku: x.x
Tala: *sulks in a corner*
Aku: I have a feeling either I messed up or someone is cheating or it could be actually that ^^;;; Oh, and if I catch anyone cheating (the likeliness is slim though) then the pairing will automatically lose.
Tala: *still sulking*
Aku: Eep! No sulky! Just to make everyone happy, the next two fics I write will be solely on the two least voted pairing, or I could write a sequel to this one...
Kai: *glares*
Aku: Sorry for making everyone turn on Kai! Actually, technically it wasn't everyone... think of Tala's and Rei's reactions, as a haven't-gotten-to-the- aftershock-not-thinking-in-a-haze-of-jealousy-and-confusion reaction. I mean... it would be normal if you heard something like that and suddenly turn on the person without meaning to.
Kai: *reading the reviews*
Aku: Aw coool! I got a flame! Haven't got one of those in a while. Hehe, I don't know if that makes sense. I love it though because apparently, I have such an influence on people, I can make them jump of cliffs! That's soooo cool! I feel so evil... hehe And because they have said 'May every thing (written as two words) in your
Kenny: Stttooooorrrrryyyyyyy!
Aku: Thanks for all the reviews!!! *goes to write*
~
Chapter Fourteen: Regretting
He smiled, finding his purpose lost now, as he too stepped to walk away, only to be stopped by a soft familiar whisper of his name. "Yasashiku?"
The blonde turned around, facing the one person he didn't want to be met with and hoped to all deities that his mask hadn't fallen, leaving the truth laid out on the table. "K-Kenny..." He cursed himself for stuttering, trying to sound composed and as if nothing was out of the ordinary.
"Why...?" The smaller boy asked his voice breaking, as his eyes began to sting with oncoming tears he tried his best to stop coming. He didn't want any of this. He couldn't stand his team falling apart and the one person he found comfort in was just another lie among the faces who smiled at him, making him feel... special.
"Kenny, I..." What could he say? Lie and say Kai wanted to tell them, so he 'helped'? Or tell the truth about the built up hatred towards the phoenix for so many years that he finally got the perfect chance for revenge? That would go well.
"Who the hell are you, Shiku?!" The small brunette yelled, his voice shattering the other two out of their trances.
"Kenny-" He didn't want to lose him. Then again, who would believe him after everything that happened?
"No! I don't want to hear it! You've done enough..." The smaller boy whispered, his voice filling anyone's heart with guilt no matter who they were. "And you..." His eyes darkened at the two who went on defense. "How could you do that to him?!" Kenny yelled, his patience lost and hopes diminished. The team was already broken, so he had nothing else to lose.
"What do you-" Before the neko-jin could finish, the once reserved boy lashed out again, his fists clenched at his sides.
"How could you turn your backs on Kai like that?! You should know him better than that! And everyone has a goddamn secret about their past! But it's just that! The past!!" His cheeks flushed from anger, a few tears slipping from his eyes. "But you do nothing, but hate him for what he's done... You're idiots."
Slowly, it sunk into their heads, regret slowly forming a heavy dark cloud over them, the worry building for their lost friend. "God, how... how could we...?" Rei fell to his knees, his raven hair limp on the ground, and the brilliance of his golden eyes gone.
His heart clenched in his chest, his breathing harder, as he let him go. He let the phoenix slip from his grasp only to be left alone out there. "Dammit!" Tala's hand made contact with the wall, drops of scarlet falling from his fist.
The blonde looked away, wondering if he made the right choice. Kai's team did have a right to know about that, didn't they? And the phoenix deserved it after everything that happened. Didn't he?
"I'm... sorry." He whispered, knowing it wouldn't be enough for the small brunette. "I'll... just leave..." And the door opened, as he closed it from the outside. Kenny sank to his knees, having heard the door shut, and cried. His glasses fell off his face, revealing two ocean emerald eyes that glistened in pain and sorrow.
The raven-haired boy wrapped his arms around the brunette, trying to comfort the one who would always help them improve their skills. Yet again, he's improved him, telling him those words. And he could only wonder why he had instantly turned his back on Kai.
***
The wolf had left, knowing he was better off not in the remaining Bladebreakers presence, as he scanned through the files once more, his crystal eyes not missing a single word.
[Hiwatari Kai was found near the murder sight of Wong Seiichi, 18-year-old Chinese musician. Wong was killed by a gunshot to the chest, and died from a loss of blood. Hiwatari was found beside the body of Seiichi.]
Tala could almost see it play out in his mind, but he could never see Kai as emotionless. He remembered his past in the Abbey with the phoenix, and he felt like crying. And he hated himself for thinking Kai would do that just for the hell of it.
'Kai, you never wanted to hurt anyone.' Tala could remember the phoenix when he was younger, always crying whenever he saw anything that was hurt, whether it be a bird, a butterfly, or maybe a stray cat. Everything would affect him and hurt him.
'And I'm just the same.'
[Sent to court, Hiwatari was found not guilty of being responsible for Wong's death due to a lack of evidence. Wong was buried in a small town in Japan where he lived most of his childhood.]
Opening another folder, Tala read the words that he had before, already knowing what to expect.
