"Well don't make it sound like were going to die" James told me. It was now dark, and to tell the truth it was really creepy.
"We are going to die," I said looking around into the darkness
"No were not," He said putting his arm around me
"Just because I'm scared… doesn't mean you can touch me" I said moving father away from him.
"Your scared?" He asked grinning even more now
"Well it's dark… and were lost in the woods… I'd make no sense not to be scared," I said. I don't even think I made sense to myself
"So your scared of the dark?" he asked
"No, I love the dark" I said. And I wasn't sarcastic either. I really did love the dark
"You know your not making sense right?" He asked
"Look, I love the dark. I just don't like being in the middle of the forest lost when it's dark, especially the forbidden forest." I explained
"Oh" he said now getting what I was saying. It was quiet for a few minutes
"What the hell?" I said quickly turning around
"What?" He asked
"I thought I heard something," I said looking around. It's just my mind, its playing tricks on me. Ok maybe not. I thought hearing something else
"James… there's something out there" I said moving a little closer to him
"Lily, its ok, calm down" He said pulling me into a hug
"It is not ok" I said pulling away "I'm telling you, there is something out there" I repeated.
"There's lots of things out there," he told me
"Oh yea, your making me feel a lot better James" I said
"It's the truth," He said moving towards me
"I know, I know," I said. I turned to the left and started walking
"Ok, we'll try this way" He said catching up and walking next to me.
"Well, there has to be a reason for this, I mean everything happens for a reason right?" He said. Aww that's sweet, he believes it too. Wait this is James were talking about. And didn't I write something like that in my diary. Does he really think I'm that thick?
"Actually I don't believe that" I lied
"Yes you do," He said
"And how would you know?" I said. He was proving my point
"I… I don't," He said looking the other way
"Next time, don't use what I write against me," I said walking a little faster
"Sorry, I was just trying to get you not to hate me" he said
"Impossible, but sense were stuck in the middle of the woods… together, I don't see why we cant be civil towards each other" I explained
"Cool" he answered simply. But I think he was a little hurt.
"Does anyone know that you came to look for me?" I asked
"No… why?" he asked
"I just figured that if someone did, and you didn't return, that they'd come look for you," I explained
"Oh… nope" he said
"Ok… so what are we going to do?" I asked
"No idea" He answered simply
"You know, you're as much help as if I was alone" I said
"Yea, but now you don't have to be scared," he said smiling. I looked up into his eyes and smiled back. Wait no. Don't smile back! What am I doing?
"You know… you're really pretty when you smile" he told me. I blushed. And he seemed to notice because he smiled. Wait why am I blushing. Its just James.
"Shut up" I joked
"Didn't know you were so offensive about complements," He said. I looked up into his eyes. I never really liked them, but right now I was getting lost in them. I quickly locked my eyes to the floor
"You ok?" He asked
"Fine, I'm fine" I said still looking at the floor.
"Ok?" he said. By the tone of his voice I knew he knew I was lying.
"I just have a headache, I've been walking all day," I said. Wait how would that give me a headache?
"Ok? Well lets take a break then" He said stopping and walking over to a big rock. He sat down. I also stopped walking and watched him. I sat on a low tree branch that was across from him, but a few feet away.
"Why are you sitting so far away?" he asked. I looked up at him. Ok maybe more than a few feet.
"Because there's no where else to sit" I said quickly
"You can sit here," he said motioning next to him
"I'm fine here," I said. He laughed and rolled his eyes
"What?" I asked now smiling
"Do you hate me that much?" he asked
"Well let's see, no. But that last time I sat next to you, you started making out with me," I said looking him in the eye
"And you still haven't admitted how much you liked it" he said grinning. I couldn't help but laugh. Why am I laughing? I shouldn't be laughing. Aw he has such cute eyes. Wait I did not say that!
"Yea, I just loved making out with you, that's exactly why I slapped you," I said smiling
"Love hurts," he says. He always has an excuse
"Yea…that's it," I said sarcastically
"Lets keep walking," He said getting up.
"Ok?" I said also getting up. I caught up to him and we started walking again.
"So why did you run into the forest in the first place?" he asked
"I don't know… I guess I was just upset, and it was the only place to go," I said
"Gryfindor tower?" he said suggesting it
"That's where you were going," I said
"Oh, it was right after that" he said looking at the floor
"Yea" I said quietly
"Yea" he said quietly. It felt so awkward now. I just kept my eyes locked to the floor in front of me. Trying not to trip. Though it's probably not possible or my mind is playing tricks on me, It seemed like it kept getting darker and darker even thought it was already pitch black. Glancing over at James he was also keeping eye contact with the floor. I silently laughed to myself.
