Fruits Basket: Memories
By KyouXKagura

Disclaimer: I do not own Fruits Basket or the characters from which we all know and love.

Running down through the Sohma estate a brunette was hurrying past familiar faces, which begged her to stop and speak to them. No she could stop and talk to them, there was something very important she had to do. After giving her orange cat back-bag away to the local charity store, and torn the plans for the bag, all that was left was for her to get to Hatori's and then write that letter to Kyou… she had to explain to Kyou the reasons for her doing this… there was much more to it than what he would read, but there was parts that Kagura never wanted any one to know.

Seeing the house in sight, she gave up the rest of her strength to get to it and through the front door, ignoring the dragon at first and settling down whilst hovering over his desk… The boar sighed as she picked up the black and orange cat pen… this was it; she had finally decided she was going to do it. She was going to start writing… any minute now. Taking in a deep breath she set the point of the pen to the plain lined paper:

What she wrote was:

Kyou,

Please… when you read this letter don't be angry with me. You have to realise that – if I should stay in this world, I would only be in your way. I don't want to hurt you, yet I always do, I can't control myself… what you need is someone who you can take care of, someone to make yourself responsible for and I can't be that person because I'm too independent and would only feel the need to protect you instead. You also need someone with a kind and gentle heart… and watching you with Tohru lately, I have found that she is the one with that kind and gentle heart. Yes I can say that I'm jealous of her.

So I have decided that I'll go now, but you have to know, that I've thought of you every step I took whilst getting to this stage. You'll probably want to know why I am doing this, well there are many reasons for why I'm doing this, but I'll start with the most obvious – you won't know this, being kept out of the loop but here goes nothing:

Last Monday, 18 April, my mother was in a road accident because of which she passed away. I thought Hatori had told everyone but I had failed to realise that you aren't really part of this 'everyone' I thought of. But two days ago you told me you hated me and didn't want to see me again, and so I knew then that you hadn't been told… would it have made much of a difference if you had known? No… I don't think so. Yes, I am doing this for you too, Kyou.

When I walked in on you and Tohru kissing during last week, soon after mother died, I knew you loved her… jealously and hatred surrounded me and I like Tohru too much for me to ever hurt her. My rage could lead to killing something and I don't want that to be her or even you. You do hurt the ones you love - they say that don't they? Well witnessing that only caused my heart to break and that is the second reason to why I am doing this.

Just promise me – do this as a favour, my last wish – just remember:
That I will always love you.

All I hope for now is that I have a life, which isn't painful, that you can life with your vengeful form and find happiness. I want you to have everything you've ever dreamed of, because that's only right that I do. You must have joy and happiness, and if that is with some other girl – then let it happen. I won't be standing in your way anymore. I wish you love Kyou, learn how to love…

Goodbye – My Kyou-kun

Sohma Kagura

P.S – Oh Kyou, please whatever you do, don't blame Hatori for this. He did this because I asked him, I haven't given him any choice in the matter… if you do blame Hatori then you know I'll never forgive you.

"Kagura." Hatori spoke as he watched her put the letter in an envelope. "Are you ready?" She seemed to have told him what she was planning whilst she was writing the letter. She hoped Kyou would now understand her next action… "And… are you sure?"
"I don't want to be lonely any more." She said to him, turning in his seat towards him, tears trickling down her cheeks. "I don't want to have to pay for all that I've done." She put her head in her hands. "I don't want to have to life a live of heartache." Since her mother was in that accident, she had been very fragile… she lost her father when she was very young – she was always hoping for Kyou to comfort her, she went to him and in return received abuse – which caused her to cry. She had then decided the only way to escape eternal sorrow was to have her memories erased. It was all that she could do, it wasn't like she had gone through all possible roads of action, all just led her to sorrow and heartache so now she was ready…

Hatori looked to the boar, wanting to comfort her but knew better not to.
"Hai, Kagura… what do you want to forget?" The dragon asked. Kagura rose her head, her hands falling back on her lap, her eyes of dark grey, bearing into him with sadness and grief.
"Everything… all that I want to remember is that I'm the boar from the zodiac, the other members of the family that attend the banquet – oh and that I attend Kaibara College. But I do want to completely forget about my parents and most definitely… Sohma Kyou." Hatori's eyes faltered, he was shocked at the last two from the list. He nodded, he could tell that she was in pain and it was now up to him to take that pain away… but it wasn't really fair on him – he was going to have to live with this burden… and be blamed for his actions.

"Alright, Kagura." The older member of the zodiac soothed her as he placed his hand on her forehead. He closed his eyes hoping he wouldn't back away and would just go through with it. As the blinding white light appeared, he gave a sigh – as Kagura's body fell off of the chair, and he caught her. So like Kana and Momiji's mother, Kagura was suffering… silently and ended up with the same fate… to have their memories erased… to forget what made them suffer so much. Hatori held her close, he cried… it had been a while since he last cried; the last time he cried was when he did the same thing to Kana… yet why now? Was he really that close to Kagura?

Hatori picked up the letter he was given from Kagura, after he had put her on the examination table. Maybe… just maybe it wasn't right for Kyou to be given this… he put the letter in his drawer. Kyou wouldn't want to hear all of Kagura's pain… it was going to get harder from now on and now he had to get Kagura to start all over again… all these questions that used to be so easy to answer were now going to get so much harder.