Usagi stared down at her phone. Her breath caught in her throat. Her heart fell to her stomach. Should she answer it? What would she say? She didn't want to cause a scene in front of Damon. Even though he wouldn't be able to understand her, he would know something was wrong.

Damon's voice broke into her thoughts, "Are you going to answer that?"

Usagi looked up at him and put her phone on the table, "If it's important they'll call back." The phone stopped ringing. Damon stood up, grabbed the phone and Usagi's hand and led her into his bedroom. He closed the door and faced Usagi, "It was him, wasn't it?" He handed the phone back to Usagi, who took it and slumped down on his bed, "No. I don't know who it was."

Damon walked closer to her, across his outrageously huge bedroom, "Usagi. Don't lie to me, please. I'm not an idiot. I know the look you get when it comes to anything that has to do with him."

Usagi looked down at her feet and heaved a sigh, "I'm sorry. I just… I just want to forget about him. And I can't get him out of my mind. The more I try not to think about him the more I find myself doing it. And I'm always wondering if---" Usagi broke off and looked up at Damon, who sat down beside her and rubbed her back gently.

"It's alright. You can tell me. I'm here to listen. Don't hold anything back." Damon assured her.

"But I don't want to say anything that will hurt you. Besides I already feel guilty for thinking some of the thoughts that I have."

"Well, don't. They're your feelings; you can't help the way you feel. You shouldn't feel guilty about something you can't control. And given I will probably hear something I don't want to. But it's obvious you need to talk to someone, so I'm here to listen and help you out anyway I can."

"But—"

"No, buts. You need to get this out or it will destroy you. Besides, who can you talk to if not me, your boyfriend?" I'm not just here for kisses and cuddles, you know."

Usagi chuckled. She knew he was right. "I just keep wondering if I made the right choice. When I found out he was using; I gave him a choice between me and the drugs. I stuck around and tried to help him get through it. And he was doing really well for several months, but then I walked in on him using again. And that's when I came here. I just… Should I have stayed and tried to help him more? Did I make the right decision?"

Usagi paused to think, eyes glazing over with tears.

"I think you did." Damon said breaking the silence, "You gave him a choice and you made good on your word. People like him (addicts I mean) need people to put their foot down. If you would have stayed, he would have seen that as you caving in. He would have thought 'hey! I got away with it this time. I used and she stayed. I can do it again and she won't leave me. I can have the best of both worlds.' And he would keep using and keep hurting you."

"I know that. I really do. But I don't understand why. I mean was not I not good enough for him?" Usagi began to sob a little, "I mean, do you have any idea how it feels to be second best especially up against something as stupid as crack? Am I so Inadequate? So inferior? I hate him so much for what he's doing to me. And yet why do I still miss him and why do I feel like it's all my fault? Like I'm the one that has done something wrong here; when I know I'm not."

Damon grabbed a couple of tissues from his night stand and dabbed her checks with them, "Because you still love him. And you probably wish there was something more you could have done, but there wasn't. And that's why the 'what-ifs' keep running through your mind."

"No, I don't! I---"

"Yes, you do. And it's okay to feel that way. I knew you did coming into this relationship. I believe I've told you this before: you can't expect to fall out of love with someone over night. And if you truly do love him, you never will."

Usagi lowered her head, her shoulders started moving. She was sobbing harder now, "But that's not all. I want---" sobs, "I want him back so bad." Usagi fell forward on Damon's chest. Damon lovingly wrapped his arms around her. His heart sank. He realized that there was a great possibly that she might go back to her ex. And he didn't know if he could let her do that. Not only because he didn't want to lose her, but for a number of other reasons as well.

"Are you going to act on that feeling?"

"I don't know. I mean it seems that no matter what I do, someone's going to get hurt."

"How so?"

"Well, you'll get hurt if I go back to him. And he and I will get hurt if I stay here because I miss him so much and I'm sure he feels the same."

"Well, you're right about one thing. I would get hurt if you left, I would eventually get over it. But this is a situation where you have to think about yourself and no one else. However, take into consideration that the hurt you're feeling right now will not last forever. It will soon fade. And if you go back to him you won't only be hurting me, you'll be hurting yourself as well: He'll continue to hurt you as a result from the drugs. But do what you feel you have to."

"But that's just it! I don't…. No, I do know what I have to do. But is it the right thing to do?"

"Well, what does your heart tell you?"

Usagi paused a moment, "That it is the right thing."

Damon closed his eyes and let out his breath slowly. He dreaded the answer to his next question, "And what is the right thing?"

Usagi slowly broke out of Damon's embrace. She looked up at Damon with tears in her eyes. She pressed her lips together, and took in a deep breath. She slowly let in out, looked down at her lap and then back up at Damon.

