Title: Silent Screams
Author: NT aka Aku-chan
Pairings: Tala/Kai, Tyson/Max, Kenny/ Yasashiku(OC), Seiichi(OC)/Kai, Future BryanRei
Aku: Well... school is slowly creeping up... depressing, isn't it? Anyways, I decided to at least try to get in another chappie before the depression seeps too deeply in! hehe Took me long enough though, didn't it? I don't even remember this story all too well now sweatdrops Yeah, I'm sorry about that, I've been on like.. massive writer's block. I haven't written crap X.x Well.. I have written crap, but crap isn't good. So really, no progress. Where am I going with this fic? Anyone know? Any ideas even? o.o
Tala: ...you're stupid.
Aku: Ah, yes. I know, I know. But what can you really do, you know?
Tala: Get smart?
Aku: ...your point?
Tala: ...
Aku: Anyways, I know I'm a cruel cruel person, but hey, I'm updating now right? ...don't hurt me please!
Tala: Aku also would like to say that in the previous chapter, Oniichan big brother for anyone who didn't know, because some lovely reviewer who went on a strange rant about Japanese titling for family members pointed it out...
Aku: Yeaaahh... I think I'm just more confused than I was before...
Kayu: On with the chappie!
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Chapter Twenty-One: Feeling
"How much longer?" The younger boy whispered, fear lacing his words of being caught by the guards.
"I just need a little more time." The older boy mumbled back, concentrated at the task at hand. "Just warn me if anyone comes."
"But Eiichi-!" The younger whined once more, as he tried to blend in with the wall. His chibi eyes glanced out into the foreboding darkness, wishing he was back in his room.
"Keep your voice down," the older one whispered harshly. "You'll get us caught. I just need a few more seconds..."
A soft buzzing noise filled the small room, as the door slowly opened up. Both boys peered through the door, the older one in triumph while the younger one just stood in fascination. That is, until footsteps were heard, along with the murmuring of two guards approaching.
"Hey, why is that door open?" One of the guards asked from outside, sounding slightly mumbled from the distance between the guards and the opened door.
"Shit." Reaching his hand into the doorway, the older boy grabbed a small bag and quickly closed the door without making too much noise. He clasped the smaller boy's hand in his own and hastily exited, heading down the hallway away from the guards. After climbing up two flights of stairs, the two stopped at a door, which they opened and slipped in quietly. Once inside, the elder of the two let out a relieved sigh, until he heard sniffling. Looking towards the other occupant, he noticed a few tears slipping down the other boy's cheeks.
"What's wrong?" He moved closer to the other, placing his hands on the boy's shoulders.
"I- I was sca-wed. I-I t-thought you were gonna leave me!" The small boy cried, futilely trying to wipe away his tears.
Smiling softly, the small boy was pulled into the arms of the elder. "You know I would never do that. Look. I have something for you." He reached for the bag he had grabbed earlier, opened it and held it out for the other. "Go on, take one."
Hesitantly, the younger boy did as he was told, and once he pulled out whatever the bag contained; his face broke out into a huge grin. In his small pale hand, he was holding a chocolate chip cookie, which he immediately munched on. Once he was through with the cookie, he sniffled once more and then launched himself at the other boy into a tackling hug.
Laughing, the older boy caught the younger one with ease, and pressed him against his chest. "We'll save the rest for later." He stood up, leaving the bag of cookies on the bedside table, as he gently tucked in the chibi into bed. But before he could move away, a tugging at his sleeve made him look once more at his roommate.
"Stay... pwease," the chibi begged to him, his eyes becoming teary at the thought of the other one leaving him alone.
His eyes softened at the younger boy, and he nodded his head. Climbing into bed with the younger one, he wrapped his arms around the boy. In response, the smaller one snuggled into his chest, small pale hands clinging to his shirt.
With a cute yawn, the small boy was slowly falling asleep. "I love you... Eiichi-nii," he whispered out, as his scarlet eyes closed gently into happy dreams about the one beside him.
