Title: Silent Screams
Author: NT aka Aku-chan
Pairings: Tala/Kai, Tyson/Max, Kenny/ Yasashiku(OC), Seiichi(OC)/Kai, Future BryanRei
Aku: Thanks for the reviews and I apologize profusely for the lateness, but I've been wicked busy and well, I have been working on other works... just... never finish hehe. And recently, I've been deathly ill!
Tala: Exaggerate much?
Aku: Well... I feel close to it... I still am sick right now, so be nice!
Tala: Just get on with the fic.
Aku: Meanie! I really have no idea where this fic is going... so... uhh... enjoy?
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Chapter Nineteen: Existing
It pounded through the liquid fire, deaf to the sounds of humanity. Slowly, each more desperate than the last, suffocating to reach the next. Just the pounding miles away from his haven. The blurred voices in his consciousness made him feel distance, lost, and so left out. And he opened his eyes to a world he never knew existed. He didn't know any existence beyond his own, because he was never granted that permission.
"Never." Who would grant him such? His own hands, he looked to them. Moved them. Each finger at a time, amazement at such a simplistic ability to watch. And the liquid fire roared once more in his ears, as he let out a silent scream, wishing to be away, to be gone, to be...
"Saved." Close. So close to his existence. The roaring dimmed, the fire settled. Just him left in existence. This is to be saved? His feet touched the iced water; each step sending ripples of warmth across, so quickly. Lighting on fire, he watched with little acknowledgment, but his entire being, reaching out to the fire, feeling nothing but heat. Just heat and warmth, walking into the fire, he saw himself within it. And he touched himself in places he never knew he had. Existing is beautiful.
"Take me." His other whispered softly, as he was pushed down, drowning slowly into the black liquid, his smoldering fire softly drifting into a silent lullaby.
"Black and red. Red and black." The voice smiled, rocking him so much like a mother. "Little firebird, do not cry." So peaceful, so beautiful. Like watching the rain pour from an open window. "Black on your red wings. Red on your black wings."
Then it hurt. Then it was no longer beautiful, no longer peaceful, no longer a mother. And the silent screams ripped through him once more, the black seeping into his lungs, burning with a need, as the fire ran through his body like poison, clawing at his flesh.
"My little firebird." The rain turned red and the blood turned black. Threads of black wrapped around his frame, binding him into a shell, blinding his eyes and immobilizing his entire body. His thoughts were controlled in one direction of pure existence.
"Don't think of anything, my little firebird..." The voice purred out delicately, a cold hand running circles across his naked skin. "Focus on the pain. It will be over soon. I promise, my firebird."
And he did just that, his mind circulating around the claws that scraped him of his sanity and the poison that burned away his innocence. 'Rebirth' was a word that slowly echoed throughout his hollow mind with the same tone as his maker.
But it ceased. The pain, the restraints, the single repeating word. He could no longer feel the hand against his skin. He could no longer taste the bitter poison on his tongue. He could see into the blackness, only to realize it was never black.
"Save me..." It was a whisper that didn't quite exist, but it was felt in the mere drops of moisture that built around his fingers, playing with them like tiny metal marbles. He touched them, listening to the soft resounding clashes whenever they would touch one another. It was like listening to the rain tread across a silver platter, empty and unpredictable.
"Bring me back..." The number of marbles became greater with each desperate breath that was released; not from the other who was no longer there, nor was it from his own mouth. It was labored and whipped across his ears painfully, distracting him from the changes in everything.
"Give me back my life..." More desperate, louder... closer. It was becoming painful once more, unbearable, but not physically. His chest hurt as if his heart was trying to wrench free, pounding audible throughout existence.
Existence. That was the word. That was what everyone here was fighting for. Everyone: him and the one who was coming closer. That was everyone.
Existence. That was the meaning to whatever they occupied now.
Existence. That was the only thing that mattered.
"Give me back my existence!" The voice screamed out in suppressed loneliness and misplacement.
"Who...?" His own voice didn't crack in the least, even without use. He stared out into the color he knew wasn't black.
"Who?" He asked out again, this time more prominently. If he must, he would fight for his own existence against this other who dared to command him to give up what he rightfully deserved. After so long of solitude and floating in this shell without a thought, he was the one who deserved this beautiful thing called existence.
And stepping out into the light that didn't existence, just the limits of his vision, came the lonely truthful eyes, delicate as the petals of a rose.
