Title: Silent Screams
Author: NT aka Aku-chan
Pairings: Rei/Kai or Tala/Kai, Tyson/Max, Kenny/ Yasashiku(OC)
Polls:
ReixKai – 141 votes
TalaxKai – 143 votes
ReixKaixTala – 54 votes (wonder why that is still here... ^^;;;)
Aku: And to someone who asked me how to cheat... well, it's rather easy. I just rather not say in case people decide to do it x.x
Shiku: The votes will be closing after this chapter since the pairings are close... therefore, it will not be clear who's winning :P
Kenny: It's evil to have to count the votes anyways...
Aku: Sorry for the delay, but I completely lost my train of thought... not really a train, more like a car... or bike... scooter? Fine! A SHOE! And I have so much crap to deal with x.x
Kai: And you're lazy.
Aku: And I'm- hey! ...Fine.
Kai: -.-
Aku: I also have tests, applications, blah blah and more! Oh, and my friends have been planning my agenda each day (because apparently I don't have enough of a life to plan my own. So what if I'd like to sleep all day?) and I've been dragged around a lot x.x So that left me no time to actually work on my fics ^^;; Seeing how I'm in the midst of Spring Break with no ride to go anywhere and I woke up at noon, now seems like a good time to write.
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Chapter Fifteen: Losing
It was like floating in mass of... black. There was no walls, no boundaries. Nothing to stop him from feeling confined or restrained of his movements. Past thoughts no longer important, just the bliss found in solitude, in a vacant mind. He wanted to smile, but with the foreign expression, he couldn't be sure he even was smiling. He didn't care at the moment. Just happy in the calm, silent emptiness. Was this what it was like? Is this the feeling he missed? To just be alone, no thoughts, worries or concerns? This was bliss. But, as the sinner he was, he didn't deserve bliss did he?
That was when his world began to turn, spinning out of control, causing the ache in his head to grow. The images of their faces – disgusted and betrayed – it sickened him. Knowing that it wasn't the first time, it... hurt. He screamed out in the emptiness, his voice fading, never to return back to him through the infinite space. And as if a machine, he sent his mind into a temporary shut down, the emptiness of it bringing him the peace he always desired.
The tranquility wouldn't last, his curiosity sprouting and growing to a size that was irrepressible. 'Where am I?'
And he tried to open his eyes to look around, which brought along another thought. How could he know he was in this space of black when his eyes weren't even open? Or were they opened? He began to panic, his conscious taking its place back in his body, desperately fighting, as he now knew he wasn't breathing. But he didn't need to.
'Am I dead?' He mentally laughed bitterly, knowing that he truly had gone too far and wouldn't be surprised at all if he were dead or maybe even stuck between the two sides of life and death, not fit for either side. Just nothing.
"You're not dead." He searched around for the source of the calm, soothing voice, but mentally cursed himself for his stupidity. The only thing around him was darkness.
'Who are you?' Where was his voice? He tried to find his mouth, only to be struck with more panic. Where were his arms? Where was his body?
"Open your eyes." He wanted to glare telling that voice his attempt and failure at that. But he opened his eyes.
***
He opened his eyes, taking in everything. It wasn't light out, he suspected, though he wasn't sure, as he looked around to find no windows. He tried to sit up, only to groan out in pain and find a dull throb in his head. He closed his eyes, trying to regain the calm again in the darkness of his mind.
'Darkness? Was it a dream?' Slowly, scarlet irises began to open up, slowly taking in the gray surroundings that relaxed all his nerves.
"Kai." Slowly moving, crimson met with black in a hellish display, melting into the other.
"S-Seiichi..." He breathed out, his voice softer and different than he remembered.
A gentle nod and a pale hand slowly caressing his cheek and Kai felt the bliss of it all again. That empty darkness. He felt... safe. Dark red lips, contrasting sharply against the creamy white skin, gently brushed along the phoenix's forehead, black eyes filled with care, soft and beautiful.
"I'm... back..." Kai smiled, his scarlet eyes losing their luster, fading slowly back into a dreamless space.
"Yes, Kai. You're back." The raven hair splayed lazily against the strong chest, the older boy cradling his beloved firebird in his arms, as the gray melted down, the black dominated. "Forever..."
***
Sapphire eyes painfully opened, slowly remembering the past events, his heart clenching down on him. He took in his surroundings, and felt calm. The waves gently caressed against his feet, the sand massaging. The ocean smell gently wafted around him in a comforting embrace. He had always felt peaceful by the ocean. The sun shown brightly, slipping into his skin the warmth it had. It was... perfect. He looked around wondering how he ended up in such a paradise, only to remember the hand he took.