"I love you, too," the elder boy whispered back, as he brushed away the blue locks and placed a loving kiss on the little one's forehead. "Kai..."
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It wasn't as piercing this time. In fact, it felt surreal, where nothing could describe the sensation. But he knew there was a word for it. It was just one of those times when you knew the word existed somewhere in your mind, just bursting to be said, but there was a mental block or some sort of attachment that left it hanging there at the end of your tongue. Like if it was said, something would happen, something bad. It was that kind of feeling, where your mind was betraying itself and you wanted to know what it knew, just to prove the two belonged to one another. It was almost as if the heart, the will was in a battle against the mind, the logic.
'Frustrating, isn't it?'
When had his mind begun to create voices?
'Is that all I'm considered as? I feel insulted.'
Even with a personality of its own. Feelings, too, it seems.
'Hmph. Well, if you're going to be that way, I won't help you then.'
Wait... help? What a familiar word.
'Well, of course. You do need a lot of help, after all.'
Do not. How absurd, when had he ever needed help? Then again...
'Denial isn't so charming, you know.'
...then what next?
'Can you see them?'
Who is 'them'?
'Don't tell me you forgot already? ...oh, so you have. How unfortunate. I only have one question.'
A question?
'What do you live for?'
... What did he live for? He lived for those... faces he remembers. The ones who surrounded him since, since he left that place. The ones who broke him free of his mask and honestly wished to befriend him. He lived for them, he was sure of it. But, was that all he had to live for? There was the others, along with them, who gave him second chances, even third. Then... eyes like a night in Moscow with the snow falling everywhere, leaving nothing uncovered... Yeah, those eyes that he felt so drawn to. It was like being underwater, as you looked upward, floating towards that shimmering light at the end, waiting for that rush. And then the air would pool around you and into you. The sensation, you couldn't tell, might've been from the lack of air or the rush of air. It was all so exhilarating.
'I think you are ready then.'
Ready for what?
'Open your eyes.'
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"Eiichi-nii! Eiichi-nii!" A shout was heard down the corridors that would otherwise be filled with cries of pain. Gold-melted irises turned to the source of the shout, as the owner of the marigold eyes smiled in delight.
"Ohayo, Kai-chan." The bluenette chibi eagerly hopped onto the elder boy's lap, while tugging gently at the moonkissed bangs hanging at the side of the elder's face.
"Ne, Eiichi-nii, what are you doing?" Curiously, two cherry eyes glanced at the notebook laid out on the table in front of the two.
"Oh, this? I'm drawing. It's a picture of a rose." He gestured to the sketch he had been working on where a rose seemed to be growing among a field of dandelions.
"You like flowers, don't you?" Kai asked, leaning his head against the broad chest of the other.
"I like red roses, mostly." He continued to sketch the rest of the picture, as he reached for the red color pencils, all made up of different shades.
Giggling as he felt the rumble when the other spoke, Kai watched as the scarlet tip met with the edge of the drawn rose. "Why?"
He smiled at the younger boy, continuing to shade in the single red rose. "It reminds me of your eyes." His eyes met the curious ones of the small boy when he looked down. "I love your eyes, Kai. They make me happy whenever I see them. That's why I like red roses."
Satisfied with the answer, Kai smiled brightly in return, watching as the colored pencil was exchanged for another, filling in the shadows of the rose. "I like everything about Eiichi-nii!"
Letting out a gentle laugh, he placed the notebook down. "I'm glad." He gently placed his lips against Kai's, who blushed from the kiss. "Did you not like that?"
"Iie... I liked it." Kai smiled, as he placed his lips on the elder's, who smiled in return. "Do those make you happy?"
"Hai."
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He placed his hands against the glass, finding it slightly disturbing how he could understand how a fish felt now. The world was still dark around him and he was unsure if that was because he had yet to open his eyes, or if indeed, the world was dark around him. Either way, the smooth texture alerted his senses, as well as the heavy pressure against his body from all directions. In his mind, he knew he should have felt some sort of suffocation, if not a slight claustrophobic tension. This was the kind of situation he had never expected to find himself in, yet it felt almost fitting for the moment.