"Who...?" Recognize? He could not, could he? He wasn't supposed to, but... he could. He was... familiar.
"Give me back my existence..."
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"K-Kai... is your... f-father?" Tyson sputtered out, the images invading his mind, tainting his poor mind. "Get it away! Get it away!"
Max sighed, and whacked Tyson on the head, while trying to comprehend the matter himself. "How is that possible?"
It was definitely something strange, since Kai was not even 18 yet, and he had a child? And not just a child, but one that looked to be about the age of six or so. If his age was around there, that would mean... Rei shook his head, not believing it. "There must be some mistake. Kai... can't have a child. He's too young."
"Kai doesn't know about me." The boy said, smiling so easily, but blinking once more at the strange expressions flowing across the older boys' faces.
"I'm a product of Biovolt. I contain an exact DNA replica to that of Kai's, along with some original cells to cooperate with the replicas, so my system won't go completely haywire." He smiled innocently, as if he spoke of his favorite flavor of ice cream and why he loved it so.
"Who's the mother?" Tyson asked, his curiosity beating his self-control easily.
"I have no mother. Well, I guess Kai could be my mother." The boy thought, his face scrunched up to a thoughtful expression.
"Okay, now I'm lost." Tyson sighed, as he rested his head against the wall behind him, trying to block out the image of a Kai acting all motherly and wearing a pink apron in the kitchen. It was rather disturbing, though comical all the same. Still, it was a bit scarring. Max rested deeper into Tyson's warmth, wanting to just stop thinking and fall asleep. It was too weird for him to deal with. Kai and the word 'mother' do not mix very well in his mind.
"Okay... so is there just no egg cell involved?" Rei asked, trying to think of how exactly Kai could be the mother. He shook his head as a transsexual Kai came into his head. 'Ew... no way... that's just plain wrong.'
"Well, not exactly. I guessed I'm really just a clone." The kid blinked, trying to figure out exactly how he was created.
"So how does that make Kai your father? Besides the fact he is older than you and you look exactly like a chibi version of him."
"Well, Kai's DNA isn't the only one inside me. I also have Tala's." The boy smiled proudly, pointing to his chest, as if to point out the DNA. "Tala's my dad, I guess." The boy blinked, and smiled at his claim.
"Okay..." Tyson mumbled something about 'strange, psychotic scientists'. "Just what we need. A Tala and Kai combo pack in one."
"For a Tala and Kai combo pack, he doesn't exactly act like one..." Max pointed out, giving up on attempting to sleep with all the interrupting thoughts in his head.
"You're right. He seems more like a Kai and Max combo pack." Takao glared at Rei, who grinned back in response.
"I'm actually Kai's happiness..." The boy mumbled out, close to tears. "My father has no happiness because I am it. I am the happiness that was taken from him and made to stay away from him."
Completely confused, the Bladebreakers all had the same thought: 'How the hell do you literally take out someone's happiness?'
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"Tala..." Kai moaned out, his tongue lacing perfectly with the redhead's, as he felt the roaming hands. "Tala, I love you..."
Tala smiled, kissing his love once more, before the phoenix smirked and pushed him onto his back. "Kai, what are you-"
"Shhh..." Kai placed a single finger against Tala's lips, slowly descending down the muscled pale body, licking and kissing, leaving behind an arousing warmth. Hastily removing the confining pants, Kai placed his mouth over the erect member, taking him in slowly. Tala let out a loud moan, yearning for more, staring at his phoenix taking him into his burning mouth. The display itself made him want to release, but he held back, waiting for a more perfect opportunity. Pushing Kai away, Tala slipped his tongue into the bluenette's mouth, letting one of his hand trace along Kai's spine, until he reached his backside, slipping a finger into the virgin hole. The phoenix let out a moan into the kiss, his hands tangling into the scarlet hair, pushing against the fingers.
"Tala, please..." Kai breathed out, his burning eyes meeting with Tala's moon-kissed ones. "Please... take me..."
And it pushed him over the head, as he pushed himself into Kai, both boys moaning for each other, confessing a love over and over again. The sweat and sex mingled together, along with a burning fire and a chilling snow that connected rightly together.
Perfect.
So perfect.
"I love you, Kai."
"I love you, Tala."
So damn perfect.
And it was all he ever imagined. All he ever wanted. One night to claim his love. One night of ecstasy, contentment, forgiveness, and salvation.
