Chapter Seven – Angels Would Fall

He held his breath, he looked into Jesse; he couldn't believe this was happing. Jesse's hands felt up his arms, and around his chest, and onto his back, Chris looked up still not breathing started to wrap his arms around his best friend, his newly boyfriend, his possible soul mate. Everything about this moment was perfect, Chris felt his pulse begin to increase, his heart beat pounded in his ears he looked into Jesse; his stomach was going crazy, but in a good way.

Jesse was so amazed at all of this, he couldn't have been more nervous he looked into those Green eyes, and his heart beat began to increase; it was going to happen.

The two of them closed each others eyes, and Chris' lips touched Jesse's lips; time instantly stopped. Jesse's hold on Chris became tighter, and they kissed. Chris broke off the kiss but only moved his lips from Jesse's lips only slightly. He opened his eyes and saw Jesse opened his, they both smiled at each other; Chris jerked his head to one side and closed his eyes. They kissed once more. Chris' eyes rolled back into his head, he breathed; everything about this was perfect.

Jesse's hands remained on Chris' back and he moved his left hand up behind Chris' head and held it in almost into position and they he felt the feeling that he was weightless, that they weren't on the ground. He never knew Chris was this great of kisser, out of all the girls he had kissed; Chris blew him away. Chris felt Jesse's hands on the back of his head, he held Jesse ever so more tightly, how much of an amazing kisser Jesse was. He moved his lips off Jesse and put his forehead against him and kept his eyes closed. Jesse's breath was hard and rushed as Chris' was.

"What took you so long?" Jesse asked.

"I was waiting for you." Chris replied, and he began to step back, and pulling Jesse with him, until he felt his legs go against his bed; he sat down bringing Jesse with him. Jesse laid on top of Chris, they kissed again.

Chris felt heaven in his arms, he'd never felt anything so good and so pure before; his broken heart from his life needed this. He expected Jesse to feel heavy on his body but it didn't, in fact it didn't bother him at all. Out of all the times that he had dreamed and hoped for this moment it was finally coming true, he never wanted to let him go; he prayed for this instance to last forever. His chest had an unusual in it, he wasn't sure was; he wanted to say that his heart was almost hurting. The more he felt Jesse in his arms and kissing him, the more he felt the feeling becoming more and more, what was this feeling in his chest? He always kind of felt it in his stomach, but his stomach wasn't feeling it, it was heart. He then figured it out, he figured out; his heart was healing. Love.

Jesse laid on top of Chris, still holding him tight, kissing him, breathing him. He was hurting as much as Chris, and out of all the time that he was falling for Chris, it was now if the ground beneath him was gone and he was falling forever for him. He never felt so pure and good; he didn't care about Chris' past, he knew everyone messes up in their lives and they are given second chances. He felt something in chest spark in his heart, he wasn't having a heart attack was he? But he didn't care he kept kissing him. He wasn't sure what this was, but he loved it and he would do anything to make this moment last forever, he prayed to God for this never to end. He was meant for Chris, he was made for him he knew that for sure; and Chris knew it too.

Slowly, Chris tongue massaged the top of Jesse's mouth and he let go, but keeping his arms around Chris. He opened his eyes, Jesse still had his eyes closed but he had a look of pure ecstasy on his face. Chris watched him, he was memorized with Jesse, as if he would never grow tired of him. He watched as Jesse opened his eyes and looked down into Chris. Jesse smiled and was speechless. Chris smiled back and moved one of his hands from Jesse' back and up behind his head; scratching and massaging it. Jesse loved it.

"If you keep that up, I am going to fall asleep." Jesse said smiling. Chris smiled back.

"And that is bad how?"

Jesse laughed, "I don't know. All I know is that if everyone knew you, and this moment, and how pure you are and how good you are, Angels would fall from the sky to rejoice with you."

Chris thought about it, he looked into Jesse as if he was looking into the deepest parts of his soul, Angels, Ironic isn't it? He thought, Ironic to the fact that I was half angel.

"Jess," Chris began, "Can I ask you something?"

"Please." He replied.

"You know my past, my flaws, but why? Why are you doing this?"

Jesse smiled, he expected this. He moved one of his hands from under Chris and put it on his chest, on top of his heart. The thumbing under his palm was more then he needed to know.

"You know what I am feeling right now?" Jesse asked.

"What?"

"I feel the heart of a person who is hurting and someone who has demons so cruel and so full of hate, that fighting alone is wrong. You've fought for as long as you can, and you are so honorable for it. Everyone makes mistakes Chris, and I am so sorry for the hurt you have, but I want to help you; be with you. The love I have you Chris, is so much more then any demon can take away; I will fight along with you. I want to fight with you, cause you are the key to my perfection and I am not letting it go, I will always be with you, and find you."

Chris's eyes felt like they could have shot out of their sockets, and pushed Jesse up and sat on his bed; nearly pushing Jesse off the bed. He sat on the bed, thinking about what all that was just said to him.