'No more pain. Only smiles.' He smiled like a little boy, walking slowly into the water he loved and felt bonded to.
"Max!"
The blonde turned his head, looking with shock at a smiling bluenette.
"T-Tyson?"
The smile never faded, only stayed bright and beautiful. "Max! There you are! I've been looking for you everywhere, koi!"
The dragon's arms wrapped gently, yet possessively around the blonde, as he nuzzled the other's neck. "I missed you..." He whispered, pulling back enough for lips to meet.
'Tyson...' Blue eyes closed, his world reaching perfection.
Then he pulled away. Eyes blank, smile resting, but fake. "Tyson?"
"I have to go now."
"W-Why?"
"Bye Max!" And the dragon started walking away towards the ocean, slowly being swallowed by the waves. The sun was drowning in the darkening clouds, the waves becoming angry.
"Tyson!!" The blonde cried out, his hand outstretched as he tried running. It made no sense though. He was running and Tyson was walking. Why couldn't he catch up? The waves increased, growing and slowly, one massive one lifting high into the air, roaring down over them, swallowing everything in its path. Tyson walking straight into the mouth of the storm.
He was drowning, but it didn't matter. His eyes searched frantically through the depths of the once peaceful water, only to find... nothing. And he stopped, letting his body sink deeper into the darkness.
Voices. They were around him.
"He stopped responding."
"Bring him back."
"Yes, sir."
Everything turned black, until he opened his eyes, taking in the blurry images, squinting with the light in his eyes.
"Take the light away."
Slowly, he was able to focus on his surroundings, sitting upright, finding himself in a cage. "Where... where am I?"
A figure walked out to him, face emotionless, and Max blinked up at the person, who merely stared at him, as if waiting for something to happen. The blonde stared back, only to pull it away to look around. He wasn't in cage. It was more of a jail cell except the walls were white and it was much cleaner. He looked past his own area and into the slight darkness of what looked to be a laboratory. There, he was startled by what he was seeing, rubbing his eyes to make sure he wasn't hallucinating. In a cell like his own rested his team captain in the arms of what looked to be the same boy who owned the pale hand he had taken before. That wasn't the thing that shocked him however. He looked over at a glass tube filled with a blue liquid and found another Kai.
"Wh-What? How can there be two?!?"
The person who analyzed him walked away, white coat floating a little and then relaxing as he walked over to a computer.
"Where am I?!" Max yelled, slipping his hand into his pocket for his beyblade, only to find nothing. "Where's my beyblade?!?!?"
"If you mean Draciel, it's right there." A small boy with blue hair in front and grayish hair in back pointed his small pale hand to a smaller glass case holding the blonde's bitbeast.
Max felt the anger boil in him as he was about to try and somehow use brutal force to escape, until he looked back down at the little boy, who resembled the phoenix, but was smiling, holding a red ball in his small chibi hands.
"Who are you?"
"00642."
"What?"
"That's my name."
"Where are we?"
"Biovolt headquarters."
"That's enough!" A voice bellowed out, familiar purple hair coming into view.
"Sorry, sir." The boy bowed and ran off to the cell that held Kai in.
"Boris..." Max hissed out between clenched teeth, his eyes narrowing.
"Ah, so you remember me. Good, then no need for introductions."
"What are you doing out of jail?!"
"Let's just say Voltaire pulled a few strings." The older man smirked, finding amusement in the anger the small blonde was emitting.
"Sir?"
"What?"
"Specimen K is waking."
"Good. Commence with Test A."
"Yes, sir." Blue eyes stayed on the other man who unlocked Kai's cell.
"What are you doing with Kai?!" Max demanded, as his fists clenched to his sides.
"Don't worry. Kai'll be fine. He'll survive at least by our calculations." Boris's smirk widened with Max's horrified look as the phoenix was hooked up in glass tube like the other Kai, a dark red liquid filling the container. "He shouldn't be the one you need to worry about."
The blonde's own cell opened, as two large men began moving him. He struggled, knowing it was futile, but he wasn't going down easily. He was strapped to a table, a gas mask placed over his mouth and nose.
"Relax." Boris's eyes smiled devilishly, as the gas began entering into the struggling boy's system, who slowly fell into the trance, eyes blanking out.
