Mer, Please talk to me. He asked closing the gap between them.
His lips were on hers crushing into her body like he couldn't live without touching her. And deep down he knew he couldn't. His hand moved to the curve of her neck and his lips moved faster more urgent.
She tried to pull away she really did. She knew it was wrong, so wrong but she couldn't for the life of her make herself move. His lips were on hers and hers on his. She couldn't do this to herself not again. She put her hands up on his chest and pushed him away.
"Derek," she said catching her breath. "We can't do this. You are married and I can't be hurt anymore. You've hurt me so much these past few years. My daughter needs me to be happy and I can't be if I can't let go of you. She released all the tears she'd been holding in.
Derek grabbed her and put her in his arms even though she fought him. She silently gave in and let him hold her while she cried.
"Mer," He whispered. "Mer I need you, I don't want you to move on in your life. I want you to want me. Please Mer. I know you love me and I love you. I wanted my mirage to work but it isn't. I know I gave it a try, but Mer I need you not Addison. You."
Meredith looked up once again into his eyes. She felt like kissing him again and again but she knew she couldn't let it happen this way.
She got up out of his arms and started to walk away. Derek grabbed her fist and turned her back to face him. His face was inches from hers his breath mingled with hers. He could smell the lavender conditioner from her hair he could see the tears trickle down her cheek.
"Meredith Grey, listen to me." His voice was strong and urgent. "I will not let that little girl grow up without a father. I need her as much as she needs me. For once in your life put someone before you." He said and tried to take back the last part. "Mere..." "How dare you!" She interrupted. "How dare you say that to me! I've sacrificed everything for my Lilly! You weren't there when I refused to marry my boyfriend because she didn't want me to! You weren't there when I gave up my job! You were never there! Never!" She screamed at him. Causing people to look over at them and start whispering to each other. "Meredith, you know I didn't mean that I'm just so frustrated! please Mer, I love you!" Just then someone with red hair stepped up to him. "Addison." He breathed.