"Perfect..." And it was too perfect.
Tala curled deeper into the dream, unaware of the dying phoenix.
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"Operation was successful." He bowed his head in respect and fear, glasses desperately clinging to his face, while his white lab coat also bowed, but in shame.
"Always good to hear your team has succeeded once more. I won't have to punish you for disappointing me, it seems. You're dismissed." The man bowed, and scurried off quickly, his back turned in denial.
"Boris, I'm sure you have everything handled." Seiichi spoke calmly to the director, who merely stared at him, nodding his head gently. "Tala is yours then. I have no need for him."
Boris nodded once more, exiting to go find his toy once more.
"Stupid pedophile." Seiichi spat out disgusted, as he watched the door close behind the mauve-haired man. "Now to greet my little firebird and welcome him like the lover I am."
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And they were all deaf to the silent screams.
"Why...? Why can't anyone hear me...?" He felt the change in himself, the searing of his skin. It was being torn apart painfully slow, as if to be careful and delicate, but creating a completely opposing effect. But he couldn't identify this feeling to pain, the concept of words itself were vague in his mind. Just a blur of voices he never remembered hearing and touches he couldn't even begin to focus on. All he knew was the blood on his hands. The hands he owned which killed off the other, so he could claim the existence he deserved. He did deserve it, right?
"No one can hear you because no one wants to." A delicately smoothed voice swayed across his consciousness.
"Who are you?" He panicked, his vision scanning across the endless colors that confused him, frightened him and calmed him. He couldn't pinpoint the voice, nor could he with his own thoughts or emotions. He was vulnerable, scared to the point of death. He wanted to die away and never wanted to return.
"Don't be afraid, my firebird. I want to hear you. I'm here to protect you, Kai."
"Kai?" It touched him softly, his mind shivering at the name that seemed so... familiar.
"It is your name." The lights flashed before him like lightning, but no noise erupted. The abstract colors no longer plagued him, but a space of grey confined him.
"Kai? Kai..." He played with the name on the tip of his lip, and it felt rough yet at the same time, had a delicate flow across his tongue. "Kai..."
A soft chuckle enthralled his ears, his every sense focusing on it to be faced with another, who hair reminded him of a waterfall of endless night. A waterfall? He had never seen one. He clutched at his head, trying to remember anything. The face before him, he could recognize it and a part of him felt fear, hatred and anger meshed together towards the other, but completely contradicting those emotions, he felt love, adoration and need. He was confused, wanting to scream out, but when he tried, only silence left his lips.
"You know me, Kai. You love me. You love me and you love to hate me. You hate to love me, but you do. Kai..." The voice enthralled him, taking him away from the corner he trapped himself him, pulling the vulnerable child into his open arms that easily snaked around his waist to claim his body.
"I'll love you like a lover, Kai..." His lips brushed softly against his bare cheek, slowly breathing towards his ears. "And you'll see me as your master, Kai... I created you, Kai... I own you..."
"You own Kai..." He whispered not even realizing he was speaking in third person; his eyes blanked out completely, as the words flowed into his mind, registering them as facts. Facts of his past life and present. And his future... it was up to his master what his future was to be like.
"Yes, I own Kai... and you must stay with me. Do you understand, Kai?" A nod from the phoenix brought a smile to his lips, as he ran his hand through the silver-stained hair and then letting it rest against his cheek. He brought his lips to Kai's, sliding his tongue easily into the other's and marking everything about the other.
"I will not lose you this time, Kai..." He whispered between their lips before claiming the phoenix's lips once more. "Never again..."
"Master..." He whispered as he was kissed, but it felt wrong. He felt the prick in his mind, almost like a mental punch telling him to run.
'Run. Run, Kai. Don't you remember him? Don't you remember the pain? Run!' He could feel the betrayal and the pain and every part of his body felt guilty and dirty. But the voice. He was too focused on the voice to remember. It was... familiar once more. He could recognize it, but it never passed that point. Just a familiar twinge in his mind, but the kiss brought him back to his master.
'Give me back my existence...' It droned in his mind, but his lips were too preoccupied to respond to the silent plea.
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"How the hell does he expect me to use this!" The man screamed out, as he slapped the boy across the face, but he didn't react to the touch at all. He merely stared out at nothing with lost hollow eyes. "He's useless now."
