Beautiful Disaster

Chapter:5

Pairing: Robert/Holly

Rating: PG

"I don't know Tiffany." Holly replied. "I'm not sure it's a good idea."

"Holly." she sighed. "I'm coming over there to talk some sense into you."

"I don't think it's going to work."

"Don't go anywhere." Tiffany told her. "I'll be right over.

"Fine." Holly agreed as she hung up the phone. She placed the lid back on the cookie jar and left the kitchen, heading upstairs to the master bedroom. After shedding her dress she made her way over to the closet determined to find something that actually fit her expanding form without showing it. It was impossible. The dress she took off and the outfit she wore the day before were the only ones that did the trick.

"Dammit!" she swore. "Nothing fits."

Finally giving up she shut the closet door and walked over to the dresser, grabbing a nightgown from the top drawer and slipping it on. It was a snug fit but at this point it really didn't matter, the only person that was going to see her was Tiffany anyway. Holly made her way back down the stairs and into the kitchen retrieving a glass of milk and the cookie jar. She flipped through the television channels as she waited.

The doorbell rang just as she got engrossed in an episode of Are You Being Served, reluctantly she turned off the television and got up to open the door. "Come on in, Tiffany."

Tiffany came sashaying in with her overnight bag. "I hope you don't mind, but Sean is working on a case and I didn't want to be by myself again tonight."

Holly closed and locked the door behind her. "Was it that or do you plan on talking my ear off all night about doing the right thing?"

She smiled as she dropped her bag beside the sofa. "Both." she answered as she looked Holly over. "Aren't you cute." she said, gently placing her hand over the noticeable bump in Holly's stomach. "I didn't know you were showing." she said as she moved her hand. "When did that happen?"

"A few weeks ago." Holly replied as she sat down. "I'm in panic mode because nothing fits and I don't want the whole world knowing about this. Not just yet anyway."

Tiffany sat down beside her. "Well, now we have something on the schedule for tomorrow."

"What's that?"

"We're going to go into the city and shop for maternity clothes, right after you tell Robert that he's about to become a father again."

"Nice try, Tiff." she sighed.

"Holly, you have to tell him."

"You keep saying that."

"That's because I want it to sink into your thick skull." she said as she reached into the cookie jar. "Have you had dinner?" she asked taking a bite of the cookie.

"Yes." Holly answered. "I had about two dozen cookies."

"We'll order Chinese." Tiffany told her. "Now, about the Robert thing..."

"Can we not talk about that right now?" she asked.

"No." Tiffany said firmly.

"He said it was a mistake."

"Yeah, honey, but he didn't know about the baby." she pointed out. "I'm sure that if you would have told him..."

"What difference does it make if I tell him or not?" Holly asked. "He'll still go on his wild goose chase looking for Anna and Faison."

"He'd want to be here with you."

"Maybe." she breathed. "I don't know, I don't Robert to feel obligated. If he stays here because of the baby and doesn't go search for Anna he may regret it for the rest of his life. He thinks that finding Anna will be his redemption and he doesn't want Robin to grow up without her mother."

"But yet you're willing to let this baby grow up without it's father."

"No, I just don't want to be the reason Robert spends the rest of his life regretting not trying to find Anna."

"But, Holly, Anna's dead." Tiffany told her. "There's no way she survived that explosion and Robert continuing to search for her isn't going to do anyone any good, especially him."

"I know that Anna's dead and you know that Anna's dead but Robert just won't accept the truth, not until he's ready anyway."

"You have to tell him that you're pregnant before he leaves again."

"I can't." she replied softly. "I can't be the reason he spends the rest of his life wondering what if."

"So you're just going sit back and do nothing while he leaves to play in the jungle?" Tiffany asked. "What happens when he returns? Are you going to introduce him to his child? Or are you going to lie and say it belongs to someone else?"

"I haven't thought that far ahead."

"Holly, you're not thinking rationally here. You can't keep this from Robert."

"I love him so much, Tiffany." she whispered. "And I really want to tell him, but if I do it would only make me selfish."

"Why would it make you selfish?"

"Because I want to be with Robert, I want us to be a family along with Robin." she replied, on the verge of tears. "But I'm afraid he'll reject the idea and I'm not sure I could handle that."

"Oh, Holly." she said softly. "Robert loves you and he'll love this baby too. You have to tell him." she grabbed the phone off the cocktail table and handed it to Holly. "If you don't call and tell him, I will." she threatened.

"You won't?" she challenged.

Tiffany began dialing Mac's number. "I'm going to tell him."

Holly took the phone out of her hand. "Alright." she agreed. "I'll ask him to meet me on the pier."

tbc...