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Rory´s POV:

"So let me get this straight; she's crashing at his place?" Lane eyed me curiously while taking a sip of coffee. I just nodded and took a bite from my doughnut.

We had been shopping all day and now we both were exhausted. Lane had tried on every piece of lingerie there was; she wanted to surprise Dave on their five years anniversary. I was sure that he indeed will be surprised although Lane's bank account might look a little bit pathetic now. I hadn't bought a thing, because I had been too distracted to even consider surprising Jess as well with a piece of clothing that lacked of actual fabric.

I sighed and leaned back in my seat.

"Should I be worried?" I asked her not really wanting her to reply. I mean I trusted Jess. I did, right? Lane shrugged her shoulders.

"If he wanted to cheat on you he could have already. I don't think he'd do it so obviously." I swallowed hard and glared at Lane.

"You are no help, what makes you say that?" I whined and buried my head in my hands.

"What do you want me to say, huh? I say no, you accuse me of simplifying the situation, I tell you that he just as well might be cheating and you yell at me. This is definitely one of those conversations where you can only say the wrong things." She stated calmly and took yet another sip of her coffee. I sighed once again, I was sure that soon I would start to hyperventilate. Where is the paper bag when you need one?

"I should trust him." I mumbled more to convince myself than anything else and decided to ignore her last comment. Lane nodded in approval.

"That you should." I tried to ignore the doubts that were physically apparent in my stomach. I wrecked my brain trying to come up with something else to say, but I just simply couldn't get my mind off of Cat's expression when I had left. She made me doubt myself and she made me doubt my relationship with Jess, which in return was unbearable. Why was it that I just couldn't be happy with how things were going? Jess was attentive and caring and he had told me he loved me. Of course I had said it first, but that didn't mean that he didn't actually feel it, right? I hated being in that position, a position were I started to over analyze things. Hadn't he just hugged her too tightly, had his eyes lit up too much when he first had spotted her, had he been too comfortable in her presence? Suddenly I felt a bang of guilt floating through my body. Hadn't I always wanted him to have friends? And now that he apparently had one, I doubted his loyalty. Of course when I had imagined Jess hanging out with friends, they had always been guys. Maybe a gay girl with a crooked nose, bad breath, bad teeth and slightly overweight? I shook my head trying to make this selfish person go away that I was at that moment, but I just couldn't get the image out of my head. Day dreams in which I would walk in on them, having sex and Jess laughing at me for being so naïve, telling me that I had just been a replacement, a distraction. My head started hurting as I made up all the worst scenarios, and somehow in the back of my mind I actually understood that I indeed deserved the physical pain. But that was a total different matter. On the one hand I knew that I trusted Jess, but on the other hand I just couldn't get over my insecurity. Lane interrupted my mental ranting as she waved a hand in front of my face.

"Earth to Rory! Hey, you spaced out there for a while. Everything okay?" I shook my head.

"No, nothing is okay; my boyfriend is having sex with another girl!" I exclaimed and I was sure that people around us started to worry about me. I caught the eyes of the woman at the table next to ours and I was sure that she mouthed something along the line as: Men, all pigs! Of course I could just be hallucinating. Lane sighed and shot an apologetic glance into the woman's direction.

"Drama queen. Why didn't you just tell him that you weren't okay with her crashing at his place?" I looked at her with a "duh" expression on my face.

"And come off as the jealous girlfriend, that I am not?" I was making no sense at all, I knew that, but it was just too hard to play it cool, with me being just as stubborn as my mom and all.

"Sure you're not jealous, sorry, could have fooled me." Apparently Lane started to get annoyed with my mind games. Suddenly I became restless; I wanted to get back to Jess, talk about it, maybe Cat was indeed gay. I shook my head no. Jess mentioned Derek, that just couldn't be a girl's name. I was furious at myself but I simply couldn't help it. I could feel Lane's eyes on me.

"Go! I know you want to. If you're not home by nine, I take it that everything's alright. Now please for my own sake, go!" I got up, hugged her tightly and then turned around, walking to my car.