He kneeled down, bending over to run his dirty massive hand through the scarlet hair he missed dearly. "No struggle at all. Nothing."
He slapped the boy again, sending the unresponsive body across the room. He was like a doll now. A beautiful doll. "Better than nothing. At least he still has the same body." The pedophile eyed the body with lust, as he peeled off the close, ripping at the material, until nothing was left.
"Such a shame you won't be able to put up a fight." He smiled even in his disappointment, as he let his tongue run across the pale flesh beneath him. "As long as I get to take you. And I'll assure you I'll take you plenty of times... Tala..."
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"Let's not try to figure this out now. We have to find Kai and Tala!" Rei broke everyone out of their confusion and sorrow, as they all looked up at him. "Who knows what has happened to them!"
"Rei's right, we can't just sit here talking." Max spoke, as he stood from his seat on Tyson, and they started to head towards the door.
"Hey, what about the kid?" Tyson asked, as the three bladers turned their heads to the lone child who hadn't moved from his spot.
"We should take him along. He probably knows this place better than any of us." Rei suggested, as the other two nodded in agreement. "Will you come along with us?"
"I'm not supposed to leave this room..." The child whispered out, as he held onto his little red ball, head bent down to hide his saddened eyes.
"Don't you want to see Kai?" Max asked, as he stepped back towards the boy, kneeling to the eye level of the child.
"Mommy? I can see mommy?" The child asked excitedly, his once sorrow-stricken eyes filled with hope.
Max giggled at the child and how he addressed Kai as his mother. The blonde nodded, as the caught the boy in his arms when he went to glomp Max.
"Thank you..." He whispered, his arms wrapped around the blonde's neck.
"Let's go rescue Kai and Tala!" Tyson shouted out, while Rei hit him on the back of the head, scolding him to be quieter or someone would hear them. "Sorry."
"Do you have any idea where Kai or Tala could be?" Rei asked the small boy in Max's arm, and he was about to respond, until he whimpered out in fear. "What's wrong?"
Max held the boy tighter, trying to soothe him by gently rubbing his back in the same way his mother had when he was younger, but it was useless, as the boy continued to shiver and whimper out in pain.
"What's wrong?" Max asked this time, as he tried to coax the boy into saying anything.
"D-daddy... he's... he's in pain..."
"Daddy?"
"Tala!" Rei suddenly shouted out, remembering what the child had said before about his father and mother. The boy suddenly leapt out of Max's hold and opened the door, determination on his face. The three bladebreakers followed after him, ignoring the calls of the guards, their only concern targeted at the boy running ahead of them and Tala.
After all the turns taken and doors they went through, the guards chasing after them had been lost, and they were even more confused and astounded at how large the place was. Finally stopping at a door, the little Kai look-alike pointed at it in fear, before running behind Max. Preparing himself, Rei took a deep breathe, then pushed the door open.
All breaths stopped, the eyes shifting from shock to repulsion. Max looked away, trying to block out the image, while Rei merely growled in anger and disgust. Tyson tried to look away, but found he couldn't. It was completely wrong.
"Daddy!" The boy cried out, tears flowing from his scarlet eyes, as he tried to reach for his father, only to have the blonde hold him back.
"Boris..." Rei growled out, the venom dripping from his eyes and voice, as he took in the naked form of the wolf and the pedophile who was preparing to shove himself into Tala. Before he could even attack the man who brought nightmares to hundreds of children, two glowing forms swept by knocking the man away from the naked wolf.
"Daddy!" The boy broke lose from the blonde's hold, running to his father. He curled up beside him, letting his tears fall across the wolf's pale skin. The glowing forms became brighter, as it became evident exactly what they were.
"Dranzer? Wolborg?" Tyson looked at the bitbeasts in astonishment, as they cornered Boris, distracting him from the others.
"We have to get them out of here!" Rei hurriedly lifted Tala into his arms, as Tyson helped him, placing his jacket over the naked body, while Max held onto the boy. The three bladers headed out of the room, leaving Boris to the wrath of two bitbeasts.
To Be Continued...
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Aku: I feel so dirty... I was about to have Boris rape Tala! Eeee! Forgive me, Tala!
Tala: ...
Aku: ehehe... I need a name for Tala and Kai's son. Hmmm... Any suggestions?
Max: Please review! She's willing to take flames!
Aku: What can I say? They're uber fun to read! hehe