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A/N: This all started by me saying, 'she hates what she has become'
She Hates What She Has Become
She hates what she has become.
The day Tommy left he took a piece of her with him and now she is just a shell of who she used to be. Fragile on the outside. Nothing on the inside.
She hates what she has become.
She cannot go back to how she used to be, she does not remember those days when she was happy, those days are just a distant memory.
She hates what she has become.
She wants to be happy again, she just does not know how. She would give anything just to enjoy life again. Anything.
She hates what she has become.
Then she realizes something. She does not deserve to be happy. She deserved to be thrown away like she was. She must have done something. It must have been her fault. It had to be her fault.
She hates what she has become.
She does not write anymore, she cannot. She cannot perform. All the things she used to love do not matter to her anymore. Nothing matters.
She hates what she has become.
Maybe one day she will get that piece of her back.
Maybe one day she will remember who she used to be.
Maybe one day she will enjoy life again.
Maybe one day she will realize it was not her fault he left.
Maybe one day she will write again.
Maybe one day she will perform again.
Maybe one day she will realize all the things she used to love still matter to her.
Maybe one day she will be Jude Harrison again.
But maybe all these 'maybes' will never come true.
Maybe she will never get that missing piece back.
Maybe she will never remember her old self.
Maybe she will never enjoy life again.
Maybe she will never realize it was not her fault.
Maybe she will never write again.
Maybe she will never perform again.
Maybe she will never love the things she used to love.
Maybe she will never be Jude Harrison again.
She may not know how her future is going to turn out, but she knows one thing . . .
Right now . . .
She hates what she has become.
-The End-