Disclaimer : I do not own Evangelion, although like many others I wish I did. I own none of the characters. This is a normal Eva fic, not sure about Eva battles because I am trying to focus on Shinji's torment and hopeful revenge, hehe. Okay brief warning half way through… this story now involves a relationship between Shinji and Asuka, that is based (in speed and content) on an actual relationship (hence large insight). This means that if any part of the relationship that seems unreal is completely real. Any similarities between this story and real events are intended and aren't just coincidences. I also don't own the N64 (I own a N64) nor do I own the rights to Goldeneye (but I do have Goldeneye). Read and Review, I need criticism and I need to know people are reading this garbage. Anyhoo, on with the show!

Right then

'Thought'

"Speech"

"(Actions in speech)"

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"That… isn't fair…"

"I know… but I have to go back, it is only for a couple of weeks… I'll see you then…"

-

Shinji opened his eyes, he looked at the ceiling, then over at his desk. On the desk sat a couple of pictures that he had managed to get developed, it had been only two days into his relationship with Asuka when it hit its first bump. The photos that he stared at showed a very happy couple, both smiling, both laughing and holding hands, but it had been several days since he had held Asuka's hand. It was a memory still fresh in his mind.

-

Shinji, Touji and Kensuke sat in the middle of Shinji's apartment, it had appeared that Tokyo-3 was not going to be the Capital anymore, but instead that would be Tokyo-2 and all Shinji's hopes of his friends returning permanently were crushed. But still he could enjoy such nights as this, when his friends could come and stay, it was such a surprise to him and he still didn't really know how to tell his friends about recent events. His head was still bandaged and the dig Touji gave him in the shoulder brought a tear to his eye. Shinji had been out with Asuka earlier in the day, but they had since gone their separate ways, although he was happy that the two were together, he still felt like they were apart. He had also failed to tell Misato, Ritsuko or anyone else about his relationship with Asuka, in fact, he was quite bothered about not telling Rei. He had walked Asuka to the door of Misato's apartment and although it was like a second home to him, or even his actual home still, he just stood at the door and the two shared the briefest kiss before the door shut. He was certainly not ready to tell Touji about his relationship, he would go mental.

'If I tell Touji then he will not only ridicule me… but he will also beat me around the head and tell everyone he knows, regardless of whether or not they know who either of us are, that we are together!'

So he sat and waited, he had recently managed to get a hold of an old computer games console and a television, so the three were playing on the computer. Touji was going around shooting both of the remaining boys with little to no mercy, laughing and cackling as he went.

"Take that Bond! Hahaha! No one kills Coltrane! Not even you Oddjob! Hahahaha!"

So engrossed in the game as he was, Touji had failed to notice that Shinji was playing away with his mind obviously somewhere else. Kensuke had spent so much time going through the blood dribbling death sequence that he had enough time to notice Shinji's mood, even between his own thoughts.

'How can a camera-carrying, computer game-playing, self-confessed NERD be losing a computer game to this JOCK!?'

Touji continued to decimate the other two players and when the alarm bells started to sound he just started spinning and shooting, his own private victory dance. Shinji was still in a world of his own and Kensuke still managed to take a shot to the head attempting to get in that one last kill. As the game ended Touji stood up triumphantly, then looked at the other two and stretched.

"Ahh… the sweet feeling of victory… you two should try a different level and some other weapons, I'm going to use Shinji's facilities."

As soon as Touji was clear of the room, Shinji moved from his frozen position hunched over the controlled and he stretched out on the floor. He looked over to Kensuke a few times then back at the ceiling trying to figure out whether or not to tell him. Kensuke had not missed this and eventually he just sighed, looking at his watch he knew that Touji would be in the bathroom for a while, especially after the dinner they had just eaten.

"Sigh! What is it? I won't tell tall, dark and stupid."

"Thanks… I thought you should know… before it spreads that me and…"

"Rei!?"

"No… me and Asuka… we are a couple… sorta…"

"Asuka? You're joking."

"Nope, it might seem strange but I'm quite happy."

