Gallifrey

Title: Gallifrey

Author: MYBIGBLUEBOX

Series: Doctor Who

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Spoilers: none

Characters: Doctor (Tenth) and Rose

Disclaimer: God knows how many times you've all read these disclaimers but I'm going to say it all again just coz. I don't own these characters this fanfic is based on. They belong to our lord and master 'The BBC' ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Summary:

Dedications: Everyone who's read anything I've done over the years and gave their constructive criticism.

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Dear Diary,

As the Tardis drew nearer and nearer to Gallifrey, the more nervous I got. What he is going to see will destroy him or send him into a blind rage and to be honest I don't want to witness either thank you very much. My bottom lip was bleeding where I'd chewed it. As I'm writing this the Doctor is leaping around the Tardis' central column. I've never seen him so excited and apprehensive at the same time, he can't seem to keep still. This could turn really ugly. I should have told him about the Time Lord's when I first mentioned Gallifrey. I can only hope that when he finds out he isn't angry at me. If he leaves me back on Earth I don't know what I'll do. I love him, even after what he's done, I forgave him almost instantly. I just don't want to loose him again, looking at him now is almost surreal. I never believed I'd see the inside of this ship again, I never thought I'd see the Doctor again and yet here I am. He's worth the heart break, I've realized that, and I'll always love him, but what if he doesn't love me anymore? I've always feared rejection,from him at least, but now that it is a possibility I'm more scared that I ever have been in my entire life. To have him back and to be cruelly snatched away again would break my heart. Even more so if it was my own stupidity that pushed him away. We've landed, I pray that this is not the end of something that has been so dear to me for the last two and a half years. Here comes the storm.

The Tardis ground to a halt on Gallifrey for the first time in an uncountable amount of years. All of a sudden the Doctor looked different, scared to walk outside the door, apprehensive of what sites awaited him. From where she was watching on the couch Rose knew that he had a right to be apprehensive, she'd seen this new Gallifrey and it had ripped her right to the core. God only knew what it would do to the Doctor. He surprised her by spinning on his heal to face her, flashing that grin that she had missed so much, and took her hand in his. They shared a look that lingered a few moments longer than was necessary before making their way to the Tardis' door. Just as the Doctor was about to reach out a hand for the handle Rose stopped him by turning him to face her.

'Doctor... you need to hear this, you don't want to go out there. Y-you can't go out there. I'm sorry...' He cut her off mid sentence a look of amusement pasted across his face to mingle with the smile that lingered there.

'Rose.. I've been waiting for this for so long. There's nothing here that will hurt me this is my home. I've come home.' He spoke those last words so reverently that it made Rose wince inside at how hurt he would be when he opened that door. She opened her mouth to protest, before she could speak, the Doctor gently removed her hands from his shoulders and pushed his way past her.

'Doctor listen to me!' she called after him desperately before leaping out the door after him. She managed to stop herself from crashing into his stone like body, that stood in front of her. She moved cautiously around him to see what else had happened to the Time Lord's home planet since she'd last visited.

Destruction was all that could be seen, for miles blood and rubble littered the once beautiful streets of Gallifrey. The planet was dark, dull and silent, so silent. Large plumes of smoke rose from the city center, turning the sky a murky grey. A children's playground lay in tatters one lone swing creaking in the dull breeze. Rose sneaked a look at the Doctor, his face was a picture of pain, despair, with shaking hands Rose took his in both of hers in a firm grasp. He looked down at them, amazed at the contact but he did not pull away. Rose breathed a sigh of relief, and lay her head on his shoulder. They stood in the ruined streets of Gallifrey, The Doctor drawing strength from Rose, and Rose despairing at the prospect of loosing him.

'I'm sorry.' It sounded so stupid to her. I'm sorry, but what else could she say. Two words did not convey what she felt into words, nor did it make up for the loss he must feel. To have his planet back and have it cruelly snatched away again, like her Doctor taken from her only to be given back and taken yet again. She couldn't tell him that, tell him that she knew how he felt. The damage that was put between them could only be repaired in time, maybe one day they would be back together like they used to be, but now everything was too delicate between them for soul bearing, or so she thought. If only she knew that the Doctor's heart ached to have her back, to have her tell him she understood and to comfort him the way she use to. He thought it was too soon, she would surely push him away.

'Who did this Rose?' She looked up at him, surprised at the tremble in his voice. He'd hardly shown her any emotion in their last few weeks together before he abandoned her, she'd almost forgotten what it was like to see him care about anything. As she opened her mouth to reply a sound caught their attention. Through the smoke of the city burning below them figures could be made out, coming straight at them. Rose knew who they where, she had known they where coming for them, but the Doctor could save those that where still alive, but to do that they had to be captured first. She was terrified of them, the feel of the Doctor's hand warm in hers was the only thing that kept her from running back to the safety of the Tardis and her own planet. The grinding on rubble being crushed under something heavy stopped, just as the opposition came into view.

'Doc-tor de-tec-ted, EX-TERMINATE EX-TERMINATE!'

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O.k. Not to happy with this one. Did I loose something here? It just feels like it's missing something. Let me know and I'll correct it in the next chapter. Sorry that it's been so long since I've written the last few weeks of school where hell and I needed a break from my Dr Who fics for a bit. Hope that's o.k. But I'm back on track now and intend o finish this story soon. Review it please!