Smile Like You mean it

Chapter 5 : The Line Begins To Blur

Kagome walked uncertainly toward the door he stated as his. The air becoming more Cold with every breath she took. She stood in front of the shoji doors that seemed to tower over her small figure.

" Lord Sesshomaru?" She asked tapping slightly on the wooden handle.

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Sango stirred slightly, She turned to her side and opened one of her eyes...To see a Naked Miroku.

" WHAT THE HELL! "She screamed angrily.

He opened one eye, "You were great."

" WHAT!" She looked down and saw she was naked too.

He smiled and she whimpered.

" What did we do?" She cried.

" Nothin' I just undressed you and wanted to scare you this morning" He got up Showing he still had his kimono folded over his hip.

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"Haitte Kudasai" Was a strong reply from the other side. She gulped and walked in.

" Hai, You wanted me?" She looked a little tooken back but still with a hint of strength in her face.

" At dinner, I smelt blood." he stated calmly.

Her face dropped.

" Eh, Well……" She had no clue how to tell him, 'Yeah, well you see, I have these voices in my head, yeah, but they tell me that Death is the only escape? You understand? Right? Ok Bai.' Oh yeah, that will work…..Hint the sarcasm.

" I don't Really Have an Answer"

" And Why not?"

"Because, I actually do, But you'll think I'm mental….." Kagome said sadly looking away.

" Hmm," Sesshomaru said actually looking somewhat slightly, not ever noticeably, worried.

" Is that all?"

" Hai, you may go back to sleep." He said looking away. She nodded and walked out of the room to her own.

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Inuyasha puffed his cheeks out as he sat in a tree staring into the night sky.

" Inuyasha! Why do you look like a blowfish!" Sango called from below.

" Shut up!" He puffed again.

" Inuyasha! We have to hurry! You know we can't waste too much time dilly dandling! Now that we don't have Kagome it's hard to find the Shards and only every now and then Miroku can sense them!" She yelled again watching as he jumped down to stand in front of her.

" I know, I know…" He said packing up again.

& In the Morning

Kagome spent most of her morning after breakfast hanging out with Rin and Shippo Listening to Weezer, Modest Mouse, My Chemical Romance , and H.I.M.

" Ice-age heat wave, can't complain. If the world's at large, why should I remain? Walked away to another plan. Gonna find another place, maybe one I can stand. I move on to another day, to a whole new town with a whole new way. Went to the porch to have a thought. Got to the door and again, I couldn't stop. You don't know where and you don't know when. But you still got your words and you got your friends. Walk along to another day. Work a little harder, work another way." Kagome Sung to Modest Mouse she was stretched out on her Futon With her hairbrush used as the microphone, And the Cd was loudly blaring with Shippo And Rin dancing next to it.

" Well uh-uh baby I ain't got no plan. We'll float on maybe would you understand? Gonna float on maybe would you understand? Well float on maybe would you understand?" She swayed a little.

" Yeah Kagome!" Shippo Jumped.

" The days get shorter and the nights get cold. I like the autumn but this place is getting old. I pack up my belongings and I head for the coast. It might not be a lot but I feel like I'm making the most. The days get longer and the nights smell green. I guess it's not surprising but it's spring and I should leave!" She said ignoring the desperate knock coming from the door.

" I like songs about drifters - books about the same. They both seem to make me feel a little less insane. Walked on off to another spot. I still haven't gotten anywhere that I want. Did I want love? Did I need to know?
Why does it always feel like I'm caught in an undertow?" She leaned back Knocking becoming louder and louder.

"The moths beat themselves to death against the lights. Adding their breeze to the summer nights. Outside, water like air was great. I didn't know what I had that day. Walk a little farther to another plan. You said that you did, but you didn't understand." She stuck her tongue out and didn't realize the extremely pissed off Taiyoukai opening the door to stand next to a Kitsune Youkai and Human who were instantly Standstill when he entered the room.

"I know that starting over is not what life's about. But my thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth. My thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth. My thoughts were so Lo-" She suddenly stopped when her boom box got silenced, She turned over to see an very angry Sesshomaru.

"your thoughts aren't loud you are." His eye twitched.

" Hey be glad I Didn't sing 'Bleed for you' By the holy Hidden in Plain View!" She stuck her tongue out at him.

" Don't Degrade me in front of children, We wouldn't want them exposed to a bloody murder of their idol…" He said coldly before walking away.

She stared Wide-eyed at the door……..

' Oh Shit….' She though before pulling a children's book from her book bag to read to the kids.

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Miroku Made a long, very audible sigh as they walked down a trail in the forest. They have long given up the idea to run the whole way.

" Miroku, I think we've had enough of your sighing…."

" Well When are we going to get to Koga's?" He pouted.

(Rewind)

" Inuyasha I think we'll need assistance." Sango and Miroku said.

" And by whom?"

" Koga!"

" Not him?"

" He's the only one that will help!"

" Damnit!"

( Back to Present)

" I'm still pissed at you guys, Your making me pair up with my love enemy…."

" That came out wrong on many levels…" Sango repeated something that Kagome said a while ago, When Inuyasha was discussing the perfect way to gut a fish.

" Shut up, You'll remind me of Her…" Inuyasha said gloomily.

" Sorry…" That was the end of conversing during the trip to Koga's Den.

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Kagome fidgeted with a few Cd's and Cd players, She insisted on giving Sesshomaru A Straight Answer to his question last night, Right now the kids were napping. She bravely walked up to his door in the library with Hidden in Plain View and a CD player in hand. She knocked on the door.

" Hai?"

" I have an Answer," She said walking in. She put the Cd in front of him on all his papers, "To your question, Listen to the lyrics, It will Describe the reason and more….." And then she went into the whole 'Teaching some demon Lord how to use a Cd player, and with his gentle eyes not have it so loud.'

She smiled and walked out of the room. And he clicked play.

' The cold concrete cuts against her back. And her spirit spills with blood onto the pavement. Hands tied so tight behind her neck. And a silence falls, and everything changes. And everything dies, to you nothing's alive, to you anymore. I guess you've gotten more than you might have wanted.
If I could take your pain away. I would scream for you. I would bleed for you. So you'll never feel this way. Again when you're in my arms. I would scream for you. I will bleed for you.

She drowns herself until the images erase. But the skin is bruised all along her thighs. Nightmares repeat refrain the memories of pain. In mental photographs haunting all the time so. She shuts her eyes, to you she tries to hide. From you, she falls asleep into dreams where she is safe.

If I could take your pain away. I would scream for you. And I'll bleed for you. So you'll never feel this way. Again when you're in my arms. I would scream for you. I will bleed for you.

Put the weight on my shoulders. And the pain in my heart. Tie the knots in my stomach and you'll let it tear me apart. So tear me apart. So I could be everything you need.

And this silence strips me bare, and your body pins me down. I've never been so scared to breathe, afraid to make a sound. And all I know is you'll never let me go.. Just kick and scream, bite and bleed, and make believe it's all a dream.' He blinked when it was finished.

" How, wrong" He said before heading toward her room.

Author's Note: Yeah, I know Filler Chapter, And I don't Own Hidden in Plain View or Modest mouse…. AND THE OTHER SONG WAS WEEZER! 'Undone aka The Sweater Song' I lubb that song…..Anyhow, to my reviewers!

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