He was lost, he knew. He was unsure of which direction was up or if there was even an up, but he was compelled to learn more, like a newborn. Familiarity, he could pinpoint was in the midst of his emotions. Dispelling the apprehension that partnered itself with this atmosphere, he felt an almost déjà vu. It was like arriving at a destination – a home, perhaps – and left with a single thought in mind: Have I been here before?
His hands cascaded down the edge, feeling for any change, but his surroundings remained endless. His foot touched nothing, floating without any resistance. Why was he here? What purpose did he have to be caged- cage. Cage, it ringed in his mind. Rimmed bars surrounding him, shaded in a deep... what color was it? Yellow. No, it wasn't that. A deeper color, shed in a colder light. Gold, yes, that was it. A metal so appealing to the eyes, but the touch of it was icy to the skin, a deadly cold. It fit the bars that surrounded him, unlike this glass, which was glossy and would have mirrored his face if there was light around. Black was the only color that filled the world, and there it was again, the déjà vu.
Black filled his world, his senses, his everything. It was an endless black that existed within him and without him. It wasn't a black that was visible either, just a void of light and life. It was the black cage, he remembered, which is the death of us all.
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The casket was full. That was all he knew and all he ever cared about, wrapped up in a glossy black box, wrapped in a few crimson roses. He had cried the night before, and today where his face was visible to the outside world that was trapped among these walls, he wouldn't shed a tear. The sun was out, but tucked in the shade of the countless clouds. The wind howled as it always had, and the snow fell like a sigh of mourning. But he never blinked. It was so quick that he barely had time to grasp the burial, as the black box in all its shining glory and bed of rose petals was buried beneath the ground.
And through it all, he never shed one tear more.
"Aren't you even sad!" An older boy shouted, having cornered the smaller one. "After all he's done for you, you don't even cry! You don't even look sad at all!"
"..."
"You don't care... You didn't care at all, did you?" He was screaming now, rage filling his once mournful eyes. "He told you he loved you, didn't he? And what do you give him in return? You kill him! I hate you! I should have killed you before."
"..."
"You deserve to die. He... he never should have loved you! You heartless bastard... I'll kill you!"
Maybe it was true, but that didn't make it any different. The fact still remained as that body was still in that casket. And he, he was living on like nothing had ever happened.
"That's enough, Yasashiku!" A stern voice echoed out through the open air.
"But look at him-"
"I said, that's enough! You are dismissed."
"Yes, sir." The young blonde bent his head forward, shoving past the smaller boy he had begun to loathe, and headed for the entrance to the manmade Hell.
"Kai." The voice once more filled the silence, waging war against the threatening void of noise. "Kai, come here."
Obeying the elderly man, the small blunette pushed his legs forwards, towards the man he regarded as his only living relative. The thick hands of the aging man rested a top his grandson's head. When crimson eyes peeked curiously upward in response to the foreign gesture, he was met with a satisfied smile. The pride he saw within those eyes was enough to momentarily distract him from the death of the one he loved most.
"You are perfect."
"You are perfect, Kai."
"Really?"
"Of course. I love you, Kai."
The large man stepped away, his heavy feet stamping the grass below him in a relentless torture. The image of his prideful eyes left the blunette in awe, interpreting for more than it was worth. But the words left his mind delusional, as he rested once more in front of the stone that held the name of his beloved.
"I love you too, Eiichi-nii!"
"I love you too... Seiichi."
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"Put them away somewhere, I don't want to deal with them at the moment." He flicked his wrist, gesturing for the guards to move the motionless bodies that filled the ground before him. One guard bent over to carry the smallest one out, but a sharp 'stop' pierced through the air. "Leave the little one. I would like to speak with him."
The guards left with the bodies of the four teenagers, as the door closed behind the group. Silence permeated through the room, except for the whimpers that would come from the small child with hair like the moon-kissed ocean surface.
"Come here, little one." The small boy mumbled something incoherent, staying where he sat on the cold metal floor. "What was that? Speak louder, I can't hear that quivering voice of yours."