***
It was... nice. He was back in his calm black space. There was nothing holding him back. Nothing to stop him. He felt a soft brush against his naked skin, accepting it, as it seemed to melt into him. Nothing was stopping him.
"You're home Kai." The familiar voice whispered to him, the raven hair raveling gently around his slim, pale form.
"Yeah..."
Home. Did he even have one? He never found one, so this must be it.
"Don't be afraid. Nothing can stop you."
Nothing. I'm free here. This is my home.
"You're free from their control."
Free. I control now.
"Just let go."
And he let everything go. It was his turn for peace. His turn to control. There was nothing stopping him. That was the illusion, until their faces returned to his mind, each word breaking off a piece of his dignity, soul.
He was a murderer. A sinner. He was nothing. Didn't deserve to be in their presence. He was worthless, a coward. To think otherwise was foolish. He looked over at the other, trickles of blood passing over his flawless skin, staining his own hands. He was drowning in the blood now, tasting the sweet bitterness of it burn across his tongue.
"No..."
"You killed me, Kai."
"I... I didn't want to!"
"You killed me for the joy."
"No!"
"You killed me for the lust for my blood."
"I... didn't..."
"I was the angel. You wanted me dead for that. You wanted a taste of my blood."
"No..."
"You killed me Kai..."
"Yes..." He felt the walls now. The black space wasn't blissful, but he didn't deserve bliss. "I killed you."
"Give yourself to me. You killed me. For me."
A soft sting filled his veins, as it seeped into his system, drugging him into a state of ecstasy, blocking out the burning in his lungs or the sharp throbs in his skin. He didn't even notice the blood trailing around him or the tearing of his back. It was nothing compared to the pain he felt from the others. He was the murderer of them all. He had their blood. All of them.
A small boy walked before him, a memory of his younger self, walking with a bloody knife. "I killed her." He looked up, eyes hollow. "I'm sorry, Mommy."
Sinking into the blood and darkness, creating a hell that was for him and him alone. This was his home...
~
To Be Continued...
~
Aku: Okay... don't ask. Trust me. Do not ask. I don't even know what is going on x.x Well, this chapter sucked. Sorry! ^^;;
Shiku: Remember, polls close after this chapter!
Kenny: Review!!!
Aku: *tries to figure out where she was going with this* I got nothing...
Everyone: x.x
Author: NT aka Aku-chan
Pairings: Rei/Kai or Tala/Kai, Tyson/Max, Kenny/ Yasashiku(OC)
Polls:
ReixKai – 141 votes
TalaxKai – 143 votes
ReixKaixTala – 54 votes (wonder why that is still here... ^^;;;)
Aku: And to someone who asked me how to cheat... well, it's rather easy. I just rather not say in case people decide to do it x.x
Shiku: The votes will be closing after this chapter since the pairings are close... therefore, it will not be clear who's winning :P
Kenny: It's evil to have to count the votes anyways...
Aku: Sorry for the delay, but I completely lost my train of thought... not really a train, more like a car... or bike... scooter? Fine! A SHOE! And I have so much crap to deal with x.x
Kai: And you're lazy.
Aku: And I'm- hey! ...Fine.
Kai: -.-
Aku: I also have tests, applications, blah blah and more! Oh, and my friends have been planning my agenda each day (because apparently I don't have enough of a life to plan my own. So what if I'd like to sleep all day?) and I've been dragged around a lot x.x So that left me no time to actually work on my fics ^^;; Seeing how I'm in the midst of Spring Break with no ride to go anywhere and I woke up at noon, now seems like a good time to write.
~
Chapter Fifteen: Losing
It was like floating in mass of... black. There was no walls, no boundaries. Nothing to stop him from feeling confined or restrained of his movements. Past thoughts no longer important, just the bliss found in solitude, in a vacant mind. He wanted to smile, but with the foreign expression, he couldn't be sure he even was smiling. He didn't care at the moment. Just happy in the calm, silent emptiness. Was this what it was like? Is this the feeling he missed? To just be alone, no thoughts, worries or concerns? This was bliss. But, as the sinner he was, he didn't deserve bliss did he?
That was when his world began to turn, spinning out of control, causing the ache in his head to grow. The images of their faces – disgusted and betrayed – it sickened him. Knowing that it wasn't the first time, it... hurt. He screamed out in the emptiness, his voice fading, never to return back to him through the infinite space. And as if a machine, he sent his mind into a temporary shut down, the emptiness of it bringing him the peace he always desired.
The tranquility wouldn't last, his curiosity sprouting and growing to a size that was irrepressible. 'Where am I?'
