Disclaimer : I do not own the characters they belong to Naoko Takeuchi. (I do own the errors)All the characters which are not familar with the salior moon show do belong to me or are based on real excisting people (which i asked permission from)

summary : Michiru is a rich girl who has lived her life being someone they taught her to be ,But what happens when life suddenly makes an unexpected turn , causing her to meet the love of her life...Haruka/Michiru

Chapter 13

When feelings are revealed

Later that night Michiru returned to her room looking rather defeated when she stepped into the livingroom only to be greeted by Alexx who ofcourse, noticed the sudden change in the aqua haired girl's mood. But just when she wanted to ask Michiru about what was wrong the smaller girl had already dissapeared into the bathroom, colsing the door with a loud thump.

Not much longer after that Nao stormed out of her room angry about the fact someone had closed the door so loudly causing her to wake up from her sleep.''What was that freaking noise?'' She asked Alexx while giving the black haired girl a strange look. The expression of her face was mixtured and was now between annoyance and confusion. Sometimes Alexx found it so hard to read the blonde's feelings. It would've been much easier if Nao was an open person and willing to talk about her feelings and problems. The first thing Alexx had noticed when Nao came to this school were the bruises that covered her arms. It had been obvious back then that Nao had been beaten. And Alexx was sure that whoever had hurt the blonde so much was also responsible for her behaviour. You couldn't just wake up and think about becoming a bully and just hit and scold everyone around you. She was sure that Nao's actions had so much more of a story behind them.

''That was Michiru.'' Alexx said while shaking her head, trying to shake off her thoughts.''She came home looking pretty upset. Maybe she got into a fight with Haruka. I shouldn't bother her now Nao, I can see in your eyes you want to talk to Michiru, but it's best to leave her alone for a while. She's stressed and you know she can have one hell of an attitude.''

The blonde only nodded before walking over to the couch and sat down next to Alexx who was kind of suprised by this.''Nao...I wanted to talk to you actually.'' The black haired girl finally said with a uncertain voice, but when Nao gazed up with a sweet smile on her face she suddenly felt less nervous about it all and decided it was now or never to ask Nao about why she was like this. ''Nao, why...Why are you so...distant?'' While being glad the question was asked , Alexx also became a bit worried at the same time. The blonde's eyes looked so empty all of a sudden, so pained and hurt.''I'm sorry...'' Alexx then started.''I shouldn't have asked, I mean it's private and none of my bussiness.'' With that the black haired girl stood up from the couch but was stopped much to her suprise. When she looked down she saw Nao holding her arm while looking up at the black haired girl with a look in her eyes that no one had ever seen before. Nao looked, scared.

''I'll tell you later.'' The blonde then said in a soft whisper.'I'll tell you when you are willing to accept me for what I am and for loving you...' Alexx only nodded at the other girl's words as she felt Nao release her arm.

And just when she was about to say something they heard knocking on the door all of a sudden. Alexx was slightly upset by the fact the whole atmosphere was ruined by the sound of someone knocking on the door but then again she was relieved. She hadn't known what to say to Nao and maybe the person that was knocking on their door was Haruka, comin to cheer Michiru up. Or it could be worse and Jack and Michiru's parents could've be there when the door would be opened. But before she could question her theory's Nao stood up from the place she was sitting and opened the front door with a loud sigh.

''Hi Ami...'' The blonde muttered not really wanting to fight with the blue haired girl. ''Michiru is taking a shower at the moment, is pissed and not willing to talk to anyone. Can I leave a message?'' Ami was obviously suprised by Nao's kindness but at the same time very aware that Nao could be playing one of those mind games on her.

''Actually, I'd like to talk to Michiru myself. It's important and besides that she left her book in the cafetaria the other day and I'd like to return it to her.'' The blue haired girl said earning a nod in reply. With that said and done Nao stepped aside for Ami to enter their livingroom. Alexx and Ami greeted eachother as if they had never met before. Then again Nao wasn't sure if Ami and Alexx had ever met before in the first place. She decided to let is pass for this time as she started heading for the hall that led to the bedrooms and the bathroom in which Michiru still sat. Softly the blonde knocked on the door only to be rewarded by Michiru yelling her to go away.

''Ami is here to talk to you!'' Nao yelled through the other side of the door.''She says it's important...'' After a few minutes of listening the shower being turned off and some loud thumps the door flew open revealing Michiru who was only wearing a towel that was wrapped tightly around her body.

Michiru brushed past her friend as she walked into the livingroom not bothering to put on some clothes to make a decent appearance. She looked directly into Ami's blue eyes ignoring Alexx's presence. ''Yes Ami, how may I help you?'' She asked with a irritated, hurt but nice tone in her voice. Nao was even suprised Michiru was able to express so many feelings at once by just asking a plain and simple question.

''You left your book.'' Ami answered. Her tone in her voice sounded far from nice or sweet. Actually she sounded angry. It seemed also Alexx now mentioned the tension that hung between the blue haired girl and the aqua haired girl. Both girls were looking at eachother with a blank stare. One of them didn't understand why the other was mad , while the other was angry at the other for not being able to understand her feelings. It was obvious it was Michiru here who was the one having to be the one confused.

