Pools of blood flashed in her mind and she couldn't help but think that Ren was the source of the blood. She wished she was wrong but the voices of terrifying screams just echoed in her ears. One more block. She turned another corner and her foot skid off balance, falling on her stomach her tears escaped her eyes. The hot tears that stung her eyes numbed her body. The thing she feared most was coming back right before her eyes and she couldn't help but think about all the negatives. "This can't be happening." Kagome pushed herself on to her feet and began to run once again.
She walked up to her door way, her heart pounding like crazy. It wasn't from exhaustion but fear, turning the doorknob she knew immediately that something was wrong. Her family always left the door locked no matter what and she couldn't stop her tears from falling. The pitched dark area flooded with light as she opened the door. It wasn't enough to see where she was going but she stepped into the room, praying to hear Ren to yell or some kind of sound to articulate that someone was here.
The whole house was pitched black and the thick drapes that covered the windows prevented any light to enter. She stumbled into the house and as it got darker and darker the more she went in, the more her mind raced. "Ren!" She yelled but no one answered, seconds passed but no one answered her and her tears continued to streak her face.
"Ren where are-" She heard footsteps shuffle across the floor and a shadow rush behind the couch in the living room. Her muscles tensed up and she stopped in place. Someone was there and she didn't know who it was or if her mind was playing tricks on her. Feeling the wall that she finally bumped into, she ran her hands up and down the wall trying to find the light switch. Moments later she got hold of the switch but hesitated to flip it on. Who ever was here was someone she never wanted to see.
She took a deep breath. "Ren answer me!" Flipping the switch light illuminated the room.
"Surprise!" Kagome stumbled back wards at the sudden shriek, tripping on her own feet, she fell to the ground as more tears escaped her eyes.
"Kagome what's wrong?" Ren said with a balloon in hand. She knelt down in front of her as she looked at her best friend.
"Ren!" Kagome wrapped her arms around her neck. "I thought something happened to you I thought-" She wiped her eyes and looked at her surroundings. There were balloons everywhere and everyone including her parents were there.
"I told you it was a bad idea to do that you dumbass." Ren hollered as she gave Kagome a napkin to wipe her tears away.
"Oh honey are you alright? Did we scare you?" Her mother said as worried as ever.
"Mom what's going on and your phone Ren who was-"
"Sorry that was me." Inuyasha scratched the back of his head and held up Ren's pink cell phone with his free hand. She looked at all her friends and family who gave her a reassure smile that everything was okay.
"Everyone's here. Why?" She said baffled at all the people she saw. Sesshomaru, even Sango, Kohaku and Miroku was there. She had no clue what was going on.
"Well if we threw you a party at home you would have locked yourself in your room like always." Her father said as Kagome got to her feet.
Kagome gripped her necklace and started to cry once again. "My birthday. I thought you all forgot about that useless holiday." Her heart sank into the pits of her stomach. It wasn't that she was upset form worrying so much but for the people she stood right in front of.
"Your birthday isn't useless." She turned around to face Kira who entered the house with a smile. "We care about you Kagome."
"Yeah, Kira set this whole thing up for you. Except for that stupid phone call ploy that Inuyasha stupidly thought up. You are such an idiot." Ren shot a glare at the silvered hair boy who gave her the same look.
"You did this for me?" Her tears couldn't stop spilling and she continuously tried to wipe them away.
"Well, not only me. I just thought about the party and invited everyone, although there was one person who invited himself." Kira smirked at Sesshomaru who glared at the bastard but he soon averted her eyes back to Kagome. "This parties for you. Happy Birthday Kago-"
She lunged toward him and hugged him. Tears ran down her cheeks as she felt his hands wrapped around her waist. Everyone around the room looked at the scene with a light heart. It was a sweet thing to see, two teenagers showing such affections toward each other brang a smile on everyone's face even Inuyasha. Although he didn't smile because of the two couples hugging but because of his arrogant brothers scowl. Sesshomaru knew he couldn't just march up to them and tear them apart. InuYasha was enjoying the expression on his face. He subsequently knew the anger on his brother's face was going to appear sooner or later.
"Is your daughter supposed to be doing such a thing?" Kisame whispered in his wife's ear.
"Oh look at them honey. It's like when we were young don't you think? It's even better if that man's her boyfriend." Izayoi whispered back.
Kagome pulled away from him and smiled. "If this is a party. Than lets celebrate!" She laughed and the mood lightened up with some music that Ren cranked up.
"Lets get this party-"
I love you, you love me, we are one big family"Barney?" Everyone cracked up laughing at the kid song and Ren quickly changed the CD.
"My bad."
The party still went on and she held the biggest smile throughout the party although she didn't want this. It was nice, the thought was great but all she wanted was to be alone. The smiles, the laughter, the happiness everyone held on their faces, it was all real while her smile was just a fake image. The more they smiled the more heart broken she became, something wasn't right. It wasn't that the party wasn't a success but it didn't make her happy. Like everyone always said, she was stubborn and maybe ungrateful of what she had but she didn't want this.