And he tried to open his eyes to look around, which brought along another thought. How could he know he was in this space of black when his eyes weren't even open? Or were they opened? He began to panic, his conscious taking its place back in his body, desperately fighting, as he now knew he wasn't breathing. But he didn't need to.
'Am I dead?' He mentally laughed bitterly, knowing that he truly had gone too far and wouldn't be surprised at all if he were dead or maybe even stuck between the two sides of life and death, not fit for either side. Just nothing.
"You're not dead." He searched around for the source of the calm, soothing voice, but mentally cursed himself for his stupidity. The only thing around him was darkness.
'Who are you?' Where was his voice? He tried to find his mouth, only to be struck with more panic. Where were his arms? Where was his body?
"Open your eyes." He wanted to glare telling that voice his attempt and failure at that. But he opened his eyes.
***
He opened his eyes, taking in everything. It wasn't light out, he suspected, though he wasn't sure, as he looked around to find no windows. He tried to sit up, only to groan out in pain and find a dull throb in his head. He closed his eyes, trying to regain the calm again in the darkness of his mind.
'Darkness? Was it a dream?' Slowly, scarlet irises began to open up, slowly taking in the gray surroundings that relaxed all his nerves.
"Kai." Slowly moving, crimson met with black in a hellish display, melting into the other.
"S-Seiichi..." He breathed out, his voice softer and different than he remembered.
A gentle nod and a pale hand slowly caressing his cheek and Kai felt the bliss of it all again. That empty darkness. He felt... safe. Dark red lips, contrasting sharply against the creamy white skin, gently brushed along the phoenix's forehead, black eyes filled with care, soft and beautiful.
"I'm... back..." Kai smiled, his scarlet eyes losing their luster, fading slowly back into a dreamless space.
"Yes, Kai. You're back." The raven hair splayed lazily against the strong chest, the older boy cradling his beloved firebird in his arms, as the gray melted down, the black dominated. "Forever..."
***
Sapphire eyes painfully opened, slowly remembering the past events, his heart clenching down on him. He took in his surroundings, and felt calm. The waves gently caressed against his feet, the sand massaging. The ocean smell gently wafted around him in a comforting embrace. He had always felt peaceful by the ocean. The sun shown brightly, slipping into his skin the warmth it had. It was... perfect. He looked around wondering how he ended up in such a paradise, only to remember the hand he took.
'No more pain. Only smiles.' He smiled like a little boy, walking slowly into the water he loved and felt bonded to.
"Max!"
The blonde turned his head, looking with shock at a smiling bluenette.
"T-Tyson?"
The smile never faded, only stayed bright and beautiful. "Max! There you are! I've been looking for you everywhere, koi!"
The dragon's arms wrapped gently, yet possessively around the blonde, as he nuzzled the other's neck. "I missed you..." He whispered, pulling back enough for lips to meet.
'Tyson...' Blue eyes closed, his world reaching perfection.
Then he pulled away. Eyes blank, smile resting, but fake. "Tyson?"
"I have to go now."
"W-Why?"
"Bye Max!" And the dragon started walking away towards the ocean, slowly being swallowed by the waves. The sun was drowning in the darkening clouds, the waves becoming angry.
"Tyson!!" The blonde cried out, his hand outstretched as he tried running. It made no sense though. He was running and Tyson was walking. Why couldn't he catch up? The waves increased, growing and slowly, one massive one lifting high into the air, roaring down over them, swallowing everything in its path. Tyson walking straight into the mouth of the storm.
He was drowning, but it didn't matter. His eyes searched frantically through the depths of the once peaceful water, only to find... nothing. And he stopped, letting his body sink deeper into the darkness.
Voices. They were around him.
"He stopped responding."
"Bring him back."
"Yes, sir."
Everything turned black, until he opened his eyes, taking in the blurry images, squinting with the light in his eyes.
"Take the light away."
Slowly, he was able to focus on his surroundings, sitting upright, finding himself in a cage. "Where... where am I?"
A figure walked out to him, face emotionless, and Max blinked up at the person, who merely stared at him, as if waiting for something to happen. The blonde stared back, only to pull it away to look around. He wasn't in cage. It was more of a jail cell except the walls were white and it was much cleaner. He looked past his own area and into the slight darkness of what looked to be a laboratory. There, he was startled by what he was seeing, rubbing his eyes to make sure he wasn't hallucinating. In a cell like his own rested his team captain in the arms of what looked to be the same boy who owned the pale hand he had taken before. That wasn't the thing that shocked him however. He looked over at a glass tube filled with a blue liquid and found another Kai.