''And second I came here to tell you it might be better for us not to hand around anymore. It is obvious you'd rather hang around with Nao and your love bunny. I mean if you care so much more for the biggest bully in school and for one of your teachers, then we don't matter as friends.'' Michiru was shocked by hearing this. Why was Ami saying this? What had she done to deserve this now?

''W-what ?'' Was all the aqua haired girl could bring out. Also Nao and Alexx were curious about hearing Ami's explaination. After all they couldn't think of one single thing Michiru could've done to be treathened like this.

''Don't act so confused, this is the second time in less than a month you forgot about our meetings because you were too busy with Haruka or you rather spending time in the city while breaking all the rules. I thought you were better than that when you got here Michiru. But it seems you're really just a spoiled girl who feels she can do everything she wants to do...''

''Ami...'' Michiru started but then shut her mouth. What could she say? It was true, she had totally forgotten about Ami and Makoto this morning. It was just, she had been so caught up by being with Haruka she had forgotten about her friends. Ami and Makoto had been the first ones to talk to her, they had been kind enough to let her hang around them and they welcomed her to this school. Michiru knew it could be really hard to make friends in these kind of schools. And yet somehow she had met Makoto and Ami. ''I'm sorry..'' She added.''I totally forgot but I promise to change. I'll never do it again.''

The blue haired girl just shook her head looking rather dissapointed. ''Could you do me a favor Michiru?'' The aqua haired girl just nodded as she took the book Ami was handing her. ''Don't make any promises anymore.'' With that she let go of the book she was holding and turned away feeling her heart ache. She felt terrible about doing this to Michiru. The aqua haired girl had all rights to forget about their meetings. The tension between Makoto and Ami hadn't been the best lately. But the main reason for her to do this was because she wanted the brunette back in her life. And the feeling of Makoto being in love with Ami just made her feel terrible. This was, what she thought, the best solution. First she had to win Makoto's heart back and fix their relationship, then she would explain to Michiru what the reason of her actions were. She was sure Michiru wouldn't understand just now.

''That's not real.'' Alexx suddenly said causing everyone including Ami to look up at her. ''It's beyond reality to put Michiru through that. I knwo you better than this Ami and I know you would never judge someone because of two little mistakes. If there's something wrong don't blame it on Michiru unless it really is her fault. You're in love too. Put yourself in her shoes...Face reality for once Ami. Don't do what I did in the past. You know how many things it can ruin.'' Ami only looked down at the floor while listening to the girl's words trying hard to fight the tears that were treathening to fall. She was so afraid of losing Makoto. After all she and the brunette had gone through a lot to be together.

''I'm being realistic.'' Ami suddenly shouted looking directly at Michiru instead of Alexx. ''But it's not fair! Makoto is in love with you and ever since you came she isn't paying any attention to me anymore..She only has eyes for you and the fact you are friends with Nao and no longer single somehow only make you more attractive to her. I don't want to be in the second place anymore! I want Makoto ba...'' She couldn't even finish because before she could she felt Michiru hand across her cheeks. Michiru had slapped her, she had actually slapped her. With a shocked look on her face Ami gazed up to look into Michiru now raging blue eyes.

''I didn't do any of that! You think you know what pain is? Well let me tell you something Ami, you've never felt pain. Atleast you have a girlfriend who you actually know. Atleast you have someone you can kiss in public without fearing exposure. I don't have that. Haruka can't be with me because it isn't legal, I was so happy this morning because I was going to spend the whole day together with the one I love but now it turns out I don't even know her that well and she doesn't know me either. I couldn't tell her I am engaged to someone, I couldn't tell her the reason why I'm not telling my family about us is because i'm afraid of their reactions. I'm afraid...You see, that's something you have too..''Michiru was now crying. ''You have the power to choose whom you can love, you have parents who care for you. Atleast, your mom sounds like such a wonderful person to my ears. I want that too Ami, so don't tell me about things not being fair, because let me tell you something, this life isn't fair!''

Nao and Alexx just stood there , their mouths wide open as well as their eyes. It was hard to believe this was the calm and reserved Michiru they knew. It seemed Michiru's visit to her parents was having more effect on the smaller girl than it should. If Michiru was so afraid of her parents and didn't want to go home, then why didn't she just tell them so. And if she couldn't be honest with her parents she could always use an excuse for not coming.

''I...'' Ami stammered but before she could even apologize to Michiru , the smaller girl had already run off back into her bedroom leaving the three confused and shocked girls behind.

To be continued..

Yes I know, short chapter and too dramatic but hey this is a great start for Haruka to put some effort in her depressed girlfriend don't you all agree. Also I have to say, I won't be updating the upcoming week because i'm going to London for a week.

I dedicate this chapter to my lovely girlfriend , Auraluna..why ? Because i'm leaving her behind for this whole week and because she deserves it.

- I hope you all enjoyed this chapter and also I want to congratulate Neptune's mask for being together with Haruka's Knight again, I hope you'll two have some great times together! and to everyone who has holidays too now, happy holidays and have fun!