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Although I knew that Jess was expecting me, I somewhat stood uneasily in front of his door, trying to work up the courage to knock. Just as I was about to actually lift my hand up, the door opened magically and there she was: Cat. Even the name sounded somehow strange to me now. I worked up a smile and scanned her carefully. She was wearing tight sweatpants and a dark red UCLA sweatshirt. Her black running shoes completed the image. I couldn't help but snort soundlessly. Of course! She jogs! She smiled at me and stepped aside.

"Hey Rory, Jess is in the shower, he should be out by now." I politely smiled back at her and entered the apartment, nodding my head in response.

"Thanks, Catherine!" I squeezed through my lips, using her full name on purpose. She looked at me with wide eyes and said.

"You're welcome and it's Cat." I grinned sweetly and apologized silently.

Cat closed the door on her way out and I let out a relieved sigh. Well, that went just well.

Just as I wanted to sit down on the couch, Jess came out of the bathroom, wearing nothing but a towel around his waist, his hair dripping wet, his eye lashes clustered together. Normally it would have taken all my will power not to go over there and let the towel slip from his body, but I couldn't help but think that he shouldn't be running around like this when Cat was staying with him. Of course I didn't express myself verbally. Jess's face instantly lit up when he spotted me and came over to where I was half sitting, half standing. He kissed me delicately on the lips and I felt his body touching mine. Wet and appealing. I kissed him back for only a second and if he had sensed my discomfort, he didn't let it show.

"If I had known that you were coming over so soon, I would have just waited for you." He smirked suggestively and let one of his hands travel down my spine, which made me shiver. I tried to hide my sudden response at his tough and pulled away.

"Really?" I asked sarcastically and avoided his eyes. He took my chin in his hand and steadied my wandering eyes on his.

"Really!" he breathed softly and the air coming from his mouth tickled my face. I closed my eyes for a second, allowing myself to experience the sensation of his attention. I turned away from him and made my way to the kitchen.

"So, Cat jogs, huh?" I said nonchalantly as I proceeded to make myself a cup of coffee.

"Yeah, we used to run together, but I am totally not in shape to keep up with her." I swallowed hard, letting my head drop, so that my chin was nearly touching my chest. I wanted to ask him so badly what else they used to do together, but I suppressed the urge to transform into a heartless bitch. For now at least.

"That's nice." I replied expressionless and poured water into the coffee pot. I looked at Jess and caught his eyes as he raised an eyebrow.

"Everything okay? The shoppingdid go well?" I nodded my head.

"Yeah, Laneexhausted her credit card at Victoria Secret's. It was fun." I heard Jess chuckle.

"Buy anything, Ror´?" I couldn't help but smile as I simply shook my head.

"Damn!" Jess exclaimed in mock hurt and came over to where I was standing. He wrapped his arms around me from behind and started to attack my neck with kisses. Although I could feel is arousal, I didn't act on it.

"You know, I missed you today." He whispered between kisses, tightening his hold on me. I swirled around, taking him by surprise.

"Really?" I spat more harshly than I had intended. He let go off me and scanned my face for any evidence that he had done something wrong.

"Okay, Rory, What's wrong?" He soberly asked his face blank except maybe a hint of confusion.

"You running around in nothing but your towel, that's what's wrong." I exclaimed and started to pace around the kitchen.

"Since when does that bother you?" he asked confused. I stopped to look at him.

"Since you're not the only one anymore living in this apartment." I instantly replied. The heartless bitch was now dangerously closeto taking the upper hand.

"Huh!" I was furious.

"Huh? Huh? That is the only thing you have to say? Huh?" I was on the verge of yelling. I could practically see him building up his defensive wall again.

"I am sorry, did I miss something? When did we start fighting?" I glared at him.

"We're not fighting." Jess shrugged his shoulders.

