Chapter 4
Xiao stood in tears as I walked away. I wanted to tell her but she wouldn't understand.
I turned back to see her just where I'd left her. I walked closer toward her and lay a hand on her shoulder. "I'm sorry Xiao, I really am. You'd get hurt either way." She looked at me puzzled. "Don't try to understand, it's complicated. Come on, let's get out of here." I wanted to take her hand but that would only hurt more. For both of us.
She walked along side me but still stared at me through pain filled eyes. "Jin, what's wrong?" How can I answer that? The Mishimas are after me. I possess the Devil Gene. I don't want her to get hurt.
She's hurt emotionally now but I don't want her to be hurt physically for I might loose her. If the Gene takes over, I'll loose my will power and destroy her.
"Jin, talk to me. Please."
"There's nothing I can say to ease the pain for either of us. Nothing that would help." I heard the worst way to miss someone is when they're right next to you and you know you can't have them. That's how I felt and I knew she did as well.
Now that I'm out of the darkness of the Honmaru's basement, I'm in a dark corner of my mind chained to the Devil Gene with no way to break free and no hope to be with Xiao.
My mother once healed Kazuya in his devil form. Asuka healed me. But the Devil Gene still lives within us.
"I'm hurting now. And so are you. But there's nothing either of us can do about it." This time I looked her in the eye. And it broke my heart.
"Say you'll be with me."
I shook my head. "I wish I could. But even if I did, it wouldn't be true. I can't."
Tears flowed from her eyes and she spoke through clenched teeth. "But why?"
"If there was some way I could tell you, I would. I guess, it's because I don't want to make the same mistake my father did. Having his lover bear his child, a child who's genes consume him every now and then, and he looses his will power and he ends up hurting the one he loves." I closed my eyes tight before opening them again. "It wouldn't be worth hurting another life to satisfy my needs. I don't want to put a child in hell, Xiao, especially if it's ours."
She seemed to understand a bit more. "We don't have to have children."
"I'll take things too far, I know I will. I've wanted you for so long now, it seems like forever. Though, I only realized it when I was near death in the Honmaru." She nodded in hurt understanding.
There's only one way to kill the Devil Gene.