"To stay with you."

Damon let out a sigh of relief, "you have no idea how happy I am to hear that."

Usagi shrugged, "I'm sure I could ball park it."

Damon smiled and embraced her again.

"I love you." The words came out before he could stop them.

Usagi stopped breathing for a moment, "What?" she sat up looked in his eyes, which never look more sincere then they did at that moment.

"You heard me. I know that it may seem a little sudden; given our relationship is only a few months old. But I can't help the way I feel. I understand if you can't say it back just yet. But, I don't know. When I'm not around you I feel empty. Like there's something missing. I never feel complete until I'm with you. I know that may sound a little cliché and really sappy but it's the truth. I don't know, call me a school boy with a cru---"

Usagi cut Damon off with a kiss that was soft and passionate. Damon dared bringing the kiss to the next level and made it even more passionate and fervent. He slid his hand up the side of her torso and, remembering her requests, didn't let his hands stray anywhere she wouldn't want them.

He gently laid her down on his gigantic king-sized bed and rolled over so Usagi was on top. He knew nothing would happen, but he wanted her to feeling control of the situation so she could stop what was happening at anytime. So there she lay almost on top of him, her left hand rest on his chest, left thigh resting on his left leg and her shin in between both his legs. Damon's right hand sat on his stomach and his left sat entwined in Usagi's hair where her neck met the back of her head. They lay there in bliss, passionately kissing, when Usagi did something that surprised them both: she moved her hand down and started to caress Damon's crotch. Damon pulled away from the kiss from both shock and the instant feeling of pleasure.

Damon raise and lowered his eyebrows, "Not that I want you to stop or that I'm complaining, because, "He chuckled, "I'm not. But, what are you doing?"

Usagi, who stopped what she was doing when Damon began speaking, shrugged, "I'm not sure. I think I'm just as surprised as you are. It just happened."

"Alright then."

"Is that a bad thing?"

"No. Of course not. I'm just confused as to where we go from here. I mean do we keep going the way we usually do, or do we take this to the next level?"

Usagi thought for a moment, "How about we keep going until I say stop?"

Damon smiled, "Sounds like a plan." And he pulled Usagi down for another kiss.

Usagi again moved her hand down Damon's crotch and began massaging it again. Once again Damon gasped and pulled away from the kiss and bit his bottom lip.

"What?" Usagi stopped what she was doing, "Are you okay? I mean, am I doing this right?"

"Yeah I am and yeah you are. That gasp was a good thing. And I'll be moaning and groaning a lot too, but don't worry it a good thing."

"Oh okay. Sorry I'm new to this."

"I can see that," Damon chuckled.

Damon pulled Usagi down again and again she reached down and massaged and yet again Damon pulled away. Usagi could feel it getting hard and wasn't quit sure what to do about it. Finally Damon had had just as much as he could take and moved her hand away and placed it on his chest.

"I though you should you liked what I was doing?" Usagi asked confused.

"I do. Maybe a little too much. You just have to be careful with how you play with it. There is such a thing as too much of a good thing, at least right now anyway. When we get to the point where we're naked or at least I am then you can play with it all you want. Just when I still have my pants on, be careful with how you play." Damon winked at Usagi and then smiled, "but for now there's the rest of me you can massage and run your fingers over and what not."

"Like what?"

Damon sat up and removed his shirt and lay back down again, tossing the piece of clothing on the floor beside his bed. Usagi stared at his bare-chest. It was just as she imagined it to be the first night she saw him. He built but not too much. He had just the right amount of muscles. And it was smooth, not a trace of hair anywhere. She loved the way it felt: warm smooth and soft. She began to lightly run her hand over it and lightly touched one of his nipples with her finger tip by mistake.

Damon took a sharp breath in, "Are you sure you've never done this before?"

"Yeah. Why?"

"Well, you seem to be finding all my sensitive spots just fine. I like it."

