Disclaimer: Kingdom Hearts is something I don't own. (nods)
Word Count: 2195 (not too shabby)
A/N: Well there you have it, yet another chapter. I've got to say I've been having fun with this story. Thanks for all the support you guys! I really appreciate it!
It's Okay to be Gay
When Monday finally rolled around, Sora was the first up. He checked all his shower supplies, making sure to grab a towel. He learned his lesson already. All he could think about after the dance was Riku. Not really just Riku, but what he thought about Riku. It made him nervous and excited at the same time. He finally found someone he liked.
The downside, it was a guy. He liked a guy when he had previously thought he was as straight as an arrow. Or any object that was straight really...it didn't have to be an arrow. He finally decided that he was just going to have to deal with the new things he learned about himself. No one else had to know. Well Roxas might know...
He cursed as he nearly put the body wash in his hair, instead of his shampoo. Okay...just gotta get myself together. How am I going to last the rest of the year without Riku finding out? Oh god, what if I say something in my sleep?
He heard the shower turn on next to him. Washing the rest of the body wash off, he tried not to think about what was going on in the other shower stall. He quickly got dressed, and headed back to the room. Once Riku showed up, they went down to breakfast before class. So far so good.
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As Sora walked from one class to another, he thought about how he felt a little like a robot. He didn't really have to think about where he had to go anymore. His feet just kind of moved him from one destination to another, like some kind of program, and before he knew it he would be sitting in his usual desk.
Riku would be sitting behind him, like always. Sora wondered what was in all those notes that Riku and Axel were always passing back and forth. It seemed like there were more of them today in Government. He just let it slide by again. Riku probably just needs someone to talk to other than himself. Still...Axel did look rather smug about something...
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Sora was glad they were in Study Hall. That meant the day was halfway over. Everything had been going great, until his thoughts drifted back to the guy behind him. How could he have a crush on his best friend? That was just...wrong.
Riku stretched his legs out from under the desk. One of his shoes was touching the side of Sora's leg. Sora decided to ignore it for the moment, and finish copying down his notes.
He tried to ignore it anyway. There was a voice that kept nagging him at the back of his head. 'You're enjoying this aren't you? Having his shoe touch your leg.' 'What? No of course not, it's Riku. He is just my friend.' 'But you want more don't you? You're gay Sora, don't fight it. I wouldn't tell Riku though...He would probably never talk to you again.' 'No, I'm not gay. I like girls. Of course I do.' 'Oh really? Name one girl you would like to be with.' 'Erm...' 'Exactly.' 'So I'm gay okay! I give up, I'm not fighting it anymore!' His little self argument ended leaving a blank look on Sora's face.
"Sora?" He looked up to see Riku standing by his desk. "Class is over..." "Erm...yea, okay." "You seem more distracted than usual..." "Heh." Great now he is going to be worried about me. And more observant that normal.
Sora looked down the hallway to see an interesting site. Axel and Roxas were looking rather friendly. Sora felt a blush develop on his face. He hated that about himself. Why couldn't he control himself better? Riku laughed. "You better get used to it Sora. Those two, I think are going to last."
Sora continued walking, not wanting to be late to class. He still had his record to look after. He still hadn't missed a class that year. "Riku?" "Yea?" "I'm glad we came here." Riku nodded before entering the classroom, seemingly forgetting about Sora's spacey behavior of the day.
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After class ended, Roxas managed to catch Sora in the hallway. This time he was completely Axel-less. "Long time no see." Roxas was grinning like a jaybird. "Yea, well I got lucky and found a time consumer." Sora laughed hesitantly. Trying not to think of what exactly they did to consume that time. "So what brings you down here?" Roxas crossed his arms before preceding. "Since you helped me so much, I wanted to return the favor." Sora scratched his head, trying to remember exactly how he had helped the boy. Yup, he was drawing a blank.
"I think he feels the same way." "Huh? Who? What?" Roxas laughed. "And people say I'm slow." "Heh?" "Have you ever noticed the way he looks at you? There's got to be something there." "Riku?" Sora asked as if it must have been a joke. Or something he misheard. "I never said anything cause I thought it might freak you out. But after seeing the way you were drooling at the dance..." Quick think of something! Change the subject. 3...2...1..."Please don't tell anyone." Kaboom! Nice one, now you have admitted to erm...Curiosity was clearly written all over Roxas' face. "Okaaaay. Maybe you should talk to him about it though...Just something to think about."
Talk to him about it! That's the craziest idea Sora ever heard. Riku would never want anything to do with him again. "Come on Sora. It is kind of obvious. You like him, and he likes you. Your just both too ignorant to bring it out in the open." Ignorant? Psh. "Remember the first time the four of us were together?" Roxas began to laugh. "Riku would have passed through you, if he pressed his body any closer to yours."
Sora's face began to turn red. He really wished he could control that somehow. "And you practically melted into it." Sora couldn't believe what he was hearing. Was this the same shy Roxas he met earlier that year? What did Axel do to him? Roxas grinned and walked away. They had reached the door to Sora's room.
Sora never really thought about all those times Riku put an arm around his shoulder or ran his hand through his hair. Now he seemed conscious of everything Riku did. He felt a sinking feeling in his heart, as he remembered that Riku once had a girlfriend. How could things get so messed up? He walked in the room trying not to look too down. Riku had promised to help him study for another English test.
