Oh, She Knows…
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"Oh she knows"
She did didn't she? She must know by now, I mean I haven't exactly hid it that well. When I try hiding it I hide every other emotion as well, which isn't good.
But I can't help it though…I thought I loved Reinette…at the time anyway. I thought she understood me, but in the end she was there for me as always. Always there and always waiting.
She must see how I feel about her when I pull her into tight hugs of relief…or if I suddenly kiss her gently on the lips…or when we curl up on the sofa and watch a movie in the evening…the best part of my life at the moment…all because she is there to share it.
She came running towards me, I seized her and tugged her into my arms, and laughed with pure joy of seeing her again. I wiped away the tears of happiness from her face and kissed her on the mouth, and when she didn't resist I deepened the kiss. My sense of taste going haywire…amongst other senses of course. It was felt so right, I couldn't help myself.
"Rose…I lo…." I sighed, I couldn't say it, I didn't have the right, after so many people who I loved had died…I didn't want to put her in danger as well. " You know right?..." I said hopefully, staring into her deep brown eyes, unable to take my eyes off her.
She smiled slightly and kissed me, I couldn't help beaming back at her, I was so lucky.
"Yeah I know Doctor" She murmured.
Breaking my heart, I knew this had to be done, I couldn't let this happen again, it would complicate things too much.
"Rose, this can't happen again ok? We have to carry on as normal…I care so much about you Rose, but I can't let anyone else see this, you must understand, I can be with you in the Tardis, when we are alone but that's it. I'm sorry…" My eyes burned with raw emotion.
For an answer Rose kissed me, running her hands through my hair making me breathless. Breaking away I looked at her, my eyes conveying the message I wanted to tell her. Wordlessly I took her hand and led her to my room. She deserved all I could give to her…and tonight, just that once, I would give her what we both had been wanting so desperately. Only tonight.
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