I'm going to rate this chapter R, for mature themes. I do not own Lost or any of the characters.
Chapter 8- Body and Soul
A smile crept across Jack's face as he watched Kate walk towards him. Her hair was swept up in an elegant bun and she wore a strapless white dress which flowed around her toned legs. The moonlight cascaded down on the beach in soft radiance and the scent of the salty Atlantic lingered in the air. Jack patted the pocket of his dark black pants and then adjusted his jacket. Tonight was the big night for him and Kate. Tonight he was going to ask her to marry him, and hopefully she would say yes. Jack's heart rate increased as Kate closed the distance between them, each step she took seemed to be in slow motion. The wind picked up and tossed Kate's loose tendrils around her angelic face. Jack swallowed down a wad of nervousness as she stopped in front of him. Her eyes burned with an emerald intensity, and rays of fire from the tiki torches surrounding them made Kate's delicate features glow with a bronze like glow. Jack opened his mouth to speak but no words came.
Kate blinked. The world stopped, and the wind caught the fire. A slow smile crept across her face, and she looked down.
For the first time Jack realized that he was bearing a hole into her soul with his eyes. He grinned to himself nervously and then tried to ignore the warm sensation that was traveling through his body. Sand whipped around them as the wind shifted directions. Kate placed her hand on the pocket of Jack's black jacket. He exhaled and then looked up. There eyes lingered on each others' smoldering gaze for three seconds and then Kate spoke. The sound of her voice alerted Jack to his senses.
"This is beautiful,"
Jack nodded in agreement, but they were talking about two different things. Kate was talking about the atmosphere around them bathed in foggy mist, and he was concentrating on her. Jack was mesmerized by the way her white lace dress graced her body lovingly, and the way her eyes shimmered every time she looked at him. "I think you look beautiful," Jack stuttered. He winced and then placed his hand to his forehead. If he planned on proposing to Kate, he had to get it together.
Kate pulled off her high heeled shoes and tossed them carelessly onto the satin blue blanket. "I never liked wearing heels, but I thought I could wear them for you…just this once,"
The uneasiness Jack was feeling earlier was starting to wane. He glanced down at a red rose which he had brought for Kate earlier and then bent down to pick it up. "It's nothing special but…"
Kate gently took the rose from Jack. Her lips curled into a soft smile and then her eyes shifted towards him curiously. "Why do I have the feeling that you invited me here for more than just dinner?"
"I'm not too sure?" Jack avoided with a smirk.
Kate playfully pushed him.
Instinctively, Jack reached out for her hand, his fingers entwined between the crevices of her own, and he pulled her to him. He drew in slow breaths as he looked down at the woman he had fallen so hard for. "I did bring you hear for another reason."
"I thought so," Kate whispered. She was so close to Jack now that she could feel the electric attraction radiating from his body. His thumb caressed her hand before he let her go. "Before I met you I wasn't too big on the idea of commitment, because something about the "C" word scared me."
Kate smiled, "Are you about to give me a speech?"
Jack chuckled. He closed his eyes and tried to imagine how Kate would react to his proposal. The thought of her turning him down was enough to make him change his mind, but he was going to go through it. Jack tore his eyes away from Kate and surveyed the jagged rocks that poked outwards from the sand where the shore broke onto land. He needed to think over what he was going to say. Make sure he was able to express all the confusing but yet definite reasons for why he wanted to be with her.
Jack sighed as he watched Kate gaze off towards the sea. His heart sunk at the thought of having to say goodbye to her. He truly loved Kate, and Jack knew that without her his life would go back to the way it was. And that was the last thing he wanted. Jack reached out his hand once more and stroked Kate's cheek, which felt like velvet to the touch. She closed her eyes momentarily and then looked back at Jack. "I love you Kate,"
Kate simply nodded.
Jack felt himself dropping down to the ground. In seconds his knee was pressed against the sheet and the mound of sand underneath. With shaking hands Jack reached out for Kate's hand. He looked up at her and the words that he was having so much difficulty with before were now inspired by the nervous but yet hopeful expression she was giving him. Jack slipped his hand in his pocket to pull out the box which held her ring.
Kate's eyes widened as Jack opened the box to reveal a gold band. She glanced at him in surprise and then smiled widely.
"I've never been good at coming up with the right words to say, and I'm sure this may be one of the worst proposals in history but I'm trying…"
Kate silenced Jack by placing a hand over his mouth. Seconds later she allowed her hands to stroke his cheek softly and then rest on his shoulders. "You're doing fine,"
Jack pulled the ring out of the box and then held it close to Kate's hand. "I've tried thinking over and over what I was going to say, I wanted this moment to be right, romantic and I even wanted to sweep you off of your feet."
