Okay just to let all of you know so you don't get confused. All the italics are her memories from the past. If you read "The thought of Death" and if you have a good memory than you'll know that some of the lines comes from the story.lol but I don't have a good memory myself so I had to look back on it and copy/paste. So remember that all the italic sentences are her memories. Just to let you know.

Staring at the ceiling, Kagome laid comfortable in her room. When she had arrived home she walked in to her parent with luggages in their hands. She had a minor talk with her parents about how a girl shouldn't be walking alone late at night. They weren't yelling at her but they stayed calm and gave her a warning and with that they left her in Kyotaka and Kagura's care.

It was 3 O'clock in the morning and she still couldn't fall asleep. She had woken up early yester day and had an exhausting day but as restless as her body was she refused to let herself go to sleep.

I'm going to give you a set of instructions, if you don't follow them precisely than you know what's going to happen.

She turned to lay on her side and gripped the sheets tightly in her hand. She thought she knew who it was on that tape but the voice was too different. It was the same voice that threatened her when she was at Kira's house but it wasn't Hiten's voice!

"You even try to leave town I'll kill them. I'll kill Bonkotsu Higurashi and his parents Izayoi and Kisame Higurashi and if that's not convincing enough I'll kill Ayame Otomo, Hojo Ikeda, and Koga Meshitozawa. Oh and don't you forget about Inuyasha and Sesshomaru Otonashi."

Kagome felt light headed as tears escaped her eyes. The memories were too much, but she couldn't hold them back. They were rushing through her mind like a speeding truck but they were all so clear. As fast as it came she still had the memories fresh in her head. She heard their voices clearly, she could still feel the cold metal of a gun touch her skin. It was too real to take in all at once.

The blood on his hands, the expression on his face as her brother died in front of her eyes. The memories were still there, still active, still haunting her. She couldn't help but cry as Bankotsu's lips that covered in blood formed an assuring smile flashed in her mind.

"I love you, Kagome"

"I rather die. I was the one that wanted to die. Not him, Not him." She slowly sat up as she ignored the tears that streaked her face. She got up and walked out of her room. Walking through the corridor she dragged her arm up against the wall as it prevented her from falling. All her tears, all the sadness, it wasn't worth it. She wasn't worth saving, she was the one that wanted to die and she was going to make sure she did get what she ultimately wanted.

"I'm always there for you Kagome. I'm your big brother. That's what I'm here for. I'm here for you."

She opened the door to her brother's room and stepped inside, closing the door behind her. She looked at the dimly lit room and began to search all the drawers in his room. She looked hopelessly for that one object that would relieve her from all this pain. As she searched, her mind went wild on memories that she didn't want to have.

"Don't make a mistake that you'll regret."

Hiten's warning rung into her ears and it just made more tears slide down his cheek as she glared angrily at the clothes she rummaged through. As she finally hit a hard metal object at the bottom of the drawer she pulled it out and held it firmly in her hands.

"I don't care what they think of me because they're not my parents and you're not my brother!" Kagome winced a bit as her head started to hurt. "I don't have no one anymore! I don't have anything, no mother, no father, no family, nothing!"

She regretted everything that she had said that day. She promised her self that she wouldn't ever have a repeat of that day ever again. She had promised Bankotsu that she would never do that again but she couldn't take it anymore. Nothing was going to change, She would just feel more pain if she didn't end it right now.

Flipping the pocketknife that she held in her hands she stared at it as if it was a treasure. This was the only escape, the only solution to end all her pain and to end all her tears.

"I was never worth it. They ended their lives for nothing. They should have left me alone to die." She glanced at the mirror that hung on the wall and smiled. Her reflection reflected a girl, a girl who wasn't worth being adopted from such a great family but was better off buried under the ground.

She raised the knife up to her neck and her eyes followed her arm as she stared at her reflection. "This has to end now."

"You better promise me sis that you won't try to kill yourself. We worry about you. Just promise me you won't do that again."

"I promise Bankotsu don't you worry."

Kagome watched her tears fall down her chin and her hands trembled. Pressing the knife slightly on her neck she dropped to her knees. There was no one in her life anymore. No one to comfort her, there was no one that would fight for her. "This is the only answer. I'm sorry brother but I can't make that promise. I just can't. I'm sorry. please don't hate me Bankotsu. I'm sorry."

She pressed the knife and she winced at the pain. All she had to do was glide her hand across her neck and it would be over. It would be all over. Her nightmares, the pain and the sadness that she had to endure all her life will now be over. She rather go to hell than feel all this sadness.