"Why? How? When? Who?"

"Because I love her. We were locked in a corridor together for 4 hours. Yesterday. Just the two of us."

"Wow. Good going Shinji, as mental as she is, she is still one hot babe!"

"Thanks… I think… please don't tell Touji…"

"I won't your secret is safe with me!"

Shinji nodded to his friend, smiling and showing that he was quite happy, he then sat back down at the computer. He scanned the screen then thought about the next game.

'Eva equipment… knives… rifles… pistols… power weapons will do… level… large and open… Temple… heh heh… let's see Touji now.'

Shinji smirked to Kensuke who quickly understood Shinji's evil grin, he returned the sentiment, and then they waited for Touji to come out. He left Shinji's bathroom with the flushing sound in the background, he held out his mobile phone in his mechanical arm. He then sat down at the computer ready to start.

"Oh guys, apparently Hikari is here visiting Asuka, she texted me so I told them to come over… Asuka knows how to get here doesn't she Shinji?"

"Yeah, she does."

"Good, they'll be here in about an hour, they still had 'girlie-time' or something to do, now then, let's get going."

"Hai!"

The view rotated around the masked character Shinji had chosen, one wearing a purple uniform with ski goggles on. Kensuke was worried that Shinji's plan would backfire once Asuka was in the equation but he saw that it had a totally different effect on him. This was obvious when three seconds into the game, Kensuke's character fell onto the floor dead and it was only ten more before Touji's died too. Kensuke looked to his left as Touji began his uproar.

"NOOOO! YOU CAN'T KILL COLTRANE! HE IS GOD! NO ONE KILLS COLTRANE!"

Touji and Kensuke both stared at Shinji but instead of the heavy headed boy they played with before, whose forehead glistened with sweat and was constantly blinking. They were now faced with 'Autopilot Shinji', Shinji's eyes were almost grey and his vision was not on the screen, but beyond it, even Touji could see that he was day dreaming, more than playing on the computer. It continued on in the same fashion for a while, Shinji didn't die once and by the end of ten minutes he had actually totalled up about fifty kills, which was quite impressive as the death sequence is five seconds long and the level was massive. Touji immediately went on the defensive trying to attribute his failure to things but Shinji didn't care, that was, until the doorbell rang.

"I'll get it!"

Shinji was up quicker than Touji on the end of Asuka's boot, he practically raced to the door, which Touji found irregular but not completely suspicious, while Kensuke thanked the universe that Touji was so dense. Shinji raced to the door, unsure of how to act or what to say, knowing that he had to keep his feelings in check. That was of course until he opened the door.

"Hell…"

"Good Evening Shinji."

"Rei… hello!"

The girl stood at the door, her breath condensed before her face and Shinji didn't even notice the layers of coats she wore to keep warm. Shinji just seemed to stand there, completely motionless, he wasn't sure how to act and his mind was running a mile a minute.

'Argh! Rei! I haven't told her about Asuka! Asuka can't find her here! What do I do!?'

"May I come in?"

"Yes of course…"

'NO, YOU IDIOT!'

Rei walked into the apartment, taking off her coat, she hung it on the pegs that had been mounted behind the door. Shinji closed the door behind her and let out a large sigh, he then led Rei into the room where Touji and Kensuke were sitting. Seeing Rei there was a large shock to both of them, Kensuke seemed to be having the same reaction that Shinji was having. It took a few seconds for Touji to speak.

"Shinji, you dog!"

"It's not like that!"

"Shinji and I have are not an item, Mr. Suzuhara."

"Oh… well… I…"

Touji didn't really expect Rei to say anything, she had never said anything, ever. He had only ever had one conversation with her, and that was when he was still whole, so having her there and speaking, was strange. Shinji led the girl to his bed and sat her down, taking his own seat on the floor facing her.

"So Rei, were you… alright after the drill yesterday?"

"I was fine… I heard you hurt yourself but Ms. Soryu helped you to the infirmary."

"Yeah, little knock on the head and a sore shoulder, nothing another couple of days won't heal… heh heh."