"Well you're succeeding so far," Kate bit her lip, and then traced her hand underneath Jack's chin. "Yes," she accepted.
His mouth dropped and he looked up at her in surprise. His hazel eyes searched her lustrous olive saucers for signs of sincerity.
She wiggled her fingers in front of the ring and tilted her head to the side. "I'll marry you."
"I didn't even ask yet…"
Kate tilted Jack's head towards her and then bent down to give him a kiss on his soft lips. Jack closed his eyes and wrapped his arms around Kate, he fought the instinct to pull her down onto the satin sheets with him. He groaned as Kate kissed him harder. Seconds later they broke apart and Jack slipped the gold band encrusted with a stunning diamond in the center on Kate's finger. She smiled from ear to ear, and wrapped her arms tightly around Jack's neck as he stood up.
Jack kissed Kate on her cheek, and then nuzzled his face against her neck. The smell of her perfume was tantalizing and he couldn't resist but to steal another kiss. Jack then picked Kate up with ease. "What would've happened if I did have a speech planned out?"
"A speech?" Kate laughed.
Jack blushed, "Well not a speech, but an incredibly sappy but yet truthful reason for why I want you to be my wife."
Kate grinned, "Well, we've went through the "sap" countless times, and I think I have a pretty good idea of how you feel."
Jack couldn't say the same for Kate. He knew that she loved him, but he wasn't sure how much. Kate was more guarded with her emotions than he was. He looked upwards at the night sky and then at the waves. Jack wanted to do something crazy, something fun, an action that was as far away from the old Jack Shepard as possible. He had just gotten Kate to agree to marry him, and he felt as if he was on top of the world. "What are you thinking?" Kate asked kissing him.
Jack smiled as he sampled her lips. "I want to do something…something crazy."
"Jack Shepard and crazy…are you sure?" She laughed.
Jack nodded. He let Kate down and then held out his hand. "Dance with me,"
Kate looked around, "Right here, on the beach without any music or…"
"Hey…last time I checked this was my dream." Jack replied with a sarcastic grin. He glanced towards the ocean once more. Kate stepped closer to him, and then reached for his tie pulling him closer. Jack looked down at her with desire.
"You wanted to do something crazy huh?" Her smile was mischievous as she led Jack closer to the waves breaking onto shore. Little explosions echoed off the rocks as the waves crashed onto the sand.
"Why are we going towards the…"
Kate jerked Jack's tie closer to her, he was immediately pulled up against her. "Take off your shoes."
Jack grinned. He narrowed his eyes at Kate in curiosity but he allowed her to lead him farther towards the sea.
"I'm going to warn you one last time," Kate whispered in his ear.
Jack's grin widened at the feel of her breath tickling his ear. She loosened her grip on his tie, as he bent down to pull off both of his shoes. Once his socks were off Kate latched onto his tie once more and continued to lead him towards the surf.
Jack placed his hands on both of Kate's arms as they stepped into the cold waves. The water was like ice, but the feel of Kate's skin underneath his hands, was enough to distract him. She let go of his tie and then wrapped both of her arms around his neck. Jack clutched onto the white lace of her dress and brought her body closer to his. As she kissed him eagerly, her arms slowly dropped away from his neck and her hands gripped onto his arms. Jack was so caught up in each tantalizing kiss Kate placed on his lips that he didn't have time to react when she tripped him swiftly and then pushed him into the rolling waves. Kate laughed as he fell forwards, Jack reached out.
Kate screamed with delight as Jack tugged her down with him. Water soaked through her dress, and her hair fell forwards in damp curls around her shoulders. Jack forced himself up, but Kate tugged him back down by his pants. Jack's pants dropped slightly revealing his boxers. Wanting to see more Kate tugged down on his pants harder. Jack turned around quickly which caused him to lose his balance. He fell into the colliding waves, and Kate stood up and wrapping her arms around his neck.
As they laughed wave after wave knocked them down.
Jack struggled to get his pants back up as Kate splashed him with the salty sea water. "I'm going to get you." He threatened light heartedly.
Kate crossed her arms and then leaned forward. "Then what are you waiting for?"
Jack forced himself up. The tux he was wearing now weighed down on him heavily. He unbuttoned his jacket and tossed it onto the sand. "Now I'm ready,"
Kate turned back towards the beach and started to run. Her hair flopped wildly behind her and her arms moved in perfect rhythm with her body. Jack pursued her, his feet pounded against the sand as he traced her footsteps. Kate made a sudden turn and dashed towards the right, Jack was quick on his feet. Like a football player he did a quick detour and rushed towards Kate. Seconds later Jack crashed into her, his arms wrapped around her small waist. She let out a scream as Jack tightened his grip around her. They both flipped over. Jack fell onto the sand shoulder first and Kate collapsed down onto him shortly afterwards.