With her thoughts finally set on death she closed her eyes. "I'm sorry brother." Gripping the knife tightly, she sighed. She got ready to cut through until a hand gripped hers and pulled her arm and the knife away from her neck.

"What the hell are you doing?" Kyotaka yelled as he tightly clasped her wrist. She struggled to get free and she just only wish she had one second, one second for him to let her go. That was all she needed to end it all right now.

"Let me go! Just let me go please!" She shouted. Pulling her hand as hard as she could she still wasn't able to get free. She was pulling her hand and moving away from him but nothing worked. She struggled to get free and he could feel her slipping out of his grasp.

"Kagome calm down!" Grabbing hold of her hands he slammed her backwards, pinning her hands on the ground. His legs straddled her hips as he tired to keep her on the floor. He tried to get the knife out of her hand but as he inched his way toward the knife the more she would struggle.

"Get off of me! This is none of your goddamn business just let me go!" She screamed but he didn't compile. As she tried to twist and turn her way free the more his grip tightened.

"Kagome. Don't do this to yourself. You have to live. You have to-"

"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! I don't deserve to live! I don't want to live and I have that choice not you!" Kagome bit down on Kyotaka's index finger that tightly helddown her arm with the knife in her hand.

He groan as he tried to hold to her wrist in place but the harder she bit down the harder it was to take hold of her wrist as she tried to pull it free. "Kagome! Stop it now! Drop the damn knife!" He said through his gritting teeth.

She bit down even harder ignoring him, completely focused on one thing. She just wanted to get out of his hold on her and end it all in one single slash. Kyotaka didn't know what to do at this point. She was biting to the bone and if she kept this up he had no choice but to let go. He was afraid of the thought of letting her hand go, but hewas determined to hold onuntil he had the knife in his hands.

"I'm going to stop you no matter what Kagome! Just let the thought of death go already. You have your family, your friends and me by your side. Just let it go."

She didn't listen but bit down not letting his finger go. She'll bite off his finger off if she had to and Kyotaka knew how determined she was when blood slid down his hand. She thought about the next thing he was going to do and when he sorted things out in seconds he acted.

He held on tightly to her wrist as she continue to try to bite through his finger. He let go of her other arm and rammed his hand into her neck. Making sure her target she was wanting to cut was covered he let go of her other wrist and whipped his hand away from her mouth.

"Let me go! Let me-" The room grew quiet and Kagome's mind went into a blank. Her memories rushed passed her and was now block. Unable to think she laid there motionless as Kyotaka's lips rested on hers.

Kyotaka traveled his hand across her arm as her fingers uncurled the knife. He laid his hand upon the object that rested on the palm of her hand and entwined his fingerswith hers. At first the kiss was only to prevent her from screaming, he didn't want any police here for disturbance this early in the morning. But now this simple kiss that was supposed to be a quick peckso he could get a hold on the knife but that one kissbecame something even more.

He soon departed to take a breath and stared down at her who just had an expression ofshock through out her face. He really didn't know what to do now. It wasn't a part of his plan to kiss her so long so she averted the situation by being concern at the problem that mattered most.

"Lets patch that wound on your neck." Taking the knife out of her hand he closed it and stuffed it in his pocket. He got hold of her wrist and helped her up but she quickly fell back on her knees as electrifying pains rushed up her leg. Apparently as she tried to struggle out of his grasp she hit her ankle on the drawer.

She let out aslight groanof pain. It was unbearable and she just sat there as he knelt down beside her and examined her ankle that was beginning to swell. Tucking his arm under her knees and the other supporting her back, he lifted her up, he had to get ice on her ankle and he had to stop the bleeding on her neck and his finger. He carried her out the room and down stairs into the kitchen. She sat her on the table and glanced up at her.

"Just sit here and I'll get the first aid kit." She didn't say anything or even nodded her head. He didn't know if she was listening, her eyes didn't show no expression neither did her face and she just sat there looking at the ground. Kyotaka rushed up stairs and into the bathroom, he grabbed the kit that was positioned on the floor near the sink. As he got to the kitchen he stopped in place and dropped the kit on the floor. She was gone.

She limped down the street, propping her self up on the wall she leaned back and took a deep breath. She could have ended her life right there on the street but she was empty handed. There was not one thing that she could find that would inflict a quick death. So she sank down and sat on the sidewalk. The coldness of the night caught up to her as jolts of immense pain crawled up her leg.

