Part 3: Envy

Well, Jude and Tommy ended up heading back to his apartment and sleeping together. Jude left in the morning without waking up Tommy and snuck down stairs in her clubbing out fit. Then the door bell rang.

"Crap!" Jude exclaimed in a loud whisper. Tommy stepped out of his room, rubbing his eyes. "Tommy…"

"Trying to skip out on me, Harrison?" he joked.

"No," she took him seriously.

"I was joking."

"I knew that."

"Okay…" he went to the door and opened it to reveal Jen. "Baby…"

"Quincy," Jen greeted. She walked into the house. Her jaw dropped at the sight of a messy haired Jude in some of the sluttiest clothes she'd ever seen. Guess she hasn't looked in her own closet in a while.

"Good morning, Jen."

"What is she doing here?" Jen asked Tommy, ignoring Jude's greeting.

"Uh-"

"I got into a fight with my boyfriend and Tommy lived closest. I walked out," Jude lied. More stretched the truth; she did walk out on her boyfriend. Sort of. Jude looked back and forth between Jen and Tommy. "I think I'm gonna jet."

"I think you should," Jen snapped.

"Jen!" Tommy scolded.

"No, it's okay. See you in a few hours, Tommy. …Jen." As Jude exited Tommy's home, she found her white lace boy-shorts on the floor behind a vase. Jude faked dropping her keys and bent down and grabbed both her keys and lace underwear. She made a run out of the house for her Mustang and got in. She put her purse and underwear on the passenger seat and sighed. She got her keys and stuck them in the ignition and let the engine roar to life. She drove home and parked her car. She gathered her things and stuffed her underwear in her purse. She got out of the car and walked into the building. She rode the elevator upstairs and walked into her apartment.

And the guilt sets in.

Luke was lying asleep on the couch with several Miller Lights in front of him on the coffee table. Jude took a deep breath and walked over to the couch. "Luke," she whispered. "Luke." His eyes fluttered open.

"Jude…" He sat up. "Where were you?"

"I stayed with Patsy. It was late. I didn't want to wake you considering our late conversation."

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. I'm fine." Luke hugged her. Jude thought she was gonna end up crying and tell him everything.

"I love you," Luke told her.

"I love you too." I was true. She did love him. But he wasn't Tommy. She was in love with Tommy. Jude broke away from the hug. "I'm gonna take a quick shower and head over to G Major."

"Yeah, I have to get to work, too." They separated and Jude went into the bathroom. She showered and took the underwear she had in her purse and put them in the laundry with the other clothes she'd been wearing.

When Jude got to G Major, Sadie was at her place, practically jumping. "Hey, Sadie."

"Jude, oh, my God I have to tell you something!"

"Yeah, Sadie?"

Sadie held out her left hand. A beautiful yellow diamond, at least 5 karat ring engorged her left ring finger. "I'm getting married."

"Sadie, wow." Fuck her, the lucky bitch, Jude thought to herself. "So, you and Kwest?"

"Well, who else, silly?"

"I'm happy for you. Congratulations." Jude went to the other side of the desk and hugged Sadie.

"So, any wedding bells for you and Luke?"

"Not exactly." Jude took a breath. "I don't think we'll ever…"

"Why, honey?" Jude looked down, tears streaming down her porcelain cheeks.

"I did something…something bad. Something I should feel horrible about, I do, but not as bad as I should."

"What? Jude, you're my sister, I love you. Everyone makes mistakes."

"I cheated on Luke," Jude gasped for air, looking back up at her sister, "With Tommy."

"Jude…I…"

"You hate me, I get it."

"I don't hate you, I'm just…shocked." Sadie looked around; making sure no one was looking. "When?"

"A few times… More in the last few days."

"When was the first time?"

Jude gasped, "My 18th birthday."

"Where, when did you have the time to do that?"

"At this place me and Tommy found on my 17th birthday, it's at the rehearsal space. It was after the party."

"Jude…this…this is big. No, this is huge."

"I know. Just, look," Jude took a breath and wiped her eyes. "I'm glad you're getting married. You deserve it." Jude hugged her sister again and walked into Studio 1. She saw Jen on top of the soundboard, with Tommy hovering over her and kissing her.

"Will I ever get a break!" Jude yelled. Jen and Tommy separated. "Don't bother." Jude ran out of the studio.

"Jude! Wait!" Tommy ran after her, leaving Jen dumbfounded on the soundboard. Catching up with Jude in the alley, he stopped her from walking. She had tears all over her face and she was gasping for air. "Jude, she's my girlfriend."

"What happened to I love you? What happened to last night and the night before? What happened to US, Tommy?" she yelled.

"I don't want to hurt her, Jude." Tommy sighed. "I love her, but I'm love with you."

Jude shook her head. "This is it. It's over. No more late nights, no more kissing. It's over. It's done." Jude let out a loud sob.

"Jude, but I-"

"You, you, you, Tommy! It's that really all you care about?"

"No. Jude. That isn't all I care about."

"You know what? Next time I open my legs, I'll make sure the guy's my boyfriend, just so I don't end up like my father. I'm a hypocrite, and I hate you. I HATE YOU!" she screamed.

"Jude!" Tommy yelled back.

"What's sad is that I still love you first." Jude took a deep breath and looked at Tommy straight in the eye. "I'll miss you." And with that, Jude passed by Tommy, back into G Major, leaving him heartbroken in the middle of the alley where they shared their first passionate kiss.

The next day, Jude lay in her bed naked and alone thinking about what she told Tommy the previous day. She rolled onto her stomach and rested her cheek on the cold pillow. Luke was at work (again) and she'd kill to be making love to Tommy right about now. She slipped out of bed and dressed. She got into her car drove to Tommy's house.

Jude got out of her car and walked up the walkway and up the stairs. She rang the doorbell and Jen answered the door. "Jen…"

"Jude. What are you doing here? Trying to make another pass at my boyfriend?"

"No. I just… We got into an argument and I wanted to try to talk it out…"

"Why do you care so much? He is my boyfriend. And you've got one. Lucas…"

"Luke. And I care so much because Tommy is still my best friend and I do care a lot about him. I just wanted to try and fix our argument."

"Well, Tommy wants nothing to do with you."

"And just how would you know that?"

"He told me. He said that you can be such a bitch and that you're too picky."

"Oh." Here we go with the crying again, Jude thought. "Um…okay…" She turned and ran to her car, crying the whole way there. Jen closed the door with a triumphant smirk and went back into the living room. Tommy came out of the bathroom.

"Who was at the door?"

"Oh, no one; I opened the door and no one was there." Jen approached him, wrapping her arms around him. "No, where were we?"

"Actually," he moved her arms from him. "I can't believe I'm saying this, but I don't want to have sex tonight."

"What?" Jen exclaimed. "But, it'd be our first time."

"I know."

"Why not?"

"I'm tired, and I don't feel like it." And cuz you'll never be her, he added in his head.

Jen pouted, "Fine. I'll call you."

"Okay." He showed Jen out and closed the door. He slid down the door on his back and sat on the floor. "'I don't feel like it'? What the hell's wrong with me?" he asked himself out loud.

Back with Jude, she entered her apartment and saw Luke had just gotten home.

"Jude, hey…" Jude didn't say anything. She dropped her things on the floor and approached Luke. She kissed him forcefully and Luke was caught off guard. "Jude, what-"

"Shh… I needed to kiss you."

"I love you."

"I love you too." Jude was going to cry. She knew it, she felt it. Suck it up, she told her self in her head.