Kate placed her hands against the sand and lowered her mouth down onto Jack's. He smiled in satisfaction and accepted her kiss longingly. She rolled over onto the sand with a smirk, and pulled Jack onto her. The top buttons of his white collared shirt broke loose; Kate slipped her hands inside the damp shirt and then massaged the skin on his chest. Jack placed his head against Kate's and closed his eyes. She kissed him on the cheek, and then forced him over her once again.
Jack turned over on his side. He smiled to himself as he sunk deeper into the dream. Turning over onto his stomach, Jack splayed his arm out onto Kate's side. She wasn't there, so he grabbed her pillow and brought it close to his chest. He yearned for her now more than ever, and it wasn't just because of the dream. Jack knew that he had a deeper bond with Kate than she was willing to admit. He buried his face in the soft fabric of her pillow. Jack's body grew weak at the scent of her perfume, which was a mix between jasmine and vanilla, or maybe it was the candles that she liked to burn. Unconsciously Jack swung a leg over her pillow and wrapped his arms around it tighter. He was too in love with Kate to let her slip away.
Kate stepped into the room with Jack, and closed the door behind her. Without looking at Jack's legs wrapped around her pillow in a death like grip, she placed down her journal on the desk. A smile formed on her face as she traced the caramel leather coating. Jack's concern for her could be a little daunting at times, but overall the fact that he cared so much, made her feel alive inside. Before she had came across Jack she had been so empty, living life on the run, dodging Marshals and Bounty Hunters, and searching for a bigger purpose in life. Her eyes closed in pain.
Suddenly deciding that she needed to change her recent train of thought Kate turned around. The sight of Jack clutching onto her pillow threw her off at first, but as she stepped closer to him she noticed that he was smiling. Kate's cheeks grew warm as she sat down on the bed. She watched him with an enamored expression and then traced her hand against Jack's cheek. "I guess I'll let you borrow my pillow for the night." Kate trailed her hand down Jack's arms and then stood up. She turned off the lights, and watched as the moon poured in through the foggy glass windows and listened as the wind whistled outside. Kate reached in a draw for a box of matches, she pulled one out and struck it against the side of the box, lighting a series of candles one by one. Kate blew out the match, and then settled into the bed next to Jack. Since she didn't have a pillow, she snuggled up close to him. Kate rested her head on his chest, and reached out her arms to wrap around Jack's body. Kate smiled once more and then laid an innocent kiss on his neck. Three minutes later she was knocked out.
Kate thanked the nurse and then headed down the hall towards Diane's room. Her heart was in her throat, and her hands were shaking uncontrollably. Kate gripped onto the vase of flowers in her hand as she walked down the darkened hospital hallways. A cop was sitting against the wall with his face buried in a newspaper. Kate clenched her jaw nervously as she raised the vase to shield her face. Determination creased across her features as she walked past the officer. Once she turned the corner Kate looked around for Tom. Her mouth dropped when she Sawyer.
The vase dropped down slightly by her side, and Kate turned her head curiously in his direction. Her eyebrows furrowed low over her eyes as she watched Sawyer walk over towards her. He wore a black button down shirt, with a pair of jeans and boots. A smile crossed his face as he stopped in front of her.
"It looks like you're doin pretty good for yourself Freckles,"
"Why are you here?" Kate asked confused.
"You know why sweet cheeks, whenever you're around someone is bound to get hurt and in this case it's deal old Doc, whoopee doo."
Kate looked around angrily. She placed down the vase of flowers on a counter close by, and then grabbed onto Sawyer's arm.
"Do you take control of him like this too? Because if you do then I'm excited." He said with wide eyes.
"I would never hurt Jack, and while we're on this conversation…you either."
"You know what I said earlier got to you doll, and you know why it did muffin."
"How about you stop with the nicknames," Kate barked.
Sawyer yanked his arm out of Kate's grasp, and then pulled his hair back suavely with one hand. "We both know how this story goes, you come here to see mommy dearest, but unfortunately dear ol' mama is scared of you…"
Kate glared back at Sawyer warningly, but he continued to talk.
"She screams, and then the hospital goes on guard because a fugitive is on the loose, but then if it ain't a miracle when lover boy Tom runs to the rescue…"
Kate slammed Sawyer up against the wall. She was visibly shaken, and her mouth was fixed in a permanent pout. "I didn't kill Tom!"
"Then why the hell are you carrying that plane around?" Sawyer growled fixing his shirt. He adjusted his collar and turned his head towards Kate menacingly. "What makes you think that the same thing ain't gonna to happen to Jacko? Just like Tom he done fell head over heels in love with you and how did ya reward him sweetheart?"
"You don't know anything, so just shut up!" Kate yelled. When she remembered that she was in a hospital she clamped her trembling hands over her mouth.