"What?" Jesse said feeling scared, "I am sorry – I didn't-"

"Shut up, please!" Chris said closing his eyes. His heart was leaping, it was craving for more, and wouldn't let Chris have a word. He tried to stop his heart from speaking, cause he needed to think, the more he thought about the more his heart screamed into his head. He couldn't shut his heart up, he knew he needed Jesse, he wanted to stop fighting. He had fought too long, but he felt like screaming. He wanted to go, but his heart pinned him down. Don't be scared! His heart said into his head, was his heart actually speaking to him or was he going crazy? He just stopped and listened. Okay you stupid fool time for you to shut up and listen to someone with sense, you are broken. You are the one who has stopped yourself from everything and now you have the option of being happy, of being whole and he's sitting right next you. So embrace him, embrace the fact that you love him. Love, big word isn't it idiot; admit it you love him! You have always loved him! And now you have within in your hands to love, and the ability to love him. Let me heal, let me love beyond Wyatt, Mom, and Dad. Please, help yourself. Its time Christopher, let Cupids arrow works its magic. Let him fight with you, as he said, your tired the demons are too numerous. Love him.

Chris looked down at his hands and saw that they were shaking and they were sweaty.

"Chris." Jesse said, looking at him. "What's wrong."

Chris looked up and looked at Jesse, his friend then looked so much different from all the times that he saw him. He looked stronger then ever, he looked serious, he looked perfect. He saw a warrior, an angel, he couldn't help the emotion he had for him.

"Jess," Chris said looking back at his hands.

"Yes." He replied.

"What you said,"

"I meant it all."

"Really?"

Jesse took Chris' hand. "Look at me." He felt strong, he felt like if anything or anyone came between them he could take them down like nothing.

Chris breathed deeply and looked up, he looked deep into the blue eyes; he saw a place of pure happiness that he hasn't see in such a very long time. "When you said, that you have a love for me – does that mean you love me."

"I've never had feelings for anyone like I have for you." Jesse said, "I feel so perfect and so whole when I am with you, like nothing in the world can do me wrong. Please Christopher, please. I love you." Jesse's grip on Chris' hand tightened he had to hold it in, the love he had was more then anything he had felt before.

"I am scared." Chris said.

"Why?"

"I've been hurt so many times, that can I truly trust you?"

"I will never hurt you, and please trust me, please. I love you, Christopher, please see that I've never loved anymore before, except my parents."

Chris then felt as if all the voices inside of him, were silent; everything stopped, he held his emotion inside. "I trust you." He said, "I love you, Jesse. I love you so much." He watched as a smile appeared on Jesse's face.

"Really?" He asked.

"Really." Chris said back smiling. "I love you." His smile was so big he'd never felt this much happiness or this much love in such a long time. Before he knew it, Jesse was kissing him. He was perfect, he was whole, he felt his first love.

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The hours that followed Chris laid with Jesse on his bed, they just hugged each other as if they were never let go. Wyatt brought Pizza up to them, but the emotional high they were both on it was more satisfying than Pizza could ever be. As Jesse's head rested on Chris' chest, Jesse loved hearing his heart beat, and hearing him breathe. But Chris' looked over at the clock, he saw how late it was.

11:14 PM

Chris gasped, their exam, their studying it never happened. "Jesse!" He yelled.

"What?" Jesse said.

"Our exam, we never studied!"

"What time is it?" Jesse asked getting up alarmed.

"Eleven, fourteen."

"Oh man! I got to get going!"

"Go!" Chris said. They quickly got Jesses things together. "Here take my notes so you can finish copying them."

"Thank you!" Jesse said.

Chris opened his bedroom door and they ran down the stairs and down the foyer. Chris saw Wyatt out of the corner of his eye reading a book. Wyatt looked mildly surprised to see Chris running down the stairs, and with Jesse at top speed. They opened the big oak doors of the manor and flew out of them.

"Study hard okay, I'll see you tomorrow."

"Walk me to school okay?" Jesse said

"I'll be at your house at six thirty."

"Great, bye!" Jesse said running down the stone stairs, but then as Chris was turning to go back into the house. "Wait!" He heard, as Chris turned, he was embraced by Jesse. Chris wrapped his arms around Jesse, and Jesse around him. They kissed for a few moments, before Jesse let go.

"Love you." He said.

"Love you too," Chris said in a whisper holding him tight.

"See you tomorrow." Jesse let go, and ran down the steps. Chris watched Jesse run down the steps and down the street. Chris turned and walked back into the manor, and he walked aimlessly into the foyer and leaned against a wall, looking at Wyatt.

"Mom home yet?" Chris asked.

"Not yet, she and Phoebe are going to be a while. But Dad is in his room." Wyatt replied looking up from his book.

"Okay, awesome." Chris said with a smile, as he walked back to the stairs. Wyatt watched, was Chris actually smiling? He got up and walked over into the foyer and saw Chris was slowly walking up stairs with the same smile on his face. He leaned against the wall until his little brother looked over.

"So, tell me what happened." Wyatt asked, with a smile on his own face.

"Sorry, I don't kiss and tell." With that Chris walked up stairs.