Hey guys. Okay, I'm sorry I didn't get this out earlier. Okay, since my chapters were so short, I put THREE together. LOL. This story is gonna be quite short b/c I keep putting them together, but oh well. LOL. I hope this isn't too disappointing for ya: ) So...here it. Enjoy!

Chapter 5

Flashback...

"God Tommy! How could you do this to me, huh?" Jude stormed out of G Major, Tommy close behind. "I didn't babe, it wasn't what it looked like!" Jude laughed at his comment. "Oh yeah Tommy. I didn't just see you kissing Portia, you know...your ex-wife! You two making out when you're supposed to be with me!" Tommy, by now, was furious. "Jude I'm sorry! She just kissed me and I didn't know how to react! I was gonna pull away! Why can't you believe me!" Jude looked up at him, her eyes watery. "Sadie was right...you haven't changed at all!" With that Jude got into her Mustang and drove to her studio.

Three days later, Jude was sitting in her studio, crying silently to herself. I miss him so much! But how could he do that to me? He actually kissed someone else? But why? I thought we were good! "Jude?" Her thoughts were interrupted by a voice at the door. "Oh...hey Speed." Jude tried to wipe away her tears but Speed saw them. "Dude, what's wrong?" Jude broke down and told him everything. "I just...I need to ..." Jude looked at Speed and kissed her with all the anger and hurt she held inside. Speed lost all train of thought and intensified the kiss. Jude pushed Speed down on the couch...

Tommy ran inside of G Major. The three days away did no good for him. "Portia! Portia!" Portia walked out of Darius' office. "Tom, what's wrong?" Tommy was furious once again. "HOw could you do this to me and Jude? Huh? You have to fix this! Please!

"Tommy I---"

"No! Portia, you need to tell what really happened. I didn't kiss you! You kissed me! Tell her!" Portia sighed. "Okay, I'll tell her...you really like her don't you?" Tommy shook his head at her. "No...I don't really like her! I LOVE her!" Portia stood there, mouth agap.

"Speed, we can't do this. It's wrong. I have to go." Jude got up, slipped on her shirt, and left Speed alone. She had almost done it. Almost. Guilt rose in her chest as she realized that she cheated on Tommy. She felt disgusted. First she hated Tommy because he cheated on her, but she went and did the exact same thing. It was all too overwhelming for her right now. She had to get away…fast! Jude packed her stuff, and headed out to her car.

Tommy had broken down completely. How could she leave him? Why? Why would she leave? Yes, they got in a fight, but it could have been worked out...but she ran away...she disappeared...

End Flashback...

"Say something!" Jude demanded. She began crying, and expected him to just up and leave. "You...you slept with Speed?" His voice was low. "No! I almost did. ALMOST! I didn't go all the way. I couldn't. You just, you had kissed Portia…I was upset…I didn't…" Tommy just looked at her.

"So...what happened?" Tommy asked. "Well...I left. When I got here, I moved in with Katie. We became great friends…I was so scared to go back Tommy. I knew you'd hate—"

"Jude, I could never hate you." Jude's eyes teared up. "Jude, I'm so sorry that all this happened. I'm sorry that I kissed Porshia, that…"

"No! Don't! You deserve so much better than me! What I did was so wrong…you have no idea. I messed up, big time! I almost slept with Speed when we were in a fight; I cheated on you, and ran away from it all. Tommy, I just want you to know...I loved you...so much!" Jude's eyes teared up and her cheeks began to get wet with free-flowing tears. "I loved you so much! I couldn't believe what I had done! I still...I still care about you. ALOT! I've missed you so much these past couple of years. All I've wanted to do, every night, is hold you next to me. I would dream that this all didn't happen and you'd be mine. But I'd wake up and reality would hit me. I screwed up! And I don't deserve an apology, or forgiveness. That's what you deserve. I'm so sorry, Tommy. I ruined everything. I'm so sorry!" Jude broke down crying. People began staring so Tommy picked Jude up, who was still crying hysterically, and brought her to his car. Setting her in the passenger seat, he kneeled on the ground and held her while she cried. "Shh, it's okay. It's okay. Don't cry, I'm right here." Tommy whispered soothing words into her ear, while she sobbed into his chest.