"To be honest I was surprised you didn't call yesterday, to check on me."

"I heard off Misato that you were fine, and I was a little distracted… I'm sorry."

"No… it is fine."

Kensuke and Touji were feeling left out and they continued to play on the computer while the two talked, although Shinji thought he saw Kensuke going through the motions of digging a hole while no one was looking a couple of times. Shinji knew what that meant and he also knew that the boy was right. Knock knock. This motion was not as quick as the first, Shinji just stood and walked over to the door, opening it slowly he saw the two girls and sighed. He quickly smiled and greeted them, hugging Hikari and sharing a glance with Asuka, but it seemed that Asuka hadn't even told her best friend the news. As he led them into the main room he was sure Asuka was going to kill him.

"Hello Ms. Soryu, Ms. Horaki."

"Rei! You're here too?"

'That's it, I'm dead.'

Asuka sounded surprised and enthusiastic, at first he was waiting for the evil glance back to tell him he was dead but it never came. Asuka sat on the bed next to Rei, then the two actually began to start talking like civilised human beings. Shinji retook his place on the floor and sat playing the computer game, occasionally looking back up at the two girls.

'Why is Asuka being so nice? Maybe she is just happy. Although… maybe she doesn't see Rei as a rival anymore, she knows she can obtain a higher synch-ratio and she knows she has me. Maybe all Asuka's hostility towards the girl has subsided.'

They sat for a little longer before Hikari got mad at Touji and forced all three boys off the computer and made them face the three girls.

"Now we are going to have a civilised conversation!"

"Yes Class-Rep."

This was intended, Hikari didn't find it funny, Asuka did and even Rei's lips managed to curl a little. The leader figure decided to let it go and they began to talk, the subject was wide and changing. After a while Shinji felt a vibration in his pants and when he looked at his mobile phone there was a message left on it.

Sender : Asuka Mobile

Message : I cant stop thinkin bout last nite. X

Shinji looked up to the girl and she was busy averting her gaze from him, knowing if they stared at each other it would last forever and everyone would catch on. So Shinji got to work on his phone and sent a message back, Asuka looked at her phone and opened the message.

Sender : Shinji

Message : I cant either, I want to hold u more than ever.

The conversation between the two carried on in the same way for about five more texts off each one, Kensuke had noticed and was slapping his forehead, Hikari had noticed be didn't understand while Touji and Rei were oblivious. The conversations were drawing to a close as the time went on and it was only then that Hikari nudged Asuka in the side.

"Come on."

"Okay… I… I've been called back to Germany for a couple of weeks."

At this point there was a painful glare to Shinji who was just staring blankly at the bed, she watched his hair go black in an instant and she then turned back to the others.

"They want me back there for some tests, routine stuff, then I'll come back. Hikari thinks it is important that I tell everyone."

"It is important!"

"Well anyway, you all know, I am getting picked up tomorrow morning at 11 am, to be taken by plane to Germany."

"That sounds like fun, going home, seeing your family!"

Kensuke tried to lighten the mood a little but he was failing miserably, Shinji just kept staring forward. The girls got up to go and Hikari offered to walk down to the gate with Rei, they all got up to leave and Shinji walked them to the door in silence. Touji and Kensuke were back playing computer games straight away, all part of Kensuke's plan to keep Touji away, while the girls gathered at the door.

"I'll see you soon, Shinji. You'll come and visit, right?"

"Yeah of course."

Shinji hugged the girl then looked at Rei, they hugged and Rei then stood back.

"I shall see you tomorrow?"

"Probably, I'll come round… maybe…"

"Understood."

Asuka walked past him, not really wanting to say anything in such a bad situation, but as she walked she felt a warm grip on her hand.

"Asuka, can I talk to you for a second?"

Asuka looked at the other two girls, then she stepped back, looked at Shinji and back at Hikari.

"I'll meet you down stairs."

"Okay."

As the two figures disappeared, Shinji slid his door shut but not enough to lock shut, his hair was black and his eyes raised with the same blue tint Asuka had seen before.

"Germany?"

