Smile Like you mean it
Chapter 3: Time to waste
Dinner passed by silently. Well that's only if you consider Shippo and Rin talking loudly, Silence.
" Miko…" Sesshomaru's booming voice caught the three off guard.
"Hai?"
"I would like to speak with you after dinner."
Again Silence.
Kagome was more nervous then she was at the beginning at the meal. She was jittery on her way to the library where the homely maid told her he usually is after dinner. Kagome tapped lightly on the door.
"Haitte Kudasai." Sesshomaru said behind the door. (a/n: Please, come it).
"You said you wanted to see me?"
" Hai, I have a few questions."
" Ask away!" She said girly like making Sesshomaru Grimace slightly.
" You know why you're here right?"
"Hai, I am to care for Rin because Of what you did to Sango, Miroku, and Shippo. Am I right?"
"Hai, Plus, Will you be able to care for her without your stuff?"
Hmm, She never thought of that, maybe if she talked him into it he'd let her go back to her time to get stuff for Rin and herself.
" Um, Before I answer that Question I have one to ask you."
Sesshomaru nodded a response.
" Um, Can you take me to the bone eaters well tomorrow so I can Go to my t-….um…home to get some stuff?"
He looked at her questionably. "Hai. Now answer the other one."
" Well if we're getting my stuff tomorrow the question is already answered." She said twirling on her heals and walking out the door. She walked over to Rin's room hoping her and Shippo were in there.
"Rin? Shippo?" She peeked into the room. Yup. There they were, sitting on the floor playing with wooden horses.
" Yes Kagome-Chan!" Rin piped up.
" Tomorrow me and Sesshomaru-sama are going to my house to get my stuff. I wanted to let you know so you didn't wake up and got scared because neither of us would be here." Kagome said sweetly to the girl.
" Hai. I understand. But under one circumstance." Rin said getting up.
" Nani?" She asked politely.
" You take us with you."
" But….I don't know if you guys can get through. I would most certainly love for you to meet my mom, grandpa and Brother. But you see….I live in a different time and Right now I think only me and Inuyasha can go through the well." Kagome pleaded.
Rin's face dropped a little. "Shippo?" She turned toward him "How does the Well work?"
Shippo put a finger to his chin and thought.
" I think I overheard Miroku and Sango talking about how Inuyasha can go through is because He's attached to something or someone on the other side, meaning Kagome."
" Wait, We're attached to you right!" Rin begged Kagome.
" Us…..you…are. Shipp your right! It might work! You and Rin can probably go through the well!" Kagome said her hopes getting high.
" That settles it! Tomorrow ALL of us are going to see Kagome's Home!"
Gulp…. "All?"
" Yeah Sesshomaru-sama too!"
" Heh, Yeah ok. We'll do that." Kagome said before ushering them to go to sleep. After that was settled she walked back to her own room and settled with her fresh Pj's on and slid under the crisp sheets.
' All…..' She kept repeating in her mind, before she slowly fell into deep sleep.
Next Morning
Kagome was sitting on the floor silently, Dreading the day that she was enduring right that moment. She jumped when the Shoji Dorr slid open to reveal Sesshomaru Staring cold, emotionless, eye down upon her. She felt weak under his gaze so she slowly looked up to face the demon.
"Hai?"
"Is it true?" Sesshomaru stated.
" Nani?"
" Rin and Shippo are coming with us."
"Heh, Yeah about that, it was sorta unavoidable!" Kagome half giggled.
"Hmpft." Sesshomaru said before walking over to her and in a quick movement had her pinned to the wall with his one arm, holding her by the neck.
"Next time you plan something tell me." He dropped her and let her gasp for air.
Kagome coughed and stared up and the now threat. She glared daggers and then looked away in shame.
'weakling, weakling! You couldn't do anything! WEAKLING!' The voice rang in her mind making her ill.
" We'll leave tonight." He stated coldly before exiting the room leaving her screaming mentally at herself.
' Stop this. Stop it weakling. Kill yourself. End it all. No one Cares. No one. Not Inuyasha. Not Sango, no one. All alone' The voice continued growing more and more violent.
' Shut up.'
' No. I won't. Not until you do it. End your life. End it. END IT!'
' Shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up.'
" SHUT UP! STOP IT! STOP IT!" She screamed curling into a ball in the corner of the room. "Stop…please, stop. Stop. Stop." She rocked silently until a kncok came from the door.