That phone call she received opened her eyes. It was a simple joke but it made her realize how bad she was. How 3 lives were given up because of her. As everyone was dancing, having a great time, she quietly exited the house and walked aimlessly through the streets.
It was a dark, lonely walk but it pleased her more than anything. She didn't know where she was going, she didn't care where she was going but the important thing was that she was all alone. Hiding in the shadows as it should have been a long time ago. Just receiving that phone call was terrifying and she couldn't get it out of her head. If Hiten were alive he would have killed everyone she knew in a heartbeat. If he were alive.
Light beamed down on her as she stopped under a streetlight. Her feet lead her to the park where the terror all began. Remembering the beatings, the blood, the bruises, the many tears she shed till this day. Till this day nothing had change but just the increase of problems. Walking through the grass the slight breeze brushed through her hair.
"There you are." She turned to face Kira who took a gulp of fresh air. "You're always running off."
"I wanted to be alone."
"You didn't like the party?"
"I liked it." Staring darkly at the open area, memories filled her thoughts. Her knees couldn't buckle anymore and she fell to on her knees, unaware of the person who just stared at her. Down on all fours, she winced as she heard a click of a gun getting ready to fire. She jolted her head up and looked around her but saw no one but Kira. The images that she saw and heard was strong, it was like Hiten was actually there. The nightmares she had was terrifying but being wide awake made her senses and her nightmares more real than she wanted them to be.
"It's terrifying being here." Kira stood there, he clenched his fist as he stared at her. He didn't want to see her like this but some how the feeling wasn't enough to walk up to her and hug her. Kira just stared and listened. "My life revolved around a nightmare and now I'm afraid it's going to start again. No one understands me, the people who did understand me are gone. He's gone." She hated crying, it was all she did ever since her parents died and all she wanted to do was move forward. To get away from the past.
"I understand how you feel." She felt a hand on her shoulders but it didn't comfort her, the sentence that came out of his mouth was idiotic. How can a guy who has everything, know how a person feels who has nothing. Kagome couldn't believe he just said that, she curled her hand into a fist. She glared at him and crashed her fist into his face.Kira knew he had that coming. He didn't smile but held her in his arms. "There not my real family." He whispered.
"What are you talking about?" She shoved him away and gave him a hateful glare.
"I'm adopted just like you."
"Adopted. Than what's your real name?" He hesitated and got up to his feet.
"Kira." Kagome looked at him, waiting for him to finish to give her his last name but he didn't. He stood there and looked down at her with a smile.
"Kira what?"
"Just plain Kira." Turning around he walked away from her. Something was wrong with him he didn't try to comfort her, or tried to talk to her. He just walked away. Shrugging the thought out of her head she got up and looked up at the moon that illuminated the area she was in.
Home was the last thing she wanted to go. The only thing she wanted to do was talk to someone. That person might not be there with her but she could always go to him. The walk was short and beside for the cars that passed by, the walk there was peaceful.
Walking through columns of tombstones she slowly walk to Bankotsu's gravesite. An object laid on top on the grave and as she got to it she picked it up. Getting on her knees she looked at the tape recorder in her hands.
"Someone must have left it." She thoroughly examined the tape recorder but there was no name or address on it. With a sigh she put the tape recorder beside her and tipped her head down. She prayed and remained there, gathering her thoughts.
Glancing at her watch she hopelessly got up, heading back on the side walk she walked toward her home with the tape recorder in hand. It was midnight and the dark quiet streets made chills run up her spine. Maybe some music can calm my nerves down.
Putting on the headphones she looked at the buttons she pressed the play button and waited as the tape began. It was silent for a moment and she wondered if anything was on the tape.
"I'm glade you found the tape Kagome." Every muscle in her body went into shock. Her body didn't respond with her brain, it was to busy trying to sink everything in. This tape, the voice, she knew it to well.
"I didn't think you would find it or none the less, listen to it. I'm going to give you a set of instructions, if you don't follow them precisely than you know what's going to happen. Everything I do, everything I say has a reason, whether you understand that reason or not it doesn't matter but betray me again and things will get difficult. It's a whole new game with a whole new set of rules. Follow the rules and the game will be more enjoyable for me. Keep the tape recorder with you at all times because you'll beneeding it."
Okay,Okay if you did read "The thought of death" than I know what you all might be thinking. You're saying to yourself. "Holy shit I knew Hiten was still alive." Well sorry but it's not him and I know you're saying "Than who the hell is he." And I can say that it's blank.. Like I'm going to tell you and ruin everything lol…. Well if you did read "The thought of death" Than I thank you so so much for that. You all are the best.. Bye Bye for now and I'm off with typing the next angsty chapter of "Love and Murder". See yas.