I awoke the next morning and reached under the bed to grab my diary. I reached around but couldn't find it. Instead, I found a note. I picked it up and read it
'Will you go out with me?' it read. I emiadiatly dropped to the floor and looked under the bed.
"Oh my god! oh my god" I panicked
"James potter!" I screamed opening the door. I ran downstairs
"Where's James?" I asked Sirius who was sitting on the couch grinning
"I don't know" He said sweetly
"Such a bad liar. Sirius tell me right now!" I said walking over to him
"Why should I?" he asked
"Because" I said.
"Well what would I get if I did tell you?" He asked.
"Just tell me where he is" I said
"He said something about going to the kitchens" Sirius said
"Thanks" I kissed him on the cheek and ran out of the room. But before I did…
"Remus did u see that?" Sirius asked like it never happened
"No" Remus lied. I ran down the stairs and tripped. I fell right into the arms of none other than James potter.
"What are you running for?" James grinned
"Where is it?" I asked
"Where is what?" he asked
"Don't act stupid" I snapped
"Fine, I threw it out the north tower window" James said.
"YOU WHAT!" I screamed
"Well there is a way to get it back" James said
"And what would that be?" I asked
"Go out with me" He said simply
"In your dreams" I said
"Well we already are dating in my dreams" James said
"I hate you" I said looking him in the eye
"Sorry but that's not new information" James said
"And when have I told you that?" I asked
'You more like, wrote it" He said pushing my diary into my hands and walking past me, the look on his face was unforgettable it looked so sad
"You read it!" I asked
"No I just starred at the cover" James said sarcastically
"I swear" I said quietly
"What?" He asked
"Nothing" I said walking back up the stairs.
"Lily" he called after me
"What?" I snapped
"Love you" He said sweetly
"Yea right" I said and continued walking. He didn't bother coming after me again. I really do hate him! He just tries to piss me off…
"Lils you ok?" Kat asked as I walked back into the common.
"Fine" I answered in a low tone
"Yea… I'm really going to believe you when you sound like that" Kat said
"James read my diary" I said
"He what?" Kat asked
"He snuck up to our room and stole it" I said
"That's James" Kat said laughing
"Am I the only one who seems bothered by him in the girl's dorm" Lily said
"Yup" Sirius said
"Do you ever not listen?" I asked
"Nope" he answered walking up to me. I laughed
"SO its ok when I listen to you?" He asked
"What?" I asked confused
"Well you laugh when I do it, but get mad when it's James" Sirius explained
"Yea but when it's James it's…" I started
"Different? How is it different?" He asked
"I... I don't know it just is" I said. He looked me in the eye
"You know I'm right" he said. And the truth was, he was making sense
"Look when James over hears what I say, he uses it against me" I told him
"Like when?" Sirius asked. I thought about it
"Well I can't exactly remember a time" I started
"Because he never did" Sirius said
"Yea but he used what was written about him in my diary against me" I said
"Only because you told him you hated him" Sirius said grinning
"How did… wait you read it too?" I asked
"No I didn't. I swear. James told me" Sirius said
"Oh" I said calming down.
"Why don't you just give him a chance?" Sirius asked
"I knew that was the only reason you're playing with my head" I said walking away
"Lily, I'm just trying to make you realize that you hate him for no reason" Sirius said, I stopped walking and turned around. He had said that loudly and a lot of the people in the common room were now starring at us. I had gotten used to it though; it seemed to happen a lot
"No reason? What about all the stuff he's done to me" I asked getting angry. Little did I know he had walked into the common room and was now watching us from the door
"I've been in on a lot of that stuff too, and you don't hate me" Sirius said
"Yea, but you don't grab my ass, and pull me onto your lap holding my there until I go out with you. Or you don't just kiss me out of nowhere when you know perfectly well that I'm going to get mad at you for doing it. Believe me Sirius I could stand here all day naming things that I hate about him that you don't do" I had yelled this time.
"Lily! Did you ever think maybe I was doing those things for a reason?" James yelled now walking up to me
"Yea. And what the hell would those reasons be?" I asked still yelling
"Maybe, if it's possible. I mean if you will believe me, that I actually like you! Or that I don't see you as just any girl, but someone who seems special" He said his voice getting louder. Everyone was now starring at us. I looked around.
"Yes because forcing me to do things really shows that! Just stay away from me" I said quietly walking up the stairs to the girl's dorm. Kat ran up after me. Everyone else was sitting on there beds.
"What the hell was that about?" Katie asked me
"Nothing" I said burying my face in my pillow
"Lils, we got class" Kat said walking over to me
"I'm not going" I yelled
"You have to" Kat said
"Just tell the teachers I'm sick" Lily said
"Then you would be with madam" Kat said referring to the nurse
"So just make something up!" I yelled. Kat left with the others. I rolled onto my back and starred up and the ceiling. Again I was crying, and for no reason. Well the reason was James, but I didn't know why. This time though, it wasn't dark and it wasn't raining, so I had nowhere to go.
Narrators point of view
The girls walked downstairs and into the silent common room. everyone had left except for Sirius and James who were on the couch. And the girls continued out the door, well everyone except for Katie
"Well you tried" she said sitting next to James
"Yea a lot of good that did me" he said getting up and leaving
"You just had to bring it up" she said to Sirius
"Hey, I was trying to help him, I didn't think he was actually there" Sirius said
"I know" she said
"And you know what I said was true" he said
"Actually I didn't hear what you said, only what lily was yelling back to you" she said
"oh" he said
"Look, I'm going to go. Don't want to be late" she said
"But we're always late" he says getting up with her and walking out of the room
"True" she said as they walked, and like usually got into an argument with him over something stupid on the way there ending up being late for class.
Lily's point of view later in the day (lunch)
"You know, James was worried about you when you weren't in class" Felesha said
"And I'm supposed to care?" I snapped
"Just telling you" Felesha said
"Sorry, I'm just not in the best of moods" I said smiling.
"I can see that" she said also smiling
"Anyways…" Em said trying to make conversation
"Where's Kat?" Katie asked
"Over there" Felesha pointing to the Slytherin table
"Ohh" I said turning back to my plate
"How come you weren't in class?" Sirius asked sitting down next to me
"Didn't feel good" I said
"Feel better?" he asked
"Kind of" I said lying.
"Well then let's go to the hospital room" Sirius said picking me up, and throwing me over his shoulder
"Sirius put me down!" I yelled
"Nope, we have to get you medical attention" Sirius joked carrying me out of the hall. He finally put me down in front of the hospital doors.
"Go on" He said
"Sirius I'm not really sick" I said
"Then why did you skip classes?" he asked. I knew that he knew from the beginning that I wasn't sick, just by the sound of his voice
"Because I'm not feeling good in the mind" I said
"What?" he asked confused
"Sirius I don't know if this makes sense to you, but I don't like it when I'm constantly yelling at James, or you, or anyone else" I said
"So?" he said still confused
"So after the fight in the common room, I just needed time to think" I said
"Oh, well why didn't you say that in the first place?" he asked. I rolled my eyes and walked with him back to lunch.
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