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"Okay. So for a hundred dollars, can you give an example of an anagram?" Sora fiddled with his fingers as he tried to come up with an answer. "The clock is ticking..." "Erm...astronomers is an anagram of 'no more stars.'" Riku thought about it a minute before nodding his head. "Was that one in the text book?" Sora shook his head. "Dictionary."
"Now for the question it all comes down to. What is a palindrome?" Sora let his head fall to the desk. "I have no idea..." "Come on Sora, it's the only question you got wrong." "I guess I'll just have to get the others right on the test..." "Wrong."
"A palindrome is text that reads the same forward as backwards." "Eh..." "An example would be the name Anna." Sora lifted his head up. "Wouldn't that be an anagram too?" Riku shook his head. "What kind of word could you make with those letters? Anagrams make other words, remember?" "Oh yea..."
"Okay, I have an idea..." Sora watched curiously as Riku went through his CD collection. He stopped on a CD that had a picture of a man with a poodle on his head. Sora read to himself '"Weird Al" Yankovic Poodle Hat...' "How is that going to help me?" Riku smiled. "Just trust me."
He skipped ahead to a song that was called 'Bob.' Sora looked up quizzically at his friend. The song sounded like gibberish to him. "I dunno..." "Just listen to it." Sora kept to his initial way of thinking. It really must be gibberish. He thought he heard the line may a moody baby doom a yam? When the song ended, Riku looked quite pleased with himself. Although Sora wasn't sure why...It didn't seem to help him in the least bit.
"Sounded like a bunch of random stuff to me." Riku just laughed. "The whole thing was made of palindromes. Come here I'll show you." He took the paper out of the CD cover, and turned through the thing. "We will start with an easy one." He pointed to the line that said Warsaw was raw. Upon further inspection, Sora discovered that there was some logic to the song after all. "Oh!" Riku smirked. "Now he gets it." "Shut up!" "Only trying to help you..." "Where do you get weird music like that anyway?" "Weird Al? I dunno...I think wal-mart. Why do you like him?" Sora shrugged. "I don't know if I could go by one song."
"If you like his music, you would really love his music videos." "Really?" "Of course. When we get back to the island we can watch them sometime." Sora continued to look through the lyrics of the music. The guy must have been insane to write that stuff. But then again...if he went by the name 'Weird Al' that's got to be saying something. "What do you think about Roxas and Axel being together?" "Why?" Sora turned around hoping Riku didn't see the blush that was forming. How did Riku always know exactly what the wrong subject to bring up was? It was like he lived to torture him or something.
"No reason really. It's just that you were kind of blushing a little earlier. A little like you are doing right now." My god, did the guy have to see through everything? "Oh...erm...I think they are great together." "So you don't have a problem with them being gay?" "Not reeeeeally." Riku walked around in front of Sora. He wanted the boy to look at him.
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"And what do you think about me?" Sora's face turned bright red. Bingo. That was the reaction he was waiting for. "You know, an answer would be nice." Yes, soon Sora would be feeling guilty about not answering him. He just hoped he picked the right time to do this. "Y-your my best friend." Riku made sure to look the boy square in the eyes. "Yes..." "I love to be around you...err...you're fun to hang out with." He is evil! Evil! "And and I think you are really attractive..."
Sora couldn't believe what he was saying. He was willingly admitting that he had a thing for Riku. Riku, the guy he grew up with. They never left each others sides...it was so...unreal. Riku flashed a genuine smile. "For a while, I worried that you wouldn't be gay." There was that word again. Gay? Yes, yes he could live with that.
Riku smiled before pushing Sora down on his bed. Sora continued to stay in a state of shock. He then climbed into Sora's lap, allowing his legs to straddle the boys waist. "It's okay to be gay." Sora's eyes widened as he took in the situation. "I-I uhhh..." Riku placed a finger over the shaking forms lips. "Don't be afraid." He kissed Sora lightly on the corner of his mouth. "Embrace it." Sora's body went limp, allowing Riku to do his bidding.
Riku slowly slid his tongue across Sora's jaw line, causing the boy to squirm underneath him. "R-riku!" Riku moved up closer. Dangerously close to Sora's lips. "Mmm?" Sora continued to stare at his friend with wide eyes. He resembled a tree frog a little. "Do you want me to stop?" Sora shook his head. He couldn't believe what he was doing. Or what he was letting Riku do. Riku's grin broadened.
He took a moment to trace Sora's lips with his index finger. The thought of getting to know his friend in a different way was intoxicating. "So at the dance..." Riku was going to play this for all he could get. Sora on the other hand was already breathing heavily. A million thoughts of escaping going through his mind. "Were you drooling because of me?" Sora tried to turn his head away, but found it hard. Riku's hand was holding the back of his head, preventing any movement. Sora mumbled, "you weren't supposed to see that." My god, did the whole school see that?
Sora watched as Riku's features suddenly took on an evil tone. He swore he could almost see a sparkle in the boy's eyes. "I think I'll save our first kiss for a special occasion." Riku climbed off of Sora, and walked over to his closet. Sora felt himself relax a little as the pressure left his body. "What are you up to?" "You'll find out tomorrow." Riku wore a rather mischievous grin. Sora didn't like it. He didn't like it at all.
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Heh, so Sora was kinda talking to himself in his head this go 'round. He's not crazy, I swear. I think everyone has their moments where they argue with themselves like that. I think there will be at least four more chapters after this one. The next chapter is going to be about Sora's point of view on everything, since a lot has happened.