Usagi smiled and stole another deep and passionate kiss. Damon cautiously let his hands roam free now. Caressing the small of her back, moving up to her shoulders and up over them to her upper chest, before letting them find her left breast. He immediately loved the way they felt. They were perfect: round and soft yet firm and they fit perfectly in his hands. He reveled in it. He took a chance and rolled her over on to her back, so that now he was on top. He parted from the kiss and began to kiss the side and crook of her neck. He reached down and took the hem of her shirt in his hands and started to lift it over her head slowly, so she had plenty of time to stop him if she wanted to. She didn't though, so Damon placed her shirt on the floor with his and gazed down at her beautifully perfect breasts, which were still concealed in her bra. He reached down and undid the clasp in front, slid the straps off her shoulders and arm and place the bra on the floor. He then ran his hands over her breasts and rubbed her nipples with the tip of his thumbs. She breathed in deeply and let out a sigh. He smiled, he loved seeing the pleasure his partner was in, it was very arousing to him. He then starting kissing her all over the torso and licked her nipples occasionally. Each time his tongue brushed over her nipples he let out a gasp of pleasure. He began to undo the zipper of the jeans and slid them off of her. He next took of her underwear and dropped them on the pile of clothes on the floor. He was pleasantly surprise to see that she had shaved off all her hair completely. He didn't know why, but he liked it that way. He let his hand wonder down there; it was his turned to massage her in this area. As soon as his finger brushed against her clit, she took a sharp breath in and moaned. He smiled. He loved it: seeing her this way, so enthralled with passion and pleasure. He turned her around so that her ass was at the edge of the bed. This way he could get in between her legs better and kneel down on the floor. He began kissing her hips and the inside of her thighs and added the occasional gentle bite. Finally he made his way back to her crotch and began kissing and sucking. Usagi gripped the sheets as hard as she could. Holy hell this felt good. She never felt anything like it. Her head was swimming, her heart was thumping and her breath was rapid with the erratic moan here and there. Damon was revealing in every moment of this. God, she tasted good and the heat coming from her was mind-blowing. He brought his right hand up and slipped a finger inside her. Usagi gasped and moaned. Man she was tight. Damon could just imagine how good it would feel to be inside her. Yet, he knew it couldn't happen tonight. She was far too small and he didn't have any lubricant to help ease himself in. Without it, he knew it would be VERY painful for her, so he just kept pleasuring her the way he was.

"Damon?" Usagi said breathlessly.

Damon stopped and looked up at her, "Yeah? You okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. It's just… well… Do you have any protection?"

"I do, but I don't think it's a good idea to go any farther," Damon sat down on the bed beside her, "Unfortunately I don't have any lubricant and there's no way I'd fit in you without it. I mean without it being painful for you. So I will get some as soon as I can, and we'll continue some other time. But right now we can't go any farther so, if it's okay with you, I will continue doing what it was I was doing and next time we'll go the distance."

Usagi giggled, "'Go the distance'? Okay."

Damon smiled and went back to work.

Usagi was sitting in the cafeteria with Becky, finishing a paper, when someone tapped her on the shoulder. Usagi turned around to see a big breasted brunette standing behind her.

"You." The brunette demanded.

"Can I help you?" Usagi asked confused.

"Yes, you can. You can stay away from Damon."

"Excuse me?" Usagi asked, not believing what she was hearing.

"He's mine, and I want you to leave him alone."

"Cassandra," Becky stood up, "Back the fuck off. Damon dumped your ass months ago. Get over it."

"This has nothing to do with you, Rebecca." Cassandra retorted.

"Fist of all, my name is Becky, not Rebecca. And second of all, this has plenty to do with me. Damon is my friend and what involves him involves me. Now fuck off before I make you."

Cassandra scoffed and stormed away.

"What was that about?" Usagi asked still trying to figure out what had just taken place.

Becky sat back down and shook her head, "that was Cassandra. The girlfriend before you. I think we've told you this. Anyway, what you don't know is that she cheated on Damon for several months with some guy. Damon found out that the other guy was John."

Usagi's jaw dropped, "But aren't they really good friends?"

Becky put her finger up, "That's the funny part. When Damon found out about John neither of them know who each other were, and John didn't even know Cassandra had another boyfriend. So in John's eyes she was cheating on him too. So they both walked in the cafeteria together and dumped her ass at the same time. Oh my god, Usagi! You should have seen her face when they walked in together. It was so funny. Yeah so, John and Damon have been great friends ever since."

Usagi started at her friend with a smirk, "That's hilarious! Does she act like this with John as well?"

"No. I think it's because of Damon's assets that she tries to get back with him."

Usagi furrowed her brow, "'assets'?"

"Yeah. You know, his 'assets'." Becky air quoted the word assets.

Usagi started blankly.

"Oh my god! You don't know. Haven't you guys, you know, had sex?"

Usagi's eyes widened, "No."

"Oh!" Becky paused, "Why?"

"Because we haven't."

"Have you ever had sex before? I mean, with anyone?"

Usagi shook her head, "Why is this so important to you?"

"Just answer the question."

"Ugh! No."

"What? Why?"

"Because it just never happened."

"So then how far have you Damon gone?"

"We've gone far enough. And that's all I'm going to tell you! Now excuse me, but I'm going to be late for class.

AN: So there you have it the next chap. I'm SOOOOOOOO sorry it took me so long to post, I've been VERY busy. Anyway, I'm starting on the next chapter right now. Anyway, review!