[Wong's lawyer claims it was proven that Hiwatari's fingerprints were on the gun that shot Seiichi, yet the paperwork seemed to have gone missing.]
'Of course they were missing. They were fighting a losing battle when against the owner of Biovolt's grandson. Voltaire got his filthy hands on them.'
Finally, he opened the last folder of Kai's trial of Seiichi's murder. It was an email that was sent from Voltaire to Boris.
[Boris. Kai is to be brought to my mansion by next Friday after the testing of Black Dranzar. During the days to come, you are to train him to never mess up another mission. Voltaire.]
'How did I not see it? Kai always came back with more bruises and cuts then usual and he would always be limping.'
"Don't worry 'bout me. I'm fine." The wolf could remember Kai always saying that to him when he would see the phoenix, which then became more rare each day. Until Thursday when Kai was caught with Black Dranzar and sent off.
And a bitter smile formed on his lips. 'I thought he was dead. That I'd never see him again. And I cried for so long that I remember being punished for my emotions. But... then I saw you, Kai, before the Worlds. And you were at the Abbey, trying to remember a past that you regret having. Yet...'
*Flashback*
"Kai, do you regret ever going to the Abbey?" The wolf asked curiously, breaking the peaceful silence.
"Hm?"
"When you came back before the Worlds." Tala didn't want to bring up bad memories, but he wanted to know.
"Of course I regret it." He didn't know why, but it hurt. "Why do you ask?"
"No reason. Just... curious."
And then they sunk into another silence, only to be broken by the phoenix this time. "I ran through those halls searching." Kai began, as crystal blue eyes laid over him, waiting patiently for him to continue.
"I was searching for a past. It wasn't until then that I realized I truly didn't know what happened when I was younger. I could barely recall any childhood, if you can even call it that."
The wind blew gently over them, the two unconsciously moving closer, seeking warmth. Comfortable once again, they continued to lie on the grass, scarlet eyes staring into the blue moon, while crystal ones watched over the phoenix.
"So I kept running for what I was searching for. And... when I ran into Boris, it seemed like I never truly forgot it. And I wanted so badly at that point to forget it. Makes me wonder when I was a child, if I had the same thoughts."
"I know what you mean." Tala said, feeling strange to not have spoken, yet guilty for intervening in Kai's thoughts. He sighed happily when the other continued to speak.
"So I joined them because I had forgotten all the pain and suffering. I only remembered Black Dranzar. And then I saw you."
Unconsciously, the wolf held his breath, fearing what Kai would say, yet he was relaxed knowing that it was different now.
"And I could remember every detail. Every scream, every tear, every drop of blood. But still, I stayed. Because... I wanted it to be like old times, no matter how twisted that sounds. Because I remembered you... and I remember being with you."
Tala smiled sadly, knowing Kai didn't mean 'being with you' in the way he wanted, but he felt blissful fooling himself into hearing the second meaning.
"And I wondered if I was really running to find a past, or maybe I was... looking for you."
The redhead felt like crying, but not in sadness and all he wanted to do was hold the one beside him.
"I do regret going to the Abbey again. But I don't regret meeting you and remembering you."
"Thank you, Kai."
And the silence blanketed over the two, comfort in both minds.
*Flashback End*
'I don't regret knowing you at all. I don't regret finding out about Seiichi. Just please... come back...'
***
The small brunette had cried himself to sleep, as he was brought to his room and tucked under the covers. He closed the door gently, his eyes tired and glazed with stress and pain and sorrow and so many things that he wanted to just forget everything. Yet he knew he could never.
And he walked down the hall, finding a door opened and sobs resounding through it. He opened the door slowly, flicking on the light switch, the sight tearing at him. Tyson was on his knees, his head in his arms as he cried out, whispering mumbled words. Coming closer, golden eyes widened as the words were clear.
"I love you Max... I'm sorry... I'm sorry... Please... don't leave me... I love you... Max..." And the tears didn't seem to want to end, as the heartbroken voice continued to drone on, as if the blonde would appear out of nowhere and everything would be okay.
"Tyson?" Rei whispered, not wanting to shock the dragon, but the other didn't move at his voice. Everything just stopped. The crying, Tyson's voice. Just their breathing.
"Max... he's gone..." Tyson said emotionlessly, but his eyes betrayed him, as they were sore with redness, the tears creating stains onto his cheeks, as everything about him became dull and broken.
"So is Kai..." Rei looked down, shame filling his eyes, as he wanted to cry. But that wouldn't help.
"What's... What's happening, Rei?" Tyson asked, a few tears slipping from his eyes.
"I... don't know." And for once since he had become a Bladebreaker, he felt alone.
~
To Be Continued...
~
Aku: I actually had this done before, but my internet was being evil, so yeah.
Kenny: TOO MUCH ANGST!!!
Aku: ^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
Max: Where am I?
Kai: And where am I too?
Aku: You'll find out next chapppppie!!
Shiku: Please Review!!!!
Tyson and Rei: *crying*
Aku: WAHH! Sorrrrrry!! I'll try to make the next chappie more happy!!
Kai: Yeah right.
Tala: Never gonna happen.
Kenny: No such luck.
Aku: Thank you -.-