"Wh-What? How can there be two?!?"
The person who analyzed him walked away, white coat floating a little and then relaxing as he walked over to a computer.
"Where am I?!" Max yelled, slipping his hand into his pocket for his beyblade, only to find nothing. "Where's my beyblade?!?!?"
"If you mean Draciel, it's right there." A small boy with blue hair in front and grayish hair in back pointed his small pale hand to a smaller glass case holding the blonde's bitbeast.
Max felt the anger boil in him as he was about to try and somehow use brutal force to escape, until he looked back down at the little boy, who resembled the phoenix, but was smiling, holding a red ball in his small chibi hands.
"Who are you?"
"00642."
"What?"
"That's my name."
"Where are we?"
"Biovolt headquarters."
"That's enough!" A voice bellowed out, familiar purple hair coming into view.
"Sorry, sir." The boy bowed and ran off to the cell that held Kai in.
"Boris..." Max hissed out between clenched teeth, his eyes narrowing.
"Ah, so you remember me. Good, then no need for introductions."
"What are you doing out of jail?!"
"Let's just say Voltaire pulled a few strings." The older man smirked, finding amusement in the anger the small blonde was emitting.
"Sir?"
"What?"
"Specimen K is waking."
"Good. Commence with Test A."
"Yes, sir." Blue eyes stayed on the other man who unlocked Kai's cell.
"What are you doing with Kai?!" Max demanded, as his fists clenched to his sides.
"Don't worry. Kai'll be fine. He'll survive at least by our calculations." Boris's smirk widened with Max's horrified look as the phoenix was hooked up in glass tube like the other Kai, a dark red liquid filling the container. "He shouldn't be the one you need to worry about."
The blonde's own cell opened, as two large men began moving him. He struggled, knowing it was futile, but he wasn't going down easily. He was strapped to a table, a gas mask placed over his mouth and nose.
"Relax." Boris's eyes smiled devilishly, as the gas began entering into the struggling boy's system, who slowly fell into the trance, eyes blanking out.
***
It was... nice. He was back in his calm black space. There was nothing holding him back. Nothing to stop him. He felt a soft brush against his naked skin, accepting it, as it seemed to melt into him. Nothing was stopping him.
"You're home Kai." The familiar voice whispered to him, the raven hair raveling gently around his slim, pale form.
"Yeah..."
Home. Did he even have one? He never found one, so this must be it.
"Don't be afraid. Nothing can stop you."
Nothing. I'm free here. This is my home.
"You're free from their control."
Free. I control now.
"Just let go."
And he let everything go. It was his turn for peace. His turn to control. There was nothing stopping him. That was the illusion, until their faces returned to his mind, each word breaking off a piece of his dignity, soul.
He was a murderer. A sinner. He was nothing. Didn't deserve to be in their presence. He was worthless, a coward. To think otherwise was foolish. He looked over at the other, trickles of blood passing over his flawless skin, staining his own hands. He was drowning in the blood now, tasting the sweet bitterness of it burn across his tongue.
"No..."
"You killed me, Kai."
"I... I didn't want to!"
"You killed me for the joy."
"No!"
"You killed me for the lust for my blood."
"I... didn't..."
"I was the angel. You wanted me dead for that. You wanted a taste of my blood."
"No..."
"You killed me Kai..."
"Yes..." He felt the walls now. The black space wasn't blissful, but he didn't deserve bliss. "I killed you."
"Give yourself to me. You killed me. For me."
A soft sting filled his veins, as it seeped into his system, drugging him into a state of ecstasy, blocking out the burning in his lungs or the sharp throbs in his skin. He didn't even notice the blood trailing around him or the tearing of his back. It was nothing compared to the pain he felt from the others. He was the murderer of them all. He had their blood. All of them.
A small boy walked before him, a memory of his younger self, walking with a bloody knife. "I killed her." He looked up, eyes hollow. "I'm sorry, Mommy."
Sinking into the blood and darkness, creating a hell that was for him and him alone. This was his home...
~
To Be Continued...
~
Aku: Okay... don't ask. Trust me. Do not ask. I don't even know what is going on x.x Well, this chapter sucked. Sorry! ^^;;
Shiku: Remember, polls close after this chapter!
Kenny: Review!!!
Aku: *tries to figure out where she was going with this* I got nothing...
Everyone: x.x