"Kagome!" He stared at the man that ran toward her and raised her hand and touch her lips. He kissed me. Those words repeated in her mind as she watch him run toward her. It was hard to think and push awaythe thought away from her mind but for some odd reason it kept repeating over and over in her head. "Kagome what the fuck were you thinking? Why did you run away?"

She stared at the ground as her fingertips remained on her bottom lip. She tuned his voice out as she continuously repeated those 3 same words in her mind. It just keep playing annoyingly in her head like a stupid kid song with an irritating rhyme.

"Kagome! Talk to me! Say something!" He placed his hands roughly on her shoulders as he looked at the blank expression on her face as she slowly raised her head to look up at him.

"You kissed me." She whispered.

Kyotaka's eyes shot up and his grip on her shoulders weakened. "Your neck." Shoving his hands into his pocket he took out the gauze and pressed it on top of the wound. "Keep pressure on it." He took hold of her hand that was placed on her lips and pressed it upon her wound.

"But why did you-" He lifted her up in his arms and headed back home.

"Come on. I don't want you to catch a cold."

She winced and opened her eyes slowly as the sun beat down on her face. "Wakey Wakey Kagome-Chan." She bolted up right. Her eyes just rose up and her mouth dropped in shock as she stared at the person that opened the curtains. "It's a beautiful morning Mommy."

"Mayu what are you doing here?" She inquired as her jaw finally functioned correctly with her brain.

"I came to see you mommy. You haven't come home for a long time." Mayu jumped onto her bed and hugged the shock brunette.

"Mayu this is my home. How did you come here?"

"Brother's here to."

"Satoru's here!"

"Yeah. A nice lady invited us in. She said I can come up here and wake you up." Kagome sighed and got up as soon as Mayu let go of her.

"Come on Mayu lets go down stairs." She lent out a hand and the girl immediately took it as she led her down stairs. She looked on at Satoru who sat at the kitchen table with Kagura who sat there beside him star struck. "What are you doing here?"

"Kagome. I wanted to talk to you." He smiled and looked at Kagura. "Can you please take my sister up to your room so your cousin and I can talk?" Kagome could tell that Kagura was crushing on him and when Kagura falls in love she immediately sells herself to him.

"Sure thing." She shot out of her seat like rapid fire and walked up to Mayu and took her hand. "Come on Mayu. Let me fix up your hair for you."

"But I want to stay with Kagome-Chan."

"They're going to talk." She pulled the child upstairs.

Kagome walked into the kitchen completely drained. She was in no mood to talk or to see him. It was already difficult as it was to stand there and look at him. She didn't wanted to be bothered after what happened yesterday. Her mind didn't push away her thoughts of death and as she entered the kitchen all she stared at was the kitchen knives that were placed on the counter.

"What do you want?" She said monotonously as she leaned on the table with her back facing him.

"You seem upset."

"I'm not in the mood."

"Well I wanted for you to come back home." Kagome stood there with her back still facing him. She didn't quite understand what he meant. Her mind was to block out in exhaustion to remember anything right now.

"I am home. Please. Just leave." She rested one hand on the table and placed the other on her forehead.

"I want you to come with me."

"Well I can't. I'm not going to just leave here." She had no idea what he was blabbering about. She honestly didn't care what he was talking about. She just wanted him to leave.

"You didn't answer me on my proposal." She shot her eyes open as she laid her eyes on Satoru that stood right in front of her. He took a hold of her hand on the table and kept it in place and did the same thing with the other.

"Let me go."

He pressed his lips and started to suck her pulse. Letting out a slight moan she tried to push him away. He was over powering her and his grip tightened, he attached himself on to her neck and she wanted it to stop.

" Don't do this. Just let me go."

"Will you marry me?" His question muffled as he continued to suck on her neck. She clenched her teeth to stop herself from letting out another groan.

"I told you before that I can't."

"I know you can't but would you want to if you could marry me?" He stopped, looking up at her blank expression on her face.

"I would want to marry you but unfortunately I can't."

"What the hell is she saying?" The readers say as they scratched the back of their heads. The author (anari01) let out an evil laugh and sighed.

"You have to find out in the next chapter." She soon averted her eyes at the evil glares that she receives and sat in front of her computer and her fingers zipped rapidly on the keys as she quickly wrote the next chapter.

Well people read and review if you have time and I'll be working on the next chappie.