Sawyer smirked, "What are you gonna take of Jack's after he dies? That wedding ring,"
Kate felt her eyes start to grow teary. She allowed her eyes to close as she blinked away at the rapidly forming tears. "I don't have time for this…"
Sawyer grabbed onto Kate's arm and turned her back around towards him. "Would you really risk your life for that son of a bitch? I doubt it mamacita seeing how much you've done in the past to avoid capture."
Kate pushed Sawyer again one last time. This time he let her go. Without turning back around to face him Kate stormed away.
"Kate you have ten minutes with Diane before we have to send her to Radiology." The handsome doctor said as he rolled Diane's bed out towards her.
Kate turned around. Her mouth dropped open in shock, and no words could describe the troubled thoughts that were now coursing through her mind. Jack walked over to her.
"Are you okay?" He asked in concern.
Kate looked down at Diane. Her eyes widened in fear, and then she focused back on Jack. He reached out and placed his hand on her arm. Kate pulled away, but Jack reached out for her again. He scanned around the hospital and then gave Kate his complete attention.
"What's wrong?" Jack repeated.
Kate eased her arm out of Jack's. She knew where this dream was going, and she had to wake up. From the corner of her eye she watched as Sawyer stepped from around the corner. He shook his head in her direction and then smirked.
Jack leaned forward, his eyes softened in concern as he stared back at Kate.
Before Jack could say anything else she turned away from him and started to run. The hospital was thrown into alert mode. Jack chased after her.
"I need your keys,"
"Kate,"
"Keys!" She screamed.
Jack reached in the pocket of his lab jacket and handed Kate his keys without any further questions.
"Don't follow me," She warned. With that Kate took off, she pushed the doors open that led to the garage and sprinted towards Jack's car. Jack was on her heels. Kate disarmed the car and quickly opened the door, she lowered herself in, and started the ignition. Jack opened the passengers' door and sat down next to her.
"Get out!" She screamed.
"No, not only is this my car, but I'm not going to let you just leave like this. We're in this together right."
Kate slammed her hands on the steering wheel in frustration. "Jack, please just get out!"
"I told you I was in this until the end, and I mean it." Jack leaned forward to catch Kate's eyes, but she wouldn't look at him.
Kate shook her head, "Just get out Jack." Her tone was pleading and desperate. If she knew how this dream was going to end, then she wasn't going to drive. Kate bit her bottom lip as the hospital door was thrown open and police ran towards them.
"Where you go, I go." He said defiantly.
She couldn't control her foot as she slammed down on the pedal. The car screeched violently as Kate shifted the gear from reverse to drive simultaneously. She went full speed towards the exit, pressing the breaks on a hairpin turn and then speeding up again.
Jack put on his seatbelt and gripped onto the door handle with one hand and Kate's arm with the other. "Kate, are you sure you want to do this."
"Yes, but I don't want you to get hurt. So get out!" Kate stomped her foot onto the brake pedal abruptly. Both of them were roughly jerked forward. She struggled to fill her lungs with air as she wiped her hair away from her eyes.
Jack glanced ahead. A cop was parked in front of the exit. His car was blocking them and his gun was drawn. "Step out of the car with your hands up!"
Kate turned to Jack one last time. Her expression spoke volumes, "I'm not turning myself in."
"I would never ask you too,"
Kate raised her foot above the gas pedal and prepared to crash through the ticket booth while attempting to avoid getting shot in the process.
"Get out with your hands held over your head!" The cop yelled. His gun was trained on the car, and he was safely sheltered by his door.
Fear registered in Jack's eyes, and his mouth was open in shock. "Kate, you're not going to…"
The cop started to call for backup.
"I have to go, Jack please." She pleaded one last time.
Jack looked down, but refused to get out of the car.
She pressed down on the gas pedal hard, the accelerator jumped helplessly as the car shot forward fast as a bullet. Kate opened her mouth to tell Jack to get down, but she was distracted when the cop pulled out his gun. Swerving to avoid the pelting bullets, Kate rammed into the side of the cop car.
The impact caused Jack and Kate to jolt forward violently. Kate recovered quickly, she was tempted to glance at Jack and make sure he was okay, but the officer was shooting. She dipped down her head low by the wheel, and continued to make her escape.
The sound of crushing metal echoed throughout the air as Kate charged past the damaged cop car. She turned to check on Jack, but a car turning suddenly caused her to refocus her attention. Their cars rammed together and the windshield cracked in protest of the sudden trauma. Kate removed her shaky hands from the wheel and finally focused her attention on Jack. No!
Kate covered her mouth and tears pooled in her eyes at the sight of Jack. Blood dribbled from his nose, and his eyes were closed. "Jack, no, no, Jack!"