"What?" he asked
"Nothing" I said not looking up.
"So do you like spy on me or something?" he asked
"No, why?" I asked
"Because you know about us sneaking into the woods" he said
"I just wondered why Remus had an excuse every month. So I watched all of you" I said
"Oh" he said quietly
"I still say you liked watching me" he said smiling. Why does he have to be such an ass?
"You know, all those girls I slept with. I was just trying to make you jealous" he said.
"Oh yea, sleeping with girls makes me jealous, and the fact that you used all of them made me want you so badly" I said sharply
"Well I told you the reason I did it" he said. No one was smiling anymore. The tension was really high too.
"It still wasn't a good reason. And how do I know that your not only going to use me?" I asked.
"Because, because I love you" he said. I stood there frozen. Not that word again.
"And how do I know that that's not a lie?" I asked.
"Why would it be?" he asked
"Do you know, how many times I've heard you say 'I love you' to those girls that you used?" I asked
"But I didn't mean it then" he said.
"And you don't mean it now" I said meanly. I walked in the opposite direction that he was going and started to run. I had no idea what I was doing, or where I was going. Making sure that I couldn't hear him anymore, I sat down against the tree after about an hour I heard foot steps getting closer. I quietly stood up and back up into a tree. I didn't think it was James this time. And I was feeling really scared. No that the footsteps were closer I knew it wasn't James, because it sounded like four feet instant of two. But they were walking in rhythm so it sounded more like and animal than two people. Suddenly the footsteps stopped
"Lily is that you?" someone said
"Sirius?" I asked. I ran up to him.
"Finally, I've been looking all over for you" he said pulling me into a hug
"Thank god you here. But how did you find me?" I asked
"Lucky I guess" he said
"Where's James?" I asked
"He found his way back to the castle, after he looked for you for awhile" Sirius explained
"Oh" I said silently
"What's wrong?" he asked
"Nothing, I just thought an animal was coming" I said
"Nope just me" he said. He was smiling a little different than his usual grin. (because he found her by turning into his dog form)
"So do you remember the way out?" I asked
"Like the back of my hand" he said grinning.
"Ok then, let's go" I said. We started to walk in the opposite direction that I ran. Figures, I should've just stayed with James. But he was being such an ass.
"So what happened between you and James" Sirius asked. But it wasn't like the what happened sexually... but more of, James came back pissed. What happened?
"Nothing" I said
"Ok" he said not believing me. And I could tell by his voice that he didn't
"It's me and James, we just got into another fight" I said
"Oh, over what?" he asked
"Him using people" I said silently
"Oh, so the same old stuff" Sirius said, I laughed
"Yea, pretty much" I said
"You know the reason he did it right?" Sirius asked
"He's explained it to me many times" I said rolling my eyes
"Do you believe it?" Sirius asked
"Even if that's the reason he did it. It's not right" I said
"Yea I guess" he said
"I mean you do it too, and I know that, but for some reason I don't hate you for it" I said thinking about it
"I don't use people!" Sirius said. I looked up at him
"I just give them what they want, even if it is just one night" Sirius said
"You're such a physco" I said
"I accept that complement" he said grinning
"That's why there all upset when you break it off with them" I said
"But I never date them. I mean it's not official. I flirt with them they follow me to my room, and" he started
"Ok, I don't need anymore info" I said quickly. He laughed and put his arm around me. But it was in a friend kind of way. So I didn't mind it. Sirius was like a brother to me, or more of a really good friend that I could trust.
"I wasn't going to tell you any of the details" he said laughing
"Ok, I wasn't sure" I said also laughing
"You'll have to find those out from experience" he joked
"Then I don't think I want to know" I said laughing
"Now I'm insulted" he said as he stopped walking and removed his hand
"Aww pour Sirius.. Come on lets go" I said laughing
"What's the rush? I mean were stuck in the middle of the forest at night…" he said joking around
"Shut up" I said
"I was only joking, and I know. Besides… I couldn't betray a friend" Sirius said
"And what's that mean?" I asked
"Well, James likes you" he said
"Oh... Yea" I said. I really should've known that
"Plus I like one of your friends" he said
"Oh and which one do you like?" I asked
"That I cannot tell" he said smiling