An hour later, Jude was sitting on a hotel bed. It was Tommy's room. There was a small bed in the middle of the room with a dresser and TV in front of it. A chair and desk sat diagonally from the bed. The bathroom was to the right. That's where Tommy was at the moment. The bathroom. The toilet flushed and Tommy walked out. "Tommy...you don't have to do this for me." Tommy sat next to Jude. "Yeah, I do." Jude looked down at her hands, and suddenly felt a major headache coming on. "Oh my gosh! Tommy, could you hand me my purse?" Tommy got up, grabbed Jude's purse, and handed it to her. While Jude was searching for some asprin, many things fell out of her purse. Tommy picked up a piece of paper and unfolded it. He looked at it and smiled. "You have this...in your purse?" Jude looked up from what she was doing and looked up at what Tommy was holding. It brought a smile to her face. It was a picture of her and Tommy. "Yeah...do you remember when that was taken?" Tommy thought for a moment and smiled at the memory. "Yeah...we were working on a song for your album. Not Standing Around. Everyone came to your new studio and we had a blast."

"Yeah, and then we went onto the balcony stair thing and talked. Someone must have taken it without us knowing." In the picture, Jude and Tommy were looking at each other with nothing but love in their eyes. "Jude...?"

"Yeah Tommy?" They stared at each other for a minute. Tommy lost his nerve. "Never mind..." Jude looked down. She gathered her things and headed for the door. "Tommy...I'm a big screw up. If closure is what you were looking for, you got it! I practically slept with someone and ran away. My life has been crap since I left, but I figured it was for the better. I don't deserve you trying to be my friend. I hurt you...I feel like crap about it. I'm sorry…for everything, but I don't deserve what you're doing. I deserve to be forgotten." Jude went to open the door but Tommy's voice stopped her. "Wait! Jude...I..."

"I…" Tommy couldn't find the right words. "Uh, never mind." Jude looked at him strange. That was the second time he did that. "Uh…okay." Jude turned around and walked out of the building.

"Kwest! Kwest, where is Speed?" Tommy walked into G Major. It had just been two days ago that he had arrived in New York. Now he was back in town for a surprise visit. He and Jude didn't talk a lot after that night at dinner. "He's in Studio A…why? T, man what's up?" Kwest could tell something was wrong. He had never seen Tommy this angry before. Tommy didn't answer his question; instead, he ran towards the studio door, turning redder by the minute. Opening the door, he saw Speed sitting on the couch strumming his guitar. "What were you thinking!" Tommy yelled. Speed was confused at his sudden outburst. "What are you talking about man?" Tommy turned even redder. "You know EXACTLY what I'm talking about! She was hurting! She was hurting and you took advantage of her! How dare you!" Speed thought about what he was talking about. "Oh…you mean that." Speed threw a smile on his face. "Man, she backed off. Nothing happened…unfortunately. She was too wrapped up in you. But if she hadn't walked…"

"You would have done it!" Speed became angry. "Yeah! Then I would have dumped her. Used her. Just like she used me to get her mind off you!" That was it! Tommy lunged forward, and tackled Speed to the ground. "You little jerk!" After hitting Speed multiple times, he got up and looked down on the floor. Speed was sitting there, blood coming out of his nose and mouth. Kwest ran in and saw Speed. He instantly knew what had happened. "Man Tommy, what are you doing?" Tommy let out a little laugh. "He got what he deserved." He said. With that, Tommy walked out of the building.

"He what!" Jude screamed into the telephone. The next thing she knew was her hanging up, and opening the door, which had been knocked upon earlier. "Tommy! Just the man I was looking for!" Tommy stepped inside the house. "What are you talking about?"

"I just got a call from Kwest, stating that just three days ago you beat the crap out of Speed…care to explain?" Tommy's face turned red at the thought of him. "He deserved it! I asked him about you and what happened—"

"HOW DARE YOU! How dare you ask about what happened!"

"I just wanted to know why he—"

"You know what? I don't want to hear your sorry excuses for what you did! Now leave!" Tommy stared at her shocked. "First of all, of what I did? Jude, you cheated on me with Speed and then ran off because you were scared of the consequences. I was hoping we could work things out but I guess not huh?" Tommy headed towards the door, but stopped with his hand on the knob. "Oh, and just so you know. Speiderman told me that he would have used you. If you never left, he would have used you: done it then left. I'm so sorry for caring about you! Please, forgive me!" He said the last two sentences, sarcasm dripping every word. He left the house, leaving a bewildered Jude standing in awe in the middle of her home. "He wanted to use me?" She said quietly.

I know I know, pathetic right? I'm sorry! I tried. LOL. I hope you guys liked it! Review please! Let me know what you think. I don't mind getting bad reviews, it helps my writing! So come on! You've read it, now review: )