The sirens were approaching. Kate swallowed down a wad of nervousness. She could hear Sawyer's words echoing in her ears. See his wicked smile, and that look on his face like he knew her. Kate placed her hand against Jack's face. "Jack, please…"
The sirens were growing louder.
The door was thrown open in seconds and Kate slowly let go of Jack's face. Tears were streaming from her eyes as she started to run. Kate hopped over the rail and then sprinted down the alley, Leaving behind Jack and a small black box resting on the floor next to his shoes.
Jack heard Kate screaming next to him. He jumped up with a start turning to face her. Kate's eyes were squeezed shut, and her face was twisted into an expression of fear. She slipped her hands form his arm and grabbed onto the sheets.
"Kate," Jack said placing his hands around her arms.
"Jack!" She yelled.
"I'm right here," He said into her ear.
Kate placed her hands against his chest and tried to push him away, but Jack brought his hands underneath her and brought her closer to him.
"I'm right here," He repeated.
Kate's eyes opened. She stared back at him in disbelief, and then looked around the room. Relief seemed to wash over her the second she looked into his eyes.
Jack cupped Kate's chin in his hands, and brought her face closer to his. "It looks like you were having a nightmare, everything is alright now."
Kate's bottom lip started to tremble.
Jack held her tighter in his arms. His hands gently massaged her back getting caught in between some strands of her hair. Jack wiped the tears away from Kate's face with the back of his thumb. "I'm here,"
Kate glanced down at the pillow in between Jack's legs, and then let out a small laugh.
"Wh…What's so funny?" He asked in utter confusion.
As Kate wiped away at her tears she pointed to the pillow. Jack's eyes widened and he looked back at Kate in shock.
"I didn't put that there…"
Kate patted his shoulder, "It's okay,"
Jack removed the pillow and then placed it back down on the bed. "I guess I…" He looked down embarrassed, "I guess I just missed you."
Without responding Kate leaned forward. Jack watched her silently not sure what she was going to do. Seconds later her arms were wrapped around him in a life squeezing hug and her chin rested on his shoulder.
A smile crossed Jack's face. His eyelids closed and he allowed his body to rest against Kate's. Her heart was beating against his chest and her hair spilled over his skin. He clutched her tighter, and then stole a kiss on her cheek.
"I did have a nightmare," She confessed.
"I know," Jack said. He was surprised that Kate was still hugging him, but he had no objections, or plans to be the first to let go. Her hand slowly slid up the back of his neck and then into his hair. Kate massaged her fingers through his scalp.
"I didn't expect for this to happen."
"What?" Jack asked.
Kate leaned away from Jack. She glanced deep into his needy saucers and tilted her head to the side lovingly. "I didn't expect for my feelings to get this deep."
Jack eyebrows furrowed low over his eyes with genuine love. His breathing pattern had grown shaky, and he couldn't control how fast his stomach was rising against Kate's.
"I've tried to ignore my feelings for you, I don't think you understand the lengths I've gone to Jack."
Jack rested his forehead against Kate's shoulder, as he kissed the silky smooth skin right above her collar bone.
Her hands traced the reddened skin around his neck.
"Every time we kissed I would convince myself that it would end at that. I actually was able to make myself believe that a kiss was all I wanted…"
The air was thick, and the heater buzzed with a steady rhythm in the background.
Jack tore his lips away from her shoulder and then looked into her electric eyes which burned with a warm jade color. He drew in another breath as he listened to her.
Kate smiled, "This week we've been having a lot of trouble dealing with our feelings."
Jack nodded as he glanced down at the pillow.
"I don't know how else to describe it, but I'm in love with you." Kate buried her face in her hands. "I didn't think it was possible but I am. You make me feel weird inside when you kiss me, and when you look at me…"
Jack's smile widened and he passed her a look that was incredibly seductive.
Her cheeks grew flushed, and she had to turn away from him. "I'm making a fool of myself,"
Jack reached for Kate's hand and started to kiss around the edges. She linked her fingers inside of his and watched him with growing temptation. His lips felt like fire against her skin, and Kate couldn't help but to shiver each time his mouth grazed her flesh.
Jack paused. "Are you okay?"
Kate tore her eyes away from the way his lips moved against her skin. "I'm okay, but why do you care so much about me?"
Jack stopped kissing Kate's hand and stroked her hand with his thumb. "Because I love you,"
Kate looked down with a smile. "I don't want to hurt you."
Jack traveled back upwards to Kate, he brought his nose against hers and stared deep into her eyes. "Don't worry about me, let's just focus on you."