"My name is Kayu!" He shouted, tears erupting once more from his parents-blessed eyes.
Standing from his seat, he overlooked the whining coming from his pet beside him, as he walked closer to the child. "You think I will call you by such a filthy name? Who gave it to you, that incompetent wolf who dared to touch what's mine, I take it."
"Don't insult papa!" Kayu cried, throwing a fist out at the taller one, who caught it easily in his fist.
"Papa? How endearing for you to call him by such a name. What about him, hm?" He gestured to the pet who blinked when his master looked at him. "Yes, my phoenix. You are this child's mother."
"Mommy..." Kayu whimpered out, as the phoenix approached him slowly, glancing curiously at the small child who had water leaking out from his chibi eyes.
The older man let out a laugh, as he tossed the boy aside, who let out a cry when he came into contact with the wall. "It's beautiful, don't you think, Kai?"
He slowly approached the phoenix, letting his hands wander across the silky skin he missed so dearly. "The pain of the others is absolutely beautiful, but do you want to know a secret?"
His midnight hair spooled over his shoulder, tickling the nose of the blunette, who blinked at the strings across his face. "There is something even more beautiful than their pain."
A single fingernail swept across the flawless skin, as it pressed down deeper when it reached the neck. A whimper of discomfort escaped the blood-hued lips, as he tried to distance himself from his master. "What is wrong, Kai? You don't like?" His nail gouged deeper into the skin, already to the point of bruising, as Kai's whimpers escalated with the pain that slowly embedded in him. "Breathtaking. This is what is more beautiful, my love. Your pain, I cherish it so deeply."
"Stop! Stop hurting him!" Kayu cried out once he regained his breath, standing up once more, as his tears continued to rain down on the metal floor. "Stop it..."
And so he did, craning his neck around to look at the child. "Are you jealous of your own mother?"
His footsteps slid across the floor so softly, their existence was questionable. A single pale hand reached out to the boy, as Kayu tightened his eyes, willing for the pain to be quick. That was until a scream came from an unlikely source. Turning his eyes swiftly, he watched as his dear pet fell over with black blood trembling hastily out through his mouth and the wound from a knife was evident in his side.
"Who dares to touch him!" His anger was pooling into him, trembling through his veins, as murder shimmered across his endless eyes.
"Don't touch the boy." A shadow appeared before the open doorway, the bright light casting a devilish glow among the stranger, leaving only his outline visible. But it was enough for the other, who smiled in utter delight, his lips curving gently across his face.
"Ah, so you have returned to me."
"Seiichi..."
His eyes gleamed in morbid fascination, as he watched the blood slowly drain out of the phoenix on the floor. His bloody hand reached out for his master, but he stepped over the dying body, towards the other. "I knew you would be back. You always come back."
"Seiichi..."
"Do you like to say my name that much?"
"I will never forgive you for what you've done."
To Be Continued...
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Aku: Oh ho! Wasn't that ever so thrilling? I feel alive again! That was so much fun, but sadly, I am lost and confused. But I love Seiichi so much, he is such a fun character!
Everyone: Sweatdrops
Aku: Nyaaaa, I'm beginning to enjoy SeiichixKai a little too much it seems. But don't you find it utterly adorable!
Tala: No.
Aku: Well obviously you don't. Sorry if it was confusing, I was just in the mood to portray some of the past. Cute, don't you think? Well, I do and that's all that really matters!
Tala: ...
Aku: If any of you leave weird rants or anything about what's wrong or something, I'll ignore it! I don't mind criticism, but I usually don't follow any of them anyways. I write how I write, so nyaaaaaa :P
Tala: You're so immature.
Aku: I know! It's just too much trouble to actually try to change things and stuff. Anyways, I like how I write just fine, even if it sucks! So anyways, I'll be working on the next chappie soon, hopefully... I'll probably bring back those characters that actually hold some importance.
Tyson: Only some! We're in the anime! This is a FANfiction!
Aku: Hey, Kai is there. Isn't that enough?
Tyson: NO!
Max: Review please!