Okay guys, here's chapter four. Tell me what you think about it. And don't worry. I'll update soon. Hope you like it.R&R!Okay and this chapter is only Casey's P.O.V. The next will be Derek's.Oh and since I've had so many lovely reviews I'm going to post this chapter.:)

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Chapter Four: Deep Thoughts

So many questions filled my brain. Why? What? How? Every time I thought I had the answer I would end up guessing another one right after it. What Derek did was so unusual. What I did was so unusual for me actually. I'm so confused right now. Ugh, I don't know. My head tells me it's wrong but my heart tells me it's right. I wish I could just stop thinking for once and do what I want to do.

When Derek kissed me, it was like no other kiss I ever experienced. Not even Sam could beat Derek. His kiss was so passionate. Like he wanted to be with me. His eyes had so many emotions in them. It was just so perfect. A perfect fit. A perfect match. A perfect life. He actually made my heart skip a few beats. He even sent tingles up and down my back.

I can say I liked kissing Derek or I can say I didn't. Most people would want me to say I didn't. And then I would say I have no clue. To tell you the truth I did like it. A lot, actually. What I don't like is that I know we can never be anything. We can never be an us. We'll always be Derek and Casey the two step siblings who hate each other. Well my hearts telling me I want to be Casey and Derek the two teens who love each other.

I can just see mom right now if Derek and I were together. She would be so uncomfortable and would be so disappointed in me. Or she could be understanding after a few months of us being together. It would have to sink in. It would have to be like that for anyone though. If you found out that your daughter liked her step brother you would be in shock too.

George wouldn't care that much. He'd probably say he's happy for Derek and I and he knows we'll be a great couple. George never takes things like this the wrong way. He believes that a person can't help who they fall in love with it just happens. I would love it if all parents and siblings were like that.

Lizzie might find it a little weird at first but I know she would be understanding. She would even be happy as long as I was happy. Lizzie's a great sister. You can do anything and she'll always be by your side no matter what. I guess that's why we make such a great team. Because we understand each other.

Edwin might be a little upset with Derek for being a boyfriend instead of a dude. He would say something along the the lines of dude you can have any girl and you pick Casey. Edwin would adventally be happy for Derek. Anything he says Edwin will do. And if he tells him to be happy for us he would.

Marti would be to young to understand, but I'm sure she'll be happy as long as Derek would still have time for her. Derek is her favorite person in the world and she is his. They have such a tight bond and I would hate to get in the way of them.

The kids at school would be shocked big time. When they see Derek Venturi hockey star and most popular guy in school with Casey McDonald grade-grubber and biggest loser in the school they'll flip. Derek could easily stop the gossip with his repuatation if he would even have a reputation left. Why does this always happen to me?

I looked out of my window on the plane. We were almost there. You could see trees and beautiful landscaping. It was truly amazing.

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okay sorry for the shortness. Promise the next chapters will be longer. I have no idea how long this story will be but it seems to be getting bigger and bigger by the day. Review please!