She brought her hands against his face and pulled him in for a kiss. Jack felt a sense of euphoria wash over him as his tongue navigated Kate's mouth. He felt her hand reached out for his back. Jack's body reacted to Kate's cold hands as she caressed his tense muscles. A groan escaped his mouth. He loved Kate so much, and his insides yearned to take their relationship to another level.
"I just want to let it all go." Kate whispered. She bit on the tip of his ear, and then trailed heated kissed downwards to his neck. "I want you to see the real me."
"I've seen the real you," Jack said raising his mouth from hers.
"No, you haven't. I'm not always this empty shell that's in need of saving. I like to laugh sometimes, and have fun…and you've managed to bring that side back out of me." Her hands traced circles across his chest.
Jack ignored the signals his body was sending him and listened to Kate. He cared what she had to say, because his main goal had been to make her happy. A smile crossed his face as he watched her. The firelight from the candles illuminated one side of Kate's features while the other remained in the dark. She was so beautiful. Jack thought mesmerized.
"I want to…" Kate swallowed down a wad of nervousness, and then looked back at Jack for help.
"You want to what?" Jack asked his voice was heavy along with his breaths.
Kate smiled, she shook her head. "Um…just forget it,"
Jack reached for Kate's hands and pulled them behind his head. "I want to get closer to you, but if you don't want to then I…" He looked away nervously and then focused back on Kate.
A devious smile was spreading across her features. Stray strands of her hair danced wildly in the air as she looked down at him. "I think I'm finally ready, are you?"
Jack nodded, "The pillow gave me away huh?"
"Just a little," Kate cupped Jack's chin in her hand and tilted his head upwards so she could have full access to his lips. His hand traveled down her back and he slipped his hand inside her shirt. Kate felt her body grow weak with longing as Jack stroked the skin along her stomach, causing a series of goose bumps to rise . She shivered as his other hand slipped inside her shirt. Jack caressed Kate's sides, and then pulled his hands out so he could hold her.
Kate looked back at him surprised.
Jack leaned forward and traced his mouth against Kate's cheek, and then her lips. "For the record you make me happy too."
Kate grinned and then pressed her lips against Jack's. His breath caught in her throat, but he gave in regardless. Jack raised his leg and Kate propped her arm against it as she sunk in deeper to his kisses.
"We don't have condoms," Jack said against Kate's cheek as she rested her face against his. Her breath against his flushed cheeks sent tremors through Jack's spine.
"We don't, but Sawyer does,"
"How do you know that?"
"I'm guilty of going through his stuff, I was looking for the ring." Kate lied.
Jack stroked Kate's shoulder. "Sawyer will never give one to us, and I'm not going to ask him."
Kate stood up, Jack winced at the loss of her body heat. He reached out for her arm. "I don't want you to ask him either, because he'll want something in return."
"Sawyer's not even here, before I came in the room, Taylor asked him to go to the beach with her and Chloe, so we have the house to ourselves."
Jack sat up with an expression of disbelief. "We have the place to ourselves?"
Kate nodded, "I'm not sure for how long though, but yeah…it's just you and me."
"Hurry back then, I'll be waiting right here for you," Jack replied.
Kate walked through the den first. There were no signs of Taylor, Sawyer or Chloe anywhere. A small part of her was relieved because she really wanted to be alone with Jack. There had been so much tension between them lately, and she needed to be close to him. A smile crossed her face at the thought of how easily Jack's soothing manner had chased away all worries about her nightmare. He just had that affect on her, and that's why she had fallen for him. Kate turned back around to walk towards Taylor's bedroom. She felt happy right now, and she could finally understand why.
Once Kate stepped into the room, she made a straight path for Sawyer's bag. She felt guilty for going through Sawyer's stuff again, but she wasn't going to sleep with Jack without protection. Kate pulled Sawyer's magnum condoms out and took one. Her hands were shaking uncontrollably as she zipped the bag back up and tossed it back under the bed. Kate stood up. She still couldn't believe that tonight she was going to sleep with Jack. Hopefully he wasn't too experienced because she wanted their first time to be special, and the last thing she wanted to do was disappoint him. Kate thought it over as she walked into Taylor's bathroom. Who was she kidding, Jack seemed to be on the same sexual level as her. He seemed to grow timid just at a simple touch.
Kate placed down the condom on the sink, and then stared into the mirror. She took in a deep breath, and then looked back at her reflection hopefully. "After you sleep with him, there's no turning back, you're officially committed and you can't run anymore,"
Kate closed her eyes. She already knew that there was a connection between them, but as far as commitment went she wasn't as attached to Jack as he was to her. Kate leaned closer to the mirror, and ran her hands through her thick russet locks debating whether to keep her hair down or to put it up. Eventually she decided to leave her hair as it was. She scooped the condom off of the counter and then reached for some of Taylor's perfume. Kate felt like she was being foolish, but she wanted so badly for this to be perfect. She needed it to be. Kate squeezed the pump and allowed the mist to drift onto her neck, clothes and her wrist.