"No, you're right, you are fighting and I have no fucking clue what is going on." Of course, you are clueless. I crossed my arms in front of my chest, showing him that I was ready. Ready for what? I had no idea. Suddenly it seemed that it dawned on him as he started to chuckle ironically.

"Ah! This is about Cat." He stated calmly, but still slightly sarcastically, crossing his arms over his chest as well. The towel was now dangerously loose on his waist. I shook my head.

"No, this is about you not telling me stuff." Jess glared at me.

"So, this is about Cat." Is he not listening?

"Are you not listening?" I exclaimed exhausted.

"I'm just trying to read between the lines here, Rory. This is about Cat." I laughed mockingly.

"You seem to be very obsessed with her name, Jess." I childishly replied, not giving him a chance to elaborate.

"Yes, when my girlfriend suddenly transforms into a yelling martyr, I actually assume that it has something to do with recent changes in our lives." I took a deep breath.

"So you actually admit that there is a change?" Jess covered his face in his hands, groaning frustrated. I could see his jaw clenching.

"You aren't making any sense, Rory! Just tell me what the hell is bothering you." I knew he was provoking me, and he succeeded.

"I think you are so damn good in reading between the lines, why don't you tell me what is bothering me?" I yelled madly.

"I think Cat is bothering you and I actually have no fucking clue why!" I hated how he said her name, and I really hated her for the fact that she succeeded to cause trouble between us.

I took a deep breath, trying to calm myself, trying to keep the little demons inside my chest hidden. I walked over to where he was standing and took his hands from his face. I looked him in the eye and asked the one question that I was sure would cause even more trouble than we already were in.

"Are you sleeping with her?" Did I just say that out loud? Oh my god, I didn't, did I? According to the look of total shock visible on Jess's face I did. He pushed me away roughly.

"Where the fuck does that come from, huh?" Although I knew I was totally out of line, I pushed even further.

"You didn't answer my question." I shot back and as soon as the sentence left my mouth, I wanted to take it back, swallow the words and rewind the entire day. If I had known that you were coming over so soon, I would have just waited for you. Oh yeah? Yeah! And with that we should have gone into his bedroom.

"You have got to be kidding me." He was yelling now as well. I was out of my mind.

"Answer the question, Damnit!" I had no idea what the hell had gotten to me. Oh yeah, the unbearable agony of being in love. Jess took a deep breath. His face was red and his eyes were nearly black.

"Am I sleeping with her? No! Did I sleep with her? Yes! Do I plan on sleeping with her again? No! Do I plan on hurting you? No. Do I love you? Yes. Do you love me? I'm not so sure." The tirade of his questions and answers took me by surprise. So he did sleep with her, but what got to me even more was the fact that he doubted my love. But now, can I blame him? All of a sudden a weird calmness settled upon me, making my vision blurred as the tears started to fall.

"I do love you, Jess." I whispered as I tried to grab his hand, trying to intertwine our fingers. Jess scratched his head and chuckled sadly.

"You have a damn weird way of showing it then! Part of love is trust and it's quite obvious that you don't trust me." His face was dangerously close to mine as he whispered this. I could smell him. Clean. Of soap and shampoo. My shampoo. I swallowed as I experienced the great pain of him pulling away from my hold. He still held my eyes as he continued.

"I was ready for this, I really thought that we were ready for this, but now it seems that you're not." His soft voice completely contradicted the meaning of his words. Was he breaking up with me?

"Are you breaking up with me?" Jess shook his head sadly.

"You so don't get my point, Rory." Jess stared at me waiting for an answer; when he wouldn't get one, he turned around, tightening the towel around his waist.

"Cat needs a place to crash. I am her friend. Do the math." He said over his shoulder as he made his way to his bedroom. To get dressed? To get away from me? I didn't know. My shoulders were shaking as I went over to the door and turned the knob. The door creaked mockingly as I opened it and slipped out. On the one hand I admired his loyalty towards Cat, but on the other hand I wished that I had never tested it. I looked at my watch. A quarter to eight; I'd be home before nine and Lane would not be happy.

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