PART 20

When Padme discovered she was pregnant for a second time, she was scared, more scared than she had been when she discovered she was pregnant with Luke and Leia. Becoming a father is what drove Anakin to the dark side, what if Obi-Wan followed in those footsteps? She knew that a Sith lord only took one apprentice, but Obi-Wan had defeated Anakin on Mustafar and would have killed him if it had not been for her pleading for him not to kill her former husband. What if the Emperor wanted to take on Obi-Wan as an apprentice and have Obi-Wan kill Anakin?

She knew she was thinking crazy thoughts, but Anakin's transformation to the dark side was done for love, it wasn't that impossible to think Obi-Wan would do the same. But she also thought to herself, Obi-Wan is not Anakin, Obi-Wan never gave into this fear like Anakin did.

It was all just very scary for her, they were in hiding, constantly on the move, and now she was pregnant again. Her twins weren't even a year old and here she was having another baby.

'What is wrong with me, my legs need to be sewn together' she thought to herself.

'I did exactly what Owen Lars said I was going to do, give up my children and start a new family with Obi-Wan.'

She felt like she had betrayed her children and Anakin.

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She wanted to hold off telling Obi-Wan for as long as she could, but as long as she could only ended up being two weeks. He sensed the tension in her and often questioned her about it, she would shake it off by saying it was just nerves. Then the morning sickness came on, when she rushed into the bathroom vomiting he had come in with a concerned look on his face.

"If you are sick I can stay home from work today if you want me to."

She couldn't lie to him; he was going to figure it out eventually, "I'm not sick."

"What is it, you're hands are shaking."

She stood there looking at him for a moment then said, "I'm pregnant."

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He didn't respond, he just stood there running his hand over his face. She came closer, but then he turned away with his back towards her he said, "How long have you known?"

"Two weeks ago."

He spun around quickly, "Two weeks! And as usual you couldn't talk to me about it right! I sensed something was troubling you and yet again you don't confide in me, you didn't confide in me about giving up Luke and Leia and now you hold off telling me I'm going to be a father."

She slapped him across the face, twice. "You don't understand at all, I felt I couldn't tell you, I was scared, I don't want to lose you."

"I'm not going to leave you Padme, I told Master Yoda that was not an option and I gave my word, you know I don't go back on my word. You know me better than to think I would leave you, how could you possibly think I would abandon you and my child?"

"It's not that, I worry you'll try to save me like Anakin did and look how that turned out."

He sighed then came over to her and put his arms around her. At first she stood not returning the embrace then she finally put her arms around his neck. He buried his face in her neck and said softly in her ear, "I'm sorry, I know you are scared, but I'll never turn to the dark side, never."

"What are we going to do?" she looked up at him with pleading eyes. She had said the same exact thing to Anakin she realized.

"I am worried, this changes the situation, I think we should leave Yavin 4, we can trade in another ship and leave tonight."

"I'm sorry you are not happy about the baby Obi-Wan."

"Oh Padme" he said as he led her over to sit down on the bed. He kissed her hands and held them tightly. "You don't know how happy I am to be a father. I never thought I'd be one, I thought being Anakin's Master was the closest I'd get to being a father. Then when I was with Luke and Leia, I learned what it was like to be a father. I never thought I'd get a second chance at it. The selfish part of me wanted this to happen."

"I do want this baby, it's just……"

"Your heart aches for the twins" he said caressing her face.

"I feel like I am betraying them somehow, the twins and Anakin, this baby won't take away the void in my heart."

"You are not betraying them Padme, I know things will never be the same again, I miss them too."

"I am happy to be a mother again, and scared too."

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Obi-Wan decided to go the Dagobah system and see Master Yoda, he needed his guidance. He contacted his former Master right as they were coming out of hyperspace.

"Something has happened Obi-Wan."

"Yes Master, but I prefer to wait till we have landed to talk with you about it."

"Expect you soon, I will."

When they landed, Padme decided to stay on the ship with R2 and Threepio while Obi-Wan went to talk with Yoda.

"Thought you were going to stay on Yavin 4 longer Obi-Wan."

"I was Master, but our situation has changed, Padme is pregnant."

"Unexpected this is; and unfortunate."

"Unfortunate that the woman I love is carrying my child?"

"You are letting passion take control of your destiny Obi-Wan."

"Master Yoda, I love Padme, my love for her has changed me, we want this child, being with her is my destiny. I am no longer just a Jedi, I am a man who is in love, so in love that yes, I did get her pregnant, it wasn't planned but we both want this baby."

"Understand I do, agree with your choices I do not! Marry the senator you should not have done."

"I came here because I need your guidance, please Master Yoda."

"Meditate on this I will, go back to the ship and wait."

When Obi-Wan got back to the ship, Padme was preparing dinner.

"I thought you might be hungry when you got back."

"Thank you, but it's really me who should be doing things for you, I'm sure you are exhausted."

"Nonsense, I'm not too tired to feed my husband." She noticed his sadness and walked over to him and took his hand.

She sat him down and started massaging his shoulders; he leaned back as her soft hands made its way down his back. He grabbed her arm and pulled her in front of him; he sat her down on his lap and squeezed her tight never wanting to let her go.