Jack fluffed the pillows behind his back and watched the door in anticipation. He looked away nervously because he was eager to sleep with Kate, but yet he didn't want to be too obvious. Clearing his throat, Jack tried to concentrate on something else besides the door. Jack stared around the room, his eyes rested on Kate's journal first. A smile crossed his face at the thought of her writing about him. He knew that if he did carry a journal that she would be on every page. Kate had so many qualities that he loved in which he could write about. His heart started to beat rapidly as the door slowly creaked open. Jack shifted his body sideways, and tried to appear occupied with watching the candles flicker and sway.
Jack could smell the sweet scent of perfume drift towards his nose. Kate smelled so damn good. He rested his arm against his leg which was slightly raised, and turned to look at Kate.
The world stopped as their eyes connected. Shadows from the candles danced on the walls, and Kate was bathed in a warm orange glow. Jack sat up eagerly. He couldn't help but to shake his head in disbelief. After loving her for so long, tonight was finally the night.
Kate looked down and then looked back up. "Could you come over here?"
"Yeah," Jack said quickly. He found himself crawling towards her across the sheets. Nothing else even mattered to him anymore, except for this moment. Once he reached the end of the bed, Jack swung his legs over and he was on the floor standing.
Kate waved the condom in her hand. "Magnum?"
Jack scratched his forehead while he tried desperately to hide the smile that had given him away. "Yeah,"
Kate blushed, she reached out for Jack's arm.
Jack clenched his jaw as Kate pulled him towards her. His eyes closed as Kate traveled her hand down his arm, pausing to place the condom in his outstretched hand. Jack opened his eyes, Kate had already started to kiss him. Her hand was planted against his chest, and he felt himself starting to rise in excitement.
Kate wrapped her arms around Jack's neck and then stood on the tips of her toes to get better access to him.
Jack stumbled backwards as Kate kissed him passionately. She pushed him backwards onto the bed. He stared back at her flustered and needy for more of her contact.
She reached for her hair with one hand and held her thick locks above her head. Jack gripped the sheets as he watched her slowly walk closer to him. She released her hair seconds later. Thick chocolate tresses spilled down her back as she reached for the bottom portion of her shirt.
Jack's mouth dropped as Kate pulled her shirt over her head. A pool of candles surrounded her figure as she swung the shirt over her head. Completely entranced by the sight of Kate's black bra he didn't have a chance to react when her shirt landed on his face. His head tilted back as he inhaled the sweet scent of her perfume. Jack raised his hand and pulled the shirt down to his lap. "Need some help?" He offered in an unsteady tone.
Kate nodded, "Yeah,"
He got back up and walked over to her like a puppy after his owner. Jack traced his hands along Kate's freckled shoulders, and then leaned forward to kiss her neck. She smelled like some exotic flower, and as he inhaled her scent with every kiss, Jack's arousal increased. Kate gripped onto Jack's back and slowly started to walk him towards the bed. He collapsed onto the bed with his arms outstretched. Kate rested her leg against the bed and placed both of her hands on Jack's shoulders. He groaned as she lowered herself onto him. Her skin was sweltering against his own, and every time her hands touched his skin he felt electric shocks zap his flesh.
The wind whistled outside in excitement, and tree branches scraped against the windows.
Jack traced the outline of Kate's shorts, her stomach was firm to the touch. He gave her shorts a gentle tug and started to pull them down her legs. Kate shifted her head to the right and started to side kiss Jack's mouth.
Her eyelashes tickled at his skin, and he started to drift off into another world as he felt Kate pull down his boxers. Jack was now exposed and the only thing that stood between him and Kate was the sexy black panties that fit snugly around her waist. Jack swallowed down a wad of nervousness as he started to slip her panties down. His hazel eyes shifted towards her alluring gaze. "If you don't want to do this then we don't have too." He would wait for Kate forever. Yes, he wanted this, but if Kate didn't, then Jack couldn't enjoy this moment.
Kate remained silent.
Jack felt himself swelling at the feel of Kate against him. "Kate, we don't have too…"
"I need for this to feel real."
Jack clenched his jaw as he looked down. He tried to get up so Kate wouldn't have to watch how excited he was, but Kate planted him firmly against the bed. She drew in a breath and then started to speak.
"I love you Jack, and just the fact that I can admit that aloud without feeling entirely ridiculous speaks volumes, I was unsure about you at first."
Jack placed his hands against Kate's face. He focused on her with a gaze filled with adoration.
"I'm not used to people looking at me like that," Kate confessed with a soft laugh.
"Like what?" Jack asked running his hands through her tousled locks.
"Like that, so in love, like I'm some kind of angel."