"Yes… I found out today… after our shopping trip… I'm sorry…"

"But we are still…"

"We are great…"

"Can I stay with you until you leave?"

"Misato is taking me to the airport at 11."

"I will walk to yours in the morning then, about 9ish."

"I would like that."

Shinji went forward and kissed the girl on the cheek, she breathed in almost on reflex and she relished the thought and feeling.

"I will see you tomorrow."

"Yes tomorrow."

-

The next morning, Shinji walked Touji and Kensuke to the station for their early train home, they exchanged the normal male good byes of hugs with pats on the back. Shinji watched their train disappear into the distance and quickly turned to run all the way to Misato's. This is something he did as well, he did not stop once from the station to the apartment block, he reached the door and pulled out the key he had been given. He snuck into the apartment, then straight through into Asuka's room, it was all packed and she was asleep with her clothes on.

'Now that is an angel.'

Shinji walked over, taking in all he could see, her cute little face resting on the wool of her jumper and the duvet on the bed. Her legs bent up onto the bed in a pair of moderately tight jeans, and her arms brought up to her face. He then tiptoed over to her, crouching down he planted the smallest of kisses onto her lips, then backed away as she began to stir.

"hmmm… Shinji…"

Still asleep her head turned to face upwards and Shinji planted another kiss onto her lips, this time remaining there waiting for her eyes to open a little. Then as they began to open he raised his head and stared at her.

"Morning, sleepy-head."

"Morning… what time is it?"

"Almost nine o'clock."

"Hmmm… sit down… now…"

Shinji felt her arms grab him and pull him onto the bed, where she drew him into the longest of kisses, he felt every feeling he had felt in the last two days come out in this kiss and when he pulled away his eyes were a blue that rivalled Asuka's. They remained kissing for some time before the had to get ready to leave, but Shinji just rolled over and held Asuka close to his body. They stared at the roof together for almost an eternity.

"Asuka… I don't want to let you go…"

"I'm not going to leave you… I will never leave you…"

"Can we survive being apart? I have only just got you."

"You have me now and forever… until you get tired of me."

"I will never get tired of you."

"Are we going to tell anyone?"

"No… not until you are ready to tell them…"

"Thank you… you are too good for me…"

"That's a joke, right? Asuka you are beautiful, caring and kind, when you get past your defences, as far as I am concerned, I am the luckiest guy on Earth."

"Thank you."

-

"It's strange Shinji, I didn't hear you come in this morning, and I didn't think you and Asuka got on well enough for you to see her off."

Shinji sat in the front seat of Misato's car, Asuka sat in the back, surrounded by her bags, trying to ignore the appalling driving of her guardian. Shinji knew the route to the airport and he also knew once there, he may not see Asuka for a long time, his hand acted on autopilot and reached into the back of the car. Misato was too busy driving to notice that Shinji and Asuka were holding hands, and they quickly let go of one another when they approached the airport. They parked and Misato grumbled about needing a parking ticket.

"You two wait here, while I get a ticket."

"Right."

They both followed Misato down to the ticket booth, where she started fiddling around with the few meagre pennies she had, she only needed to turn her head to see through the back window and into the car. But that made it all the more exciting.

"Asuka…"

Asuka looked up to find Shinji leaning over the back of the chair, his hand outstretched to guide her face towards his, and it was not something she moved against.

"But Misato might see…"

"It makes it all the more exciting…"

Their lips met and they shared in a brief kiss that seemed to last an eternity, when they broke the kiss Shinji glanced over Asuka's shoulder to see Misato just about to turn away from the machine. He quickly sat down again but allowed his hand to move back and hold Asuka's.

"I will never let you go."

"I know."

Misato returned and they gathered Asuka's luggage, checking it in and then exploring the airport, they were walking around when Misato left the two.

"I'm just using the little girl's room."

"Okay."

As soon as the woman was out of sight the two looked at one another.

"Should we tell her?"

"I think it would be wise."

"But she thinks we hate each other… it won't be believable."

"Shinji… would you say that this part of the airport is international territory?"

