Beautiful Disaster

Chapter: 14

Pairing: Robert\Holly Scorpio

Rating: PG

"Isn't that what you want?" Holly asked.

"Holly, I want you to tell me what you want." he told her. "You obviously had your own plans for the future. Have they changed now that I'm here?"

"My plans for the future always included you." she said softly. "You were always a major factor. How could you not be? You're the father of my child."

"So you planned to share joint custody?" he asked.

"No." she answered honestly.

"No?" Robert questioned. "I thought you said that I was a major factor in your decisions?"

"You were." she answered. "You are."

He felt as if he was going in circles. "Holly, what does that mean?"

"I always thought that we would be raising the baby together."

"Together?"

Holly nodded. "As a family." she clarified.

Robert was taken aback. "Oh." he sighed. "I didn't realize that you wanted to..."

"You don't want to?"

"I don't know." he answered honestly. "So many things have happened since we were married."

"I'm still your wife." she reminded him.

"Technically." he replied. "But we haven't been together in years Holly. We've both changed so much."

"That didn't stop you from going back to Anna after all those years." she pointed out. "Is the love you shared with Anna really greater than the love you shared with me?"

"No!" he replied. "It's just that we're not the same people we were back then. Circumstances have changed us. We just can't pick up where we left off and expect things to be the same."

"You didn't mind picking up where we left off that night in April." she snapped and immediately regretted it. "I'm sorry." she apologized. "You didn't deserve that."

"Maybe I did." Robert told her. "I was so confused that night. I was doubting everything from my ability to protect the mother of my daughter to my professionalism when it came to Faison. I didn't think I could live with myself knowing that I had let Robin down. I just wanted to numb the pain, but it didn't work. So I went to the one person who I knew could make everything better. I didn't come to you with anything in mind, Holly, but I don't regret the fact that we made love. Even if we weren't expecting this baby I still wouldn't regret it."

"So where does that leave us Robert?" she asked.

"I'm not sure."

"I know that we're in this entire mess because of my actions, but I can't change the past." she told him. "My family should have told you about my accident but they didn't. I should have told you about the baby the moment I saw you, but I didn't. I realized that I've made mistakes and I know that you're faith in me has been shaken and rightfully so. But if there's one thing I've learnt from all this is that you can't live in the past, it doesn't work believe me I've tried. I want to move forward. I want to raise my child in a warm, loving, safe environment and I honestly believe that you and I can provide that. And not just for the baby, but for Robin as well."

"Holly, I want nothing more than to move forward and plan a future." he replied. "And I think that if we move slowly and take things one day at a time everything will work out in the end just the way it is suppose to."

Holly nodded silently. She wanted so much to tell Robert that she loved him, that she never stopped loving him and that he would be the only man she would ever love, but she couldn't because the fear of him not saying it back scared her more than anything in the world. After everything she had done she was surprised that he didn't completely hate her. She wanted nothing more than to be his wife, not technically either, and the mother of his children.

"You should get some sleep." he suggested.

"Okay." she agreed, laying back against the pillows.

Robert pulled the blankets up around her. "Goodnight, Holly." he whispered as he turned off the lamp and then slipped out of the room. He made his way down the hallway and into his daughter's room.

"You're up." he commented.

"I heard Holly screaming." she told him. "Is she alright?"

Robert made his way inside Robin's room. "She just had a bad dream that's all." he replied. "She's fine."

"Are you going to be staying here with us or are you going to go back to live with Uncle Mac?" she asked.

Robert took a seat on the edge of her bed. "Well, tonight was a one time kinda thing."

"I guess that means you won't be staying here."

"That's right." he replied. "And now that I'm back you'll be coming with me."

"Why?" Robin asked. "I like it here. I don't wanna leave."

"Sweetheart, this is Holly's house, not ours." he reminded her. "Your living here was only temporary."

"Well I'm not moving." she announced. "And you can't make me."

tbc...