"You are," Jack said.
Kate laughed, "Funny,"
"I think so," Jack dropped his arms back down on the cinnamon colored comforter, and tried to ignore the second wave of need and desire washing over his anxious body.
"Maybe we should turn on some music or something just in case we're…"
"Too loud?" Jack finished.
Kate nodded, "Yeah," She crawled off of Jack and sauntered over to the radio. With a gentle flick of her wrist the room was flooded with an instrumental beat. The base bounced off the walls with soft rhythms of drums, harmoniously mixed in with chimes. Kate shrugged, and then walked back over to Jack. She reached for the condom which was still held tightly in his hand. Jack stroked her fingers softly as he opened it.
Kate turned away as Jack slid it on.
The room was engulfed in a sensuous vanilla scent highlighted by a pleasant underlying aroma of gingerbread cookies. Wax dropped onto the sides of the glasses that held the candles, and the fire leaped higher. The window was slightly cracked and a breeze wafted in causing the sapphire colored curtains to billow.
Jack held his breath as he and Kate became one. She gripped onto his arms, and her hands traced along the outer edges of his tattoos. Feelings of emotional ecstasy coursed through his body as he crashed into her. Kate dug her nails into his skin leaving temporary scars the shade of crimson. As he looked up into her eyes flashbacks of times they had spent together raced through his mind. Her mouth lowered over Jack's mouth and she started to kiss him feverishly.
Wax traveled further down the candles. The wind picked up outside and rushed onto their bodies. The beat of the drums picked up in the background and the wind chimes died. A piano intro lapped over the deep beat of the drums, and a soft but yet steady sound of poring rain captured the room.
Kate's hair fell over Jack's face as she leaned forward to kiss him. He felt as if his soul had become one with hers, after all this time, he was finally able to show her just how much he cared. Jack made sure to be gentle with her. A smile crossed his face as he looked back at her. Kate was happy, and his purpose was fulfilled. Jack stroked her face and brought his lips down more firmly on hers.
As Kate kissed him harder and trailed her hands against the outer linings of his muscles, Jack felt his body tighten and grow rigid. Serenity washed over him as he released all of his emotions, disguised in shades of desire, love and care for Kate.
Kate collapsed against Jack's chest. She now smelled strongly of his cologne, and the perfume she wore earlier was mixed in with the beads of sweat along Jack's chest and legs. They struggled to catch their breath, and Kate rolled off of him.
Jack sat up, he rested his elbow against the pillow and smiled back at her.
Kate's cheeks flushed a deep shade of scarlet, "What do you think of me now? Not the same angel anymore huh?"
Jack reached forward to tuck a strand of Kate's unruly hair behind her ear. Candlelight danced across her cheekbones, and illuminated her beautiful smile which Jack barely got the pleasure of seeing so often until now. He then traced his thumb along her lips. "Do you really want me to tell you what I think of you?"
Kate crawled underneath the comforters and nodded.
"I think that I want you to marry me." Jack whispered.
Kate laughed.
"I'm serious, I didn't think it was possible to fall any harder for you, but you proved me wrong. I've never felt the way I do now,"
"Never?" Kate asked.
Jack nodded, "Never," He pulled Kate into his arms and rested his head against her shoulders. "I love you so much it should be a sin."
"You don't want to marry me."
"Yes, I do." Jack said kissing her ear and then her cheek. "I put a lot on the line already, and truthfully I don't want any of it back, all I want is you," He leaned away from Kate and searched her eyes, "And all I could do is hope that you want me just as much."
Tears welled in Kate's eyes as she listened to Jack's incredibly romantic but yet sappy banter. She was scared that sleeping with Jack would cause her to create more distance between them, but he had proved her wrong. Jack had captured her soul and made her feel emotions that she never knew she had. "Jack,"
"Kate," He whispered.
"I want to marry you too…one day."
He placed his hands behind Kate's head and brought her face to his. "Tell me where I stand."
"What?" Kate asked.
Jack bit his lip. "Are we still just friends or…" He looked around the room a couple of candles had been blown out by the wind, but a few still burned with soft yellow halos of light. "Or are we um…together?"
Kate thought it over. Joy washed over her. Her smile spread slowly across her face, and she ran her fingers along the edge of Jack's jaw. "You're mine…and I'm yours."
( So Jack and Kate are finally together, Thanks so much for reviewing Sawyerz babe, Sarah, Angel, Sunny102, Lindsay, Charlielover1313, Orlando-crazy(thankyou for the compliment!) Delee, Rain1657, Oct (Stalker is right, and good guess on the KTKT), Jillian, and Nikki-da-latina, (Your work is so good, are you kidding me? I can't wait to see more.) School is really hectic so I will probably update again next Monday, take care.)