Shinji quizzically looked at his girlfriend, she had an almost devious look on her face that Shinji couldn't quite figure out.

"Yeah… I guess, that is why things are duty free."

"So this place doesn't hold the normal Japanese values as much?"

"I would guess not…erk!"

Misato almost died when she left the ladies' toilets, she quickly scanned the room for her charges but could only see a large number of adults and two people kissing. It took her a few seconds to look at the two kissing, she almost found it disgusting, kissing in public but that had been what she was brought up to believe, in Japanese society anyway. She was in half a mind to slam them around the heads but that was when she paid attention to their heads. One had long brown hair, or at least, long for a guy, and the girl, she had long orange hair, from that alone she still couldn't take the logical steps. Until she saw Asuka's electrodes floating around on top of the orange head and the hair on the guy turning lighter and lighter, that was when she made the connection.

"OH MY GOD! What are you doing!?"

Shinji's hand guided Asuka's face back and the two looked over at Misato, who was half way to a hospital bed, clenching her heart. They both smiled at one another and shared another brief kiss before Misato came over and tried to pick up Shinji by his collar.

"What the hell is going on!?"

With the simplest of smiles, Shinji just looked back at her, she hadn't actually managed to get him off the ground at all.

"We are in love."

"Love!? You two are too young to be in love!"

"No we're not Misato, we are old enough to save the world, so we are old enough to make this decision."

"Come on Shinji, listen to yourself you…"

"He's telling the truth, Misato!"

"Asuka?"

"We do love each other."

-

That was not Shinji's happiest day, watching her leave, the journey home wasn't much better and the time since has been even worse. He had already missed out on a large amount of time, since Asuka left he had spent almost every night on his phone talking to her. It wasn't an unpleasant experience but with school starting again, the tests and eating, he had no time to see Touji or Kensuke in Tokyo-2, nor could he go and see Rei.

"It is good that I can speak to Asuka but… I miss my friends…"

Shinji then remembered a conversation he had with Asuka a few days before that had resulted in a quick trip to the bathroom, just thinking about it made his pants stretch a little, but even though they had the conversation, he still felt like something was wrong.

"I enjoyed that conversation… the excitement… thinking about her gorgeous body… thinking about what she was doing at that moment… my own thoughts… dragging her panties down with my teeth… but… I… don't know…"

He was just lying there, he had never been so unsure in his life, Asuka loved him and he knew it but he still couldn't shake the feeling that something was wrong. He also knew that her life was like a sad story, she was always in pain, so he knew he had to try and make her feel happy, to feel good, anyway he could. But it was still Tuesday, Asuka didn't return until Friday night, so what was he supposed to do for the remainder of the night, then three full days. He just lay there, unsure of what to do to pass time, waiting for Asuka to call, then he jumped.

BEEP BEEP

Shinji grabbed the phone that lay on the desk beside him and without even looking at the screen he pressed the answer button and held it to his face.

"Asuka!?"

"Err. No… it is Rei… I'm sorry Shinji… if you are waiting for I call I can go…"

"No! Rei… you don't have to do that… I'm not even sure if Asuka will call… it's nice to hear from you."

"I was just… cough… wondering if you could come over and check something for me…"

"Sure, you want me to come now?"

"Yes please."

-

Shinji pushed the door open as usual, although he did now see several bolts and locks on the other side, Rei had left the door open for him. He knew full well that Rei would never be so forward as to invite him over and try to repeat the events of the key-card incident. But still it was strange, he felt the urge to bolt the door, but he didn't want anything to happen, he looked around and could think only of Asuka. In the end he was forced to call out to find the girl.

"Rei?"

"Over… here…"

Shinji followed the voice into the main living area, towards the bed and he found Rei lying, curled up under several layers of bedding, at first he didn't really know what was going on. She turned over and he could see that her cheeks were red and she seemed to have a sort of glow on her skin.

"Rei."