"Miko…." Sesshomaru's voice came from the other side.
Kagome quickly tried to collect herself without being noticeable. She turned toward the door with a fake look of fear on her face.
" Hai?" Her cracked voice came to his ears.
He entered the room and started down at a seemingly broken Kagome.
"I heard you screaming…something wrong?"
" Um, iie?" She pleaded.
He looked at her for along time.
" Ok, fine." He walked out and Kagome loosened up.
' Close weakling, now where were we?'
She blocked it out for a while. She couldn't stand that voice, it mocked her every chance it got. No one knew but ever since the faceless mask she had been that way. Kagome looked around the room and lifted the futon off the ground and picked up and object that was lying carelessly underneath it. She stared at the bloody dagger and twitched slightly.
She walked over into the corner and pushed her wrist toward her showing the vein for a good cut. She lowered the dagger and quickly made a deep niche. She bit her lower lip to stop from screaming. She got up and ripped some of a shirt and wrapped it around her wrist.
" Kagome-Chan!" Rin's voice came closer and closer. Soon Rin and Shippo had their heads sticking in her doorway. " Time for lunch Kagome-Chan!"
" Hai, Be there in a minute." She watched as they skipped away and she quickly did something to her hair and face to hide the proof of her crying, and slowly dieing inside.
Lunch went by slowly and painfully in Kagome's case. Every time she moved her left wrist it burned and reopened making Sesshomaru tense up. He definitely Smelt the blood.
'Damn.' She thought. She looked across the table and smiled a weak fake helpless smile. He looked up at it then continued with the meal.
With Sesshomaru after the lunch
Sesshomaru walked away from the window where he sat to watch the kids play with the Miko.
" Um, Sesshomaru-Sama?" A maid asked walking into the room and bowing lowly.
" Hai."
" This may be out of place, but I think something is wrong with Kagome-Chan. She was cheerful when she first got here and know she acts like she is depressed."
Sesshomaru thought of this for a while and raised an eyebrow.
" True, Domo Arigato"
The maid nodded and left quickly. Sesshomaru turned to the window again and walked the Miko play cheerfully with the children.
' She may be right….' he thought before returning to his paperwork.
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Kagome sighed as she walked into the hot spring in the back of the Castle. She sunk low into the warm depth and watched the steam rise, soon a maid entered the room and got in next to her.
" Komban wa Kagome-Chan" The maid said.
" Komban wa." Kagome smiled.
The maid looked at her for a while before snatching the hands of Kagome and staring at them. Worried the Maid would find the cut wounds and tell Sesshomaru Kagome jerked trying to break free from the maid's hold.
" Why, Kagome-Chan….these cuts."
" Are nothing!" she rushed. "Nothing at all!"
She finally got her hands back and she turned her back to the maid only to look at her over her shoulder.
" Please don't tell Sesshomaru."
" Hmm, I won't Kagome-Chan, I promise."
Kagome sighed and smiled a true smile at the maid.
" You look prettier with a real Smile." The maid said before getting out.
Kagome blinked then slowly followed suit. After she got dressed she got the kids ready to meet Sesshomaru in the front. They walked until they saw the familiar fuzz, and stopped near it.
"Rin and Shippo will be riding Ah and Un." Sesshomaru said.
Rin looked happy and got Shippo ready for his first ride on the dragon.
" And I will be walking?" Kagome said sarcastically.
" iie, you will be with me. So I can keep a good eye on you."
"great" She blushed slightly but still added attitude to the comment.
Sesshomaru stared at the human with great interest but decided to wait till he saw where she came from before giving her his trust.
She tensed the whole ride, seeing that she was sort of uncomfortable standing next to the demon lord of the west.
When they got to the well, Kagome stared down into the darkness.
" Are you sure?" She asked Shippo and Rin who nodded eager responses.
She picked Shippo up and Sesshomaru picked Rin up with one free arm ,Kagome grabbed the shoulder of Sesshomaru and they leaped into the darkness called 'the bone eaters well.'
A/n: Well it's shorter seeing that I'm doing this at 1:35 am listening to Korn….so Yeah. Anyway definitions!
Iie: No
Nani: What
Komban Wa : Good evening
Domo Arigato: Thank you Very much
Haitte Kudasai : Please come in.
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