"I think… I might have come down with something…"

"Let me check…"

Shinji checked her forehead, and it wasn't hot, but she seemed to be quite cold, he did some routine examinations of her throat and then found a thermometer to stick under her tongue. After a few minutes he could find nothing wrong with the girl but still she seemed incredibly weak, and quite cold. He was sat beside her on the edge of the bed and after checking her temperature he just looked at her.

"I don't think there is anything wrong with you, but we should see Dr. Akagi in the morning. Are you going to be okay on your own?"

"Yes…"

This was said in a voice so weak that it was impossible for Shinji to not see that Rei didn't want to burden Shinji, even though she needed him to stay. Shinji just sighed and looked down at the girl, then he smiled.

"Do you need anything? A drink?"

"No… I'm just cold."

Shinji's jacket was on the back of the chair across the room, he slipped off the slippers Rei had left by the door for him, then he lay against the wall. Rei knew what she wanted, she lifted her many blankets over Shinji and they both lay beneath them. Shinji was at a balance between comfort and discomfort, being so close to Rei was nice but he wondered what Asuka would say if she saw them. He looked at Rei and realised that she was still fully clothed, which made things easier, although he was already feeling the heat of being full clothed and under so many layers of blankets. Rei continued to lie but she still felt cold and it wasn't long before she wrapped herself around Shinji to share in his warmth. Shinji hugged her back but he could not allow anything to happen because of Asuka, and it was a thought that constantly went through his head.

'Remember Asuka… I am so going to hell for this…'

After about an hour of lying there, Rei pulled herself up a little and kissed Shinji on the lips, although it was not a kiss of passion but of thanks, Shinji was still a little uncomfortable. When Rei moved away she rested against his chest.

"Shinji… you have a kind soul… I am glad that you are happy with Asuka… but I am also glad that you can still be with me…"

Shinji thought about what the girl said, he was sure it didn't mean that he could cheat on Asuka but that he and Rei could still be friends. He had been there almost an hour and Rei, probably in a sort of half-asleep delirium, kissed him another couple of times, and Shinji's own fatigue was setting in. He looked at the time and it said '0212', on Rei's clock, he didn't want to fall asleep in Rei's bed, because it would be sleeping together, whether or not they did what that usually implied. But he was tired and a couple of times he seemed to act without opening his eyes, half-asleep and imagining he was with Asuka. His hand was wrap around Rei's waist and he would kiss her like she kissed him, not like the kisses he shared with Asuka. A couple of times he found himself kissing Rei's stomach for reasons unknown to even him and eventually they were laying in a horizontal hug, the side of his face resting against the cushion of blue hair. Rei had begun to feel better and Shinji looked at the clock.

'4am, I really need to go home… I will make sure she is okay tomorrow.'

"Rei? Are you okay, if I decide to go?"

"Yes…"

This time there was conviction in her voice, he looked into her eyes and she smiled at him, and he walked out of the apartment. He made it all the way back to his apartment without thinking too much but as he closed the door behind him he looked at his phone. Three missed calls. Shinji locked his door and slid to the floor, his head dropping and he sat with his arms resting on his knees and his head resting on the bridge his arms made between his legs. It was only then that he really thought about what had happened and he looked in the mirror, his eyes were pink.

'Pink signifies sorrow… I'm sorry Asuka… I know I didn't cheat on you but… I can't let you find out about this…'

-

Author note : Let me say, it is really annoying when things like that happen. Now I have noticed a lot of anti-ShinjixAsuka people out there reviewing me. Thanks for the reviews and I know these chapters seem sappy and stuff but this is Eva! Do things last? Oh and Drake… I think you meant Shinji when you put 'Harry' in your review. Ummm… what else… Oh yeah! Coltrane is not a character from James Bond but in fact the actor, Robbie Coltrane who plays the Russian Mobster, Valentin Dmitrovich Zukovsky (who I also don't own). This sequence was based off a stint in my High School when we played on an N64 in our free periods and several of my friends acted a lot like Touji did… that was until I turned into a little version of Shinji and massacred them… hehe.

P.S. It is Christmas Eve-Eve, so I don't know if I'll be able to write another chapter in a day and a half, so if I don't… Merry Christmas everyone!